Brie's Pov
I left him with a devious smile appearing on his face.. just as i thought he's the type of a guy who doesnt want to lost his PRIDE on a woman who currently makes him feel miserable but i dont think that's the case after all he said that he's just playing around my innocence
Im on my way to my class now but seems like i just cant find myself being focus on it .. So i just packed my things up and went home
I dropped my bag on my bed and flunk to it i still feel the burden that im carrying inside
Did i over reacted ? Its just a Date but i acted like i disgust him .. Why am i so worried it doesnt have sense ...
" are u kidding me ? Me ? Fallen in love with u what kind of pathetic speech is that ? HOW CAN I FALL IN LOVE with an ARROGANT BASTARD LIAR PLAYBOY like you "
Those words it slipped out of my tongue what in the world i just said i think i lost all the confidence that he have been holding to change
It started.. my tears are falling the guilt that im feeling inside is overwhelming my entire mind i shouldnt feel faulty after all i dont have a plan on loving and making him fall in love with me anyways on this way he wont have hopes and find his limitation if i hold it right now he wont expect anything for tomorrow
But those words will ruin his everyday life
(knock) (knock)
The sound of the door thug stop me from sobbing i wiped my tears away and got up
" Who is it ? "
I asked before i pull the door knob im currently holding
" uhm.. Noona its me "
A sweet and gentle voice stop me from turning the knob i lean at the door and quietly listen to his deep breathing .. I know he wanted to fix all the problem and misunderstanding that he encountered with me especially the incident with Zion
" Noona i know youre not ready yet i just want you to know that i already stop all the nonsense im doing .. "
He keeps on releasing big sigh and his voice its trembling it almost giving me a feeling that he's at the edge of his emotion
I cant open this door and let him see me crying and above all i dont want him to know that its about Zion
" You know what Noona ? Your love and support it encourage me .. I know right from my heart that there is someone that still believes on me despite all the Trouble that i have done "
I want to hug him but i guess the guilt that im feeling gets a lot more heavier
" Noona ? Are u crying ? Okay ? I wont disturb you for now.. I miss you and Goodnight "
He finally give up on me i walk away from the door when i hear his footsteps slowly fading i walk straight to my bed and lie down im now facing the plain pink celling that copes up with the entire madness of the night making my feelings inside get worse .. Its pushing my mind to think about the mistakes that i have done
" You know what Noona ? Your love and support it encourage me .. I know right from my heart that there is someone that still believes on me despite all the Troubles that i have done "
That's the exact opposite thing that i stole from Zion
Shit the water works gone wrong again this reaction im feeling its a lil bit too much
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~ You know I’ll be
Your life
Your voice
Your reason to be
My love
My heart
Is breathing for this
Moment
In time
I’ll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
My phone Ringtone wakes me up
Its 6 am in the morning and stella is calling me .. Did i just cry myself to sleep ? Tch. How stupid of me .. I let out a smile and answer Stella's Call
" WELL !!! finally you freaking answer the DAMN PHONE ! "
She yelled i knew it i shouldnt answered it
" What is it sis ? Its too early just relax and Drink Coffee "
I said sheepishly acting so hard to sound cutely to lowered her anger
" Dont give me that tune where were you yesterday you make me worried sick ! "
My eardrums its aching she keeps on screaming on the other side
" Sorry i just dont feel well yesterday but dont worry im fine now i meet you at school "
I answered her calmly and turn off the phone
I fold my blanket and start stretching up i prepared a hot water for a warm bath and start cleaning the entire room
I start sweeping the floor first then wipe the dust on my wall and every gap that i saw
Its past 7 am when im done doing my chores .. This is the right way to stop myself from thinking the whole situation yesterday
I take my uniform out from the closet and start heating up the water again it doesnt take so long since its already kind of warm
Im finally done preparing myself i went downstairs to cook breakfast
I was taken a back when i saw a back of a man at the kitchen i smell the tasty aroma of pancake , bacon and egg
My baby bro is cooking he greeted me Good Morning and smile at me along side with his cute hello kitty apron that i bought last month
I smile to him as well and hug him from the back i want to take the awkward atmosphere that describes by his cute lip curve awhile ago
I grabbed the plate of bacon and eggs and put it on the top of the table while he's boiling some water for our coffee
I ready the plate utensils and maple syrup and take the pancakes as well
I already sit on my chair facing the chair he always sit on and wait for him to bring the cups of coffee he made .. Im proudly looking at him so mature and caring right now
" What's with that look noona ? Youre creeping me out "
He said smiling after he placed the cup of coffee in front of me
" Nothing .. Its been 3 weeks since we fought and cut the communication between us "
I take a sip at the coffee and look at him directly on his eyes his eyes told me all the emotion he have right now its a little bit teary and so helpless its making my feet to walk to him and hug him
I hold his hand that shaking and currently holding a utensil that he cant seem to move
" Past is past youre my brother and loving you is not my Choice its destined .. You know i cant stay mad at you "
He look up on me while tears are streaming down his face he wipe it using the back of his hand he still acting so cool and manly in front me as if i dont know that he's a total crybaby
I got up from my sit and walk closer to him
" aw ? Somebody miss me "
I said in a teasing tune he give me a what look but suddenly fade after he let out a deep manly giggle i start tickling him like the old days he is laughing out loud on his seat while blocking my hand from touching his tummy and sides
It all stopped when he grabbed me on the waist and hug me his face is on my belly his arm is around my waist i wrapped my arm around his head and kiss him on his forehead he look up on me
" I miss you Noona .. Im sorry "
I just hug him for a minute and continue eating our breakfast
He drove me to school and even carry my bag to our classroom
He bid his goodbye and run away to his class
RECESS !
