Zih ,
"Beep . Beep . Beep . Beep ."
Were the sounds I woke up to . Soon I felt my body convulsing . I was in excruciating pain . I turned to my left and noticed Kartier sitting in a chair with crutches at his side . I fixed my mouth to say something but before anything could come out a team of nurses were rushing to my side and one placed an oxygen mask over my mouth .
"Sir , you have to get out of here." a female nurse said to Karti , who just sat there.
"She's going into shock!" Another yelled.
I reached my arm out for Karti while they pushed him out the door . A small tear dropped from my eye .
"Were loosing her!"
"Not on my watch ."
Quickly things went blank .
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Kartier ,
"Were loosing here!" someone inside the room yelled.
That was the last thing I heard before they slammed the door and closed the blinds in my face . This had to be one of the worst feelings ever . Zih been in a medically induced coma for 2 weeks . The day of the shooting was suppose to be a happy day . We were suppose to be leaving the courthouse to celebrate , but we all ended up at the hospital . I failed . I failed miserably . I was suppose to protect Zih but look at what happened ? I mean , when the first shot let off I was on my way to jump in front of her but Bear beat me to it and that bullet ended his life . Soon bullets hit me . My biggest fear was anything happening to Kartion and thank God nothing happened to him but I cant say the same for Zih . My baby had three holes in her . And on top of that man , the doctor told me she's three months pregnant . Guess the night I got arrested , I got her pregnant .
They say the baby is actually doing fine , which is a blessing . But without Zih , there is no baby . With her being pregnant , it isn't making this process any better . If it was up to me , I'd make the choice of getting rid of the baby to keep her alive but the decision is all hers . I have no say so rightnow .
As I walked to the waiting area with the crutches , I didn't even bother to wipe the tears that was falling for my eyes . When I entered the area , I was greeted with the confused faces of my mom , my dad , Zih's dad Sean , Trina , Dale , Ms. Gina , Chelly , Meagan , Maria , and Gee who made a full recovery last month .
My mom rushed over to help me a little . Sean took his time to stand up , he was still healing from his bullet round just like me .
"Whats wrong?" Sean asked me .
I couldn't even get it out before the sobs took over me . Soon everyone eyes were watery .
"Did we loose her?" Sean asked , voice shaky .
"I-I- . . . I don't know for sure . When I was forced out , they said they was loosing her . I heard the flat line . . . " I managed to get out before I damn near collapsed on the floor .
I looked up and noticed Kartion sitting off in the corner . I motioned him over to me . He sat on the carpet in the empty space between my legs .
"I love you so much son ." I whispered in his ear .
"I love you too." He said back .
I just held him in my embrace , enjoying the feeling of having my son , something that I played a part in creating , in my arms .
"We cant get all worked up . We don't know for sure . Lets just be patient . They'll come out and say something ." My mom said , trying to make peace of the situation .
"Your right ." Sean voiced , leveling his breathing .
Since the shooting , everyone has been on pins and needles . We've been up here everyday . Today she woke up finally but you seen what happened .
I looked down and noticed Kartion feel asleep . I managed to sit in the chair closes to me .
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Zih ,
"Doc. she's up!" someone voiced .
I blinked my eyes uncontrollably , adjusting them to the light .
"Good to have you back with us again Ms. King." a woman said , coming into my vision .
It was her! The Juror that read the verdict of the outcome of Karti's case .
"Again?" I forced out , in a raspy tone .
"Yeah . We almost lost you , well we did actually ." she said , checking the machines and IV's I was hooked up to .
"Where's my fiancé ? My son ? My family ?" I asked trying to move my upper body but failed .
"Your still in a lot of pain missy . You must take it easy . Not only for you but for that little one inside you ." She turned to me and smiled .
"Inside me?" I gasp .
"Yeah , you didn't know . Ms. King , your a little over 3 months pregnant . By the grace of God you didn't loose your baby in the shooting but we must discuss something ." She took a seat on the little stool close to the bed .
"That baby surviving is a miracle . I had to do surgery on your pelvis to remove the bullet that was lodge there . This is going to be a very risky pregnancy Ms. King. From the seriousness of the injury and being pregnant , your putting your life at risk. There's a 50% chance that you wont make it . You can make the decision of keeping your baby and taking the risk , or aborting it ."
