On my way home i never expected to see an unwanted visitor. .
" Skye. . Please lets talk. . "
" what is it this time dad? Im busy and i really need to get home. . " i tell him in a veru civil tone
" lets walk together. . " he said
" no dad im not going anywhere with you. . And youre not going home with me. . " i told him off before i got pissed off and tell him things i dont want to say. .
" i just wanted to see if youre ok with your new home. . " he said in a low voice
" as you can see were doing fine dad. . Without you. . " i said. .
Then i walked passed him
how dare he shows up amd talked to me as if were close or anything. .
He. .
He deserves to be treated that way. .
When i reached home i scanned the area to see if he followed me. .
Satisfied that he didnt i locked the door behind me. .
" mom? ?" i called out. .
" im in my room Skye. . " she called back. .
I went thete after dropping my bag in my room. .
She's already preparing to leave for tomorrow. .
" hey i saw dad. . " she stiffened at the word
" where? ?"
" on my way here. . " i said and watched her reaction
" oh did he huh. . "
" mom. . Did you tell him? ? " i asked frankedly
she didt answer. .
" mom dont lie to me. . "
still no answer. .
" did you? ?" i asked her again this time with contempt in my voice
she just nodds but didnt face me. .
I can feel my anger rising up. .
I stoop up. .
" Skye please---- "
I cut her off. .
" dont mom. . Dont talk to me. . If youre just gonna lie again. .you never learn dont you mom. . " o said then walked out of her room and ran away from home. .
I can feel my anger boiling up in me. .
She cant do that right? ?
Just forgive hom like that? ?
After what he did? ?
Thats totally unfair. .
Now its not the time that he must show up. .
He's not welcome anymore. .
Ive been shielding Reign from pain my whole life. . I dont want her experiencing the pain that i did experience before. .
I dont want her to be like me. .
I still dream about it. .
I promise myself that i will be civil to him if ever i see him. .
Im nothing like him. .
Im nothing like him. .
I sat down on one of the benches at the park not so far away from our house but far enough that my mom wont even think that i went here. .
I let out a sigh. .
" wow. . That was deep one. . "
my head snapped at his direction. .
I can recognise that voice anywhere. .
" what are you doing here. ?" i said and looked at the sky. .
" i live just near this street. . About you?" he asked amd sit next to me. .
" none of your business. . " i grumbled. .
He stiffled a laugh. .
" im sorry to interrupt you Skye. . But when i saw you a while ago like you want to kill someone i got worried. . Im sorry. . " he said and dropped his sight on the ground
" its ok Trick. . Im just so mad right now. . " i told him. .
" here. . Ive got this for you. . " he said while handing me a soda in can. .
I smiled gratefully at him. .
" thank you. . " i said and was about to open it when he get it from me. .
" ill do it. . " he shrugged his shoulders then opened the can. .
" thanks again Trick. . " i said when he hand me back the soda
" no problem. " he said and opened his own soda
we drink in silence for a while. .
" you know Skye i have the feeling that you are having a very hard time. . But knowing you. . I know youll do the right thing. . And your friends and i are always here for you so dont worry too much ok. . " he said but not looking at me. .
" thank you Trick. . " its all i can say. .
For a moment there i nearly blurted out my problem. .
But when i looked at him. .
Everything seems so distant. . I forget my worries and i feel lightened up. .
He caught me looking at him but he didnt say anything. .
He just smiled reassuringly and i smiled back. .
Wow. .
Just a moment ago i was so depressed about something and now i feel completely happy and contented with everything. .
Whats with this guy. .
When i reached home that night mom is waiting for me. .
" whete have you been?ive been worried sick. . " she said
I dont want to tell her thongs i know will hurt her. .
" im still not talkong to you. . " i said then went to my room. .
She didnt sau anything after that. .
I feel guilty yes but she have to know that i dont her communicating with my father. . I hate him to the core. .
She must get my message. .
I just want the three of us to be happy and move on. .
And thats not gonna happen if her jerk of a husband is still around. .
And i sleep with a troubled thoughts. .
The next morning i put up with my great mask of being happy. .
Im good at this. . Hiding behind a laughing face. .
I never saw Trick. .
