April 13,1509 ~ Midnight
I can't sleep. I can't seem to find a comfortable spot on my bed which is causing me to huff and puff. I looked at Larry's side of the room and he's sound asleep curled up into a fetal position. He looks so sad, but why would he be? I rub my eyes bringing my fingers to my temples. I can't think about him right now. I need to go for a walk. I got up quietly out of the bed, put on something warm, and went outside by the tables. Getting a big breath of fresh air made me relax a little. I smell rain in the air, but I hope it doesn't rain soon. I'm enjoying this light cool breeze and I wish to not get my hair wet.
I sat outside for a few more minutes then made my way inside to the kitchen for a snack. I was soon accompanied by Emmett, "I'm sorry sir. I did not know you'd be in here. Can I get you anything?"
"No, I'm fine. Please stop calling me that."
"Stop calling you what, sir?"
"Sir! Stop that! You know my name. I tell you, all of you, all the time to just call me Laurent when we're alone!"
"I'm sorry-"
"Don't apologize either! Just say okay, okay?"
"Okay."
He goes to the cabinet and brings a big bottle and two cups. He takes the seat next to me. He looked at me for a second then sighed. He poured the liquid into both cups and handed me one. I took it and smelled it. It had a sweet smell, but the more I smelled the sweet smell soon went away.
"What is this?"
"It's a little something I made. I drink it to relax. Go on and have a sip. You'll like it."
I took a sip and it was sweet at first, tasted like berries, but then it burned my throat. It caused me to cough.
He laughed patting my back, "I make it pretty strong, sorry."
"Pretty strong is an understatement. It's good though."
"Yeah, I can see you needed it."
"What do you mean?"
"I can see sadness in your eyes. Something is wrong, but I will not ask any questions."
"Thank you-"
"But if you need to talk you can speak to me, Laurent."
"I-I don't know...you'd probably look at me different."
"Could do no such thing. I wouldn't dare think about judging you."
"I am in love with someone, someone very close to me, well who used to be close to me, and I swear I don't want to be in love with this person. I still do not understand how it is possible to feel the way I do yet, but I know they are there and I do not want them. But I can't seem to get rid of them."
"Why do you want to get rid of them? Isn't being in love supposed to be an amazing adventure?"
"I don't think this love is going on an adventure. I think it lost it's ticket."
"May I ask who this person is?"
"I think you know..."
"I have an idea, but I don't know if it's the right one."
I sighed heavily, "It's Larry."
"Well, I was wrong then. Can I be honest with you?"
"Oui."
"I can see now how it could be him. I see the way you look at him and how jealous you get. The way you both argue too. It is a giveaway I suppose."
"Do you think he knows? Do you think father and mother know too?!"
"Your father and mother are too busy with other things to notice, but Larry? I don't know...have you even spoke to him about this?"
"No, I cannot do that. He'd never want to be near me. Plus, he's with the she devil out back."
"So. Just because he is with her doesn't mean he's in love with her."
"How do we even know if he is in love?"
"Ask him. It doesn't hurt to ask, Laurent. Talk about what it is in your heart. It's clear you're confused and being mute about it. You need to speak to him if you're going to get over this, or see where it could go."
I thought about it. Do I tell him? Do I speak to him about it? It's probably too late because of what happened earlier. He definitely wouldn't want to talk to me and for me to tell him that I am in love with him would make matters worse. I think I am just going to keep these feelings to myself.
"It's okay, Emmett. I just have to find someone...someone who can distract me."
"Suit yourself. I hope you feel better soon. As a matter of fact, I think I know where to take you to help you."
"Oh no, Emmett. We have completely different taste in company."
"It'll be fun. Just come with me to see how it is and if you wish to not stay I'll bring you back home."
Seeing that big smile of his I couldn't help but to think if this is a bad idea or good. To be honest, if he's the key to the door to help me get over what I feel inside for Larry then I'll do anything.
"Okay, but not for too long. We have to be back before father and mother get up."
"You can count on me. Go put on something more attractive."
I punched him before heading up to my room silently changing my attire. When I got back downstairs, Emmett had changed as well and he looked exceptionally spruce. He took my hand and brought me to his horse. He helped me on and then got in front of me and we rode into town. He stopped in front of what looked like a run down little home before he jumped down and helped me down. He took my hand once again before knocking on the door. A tall muscular man came and opened the door with the meanest expression apon his face. But once he saw Emmett the biggest smile replaced it, "Haven't seen you here in centuries."
"It hasn't been that long, José. Are you going to let us in?"
"Yeah, but..." he paused when he looked at me with his eyes wide, "You brought Prince Bourgeois here?!" He quickly got on one knee bowing his head. Looking up at me he said, "I'm sorry, Prince Bourgeois, but I can't let you in."
I touched his shoulder, "Get up," he stood up, but still had his head down.
"José, is it? I won't say anything if you don't."
"Are you sure you really want to come in. It just doesn't seem like you-"
Emmett cut him off and gave him a strange look, "He's sure. Now let us in before it rains."
José stood to the side and motioned us to enter. Being that Emmett still had a strong hold on my hand, he yanked me in and I saw nothing but a whole bunch of men. Men at what looks to be a bar, men sitting down, some even sitting on top of other men. Some were dancing while others watched. I couldn't help but to definitely think if this was a bad idea. I don't even know where I am. Emmett stopped to say hi to a few people, some looked at me, some whispered, some even bowed there heads and greeted me. When we finally came to a hault, Emmett was looking at me with a small smile, "Emmett, where am I?"
"A little get together with a few people in town."
"So where are the women?"
"There aren't any."
"Why? Are they coming soon?"
"Laurent, this is a gay pub."
