Nobody Sees
They tell me the past is the past.
This long my pain can not last.
That I shouldn't be depressed.
That it's my own happiness that gets suppressed.
They tell me bad things happen to us.
They say I need to get past it and not make such a fuss.
They say people die.
That I need to learn to deal with it, at least try.
Don't they know I am trying.
That I cant help that inside I feel like I'm dying.
I don't want to feel this way.
I don't know how to make the pain stay away.
I don't know how to forget.
I haven't figured that out yet.
I want to be happy all the time.
But those memories come rushing back at the drop of a dime.
So for them I keep it all inside.
From them my pain I must hide.
I put a smile on my face and pretend everything is alright.
Until I am out of their sight.
Then it comes crashing down on me.
This is killing me and nobody sees.
S.N.M