3:14 PM
Stop staring at me, Faulkerson.
3:20 PM
You've been doing it the whole day. Stop. I mean it.
3:22 PM
Hindi ka na galit? :) :) :) :)
3:24 PM
I don't get mad at people.
3:25 PM
If I were in front of you last night you would have cut my balls off
3:26 PM
What you saw is just an outburst. Sorry. Won't happen again
3:28 PM
Okay lang na magalit sa akin, Mendoza, when I'm being stupid.
3:30 PM
Stupid? You? What a joke.
3:34 PM
I might be gifted in academics and I understand people, but not all of them.
3:35 PM
I know. I'm hard to understand.
3:35 PM
I didn't mean it that way!
3:45 PM
I'm used to it anyway, Faulkerson. Okay lang talaga. I'm fine with it.
3:50 PM
Mendoza... :(
3:52 PM
The sad face doesn't suit you, Faulkerson. Get over it.
3:58 PM
Can I drive you home?
4:10 PM
Yes.
11:43 PM
You're quiet the whole drive.
11:57 PM
I'm sorry. I was just tired the whole day. Hindi ko kasi na-take 'yung vitamins ko this morning so I had no energy at all.
12:08 AM
How hard it is, Mendoza?
12:12 AM
This doesn't happen often, so I don't know. Medyo lutang lang ako kaninang umaga.
12:15 AM
How hard it is to say that you're so disappointed in me and in what I did?
12:17 AM
I'm not.
12:20 AM
You obviously are.
12:22 AM
Okay, a little bit. Ayoko lang talagang sabihin because I don't think you're used to people who say they're disappointed in you since, well, everything you do is perfect.
12:25 AM
But I messed up bigtime and of all people I offended, it's you.
12:29 AM
I'm fine with it, Faulkerson. I told you. Okay lang.
12:32 AM
Parang labas sa ilong 'yung okay lang.
12:34 AM
Ano bang gusto mo? Labas sa ngala-ngala? Atay? Balun-balunan? I'm not one of those emo girls who say they're okay when they're not. I don't need to lie. I'll say my feelings out loud if needed.
12:37 AM
I guess I wasn't enough for you to be honest with me.
12:40 AM
What?
12:42 AM
Stop lying, Mendoza. You're a person. It's okay.
12:45 AM
I'm not getting any of this.
12:50 AM
Hindi mo nagegets o ayaw mo lang igets?
12:52 AM
Why wouldn't I want to arrive at your point?
12:54 AM
Oh, well, maybe something that sounds like defense mechanism?
12:55 AM
Defense mechanism for?
12:56 AM
People.
3:09 AM
At 3:07, Nicomaine Mendoza, when most people are afraid because of the movie Conjuring, your face popped into my head and I instantly smiled.
Yes, I am thinking about you right now. And I'm... kinda... smiling uncontrollably as I think of you. Please don't find me creepy. Seriously, I've been searching all my encyclopedias why I'm like this and found nothing. I'd patiently wait for your nut to crack.
3:12 AM
I'm not the sweet kind of person, and I sometimes say the wrong words... but my silent shoulder is all that I can offer. You can trust me, Mendoza - always. We'd do the trusting part slowly. You'd trust me with your words, your thoughts...
... and then yourself.
So we'd be fair because I already am.
Just me and my three am thoughts of you. Don't worry. It's nothing perverted.
3:20 AM
Ps. I have those thoughts around twelve midnight