"A what?!" I screeched, causing some near to look at me funny.
Emmett awkwardly smiled in their direction before putting his attention back onto me, "Oh come on, you must of known when you saw that man on top of another."
"Why would you bring me here. I am not gay."
"Says the one who's in love with his brother."
"That is different, Emmett."
"No it is not. He's a guy, yeah? That means you like men, Laurent."
"I want to leave now."
"We just got here! Look, it's okay. I'm gay and you've liked when I fancied you."
"No I have not liked it!"
He grabbed my arm pulling me closer to him. He stared into my eyes giving me a funny feeling I cannot yet explain, "Do not raise your voice again. Calm down. Just talk to a few people and see if you like it. If you then wish to not stay I will take you home. I swear."
He let go of me and he ordered us a drink and then he walked off. I am frightened, but I do happen to make eye contact with a very proper man across from me. He smiled at me and it made me smile back, but I put my head down because I am shy. I've never done this before. I do not know what to say. When I looked back up, he was gone. I picked up my drink and took a sip. Maybe I shouldn't of broke eye contact. I then heard a voice from behind ask if the seat next to me was taken, "No, nobody is sitting here."
I looked up to see who it is that would be sitting next to me and it was him. The guy I made eye contact with. He smiled at me and bowed his head in respect, "What are the chances of me being able to talk to the Prince?"
"Your chances are very high tonight. What is your name?"
"Leonard at your service." he said with a lustful smirk. He held his hand out waiting for me to put my hand into his. I did and then he raised my hand to his lips and kissed the top of my hand very softly causing me to get a little flustered.
"I wouldn't of thought one of the Prince's to be gay."
"So, I am not allowed to be gay?"
"I didn't say that. I like the fact of knowing I could have a chance with you."
I happened to look past his face to see Emmett watching us with concern on his face. I looked back at Leonard and smiled.
"Who said you could?"
"You're talking to me, right? Maybe we could talk in private?"
"We are in private. There isn't another soul at this bar."
"Let me change the question. How about we take this conversation outside?"
"Um, sure."
He took my hand leading me outside. It hasn't rained yet which is good. Once we got outside, I started to get a bad feeling in my stomach. He then sheperd me to his horse. I pulled my hand away from his, "I cannot ride with you. I came here with someone."
He turned around and gave me a strange look, "So you're already taken?"
"No."
"So what is the problem? Don't you wish to have some fun?"
"What kind of fun?"
"Fun that involves me kissing you and amongst other things."
"No thank you. Can you take me back, s'il vous plait?"
"Come on just one kiss."
He came closer to me and wrapped his arm around my waist. I tried to get free, but he was a little bigger than me.
"S'il vous plait, stop it now."
He pushed me down and straddled me. I couldn't move and with all my might I couldn't get him off of me. I screamed for help, but it soon couldn't be heard because he put his hand on top of my mouth. He ripped my shirt open and kissed my chest. It felt so disgusting and it made me even more frightened. All of a sudden, I saw Emmett coming from behind. He yanked Leonard off of me and kicked him in his side. He kept kicking him. I got up to try and stop him, "Enough! He's had enough!"
"No he hasn't! He put his filthy hands on you!" he said kicking him some more. Kneeling down he picked him up by his shirt and punched him in his face. I couldn't stand to see this anymore. I stomped my foot down and put some authority into my tone, "Emmett, I said enough!"
He looked up at me with anger, "Do you not see what he has done to you?! And you yell at me for giving him what he deserves?!"
"Yes, I see Emmett! Before we both get in trouble take me home."
He huffed before grabbing my hand and ushering me to his horse. He hopped on not even helping me on causing me to roll my eyes. I jumped on and we made our way back to the castle. I jumped down once we reached our destination. Before I could storm inside, Emmett stopped me.
"Please, forgive me. I just got so upset seeing him on top of you like that and seeing him do the things he did. I-I just couldn't help myself..."
I grabbed his hand, the hand he used to punch Leonard with. I saw his bruised knuckles, I rubbed them a little before kissing them, "It's okay, I thank you for saving me."
He held my hand a little tighter, "Do that again."
I kissed his knuckles once more before earning a small smile from him. It gave me chills, something I've never felt before, it made me nervous. The more I look at Emmett, the more I realize how beautiful he is. He's a little older than me but he looks very young. He's very smart too, funny and courageous. The more I looked into his beautiful blue eyes, the more I gained the urge to do the unthinkable, I kissed him. It started as a little kiss but it then deepened, it became a hungry kiss, I wanted more but he grabbed a hold of my shoulders pulling away.
"I will not do this when something horrible just happened to you."
"I'm fine, I swear."
"But I'm not."
He turned around and grabbed his horse, before be walked off he looked at me with a smile, "Who would of thought Mr. Bourgeois was a good kisser."
I smiled at him, blushing, "Goodnight Emmett."
"Goodnight Laurent."
I watched him walk off, I then felt a drop of rain hit my nose. I silently hurried inside before I got wet, I made it to my room without waking father and mother. Larry was still sleep which is good, I got undressed and went to my bed. Even after what happened with Leonard, my night is ending with a smile upon my face because of Emmett. I will never look at him the same and I don't want to. Emmett is the key and he's also what is behind that door, I am glad to say I can already see the feelings I have for Larry vanishing before my eyes because all I can see now is Emmett.
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Sorry for the late update, I didn't have my phone and I don't like writing on the computer so as you can see I was able to get my phone back and finish this chapter for you guys. I'm glad people are liking it, it makes me happy to see all the good comments. Hopefully I won't take as long with the next chapter, I like where this is going so the next chapter might be up pretty soon. :)
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