Chris.
Damn, Armani looked nothing like i thought she would.
She still stood 5'2 from the ground and still had her small frame but her curves were pefect in each and every way and as pretty as she was when we were teens, now she was beautiful. I couldnt help but keep my eyes locked on her as she stood there looking back at me, i wondered what she was thinking or how she felt as i tried to read her. My mother broke my train of thought as she asked us if were gonna just stare at each other or hug. I stood up and she walked over and hugged me, i hugged her and Christopher tight as i took in her coco butter scent, when i let her go she half smiled and sat down be side me.
"My two babies done grown up on me" My mama said looking at us with the biggest smile on her face, i looked over at Armani as she smiled at my mama "so how's it been going ?" my mama asked her as she tried to get her necklace from out of Christophers hands "Good i guess, i cant complain ..how's it been for you ?" She asked my mama.
"Same here, just trying to keep up with Chris" she explained they both slightly laughed and she asked her how was she liking motherhood "its great, i never thought i would be a mother but everyday he makes my life better" she told her giving chris a kiss on the forehead, he smiled and laid his head on her chest. "its a blessing" my mama assured her as Armani shook her head "that it is".
"Where's his father, i would love to meet him ?" She asked i agreed she looked over at me with this look then turned back to my mother "Um ... he's not in Chris's life" She replied i couldnt believe this what man couldnt take the responsbility of taking care of his child. How hard could it be to show one child you love them ? i hated the thought of even seeing my best friend stressing or even doing this by herself. Knowing that Chris didnt have a male figure in his life, stressed me a little too there were so many things Armani couldnt show him that i man needed to.
"Im sorry to hear that baby, you know if you need anything me and Chris are here for you" My mama assured her she shook her head and looked at me, i smiled and she looked away. "Thanks, i think Christopher would like that" she said i swear i could feel the mood change in the room as my mama went on talking about Christopher's father. Armani's body language changed too, making me wonder what was really up between her and her baby's father but i guess i could save that for a time that we were alone.
Armani.
I could feel the mood in the room change as Mrs. J asked me about Christopher's father, i didnt know what to say other than he wasnt in my lil' mans life, it didnt feel like this would be the right time to yell out that Chris's son was sitting right beside him and he aint even know it. I took in a deep breathe and let it out as she went on talking about how she couldnt understand how grown man could lay down and make babies but not take care of them.
I shrugged as my mama looked at me with her "this would be a great time" look, i shook my head no and she fell back as Mrs. J went on talking bout how if she was the mans mother she would make him take care of his and how she would sit down and have a serious convo with Chris if he were to ever get a women pregnant but if only she knew the truth and how it was to late to sit down and talk. Christopher was here now and growing up faster than i was wanting him to, i wish he could stay my baby forever.
I looked down at my little man, who looked up at me with his big eyes and smiled as he burst into the cutest little laugh "silly man" i said bouncing him on my legs his laughter just fulled the room and it helped me take my mind off the whole sitution that was happening around me.
Seeing him smile and laugh just let me know that i was doing everything right as a parent Christopher, he was happy and as long as he was i was no matter who was here with us. "He's one happy baby" she said smiling too, i shook my head yea as my nanny interrupted "how about we let these to have some time alone, i know they wanna catch up" she said winking at me, i half smiled i loved the fact that she was trying to get me out the sitution of hearing about dead beat dads but I wasn't very excited about having to be alone with Chris.
They grabbed all there stuff and went on the back porch, leaving me to deal with Chris, he looked at me and the biggest smile came across his face as Christopher wanted out of my lap all of a sudden, i put him down and we watched as he walked over to sliding door and banged on it. My mama opened the door and let him out "guess he didnt wanna sit with us" Chris said we both laughed "guess not" i replied crossing my legs.
We looked at each other then chris opened his mouth to say something but stopped his self "what ?" i asked he shook his head and brushed it off "no c'mon you gotta say it" i said he shrugged "you know i missed you, right ?" he asked truth be told i wasnt sure how chris felt about me anymore but it was nice to know that he missed me "you miss me ? since when?" I asked turning toward him, he sucked his teeth "c'mon now..you know i miss you like everyday no matter if we cool or not" he said i just looked at him.
"What you dont believe me?" he asked i shrugged "thats real , you dont have to" he said looking hurt, i slightly laughed "what's the face for ?" i asked looking over at him.
"You shooting down my feelings" he said poking his lip out, i laughed again "im not" he smirked.
"please .. i cant tell" he assured me, i sighed "i wasnt trying to if i did" i replied.
"im just playing girl, takes alot more to hurt me" he explained i playfully pushed him "yea yea yea"
"So can i ask you something?" He asked i shook my head yea as the mood changed once again, he shifted on the couch and opened his mouth to speak "do you talk to Christopher's father?" she asked i just looked at him "no, we just kinda started back talking" i replied studying his face, he just sat there with a blank stare "does he claim him ?" he asked i shook my head no "if he knew about him, maybe he would" i explained he looked confused.
"he doesnt know about him?" he asked i shook my head kinda wishing we could change the subject now cause i had given to much information out already "are you gonna tell him ?" he asked i shrugged. "not sure ?" i explained.
"why not ?" he asked.
"Christopher's been doing perfectly fine without a father, im not sure if bringing a man he never meant in life to be in his life long term now would be the best" i explained. He looked at me, i guess trying to read me "any kid needs a father tho dont you think?" he asked i shrugged "maybe but it depends" i told him , he just looked at me "i think you should tell him" he replied i shrugged "well.."
"He should know" he said.
i was really not wanting to talk about it anymore "im not ready to tell him" i said in a tone to let him know that if he were to continue the convo i wasnt gonna be apart of it.
"i guess i could understand that" he said i shook my head as Christopher started banging on the glass again, my nanny opened it for him and helped him in, he ran over to me and i scooped him up "you have fun ?" I asked him as he reached for chris "Wassup lil ' man?" he asked as Chris sat in his lap, he looked up at Chris and the biggest smile came across his face.
Seemed like Christopher already knew who Chris was, he bonded with him like Chris never missed a moment in his life. Christopher wasnt to friendly with most man but Chris he just seemed to go right to him, like he understood. My heart smiled as i watched them, i wondered how Chris couldnt tell that he was holding his own blood.
"Who's that ?" he asked Christopher pointing at me.
"Ma-Ma" Chris said with a smile, i smiled too i loved to here him call me mama, one of the best feelings in the world. "guess what ?" Chris said to him Chris looked at him.
"Your mama's my best friend" he replied.
he shook his head yea as Christopher looked at me "you wont Chris to be your best friend too" I asked he shook his head yea, we both smiled "iight lil'man, ill be your best friend too" Christopher hugged him and he hugged him back .
We sat there for a least another hour talking and jokng around with Christopher, i loved ever moment of it. Seemed like i had the family i always wanted me & Christopher to have, it brought back so many memories of when me and Chris were teens. My heart seemed like it fulled with love just that quick. When it was time for me to get Christopher to the house so he could get his bath before bed i hated that i had to leave.
"So when ima see you again?" Chris asked as i opened my door.
"Before you leave to go back to being Chris Brown" i assured him, he half smiled and reached his arms out for a hug, i hugged him back and he asked if he could see me tomorrow "maybe take lil'man to the park or something" he replied i shook my head "maybe just call me" i said he shook his head and watched as i got in the car.
"Wave bye Chris" i said as I backed out the drive way "Christopher said waved, i smiled and waved bye too , Chris waved back and i pulled away from the house