Author's Chapter Notes:
"You are the exact same person I fell in love with"
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Lucy's P.O.V.
"I should still be mad at you but I can't" I sighed, sitting on the couch in front of the Tv. It's been a couple of days since the last time I had spoken to my mum and it was killing me to ignore her as much as it was killing her.
"Lucy.." she began but I raised my hand, telling her to stop.
"I know you have your reasons for doing what you did and I'm here to listen to them. Don't go all dramatic and start hugging me because I still haven't forgiven you. I just need to hear your side of the story" my stare was cold and hard but right now I had no choice but to show her how serious and hurt I was.
She nodded, sitting more properly on the other couch and turning a little to have a better look at me.
"When David, your father left us I was devastated." She looked down, I could see a few tears forming. She is still suffering, even after all those years. How come I never notice this? Was I so selfish? Was I too caught up in my world to actually see what my mother was going through? Now I felt guilty. All I wanted was to walk up to her and hug her but I contain myself.
"I never answered his phone calls which started after a year or so. I thought I could raise you on my own." She sniffed, her eyes flickering up to look in mine. "Then he showed up eight years ago, asking for a divorce, something about starting a new life...I don't really remember.." she trailed off.
I nodded, I knew he got remarried and has already two sons. I have two step brothers.
"I agreed because honestly I had no feelings for him after doing what he did to you and me. I told him not to come near you again because I thought that was what's best for you. I was so angry back then, I was thinking only myself" she shook her head, biting down on her lip. "I'm so sorry Lucy" she then started sobbing, my heart breaking farther at the sight of her.
She seemed so weak so fragile, crying there, in front of me, looking hopeless.
I bit my lip, standing up and walking to where she was sitting. I sat next to her, still looking her as she had her head buried in her hands and was crying endlessly.
"You know..." I started saying, her face rising to see me. She was surprised I was even sitting so near to her. "I don't blame you. I would have probably done the same if I were you." I said, a small smile appearing on her face. I sighed, staring down at the floor. "Just give me some time to think all these through"
She nodded, whipping her cheeks. "Yeah, sure. Take as much time as you need. I will always be here"
"I know, thank you" I gave her a smile but stood immediately up when she tried to hug me. I still need time.
***
"I'm glad you called" Justin smiled the moment I opened the door of his expensive Range Rover, getting in.
"I'm glad you came" I returned the smile, shutting close the door behind me.
"You look...." Justin trailed off, looking me up and down as he run his tongue across his lips, his eyes finally stop to stare in mine.
My face heated up. I looked away. "Thanks" I mumbled uncomfortable although he didn't say a word, I knew it would be some cheesy shit or so.
Justin cleared his throat, starting the engine. "Are you sure about this? I mean are you ready?" he turned to look at me, his eyes full of concern.
I nodded. I had called him to take me visit my dad and his 'new' family. "It's now or never"
"For the record you shouldn't be nervous. I'm positive your dad already likes you as for your step mother-"
"I'm not stressing out about her" I interrupted as we stopped on a red light. "I couldn't care less about her to be honest" okay, that sounded harsh but it was the plain truth.
"Then what is it?" Justin stepped on the gas when the light turned green.
"I don't know if you know this but I have two step brothers. It's them I'm worrying about." I stared out of the window. I was doubting myself. Maybe I'm not ready for this.
"Woah, you have two brothers? How did you-"
"Bruno called when I was on tour with you and told me" I shrugged, biting my lip as all sort of scenarios passed through my head. What if they don't like me? What if they don't want me to be their sister? Do I even want to be their sister? Do they even know about me? I don't think so, dad hasn't probably told them about me. They are too young to know.
Justin nodded, holding the steering wheel harder. "So..." he swallowed. "Bruno was in all this from the beginning huh?"
I turned to look at him. "He is a detective Justin. I was paying him for this" I explained.
"You should have told me from the beginning. I would have been there for you and – and" he run a hand through his soft silk almost blonde hair, frustrated.
"I –i... I had just met you back then, I couldn't just...tell you." I looked down. Maybe if I had told him none of all these would have happened, who knows?
"I know" he sighed. "And I was always talking about myself, my problems. Gosh, I was so selfish back then" his eyes darken. I could tell he was pissed with himself now.
"Justin." I smiled softly at him. "It was all my choice, you shouldn't blame yourself. Besides I helped you back then and now you are helping me so that makes us even"
He smirked at me, turning his eyes to lock them with mine. "We are not even yet" he winked.
I chuckled, my cheeks turning a creamy red as I looked away. He always has to ruin the moment.
***
"Just knock on the door already" Justin hissed, as he was standing next to me, both of us standing in front of my dad's house door.