I took in all she was saying , and quickly chose the decision .
"Im keeping my baby Doctor . . . "
"Brown." she answered .
"Doctor Brown , with all due respect I understand you wanting to do everything with your patience best interest at heart , but Im keeping my child . God didn't let him or her survive this ordeal if he didn't want me to keep it . I want to go thru it . Im more then ready to take this risk ."
She looked at me and smiled , while jotting something down in her notepad ,
"I fully understand honey. If I was in your shoes , believe me . I'd do the exact same thing."
I just nodded my head .
"Now that your up and talking and also stable , I must go inform your family that your ok . I know they're walking on needles . I'll be back Ms. King . You stay strong .
When she left , I just closed my eyes and hoped that the image of my mom floated back . When everything went blank the last time , I saw her . She was beautiful . She looked better then before I could remember . She was smiling at me and kept telling me that she loved me but then she started waving goodbye to me . The I woke up .
The image never came back , but when I opened my eyes , everyone was standing before me . I know this is against hospital policy but I bet Jesus paid the nurses or guards to turn their heads .
"Hey babygirl." My dad said , walking to my bedside fist . He placed his hand on top of mine and ignored the pain in his side to place a kiss on my forehead .
"Hi daddy."
Karen , Jesus , Maria , Trina , and Ms. Gee did the same thing.
"Don't you ever scare us like that Zih." Chelly voiced coming over to the bed .
"Sorry." I said , a little weakly .
"You better be . I almost killed you ." Meagan said , running her hand in my head , causing a few chuckles to leave mouths .
"Plus , Kartier almost died . He's been crying like a little punk for hours . I don't know about you , but I never seen snot come out as well as tears when It comes to a grown ass man ." Chelly joked , making us all laugh .
"Don't be talking about my baby Archelle ." Karen said , pinching her arm .
"Lets give these three time alone ." Jesus said , winking at me .
The crowd quickly dispersed , leaving me , Karti and Kartion who I heard recently just went to sleep again .
He laid Karti on the couch that was on the other side of the room and pulled up a chair by the bed .
"Did you talk to the doctor ?" He asked , taking my hand in his .
"Yeah . . ."
"So?"
"Im keeping it . I cant get rid of my child ." I told him looking into his eyes .
"She told me about the risk and the possibilities but Im with you 100% ." He said , placing a kiss on my hand .
"So you were boo-howing huh ?" I smiled .
"Yeah , hearing them say they were loosing you , then pushing me out the room and seeing that tear fall from your face really fucked me up . If I lost you I don't know what I would've did . I mean , that moment was just too much for me to bear Zih . I love you . I need you baby . Man it wasn't suppose to be like this ."
I watched him close his eyes and shake his head .
"No , don't go blaming yourself . It's not your fault . It's hers." I said , referring to Toi .
"I didn't protect you ." He voiced with his head down .
"You did . If you would've took these bullets , you'll be dead and the situation will be switched . Let it go Karti . You didn't fail me either . Im here and that's all that matters right ?"
"Yeah ." He kissed my lips softly .
Soon a hour went passed with Kartion still sleep .
"What did you do to my baby?" I asked , looking over at him still stretched out on the couch like a grown man who been up for days .
"He misses you . We miss you . We haven't been getting much sleep lately . This is the first time he's actually been sleeping this long and good ."
"Are you staying with me tonight ?" I asked .
"No need to ask ma . Im not going anywhere . Let me go tell them they can leave ."
It took him about 10 minutes to get back to me .
"They're a little cranky but they understand ." He joked , placing Kartion's bag on the chair next to him .
It was going on 9 o'clock pm , so visiting hours were just about over . I hope they'll let Kartion slide with staying tonight but I mean come on . . I almost died , wait I did die then came back , who wouldn't want to be with their child .
"Scoot over woman ." Karti demanded .
I scooted over and made as much room for him as I could . He pulled me close to him , despite my pain , I snuggled close to him and just enjoyed the moment .
"I love you so much Zih'aira ." He whispered in my ear .
"I love you more Kartier ."
I soon drifted to sleep from the comfort and the pain medicine . . .
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