Hello again my readers. I think this is a chapter that we have all been waiting for.
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I couldn't believe what I was hearing right now. There was no way that I was this heir to the throne or whatever. I bet I couldn't even lead this pack. How the hell did she expect me to lead all supernaturals.
I got up and ran out the door. This was really too much. How could I lead? I wasn't cut out for that kind of stuff. Who'd ever listen to a fat,sixteen year old. Gahd, I'm such a joke.
Micha's Pov.
I started to run after her but Anna stopped me.
"Leave her be." She said.
Kat hadn't gone anywhere, she was just standing outside.
"She won't last much longer Micha."
"What are you talking about?" She let out an indignant snort.
"You know what I'm talking about."
I looked away from her,knowing full well what she was talking about. I don't know why everyone was bothering me about this,it's not like she was ever going to love me.
"You need to give her a chance, she is the purest soul I've ever met."
"That's the point. She doesn't need to be tainted by my darkness." With that I left her there and walked towards my mate.
Stop pushing mate away.
You know why I have to Kade.
She wouldn't care.
Ofcourse she would.
My wolf growled at me for fighting him on this but there was no way I was going to do it.
You're just being a fucking pussy.
Maybe.....I cut our link after that.
Kat's Pov.
I felt sadness settle in me when my mate didn't come after me immediately. He didn't even bother to come check what I was doing back here and when he did eventually come out of the house he went straight to the drivers side and got in. I sighed but followed all the same.
This time our ride dragged on even more than the journey there. I was more solemn than usual. My life just didn't want to cooperate with me and I was getting sick of it. All I wanted was Micha but he would never love me. I wondered what he was thinking about right at that moment,I looked at him but his usual expressionless mask was on.
I sighed loudly and turned my head to look out the window so I could properly fantasize about the perfect mate. One that I sadly missed out on.
When we got home,mate got out of the car and left without a backward glance. I felt the tears trial down my cheeks. I couldn't do this anymore. I'm getting weaker everyday but he seems perfectly fine. This was not fair moon goddess. Not at all.
Was he mad at me for being a gryphon? But that can't be it because he complimented me about it. So what was it?
Ugh, this was a waste of energy. He was always pissed anyway.
I walked into the house and made my way sluggishly to my room. My feet hurt. So did my head. Damn.
I needed to take a nap but I've been doing that too much recently. But I really need it. I walked into my room still trying to decide if I should sleep or not but that decision was made for me when I found my mate in the room.
I looked at him curiously wondering what he was doing here. He almost never came in here.
"About what Anna said-"
"I don't want to talk about it." I said but I guess my mate didn't like being interrupted because he let out a menacing growl before he continued.
"About what Anna said,I want you to think seriously about it. I know you don't like it but it happens to be the card you were dealt."
"Well I didn't ask for this ok, I didn't ask to be some leader of all supernatural creature,or to be some freaky half bird, half cat thing,so please just leave me alone." I was getting angry now. Nobody understood.
"Oh please Kat,get over yourself. There are many people out there who are going through worse but are handling it way better. You have been given a privilege but all you can do is complain. Try to think about everyone else for once not just yourself, so I suggest you stop being a little bitch and grow up." He growled out and just left, banging the door loudly.
I can't lie, that really hurt. I wanted to scream,shout, throw things around,but could they be some truth to what he said? Maybe I really was acting selfish,but I was only sixteen, how the hell was I to lead.
I wasn't going to let my mate get away this time. We were going to talk weather he liked it or not.
I quickly raced out of the room, hoping I would find him in his office cause I really didn't feel like running around.
When I got to the huge double doors of his office I knew he was in there. I could feel the power and rage coming off him in waves from outside the room. Did I really want to do this?
I threw myself against the door and hoped he wouldn't kill me for entering without permission. I could feel the fear building up inside me as I watched him stop his brisk pacing and turn toward me. In that moment I thoroughly regretted my decision to come here and wished I could have just had the sense to stay in my room.
"What do you want?" He spat out with so much venom he could have been a snake.
"I just want to talk."
"Well I don't,so get out."
I stood there trembling for a minute before I plucked up enough courage to speak.
"No."
"What did you say to me?"
My throat was suddenly dry. I swallowed to try and moisten it up a bit but it was hopeless.
"I said no. We are going to talk mate,right now and if you don't want to........I'm leaving."
I've never seen my mate so angry than when I said those words. I mean it's not like he actually liked me so he has no right to get so angry. I could see his eyes flashing between black and gray every few seconds. His wolf was trying to take control.
"You want to talk right? Right!?" He screamed at me. All I could do was whimper.
"Fine. Let's talk. Let's have a good heart to heart shall we." He sneered.
"Mmmh where to start... Oh Yes. I am a murderer. And do you know the first person I ever killed. Huh? My father. My own goddamn father!"
I felt my fear intensity but I let him continue.
"Our pack was attacked by rogues. They slaughtered countless members of our pack. I was only sixteen at the time. They captured my father and I couldn't do anything to stop it. My mother blamed me you know. She said it was my fault they took him and it was. I should have helped him. I was next in line,I should have been able to do something!" At this point he was screaming. I could see the rage in his eyes but I could also see the pain hidden in them for so long.
"My mother couldn't stand not having her mate by her side,so she took all her depression and hurt out on me."
He violently took off his shirt and turned around letting me see the ugly scars on his back. I gasped.What could have done this? I felt tears fill my eyes at the thought of my mate being hurt.
"Silver whips. She hit me everyday to remind me of my weakness. I deserved it you see. When the beatings weren't enough anymore she began with the insults. She told me I would never find true love. That I was undeserving. For a long time I didn't believe her. Everybody had a mate and I knew mine was coming. But with time my faith weakened." Hearing that I couldn't help but whimper. I could see that some of his rage was now gone,only to be replaced by an intense sadness.
"One day,after a year had passed the rogues came back and they had my father with them. I was so happy,so relieved. My mother would finally stop beating on me, but I was wrong. My father was with the rogues. He was a traitor. He's the one who led them to our pack in the first place. You have no idea how angry I was. How ashamed. He came to kill the rest of us off so I did the only thing I could. I killed the son of bitch. I killed him! My own father."
My heart sank as his voice broke. I had never seen my mate so vulnerable.
"Well,after that fiasco my mother couldn't take it anymore. She beat me half to death everyday, but everyday I went to school till I graduated,I mean I couldn't lead the pack if I was stupid could I? On my eighteenth birthday I got the best present ever. The bitch finally offed herself. But proving from what's happened between us, the damage had already been done huh? Killing became so easy for me. I mean if I could kill my father certainly I could kill anyone else who got in my way.My heart was already cold. Now.... now I can't be the mate you've always wanted. I don't remember what it's like to love or to be loved anymore. Do you see now? You can't possibly love a monster like me."
When he was done I knew that words would not be enough to console him so I simply opened my arms for him and surprisingly he walked right into them. We hugged for what seemed like forever and I didn't want it to end. I wanted to comfort my mate, to let him know I was here for him no matter what.
It all made sense now. Why he always pushed me away. He had been told for so long that he didn't deserve a mate until he actually believed it. No. I was going to love him. Love him more than his mother or father ever did.
"Let me love you." I whispered gently.
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There you go guys. I tried my best. I hope you like it.
Guessing game: how old do you guys think I am?????