10k Pens

By Deveritus

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The first collection of poems in the "10k Pens" series. These are the oldest of works found on Wattpad, and t... More

Author's Note
IMPORTANT: PLEASE READ
1. Replaceable
2. Key
3. Foundations
4. Games
5. Playing with Fire ("Elements" pt.1)
6. Drowning at Sea ("Elements" pt.2)
7. Stoneskin ("Elements" pt.3)
8. Gone with the Wind ("Elements" pt.4)
9. Talking to Myself
10. Disability: PTSD ("Dis" the Disability 1st place)
11. Mask
12. Halloween
13. Difficulty [TR]
14. Wishing Upon a Star
15. Bittersweet
16. Waste
17. Past
18. Hints
19. So You're a Big-Shot?
20. Fake [TR]
21. Arguments with the Ignorant
22. I'm Sorry
23. Serenity
24. Heal
25. Friend [TR]
26. Separate
27. Hate III [TR]
28. Me
29. Drown
30. Break Free
31. Rising Rockstar
32. Blind (Censored) [TR]
33. Martyr [TR]
34. Why?
35. I Write for Me
36. A Game (of Life)
37. Queen
38. Thank You
39. Limp
40. Nothing to Gain [TR]
41. Please, I'm Sorry (I Regret What I've Done)
42. Of This You Know
43. Just Like You [TR]
44. Every Drop [TR]
45. No More Mr. Nice Guy [TR]
46. Dreaming
47. What Makes Up Love
48. Undaunted [TR]
49. You Don't Understand [TR]
50. Civil Schism
51. The Bullet Hit All the Loved Ones (Watty Contest)
52. Reminiscence [TR]
53. My Life
54. My Little Sister
55. Running Away [TR]
56. The Thing that We Share ("Responses" pt.1) [TR]
57. Because (I Asked That Too) ("Responses" pt.2) [TR]
58. A Laughing Mind ("Responses" pt.3) [TR]
59. Why Bother? ("Responses" pt.4)
60. A Little Story ("Responses" pt.5) [TR]
61. All Alone ("Responses" pt.6) [TR]
62. Society ("Responses" pt.7) [TR]
63. They Hurt (of Course they Did) ("Responses" pt.8) [TR]
64. Mutuality ("Responses" pt.9) [TR]
65. Back on Track
66. Fragile [TR]
67. Plead [TR]
68. Angels (Watty Contest)
69. Not the Happiest [TR]
70. Eminem vs. Everlast
71. Retort
72. Psychotherapy Incompetency ("PT/AT" pt.1)
73. What I Tell You ("PT/AT" pt.2)
74. What I Don't Tell You ("PT/AT" pt.3) [TR]
75. