june 28th 2015
today is the day that we begin our 4th of July beach trip. we go on the trip every year, my family and I. today is Sunday and we don't come home until Wednesday, July 8th. longer than usual but I'm okay with it considering I love getting away from my small town.
I live in a small town in Kentucky called Bluebell. everybody knows one another which is good and bad. let's just say I haven't had the easiest life. my dad hasn't been the greatest person in my life. but that's another story for another day.
everybody in this town knows what happened to me, so therefore everyone that's my age judges me. it got to the point in 5th grade where I decided to be homeschooled. the bullying got to me and that was the only other option at that point. I still see the people everyday cause of the small town, but not nearly as much as if I went to school.
I just finished packing my bag. I have all the necessary things that I'm going to need for the week and a half. right now I'm laying on my bed going through social media and texting my friend, Rose.
she's the only friend I have, she's also homeschooled and doesn't have much to do with being social. we spend almost every weekend with each other so I was obviously going to miss her. I'm also listening to music, it's my escape.
nobody really gets me, I pretend to be happy. putting a smile on my face in public, but the only time that I'm really happy is when I'm with my siblings or Rose.
my brother, Chuck. and sisters, Landon and Nora are really the only people that can make me smile. everyone else tries but it doesn't usually work, or they think it does cause I fake a smile but as always, it's fake.
the beach is my escape. away from everyone that knows my secrets and to a peaceful place where I can sit on the beach for hours and read. I also like to have fun as in swimming, and going on the pier at night but I love to read as well.
"Addison!" my mother yells to me. I hate when she calls me that. I prefer Addy. short and simple.
"what?" I yell back. "and don't call me Addison! I prefer Addy" I groan.
"we're leaving soon! come put your bags in the car!" she yells as an answer. I get off my bed saying goodbye as I would miss it while I was gone, pick up my bags and carry them out the front door of my house and to the car.
when I get to the car my step dad, Chad, is standing next to the car to help me put my bags in. Chad is the closest thing I have to a father and he's always been there. unlike my real dad. so I've always appreciated him for that. and I did love him, but we have this game, and if I'm nice to him I lose. my mom says we act like brother and sister cause of the way we are towards one another. she's probably right in all honesty.
"ready for the best beach trip ever to be experienced in your life?" he yells happily.
"sure" I reply dryly knowing damn well I was probably too excited for this trip. I wanted to leave this hell of a town even if it was only for a week.
"ya know, you could say I'm the best step dad ever cause we all know I am" he smirks. damn that smirk to hell.
"I don't have anybody to compare you to, so therefore I can't give you an answer"
"well that automatically makes me the best step dad ever" he says with a smile.
"uh huh"
he probably was the best step dad ever considering he had been there for me when my dad hadn't but I could never tell him that cause then he would win the game and I would get teased about it for the rest of my life.
"when are Landon and her boyfriend gonna get there?" I ask my mom. Landon has a boyfriend named Dylan. they're gonna get married, everybody knows this. but they don't have enough money for a wedding right now so they're holding off for a while.
"they're gonna meet us there today. along with Nora, Chris, Eli, Chuck, and Josie. but Chuck and Josie will be sleeping in the hotel right next to the campground and Nora, Chris, and Eli are staying in there own little camper."
Chris is my sister Nora's boyfriend and they have a son, Eli. He's two. and probably the one thing that can make me the most happiest considering he's literally my little ball of sunshine.
my brother Chuck has his fiancé, Josie, they're going to get married soon but it hasn't happened yet. I don't know why but nobody tells me anything anyway.
"okay, when are we leaving?" I ask.
"soon, are you excited?"
"uh duh, the beach trips are the only thing we do in order to get out of this hell-" I'm cut off.
"language" she says sternly.
"sorry, I mean in order to get out of this small time that I don't necessarily love." I smile devilishly.
"better. and I know you hate it here. I wish people wouldn't have found out about what happened so quick." she says with a frown.
"yeah me too, but it isn't your fault, you tried to save me all times but it was impossible considering the circumstances." I try and comfort her.
"yeah, I guess. I just hope he never gets out of jail." she says
"yeah me too. I don't know what I would do" if my dad ever got out of jail I would probably have one the biggest anxiety attacks I've ever had. not even kidding you.
"come on cheer up, girls! let's get this show on the road!" Chad says entering the kitchen.
"you excited?" she asks laughing.
"just a bit" he laughs back.
"alright! let's go. I'm tired of sitting here playing the waiting game of when we're going to leave." I say ruining the laughing spell.
"okay, Debby Downer, let's go!" my step dad says.
I walk around my house and say bye to my two cats. they're my best friends. always there when I need them. even though they're both bitches and don't like to be touched I make them love me.
I then walk back to my room and make sure I have everything before grabbing my phone from the kitchen and going outside.
I'm wearing my dark brown and blonde, long hair in a high ponytail. and for makeup I only have concealer, powder, mascara, blush, bronzer, and Chapstick. my everyday makeup look. for clothes I have black leggings with a sweatshirt and some vans.
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then get in the car and start our travels to the beach. I put in my earbuds and listen to music to make the trip go faster. seeing the people who know all of my secrets walking around and leaving this town for a while is overwhelmingly exciting for me.
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alright so this chapter is like really crappy but I promise the next one is better just keep reading. thank you.
thanks for reading!! all the love.
-A