Zion's POV
I already stop my wrong doings for the past three weeks after i get beaten by Toffie .. I just cant keep thinking about brie though it seems really hard to finally admit that there's a girl that i definitely like and im pretty sure that im not confuse or anything
This feeling it trembles through my body my heart is shivering in pain and nervousness i know that someone like me shouldnt be trusted but after all im just a person and i wanted to be loved
Im currently lying on my bed having deep thoughts that i shouldnt be thinking about but i cant help it i think i like her already and yes maybe i should make the first move
I grabbed my notebook and started doing my assignments trying to get her out of my mind
My instinct is right this is admiration ..
" somebody had a good day awhile ago "
I stare at the open door where the source of the VOICE came from it's from my mom she give me this thoughtful and delight smile that makes my mood even lighter
She walks closer to me and take a glance on my notebook she wrapped her arms around my neck hugging me from behind
" Brieanna Den "
She giggled she pinch both of my shoulder and pat it .. She look down on me and give me this teasing smile
" what mom ? "
I look up on her and said those words with an annoyed tune but then she started tickling my sides until i let out a childish laugh
She stopped and smile at me she hold my face and bow down to bring it closer to her i flash a confuse and yet simple curve on my lip indicating the word " what's the matter " but then she release from holding it and hug me once more i wanted to say a word to her but after i feel a drop of tears fall at the back of my shirt my helpless hands automatically wrapped it around her i caress her back moving my hands up and down to make her feel well and stop her from sobbing
After a minute from letting out her emotions she make distance between us and mess with my hair
" Whoever she is Im happy that she can make you smile "
She said and wink at me she kiss my cheeks and bid her Goodnight she smile at me once more before she closed the door
My tears let out seems like my tear ducts are broken seeing my mom smile even though the trace of tears is still on her face .. I cant help but to be guilty about all the pain and embarrassment i keep on giving her nonstop cried from all the girls that i played with , orders from the council office and meetings with the supervisors im really giving her too much pain
And Brieanna Den how did she know that she's not some girl i will toyed with well she's my mom after all i let out a big sigh and pull my hair
I know right from here ill stop this confuse feelings and stop all the doubts
.........................
NEXT MORNING
I wake up with the sound of the alarm messed up my entire sleep i got up and start fixing my bed and go towards the bathroom at the corner of my room im still half asleep as i turned the knob of the shower and let the water pour into my body the cold splashes awakes me
I turn it off in shock and damn im still on my Pjs i stripped off and start taking a bath again .. I forgot that its hard to fall asleep when youre admiring someone .. Tch. How should i know ? I take a bath with some random thoughts alluring my mind
After im done i grabbed my uniform and start wearing it in front of the mirror this is not so me but i got this feeling that i want to impress her i take my gel at the small drawer in my closet and start fixing my hair i did a lot of tricks to find a perfect style
Finally i decided to brush it up with a distinct line at the side of my head i ended up getting contented about it i smile and flash a wink at my reflection i bit my lip trying to hold my laughter
I get my backpack and hung the strap at my right shoulder i just let the other one loose
Finally im done .. I go downstairs and bid a goodbye to my mom i went to the garage and open my car i start the engine and fix the front mirror and somehow i realize how much i put a lot of effort this day i hope i can really depend on her and hope she will trust me
I go to the nearest flower shop and bought a tulip with a long stem
" giving it to someone special ? "
The old lady which is the vendor asked me as soon as she handled the flower to me
" kind of .. But for friendship only "
I scratch my head out of the embarrassment i have no choice than to say it or else she will tease me she take the flower and start tying a yellow ribbon on it
" that's a bonus i really hope that she wont get disappointed .. "
My eyes widen as soon as she said those words she flash an innocent smile
" if youre ready confess as soon as possible you never know maybe she already waiting for you to pop the question "
She put her right hand on my shoulder the other one is covering her mouth while giggling cutely in front of me .. This old woman is making me blush i said thank you already and drove on my way to school
I fix everything balloons , rose petals and all i need to do now is to be proper mannered towards the entire conversation its really obvious that im a scaredy cat in front of her
I went to there classroom but i only spotted shane and stella i asked them where she is but they dont know the answer .. I went at at the cafeteria but no good as well and finally at the hallway
I saw her walking around there with a lost expression on her face she looks like she's having a deep thoughts i just cant help but to disturb her in order to stop the madness and nervousness im feeling
And there goes i stutter again AF but somehow i manage to let her meet me at the rooftop now all i need is to asked her out im so excited and shameful towards my action i manage to calm myself and go to the cafeteria where i spotted jay and dash awhile ago
" Ron ? Are you alright ? "
Dash pinch my face and look at me with a confuse face
" Yes i am "
I answer him coldly he take a sip on his cola
" so ? Why are you not eating ? And where have you been all this entire day u didnt attend to hours of our class "
Jay said while cutting his sandwich in a triangular shape
" Hunting ? Im getting out of league im way too behave this past weeks right ? "
I exclaimed and munch the chips i bought i just give them a calm and confident smile
" youre up to something but we wont investigate it for now "
Dash murmur almost got choke on his burger
We wasted our break time arguing about the thing that i keep in secret cause really if i let this 2 involve it will make everything worst
Our conversation ended up by us decided to separate
Now all i have to do is to wait for her arrival
MEANWHILE
And there she goes looking around wearing a confuse face she feels uneasy but smiling
Thats when i thought i have a chance and can pass through the entire conversation she also mention the yellow ribbon thing and out of my imagination she asked the meaning of it
I am stun at the moment that i just agree about the friendship thing her smile makes me feel at ease i really thought that i will end the conversion right there but seems like nervousness is taken over me the eagerness and the feeling that im way too comfortable right in front of her makes me reveal my feelings but then a sudden turn of events she wont go out on a date with me
How should a playboy know the pain of a heart break? It is really fast i feel really stupid for my actions when she said she cant my feelings turn numb all the preparation i have done flash back in my mind
She is trying to make me understand about the whole situation but i lied to her once more i make her think that its all just a game
That's the worse lie i have ever told i know right in that time IT WAS A WRONG MOVE
" I really hope that When u fall in love theyre not like those shitty girls or a GIRL who cant believe u no more "
Those are the words that makes my feeling a lot more worse .. I just cant help myself but to yell out some nonsense at her trying to build up my PRIDE
Hmp. This is all just a mistake im a playboy and always be a LIAR to anyone
AND I DONT REGRET ANY OF IT