As soon as my mom came home she rushed upstairs to my room and barged right in for the first time since I was a little girl. I remember that day like it was yesterday...
"MOMMY! MOOOOOMMY! MOO-" my screeching was abruptly interrupted with my bedroom door being violently swung open followed by my moms face of terror bursting in.
"What on earth!" she exclaimed terrified at the sight of a stapler on the floor next to me and my index finger with a staple going right through it. I remember it didn't hurt at all but just seeing how it went through my skin was scary, That and the fact that the stupid staple wouldn't come out. Now when I think back on that day its kind of funny to me. My mom has always been there for me, she has been a Mother, father, doctor and always my hero. I guess that's why as soon as she popped into my room this time I recognized the hurt look plastered on her face. It was then that the guilt came right over me, I realized that I had betrayed her in the worst of ways,
"Mom I'm sorry!" I yelled across the room at her as I stood in front of the mirror only in my sweats and sports bra analyzing my body. I ran towards her and hugged her tightly autmatically feeling secure in her embrace, a deep sigh escaped me and she hugged me tighter. My ear was pressed directly on her heart and I could hear its rapid tempo slow down and her breathing become relaxed a bit. I could stay in her arms forever and feel safe, without a worry or care in the world.
My mom finally came around to speaking after what seemed like hours and asked "How did this happen?". I knew that was something I wasn't suppose to answer since I'm sure she already had an idea of how it happen, And then followed "Are you sure?".
"I-I think s-so" In case you didn't know I sort of have this thing where I stutter every time I'm nervous or lying probably why I suck at keeping secrets or being confronted about things. " I mean I'm not sure real-"
"Have you taken a test?" This time a high pitch took over her voice.
"Um y-yes-s I took one" I started to feel my face going red now. This is unbelievable, I never thought I would be having this conversation with my mom this soon in life.
For a quick second I saw her face brighten up as if I still had hope and in a blink of an eye her expression went blank, no emotion at all. Her eyes were looking straight at my stomach, by the look on her face I could have sworn she was going to faint. The life was drained out of her voice when she spoke again "I'll schedule an appointment with my OB/GYN"
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So after two trips to the drug store with my mom, chugging one whole gallon of water in just a few minutes and 100 trips to the restroom I'm left with three positive tests, 3 negative, and 3 unsure. I just couldn't believe my luck.
Despite the fact that my mom felt devastated at the moment she made me my favorite, Fettuccine Alfredo. I ate every last bit of pasta and was feeling a little exhausted at the end, my mom insists on saying that its the pregnancy of course I cant say no since mother knows best right...
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I ended up missing a whole week of school since the day I told my mom about my small mistake, though she still doesn't know exactly how it happened and I don't plan on telling her just yet, Maybe I'll tell her when I give birth to it. I wasn't worrying about it right now, I had other things to worry about... Michael.
Today was it. The day that I went back to school and if I don't get cold feet it is also the day I tell him that in 9 months ill be pushing out a human being.
To greet me at the school entrance today was Grizzie, Something I admired about her was that she could sprint with any size heels on, I could barely walk in them for crying out loud "Slow down Grizzie I don't want to spend first period searching for your teeth after you fall on you face" She giggled and hugged me ever so tightly, I did miss her, I missed her like crazy. She practically screamed in my face when I told her why I had missed the first week of school. I was surprised Amy hadn't told her yet but I was glad she didn't, Grizzie isn't so good at keeping secrets and by now she would have told Michael.
When I took in what Griz looked like today I have to admit I totally envied her, She was looking absolutely gorgeous with her short black dress and red pumps, her always perfectly curled black hair and astonishing porcelain skin. She never needed to wear make up to look pretty, all she ever wore was liquid eyeliner and chap stick. Her beauty was astounding, and yet she didn't have a boyfriend. Smart one.
"Ew no Griz take that off its hideous!" I joked making her giggle and lock her arm with mine so we could walk in the school together. Just as we made our way through the double doors I caught sight of a tall muscular boy stalking a blonde blue eyed cheerleader named Stacy, and all of a sudden anger boiled inside me threatening to break the happy go lucky facade I'd been trying to pull ever since he broke up with me for not sleeping with him again just days after my birthday. Grizzie knew only half of the story and sooner or later she was going to make me tell her exactly why he and I broke up.
Stacy gasped as she caught sight of me and looked me up and down as if I were some kind of animal she had never seen in her life, to be honest she made me feel really self conscious about my self. There she stood next to the schools hottest jerk in her size zero cheerleader uniform and perfect blonde waves, she didn't even have to wear panty hose to make her legs look nice. I absolutely hate her guts. Michael only took a brief second to look at me and completely ignored me as we walked passed them. Man whore.
