What is failure?
1. An unsuccessful person or thing.
"bad weather had resulted in crop failures"
synonyms: lack of success, non-success, non-fulfilment, abortion, miscarriage, defeat, frustration, collapse, foundering, misfiring, coming to nothing, falling through.
My beautiful little 6lb 8oz baby born at 2:01am has been in my arms for a matter of seconds and i've already failed her, she won't latch and all she is doing is screaming. Midwives around forcing her to my breast trying to get her to feed and she won't.
The beautiful moment of the first moments with my baby girl i'd pictured.. ruined.
Having to hand express to feed her in the first hour destroyed me and spiraled my depression.