" Seems like you and your brother are in good terms now "
Shane flash me her popular eyesmile she pass me a sandwich that she keeps on struggling to peal out the plastic
" Yes i we are ! And how weak are you Shane ? "
I ripped off the plastic as soon as i hold it
" You have no class Sis ! You just cant Ripped it like that ! "
She give me a disgust look i just shake my head and brush up my hair with my bare hands
" Dont mind her she's nonsense "
Stella said coldly and smile fakely to Shane that turn to face her
" Oh my God did you know Zion asked me out "
I hear someone squealing at the other table
" Oh my gosh ! He's so hot ! And even if he's a playboy you still hit the jackpot girl ! "
The other girl yelled
I feel taken down he doesnt want to change just as i thought i grabbed my bag and stand up
" anything wrong ? Where are u going ? "
Stella asked
" Just going to fix myself at the comfort room ill be back "
I quickly walk away and find him i know i should talk to him but out my luck i saw the guy who harass me and get beaten by Zion and Toff last time i decided to change my way i walk at the back of the building so that he wont see me
" Hm.. No microphones here so i think i can trust you "
I heard someone giggling along with a kissy sound and right there at the corner of the wall a couple are kissing
I walk along trying to ignore them
" Tch. "
That arrogant voice i know where it came from
" Ronnie ? "
He smirk at me while licking his lower lips .. He's the guy who's kissing a girl awhile ago he walk away from her and walk closer to me
" what a coincidence ? Or is it ? "
He said with an arrogant tune he hold my chin and he move his face closer to me he move his nose left to right with mine
I push him away he crossed his arms and raise his left eyebrow with an evil glare
" Wow a Student Council president .. I dont know youre such a slut ? "
The girl yelled at me she walk closer to zion and put her arms on his shoulder
" Look who's talking ! Shut up ! Im already bored with you.. Can you please leave us alone "
He glared at her that send her away she rolled her eyes on me and give me a middle finger salute
" That bitch ! What are you doing here ? "
He asked
" Dont worry im educated enough to fight with her .. As for you and me with need to talk ! "
I grabbed his hands and was about to drag him but he grip mine instead and stop me from doing it
" Is it about the situation yesterday ? "
I gulp out from nowhere and nod slowly
" Im just playing around i told you dont make it such a big deal ! "
He's laughing again
" No i know youre not lying last time i know that u like me "
He release my arms from his hand
" Wow ? That's so .... Brie did u hear what you just said ? You sound pathetic ! I can make it possible if u want to ! But yeah im only a one night stand "
He's right i sounded like im assuming something from him
" I just thought i stop you from changing "
I said softly but he laugh once more
" Damn ! Youre a pain , if there's anyone here who need to change its you Brie ! Youre a Fucking Old soul youre too nai... "
I slap him right away he's way too much
" You know what i cant sleep last night thinking that i owe something from you and i thought you need someone to support you but damn youre nothing but a Perfect Liar ! "
I push him away my tears are streaming down my face i feel embarrass i think i lost my dignity and completely fallen to his lies he stare at me with his teary eyes i feel like he want to take me on his arms right now
" i dont need you ! Get out of my Damn Life ! "
He sound hesitating.. shit ! no more i wont be fooled by his actions that doesnt match the tune of his voice along side with his DAMN LIES if he want me to believe on his lie then
GAME ON !