THE START FROM THE END
Ever since I met you, no one else has been worth thinking about.
You see baby boy
love is not about how much you say "I Love You"
its about how much you can prove it.
I wish you would let me prove how much I love you more than words can say, more than every action I make.
I need you.
You make me a better me more anyone else and I'm the best me when I'm with you, and because you're gone, nothing feels right until you return.
Please come back baby boy
XO
I hit the send button on my phone watching the little blue line run across the screen to tell me that my message has been sent.
It took me 5 minutes to write that message
It took me an hour and five minutes to build up enough courage to send it.
I wait 1 minute
2 minutes
3 minutes
4 minutes
5 minutes
This time is agonizing. I can't handle anymore silence.
I sent him one more text
Anything hurts less than the quiet.
I wait again
1 minute
2 minutes
3 minutes
My phone beeps and vibrates quickly in the palm of my hands
I unlock it and feel my heart shatter.
Leave me alone.
I didn't notice I was crying until a tear rolled down my cheek and onto the screen.
It blurs the small letters from the sight.
God how I wish they said something else.
I hear another beep and force myself to look down
If you love me let me go.
Fuck our love and our stupid song lyrics to each other.
Dear god what have I done to deserve this
Oh I know...
everything.