A/N:: This chapter is a bit depressing and in some cases my be triggering. Please do not read if you are sensitive to things such as depression abuse and alcohol usage. If this chapter does end up triggering you please message me privately and I will do my best to help you. ❤️❤️❤️
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I got home only to be met by my mother crying on the couch.
"Mom?" My voice cracked as I made my way over to her "mom? Mom what happened? Mom look at me! Mom!" I was panicked and the tone in my voice showed it.
"D-Dean..." She tried to talk but let out small sobs instead
"What do you mean? Mom what happened to him!"
Dean was my brother. My oldest brother I should say, the one who gave me the jeep.
"He he's Uhm he's in th-the hospital" she sobbed out
"Why mom? What happened"
"He's in a coma.. He got in a car accident"
I flopped down beside my mom as the tears made their way to my eyes. My mom sighed and put her arms around me as we both cried on each other. "I'm going to the airport tonight. There was only one plane ticket available. I'm buying you the next one possible I told the airport to inform me of new tickets and they said they'd hold one for me"
I nodded but sobbed harder. Not only is my brother in a coma and could potentially die and I wouldn't even know the cause of the accident if he actually did die but I'd be alone if he did. I mean Dylan has to go back to LA in a few days so I will be alone. Absolutely alone. I guess I should be used to it by now though.
"I'm going to go pack." I nodded and let her go. I walked into my room and collapsed on my bed letting the tears come out in multiple sobs and screams. It wasn't like I was crying for my brother it was more of screaming for help. Screaming to him to wake up because I needed him.
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I had been crying for a full hour when my mom told me she was leaving. This only caused me to cry harder though.
I could feel my body giving in. I've had 2 panic attacks in the same hour and a sudden wave of depression rush through me.
I made my way to the kitchen grabbing my anxiety pills anti depressants and sleeping pills. I didn't think the pills would be enough for so just for good measure I grabbed a bottle of vodka my mom never finished.
I took the pills expertly in one gulp and made my way back to my room with a glass and the bottle of vodka in my hand. I also decided I'd grab my vape pen and do anything to clear my mind of my family or the fact I was alone. And id always be alone.
It had been another hour of me being miserable. I was pretty sure I was now drunk considering half of the vodka was gone. I thought I'd be asleep by now but I guess not. I lied down closing my eyes to try and let sleep take over me for the umpteenth time this hour
I was close to consuming the darkness of sleep until the front door broke open and Dylan ran into my room breathing heavily
"Iris?" He said in disbelief I rolled over
"Go away" my voice was raspy. It was obvious I had been crying and drinking. The room smelt like the cotton candy sent the vape pen let out.
"What are you doing? Why are you crying?" He was concerned now but it was like I had no control over my body
"I said go away!" I screamed sitting up now. Tears were still coming out of my eyes and it felt like I couldn't breathe
"I want to be alone! I'm always alone! I never have anybody in my life that stays! They always leave and I bet that you're exactly the same! You're going to go back to LA and forget about me completely! You don't care Dylan! You don't care about me and I don't care. I want to be alone. I want to get it over with so just go. Get out get out Get Out." I had no control of what I was saying. The in reality is I wanted him to stay and comfort me.
"I'm not leaving you. I'm never leaving you I'm not going to loose you"
"That's what Dean said" I sobbed as I collapsed on my bed as if the last bit of sanity I had left was to be spent crying. I've spent hours trying to clear my mind of the situation in front of me but it didn't work.
"Who's dean?" Dylan said slowly walking towards me
"Stop" he stopped walking the moment I said it
"Flower-"
"No just go Dylan. Go. Get out"
He stood up but instead of walking away he stepped towards me
"No Dylan go away"
I grabbed the pillows behind me and threw them at him trying to get him to leave. But he kept coming closer and closer. I kept yelling at him to stop but he refused. I then grabbed the nearest thing to me which just so happened to be the glass cup I grabbed earlier but never used.
I threw it his direction without knowing what o was doing. It missed but the sound of the glass shattering knocked me back to reality.
"Dylan"
He looked up at me in disbelief and fear
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to I just I my brother and my mom and you and-" I was cut off with strong pair of arms wrapping around me.
"It's ok. You're ok we're going to be okay. We are alright it's ok" I sobbed
"No it's not"
His grip on my tightened as he began to shake
"I'm so alone" I cried out
"Not anymore" Dylan loosened his grip on me so I could look into his eyes.
"You have me. And I'm not leaving you anytime soon." I nodded although I didn't believe him. He went back to LA soon and I knew he'd forget about me.
The pills and alcohol just now kicked in and it hit me faster than a bullet. My eyes were heavy and like that I fell asleep in Dylan's arms. He lied me down on the bed and cleaned everything up himself. Then climbed into the bed beside me.
"I'm not leaving you Iris. I'm never leaving you"
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I woke up the next morning my head pounding and this strange cold empty feeling in the other side of my bed.
"You're awake" Dylan came threw my door
"How do you feel?"
"Awful" I groaned frowning.
"Yea I figured. Here take these." He handed me a hand full of pills and I looked at him confused
"Exedrin and aspirin for your head ache" Dylan said pointing to a few pills "Anti depressants for what happened and anxiety pills for you panic attacks" he finished. I nodded and took them all. The last thing I remember from last night was Dylan walking in on me drunk.
"What happened last night? After you came in?"
"Oh Uhm well you kinda had a mental breakdown and then fell asleep" Dylan dead panned and I nodded
"I'm sorry" he didn't let me finished "don't be. Your mom told me what happened. She called me and asked to look after you until she can get the plane ticket for you" I nodded and sighed taking a sip of the water in Dylan's hand.
"Thanks" I said "no problem. But you need rest. By the time you wake up the head ache should be gone and you'll be alright" he smiled reassuringly and I nodded again.
"Get some rest" he leant down and kissed my forehead and then walked out of the room. I was too tired to ask him to stay