"Just ignore them, shes a slut and hes a jerk who's going to regret doing this to you" Griz said in attempt to make me feel better which wasn't really working right now.
Her phone started beeping and she pulled it out of her chest making me laugh a little."I had no idea you still had room in there to stuff your phone inside" I giggled and caught a glimpse of her eyes rolling dramatically at my remark.
"Its Amy, shes by the office and for some reason she seems excited about it and wants us over there asap" she said as she tugged on me harder than needed towards the school office. On our way there my own phone buzzed inside my sweaty hand, the screen read Michael and for a brief moment I got a little excited, and then reality sunk in again and I prepared myself for whatever the text said but as I was debating on ignoring it or reading it Griz gasped making my curiosity flare and my gaze follow the direction where she was staring in complete aw.
As soon as I caught sight of him my whole world stopped, everything froze in place, it felt as if there was no gravity holding me down. At the same time his eyes fixed on mine, and I felt a burning sensation travel from my toes up to the last hair on my head. My hands got sweatier by the Milli second and I thought I might even faint. Never in my life has a total stranger had that effect or anything similar to what this mysterious blue eyed guy made me feel. I might even seem like a total loony or like I'm exaggerating this mind blowing moment but I'm not.
All of a sudden he smirked and looked down at some sheets of paper in his hands but that didn't stop me from staring my ass off at him. A tiny hand was snapping its fingers in my face and then just like pressing play everything unfroze and I noticed Amy standing directly in front of me rambling on about someone with a short attention span which I assume is me. "Huh?" I questioned snapping myself out of it and focusing on the little red head.
"His name is Daniel, 17 years young, hes a Virgo, his favorite color is blue and he is totally gorgeous." Amy ranted with a wicked grin plastered on her face. Stalker much, I thought to myself. For some reason I felt jealous all of a sudden and that was not good. I didn't even know the guy and I was already marking my property like a dog. So not me.
"Damn, look at that ass. OMG, I wonder if hes single?" Griz said with an index finger in her mouth trying to be a tease "Oh hell na, I don't even care if hes taken or not." she finished off starting to head his way in the most seductive manner moving her hips from side to side making her look ridiculously jaw dropping sexy.
"Wait! What are you doing?" I screeched finally able to speak again.
She stopped in her tracks and looked at me then smiled sweetly "I'm making my move before someone beats me to it, duh" with a wink she went back to concentrating on her cat walk. The guy leaning on the wall now next to the counselors door snapped his gaze to the beauty walking towards him, and automatically started grinning just a evilly as Amy did a minute ago which was kinda creepy. When she got to him I could see them start a conversation immediately so instead of watching them flirt with each other I decided it was time to go empty out my bladder, I couldn't believe how much I had to pee lately, just this morning I went three times before driving to school. "I'll see you later I gotta go um, I gotta go to my locker." I didn't feel too comfortable talking about my pregnancy symptoms just yet, I guess I was still in denial. Who can blame me, I'm sixteen for petes sake, and yet most people would say "I'm sure being sixteen didn't stop you from having sex now did it?" And thats why i've decided not to bug anyone with my bladder problem at the moment. Amy wasent even paying attention to me, I guess she was too busy watching the cocky one flirt her ass off since all she managed to say was "Mhmm okay" without looking at me once.
Whatever, I thought to myself as I started walking away towards the hallway adjacent to where Griz was and as much as I told myself I would not turn to look at them but we all know that was going to be impossible. Of course I tried not to make it obvious so I pretended to be interested on a poster hanging right beside them but when I turned to look at the Flu Shot Season poster I noticed form the corner of my eye that the guy was already looking directly at me and I couldn't help but redirect my gaze towards his and again as soon as our eyes met I felt that same sensation all over again until I crashed into someone and I was snapped out of my trance.
"Why haven't you texted me back?" Crap, the person I least wanted to see "Your mom called last night and told me that there was something you needed to talk to me about, did you tell her we broke up 'cus I don't wanna be getting calls from her no more. Were over Julez." what an asshole, is he serious right now, wow.
"You have some damn nerve you know that!" I couldn't believe what a complete ass he was making of himself for the billionth time "And yes she knows were more than over you jerk, so before you go ape shit on me you need to get your facts straight." holy cow, I just went from love struck, to bitch in less 30 seconds "oh! and yes we do have to talk, we have to talk about how your going to pay me child support for the next 18 years!" I regretted saying it as soon as it left my mouth, but it was bound to happen anyway, it was something I couldn't and wasn't going to run away from. With my meanest death glare I walked away with my head held up high not caring about what he had to say in response.