I took a deep breath before shaking my head. "No. I can't" I quickly turned around and was about to start walking away when Justin's arm wrapped around my waist and stopped me.
"Stop being a kid and face this. It's now or never, remember?" his eyes were burning in mine. Butterflies formed in my stomach just by his touch. I swallowed the lump forming in my throat and nodded.
I raised my hand about to knock on the door when I felt Justin's warm big hand slowly getting a hold of my other hand and squeezing it slightly. "I'm here" he whispered comforting at me. I squeezed his hand back as I smiled. "I know" and before I knew it I found myself knocking on the door twice.
The door opened after a couple of minutes, revealing my dad. He was wearing a plain red t-shirt with some dark blue jeans. He looked casual dressed, I mean it was Sunday and he wasn't working.
"H-hey" I managed to stuttered, my eyes never leaving his.
He smiled big at me, his eyes sparkling. "Aye Lucy" he slowly traveled his eyes up to meet Justin.
"Hello sir" Justin said awkwardly. I squeezed his hand, letting him know I was here and he shouldn't be afraid. "I'm Justin" he built up the confidence and extended his hand for my dad to shake.
"Hey son. Never thought I would ever meet a celebrity from this close" he shook Justin's hand, all of us chuckling at his joke.
Justin nodded a big smile on his face. I could tell both of them are going to be real close.
"Come in" my dad opened the door wider for us to step in.
Just as I was about to step in, I felt Justin's arm wrapping securely around my waist, holding me next to him as we both walked in. I gave him a questioning look but he just ignored it. I'm not complaining though. His hand felt good around my small waist, like that's where it was meant to be.
"So are you two dating?" my dad's voice caught me off guard as he walked next to us and welcomed us to his living room.
My eyes widen, almost popping out of my head. "Daaad!" I whined, glaring at him. "I mean..." I cleared my throat. "sir.." I trailed off awkwardly. I don't even know where this came from but the word just slipped out of my mouth without second thought.
Justin chuckled from next to me, slightly pushing me closer to him. "Not yet, sir" he licked his lips, sending my dad a knowing look.
I rolled my eyes. Men. What can you do about them?
We all took a seat. My dad sitting on the couch across from me as me and Justin were sitting close together on another one. My dad opened his mouth to say something when screamings interrupted him.
"Give it back Trevor!!" we all turned around and watched as two little boys run down the stairs and towards my dad, the youngest one behind the couch as the other one stood in front of my dad.
My breath hitched in my throat as I stared at them, assuming my brothers. They were so fucking adorable, I had to contain myself to not go up to them and hug them to death. Okay, I was overreacting, somebody slap me!
"Dad, Trevor stole my notebook. How am I supposed to do my homework?" the oldest kid complained, standing in front of my dad. Josh, he was eight. Now I remember him and the other one is Trevor.
Josh was quite tall for his age, big brown eyes and dark black hair like mine and my dad's. He was wearing some jeans and a green shirt, no shoes on, just his blue socks.
"He is lying. I just borrowed it!" Trevor defended himself from behind the couch, making my attention go to him. He was shorter due to being only five. His hair was dirty blonde and his eyes were green like mine and my dad's. I'm assuming my dad's new wife is blonde.
My dad chuckled, dragging me out of my thoughts. "Boys, calm down" he stare at both of them. "Now Trevor, give him back his notebook"
"But dad, he won't play with me!!" his little figure jumped up and down a few times as he whined. I couldn't help but smile, Justin watching all of the closely as well.
"I told you I will once I finish my essay" Josh glared at him.
"Trevor" my dad warned, giving him a look.
"Fiiine" Trevor dragged out, slowly handing Josh back his notebook.
"Now before you go, there's someone you need to meet"
Oh-oh. My dad is obviously talking about me. Shit. The color drained off my face, my heart beating increasing. I was having a panic attack. Justin must have notice because he put his warm hand over my knee, slowly rubbing it up and down.
"Boys, this is Lucy" my dad introduced me, both of his kids on either side of him.
"H-hey" I managed to say awkwardly, still shocked.
"Hello young lady. I'm Josh" he walked up to me and took my hand before kissing it. I chuckled. "I'm Lucy" I smiled big at him.
Trevor walked behind him and pushed him out of the way. "Don't listen to him. He is with FBI. You can't trust those people" Trevor whispered at me as Josh was giving him a hard glare from next to him.
I couldn't help but laugh at that. "It's nice to meet you Trevor" I messed up his hair. Gosh, they were both so adorable.