Im hoping that i will. .
Now im in my class with Karin and Khale. .
" hey Skye. . " Karin greeted and sit next to me. .
" hey whats up? " i said
" im fine. . " she said
" you dont look fine to me. . " i frankly said
she just looked at me as if she'll burst onto tears any time soon. .
" what happened Karin? "
" we broke up. . "
I sigh what can i tell her? Ive never been in a relationship and im not a good adviser when it comes to that aspect. .
" im pregnant Skye. . "
that made me yell. .
" what?!! And he has the nerve to broke up with you?!! What ajerk!! "
she cried on my shoulder until my uniform gets drenched. .
" i love him Skye. . I loved him so much. . " she wailed
everybody in our room is looking at us. .
Damn it!!
I looked at Khale who's quietly nodds his head and i told Karin that we'll skip class for a while. .
When we reached a place where we can talk privately she said. .
" im sorry you have to skip because of me. . "
" hey youre my friend. . Its worth it. . Just cry ok?it will help you release some stress so we can think clearly ok? ? " i said and startef stroking her back. .
Its one of the reasons why i wont commit. . Im afraid of getting hurt. . I know i wont survive it. .
Im too smart for this. .
I wont let myself suffer things like this. .
Im gritting my teeth thinking of the guy who did this to Karin. .
When thought drifted yo Trick. .
What will he do? ?
Will he take full responsibility or ran away like the jerk guy. .
I shook my head. .
Trick is different. . Maybe not perfect but different. .
Now im vouching for him!!!
Who am i kidding? ?
Im making excuses for him!!!
Ugh!!
Im not making any sense here!!!
I just let Karin cry for a while she badly needs someone to cry on. .
She's too young for this. .
I saw Khale walking towards us. .
He talked to Karin. . Telling her things about how great it is to have a child. .
I swear i saw another side of Khale and its very nice. .
He's giving Karin a boost in self confidence. .
Advice that i know i cant say out loud. .
We took her to the school clinic so she can rest. .
She's emotionally stressed right now. .
We never talked about it. .
Instead he lightened the atmosphere with stories about his quest in his career on stage. .
I was laughing so hard while walking to my locker with Khale when someone grabbs my hand. .
" Trick. . "
he held my hand tightly. .
" what are doing dude? " Khale said
" nothing i was about to go home anyway. . " Trick said
whats his problem? ?
" yeah so why are you holding Skye? ?" Khale said and was about to step forward to get me. .
" were going home together. . " Trick said and dragged me along. .
My mind went blank. .
What exactly happened? ?
I saw Khale looking confused at us.
But i never breathed a word. .
Never when he ran and i ran. .
When he walked and half jogged i did the same. .
I didnt complained. .
When we reached the park where we saw each other the other day he stopped and catched his breath. .
Still holding me tightly. .
I did the same. .
He turned and faced me. .
" sorry. . " he breathed out the word
" why did you do that? What were you thinking? ? " i asked
he sat on the grass and hid his face with his hand. .
" i dont know. . "
I sit next to him. .
" ok. . "
Its fine as long as its him its fine. .
" do you like Khale? ?I mean i wont be surprised if you do. . He's handsome and-------- "
" and i dont like him. . I dont like his type. . Ill never fall for his type. . " i cut him off. .
" really?" he asked disbelievingly
i jist nodded at him. .
" wow this will be the first. . " he said almost to himself. .
" trust me i dont fall for a guy that easy. . "
yeah right!! I didnt why i said that. . Because when i met Trick i know thats a lie. .
Because i fall for him over and over again effortlessly. .
" you are not most girls Skye. . " he said
i just smiled at him. .
If you only knew Trick. .
If you only knew. .
" hey ive found where to find that non existing phone that you want. . " i told him. .
He sat bolt upright!!!
" really? "
I smiled wickedly at him. . .
Next thing i know is that he's jumping with joy and shouting how good and cool i am. .
I smiled and watched hom with contentment. .
I remembered Karin. .
What if ill get hurt? ?
What if i ended up like mom? ?
He looked me and smiled. .
Amd just like thaty fears disappeared. .
Its worth it. .
He patts my head. .
He's all worth it. .