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My phone was maniacal during all of first and half of second period up until I decided to put it on silent instead of turning it off since I'm sure that by the time I turned it back on it would do exactly the same thing.
It was real hard for me to concentrate on anything Mr. Hall was teaching us, it was like a skipping record I only caught onto a couple of the words coming out his mouth, square root of something was something else, and the sum of blah, blah, blah. That was it, that was all I could make of today's Algebra lesson, which only made me oh so excited about receiving a progress report in the mail any time soon. Like my mom doesn't have enough to worry about, all thanks to me. I'm the worst daughter aren't I, of course I am.
" Ms. Rodriguez, I'm sure you would love to come up and demonstrate how to solve the problem on the board for your classmates?" Mr. Hall called my name snapping me out of thought, and it was no mystery that I had no idea what he was teaching so I was practically screwed. Every head in the room was facing me and I couldn't help but feel even more self conscious then usual and of course my paranoia made me feel like they weren't staring at me, but more like staring at my bloated stomach once I stood up from behind my desk. What was the point of making a total idiot of myself by going up to where Mr. Hall was standing pretending I knew what to do with all that gibberish.
"Screw it, its not like your calling on me because I was paying so much attention to your boring ass class, so might as well mark me as absent on your stupid attendance book 'cus I'm leaving." I huffed out of breath already. This baby is gonna kill me, I cant even talk anymore without feeling like someone knocked the wind out of me. I grabbed my stuff and stalked away wishing my swollen feet could go any faster, though it wasn't like the old man was going to chase after me but I couldn't stand being stared at any longer. I honestly hate that kind of attention, sure I love to get all dressed and dolled up but that's a girl thing, and I don't do it for attention I do it because I like feeling pretty.. just not at the moment. Today all I did was put my hair up in a messy bun and was wearing bright red basketball shorts and a white tank top I borrowed from my moms closet this morning, my white flats with the red bow accompanying my bummy outfit. Amy thought I looked cute as hell this morning even though I explained to her that just because I color coordinated my trashy outfit doesn't mean its cute, I didn't even do my make up.
As I wandered the halls my mind was also wandering far, far away now. Thought after thought swam its way into my head without me having any control of it whatsoever, I was officially in zombie mode now. I thought about all the weight gain that has occured in only a month and a half into the pregnancy, i'd already gained four pounds. My back is currently killing me, I feel like someone used it as a trampoline and jumped violently on it non stop, not to mention my feet, there more swollen than my toung was the time I pierced it for my 15th birthday. I seem to always make bad choices for my birthday, wonder what i'll do when I turn 21... THUMP- Second time today I smash into someone and its only 10am, great.
"Wow, I'm so sorry. I guess I shouldn't walk and text either huh.." I was too busy picking up my belongings which fell out of my purse thanks to this douche 'Here let me help you" yea whatever I thought to myself. "Aren't you suppose to stare into my eyes romantically like in the movies right about now?" his comment made me giggle and look up at him. Once again taken by surprise a gasp slipped my parted lips "There you go, are you in drama class cus that was great" he smirked letting a single dimple come into full view.
My God, he is so hot.
He gave me a cocky smile all of a sudden accompanied by a "Wow, I'm flattered" OMG did I just say that out loud, I'm such a creeper, how embarrassing, I could feel my face heat up like crazy. "Names Daniel by the way- and thanks for the compliment, though I do prefer the term handsome." he finished off.
For a moment I had no idea if this was real anymore due to the embarrassing moment I just had, but then I was finally able to pull my thoughts together "Um, I'm Jul-"
"Julie, I know" he interrupted smiling sweetly at me like he knew me already making me feel completely confused at this point "your friend did me the great favor of telling me your name a while ago, I was going to introduce myself but I assume you were in a hurry since you left real fast".
I hope all she told him about me was my name... The lunch bell rang just then making me jump a little, but happy for some distraction. Maybe he will leave now so all this awkwardness can end already. "Hm, lunch! Better get going!" I said as I tried to get passed him not being successful since he had great reflexes and stopped me in my tracks.
"Nice try, but your too pretty for me to let you go that easily" Daniel smiled trying be persuasive which worked and i gave in completely. "That's more like it, so where do you wanna go for lunch?" He asked raising a single brow and doing that half smile I'm liking so much. Because I was heading towards the exit by the parking lot there was no way in hell I was going to convince him I was going to the cafeteria.. Ewww, cafeteria food- gross.
"Im dieing for a big mac?" like hell I was, but first I think I should make a quick run to the restroom before I pee my pants. He noticed my hesitation and as if reading my mind he said "I need a bathroom break first" then with a wink he started walking towards the english wing that was just around the corner. This could not get any wierder...
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