"Not the hair, lady" he quickly backed away. "Yeah, you should be careful with that" Justin got in the way, running carefully a hand through his hair as well. Trevor nodded, walking and standing close to Justin. "Women" he whispered at him, secretly.
"Okay, okay guys. Well Lucy is your sister" my dad said kind of awkwardly staring at me.
Both of Trevor's and Josh's head snapped to look at me. "We have a sister?" they both said out loud at the same time, Justin chuckling from next to me.
"Cool, I always wanted one" Trevor run up to me and hugged my knees. I couldn't help but smile, my eyes filling with tears as I dropped on my knees to hug him fully. "And you are so beautiful, wait till my friends see you" Josh joined our group hug soon after. I hugged both of them back, really tight.
So this is what is like to have a family? All those emotions mixed together. I was starstuck.
"Boys, lunch is ready. Go wash your hands" a shorter than me, blonde lady appeared in the living room, holding a kitchen towel in her hands.
"Mum, I have a sister!" Trevor yelled turning around of face his mum. The woman smiled sweetly at him. "I know honey. Now you and your brother go get ready for lunch"
The kids run up the stairs, leaving all the grown ups here. Great. My eyes traveled up and down my dad's new wife. She had quite a nice figure, blonde hair with hazel eyes and couple of freckles on top of her nose and cheeks. She was really pretty, not like my mum but still.
"Hey Lucy. I've heard a lot about you. I'm Stacy" she gave me a welcoming smile, my dad standing up and walking up to her before wrapping his arm around her waist. Something felt weird. I wanted this to be my mum but I guess my dad really loves this lady. Whatever.
"It's nice to meet you too Stacy" I return the smile before we all walked to the dining room to have some lunch.
***
After spending like three hours there both me and Justin were exhausted. Justin was doing really well with little kids. Josh and Trevor really liked us. As for my step mum, things are still kind of weird but I'm willing to work on our relationship. I just discovered I have a whole new family and I'm not gonna let that waste.
Justin parked outside my house, getting out of the car to get the door for me. I thanked him, both of us now walking to my front door.
"I'll see you tomorrow" Justin said, leaning down about to kiss me when I put my hand on top of his chest, slightly pushing him back.
He gave me a questioning look. I sighed, looking up at him. "Before we move on with this" I pointed between me and him. "There are some things you should know about me..."
Justin licked his lips, shoving his hands in his pockets, listening carefully to me.
"Look, I have a lot of issues and I don't know if you have time or the will to deal with them. I'm insecure and I can be really nosy sometimes. I usually talk too much and never shut up when I have to. I can be a pain in the ass most of the times. I'm demanding when it comes to people I love. I let nothing slip away easily. I'm very stubborn and moody with no reason some days. I-"
I was cut mid sentence by Justin's chuckle. "Baby, I know all of these..." he smiled at me, my knees getting weak just by having him call me 'baby'. I was fangirling really hard inside me.
"I'm not the person you think I am. I know I'm not perfect and I can't change for you..." I trailed off, looking down as Justin's arms wrapped around my waist, pulling me closer. I stare up at him, swallowing the thickness in my throat, my cheeks flashing red as I licked my lips.
"You don't have to change. You are the exact same person I fell in love with" he smiled down at me, his head slowly leaning down. I smiled back, closing my eyes before our lips mashed together.
I raised my arms and wrapped them around his neck, my hands playing with his hair as I raised my self on my toes to give him full access of my mouth as our tongues battle for dominance. A new wave of warmth rushed through me, the butterflies in my stomach going wild. Every inch of my inner being was screaming from happiness.
Justin slowly pulled away, still having his arms around me. "I'll see you tomorrow, okay?"
I nodded, closing my eyes as he lovingly kissed my forehead. "Try not to think of me all night long" he whispered before chuckling.
"Asshole" I pushed him away playfully.
He smirked, winking at me as my cheeks flashed red. There was no way in hell I would be able to sleep tonight. Not after this.
"Goodnight Lucy" he smiled, walking down the front stairs and towards his car.
My mouth was hurting from how big I was smiling right now. My eyes locked on him as i finally watched him drive away.
I bit down on my lip, staring at the floor, still flashed from what had just happened.
This is just the beginning for us.
Chapter End Notes:
SORRY FOR NOT POSTING EARLIER BUT I WAS REALLY SICK THOSE DAYS. I'M STILL RECOVERING BUT I'M BETTER.
THE FAMILY DRAMA IS BEHIND NOW. I REALLY NEEDED TO WRITE THOSE PARTS ABOUT LUCY'S FAMILY BUT NOW IT WILL BE ABOUT HER AND JUSTIN SO GET READY.
WAIT TILL LUCY'S BIRTHDAY PARTY..
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