Oh my gosh ! I went to check on Chapter 4 & it only had 2 comments & 12 votes .. And since I have nothing to do , I got frustrated on whether I should write Chapter 5 or just wait until they reach 2 more comments .. But ! My brother took my TV away from me & just got on my laptop ! I'm mad at myself for even updating ! Okay !? Well , enjoy ;
Trigger Warning - starvation included .
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Princeton ;
I walked downstairs wearing a purple v - neck , black skinnies , & black vans . I didn't feel like dressing up or being fancy today , plus purple is Ray's favorite color !! I squealed at my thoughts !
I walked into the kitchen & grabbed an apple . I took a bite out of it & rubbed my eyes. Man , I was still tired . I checked the time on the microwave. 8 : 37. Well , that's an odd number. I rolled my eyes and kept munching on my apple. Yeah , I know it's not a healthy breakfast but who cares !
I'm fat anyways ! If I just stopped eating , maybe Ray would love me ! I mean all the girls he " loved " were skinny ! That's probably why he doesn't love me ! I have a double chin , I have lonjas ( belly rolls , just thought it would sound better in Spanish ! ) & I eat to much ! Gosh ! I'm such a fatass ! Ray doesn't like fatasses ! He likes fat asses ! But not fat people !
I sighed at my thoughts and threw my not finished apple away. I walked into the bathroom and looked into the mirror. I lifted up my shirt and saw it's reflection. My eyes went wide at what I saw. Fat , rolls , and hatred . Wow ! I'm fat ! I only had like a 2 pack but could barely see it.
I looked at myself mad.
' You're such a fatass , Ray doesn't love you ! He doesn't want someone who squishes him , he doesn't want someone who eats a lot , & he clearly doesn't want anyone who will embarrass him in public ! ' I spat at myself. I clenched my teeth and put my shirt down.
' Ray will never love you ! ' I whispered to myself. I was right , if I was skinnier than maybe he would love me ! I smiled and looked over at the toilet. I walked towards it and went to my knees. I lifted the toilet seat up and looked at my reflection in the toilet water. I stuck a finger in my mouth and pushed it down my throat.
I felt my food come up and I closed my eyes. I threw up into the toilet and started breathing heavy. I didn't want to open my eyes , I already knew what was in there. I stuck my finger into my mouth again and threw my food into the toilet.
I wiped the side of my mouth and tasted my puke in my mouth. I sighed and looked in the toilet. I saw some apple peels , I guess they didn't digest . I felt the smell crawl into my nose and quickly flushed the toilet. I covered my nose and got up from the floor.
I brushed my teeth for 5 minutes and mouth washed. I didn't want anyone knowing what I was doing. I sprayed some febreeze and left. Hopefully no one heard ..
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Yep , short as hell . But it's hot as hell right now and I wanna go swimming with my friends . Plus they invited me and I hate canceling things. I will update later so , be patient !
Okay , since you butt nuts didn't want to comment on Chapter 4 . Then I will only need +2 comments and +3 votes. That isn't so hard ! (: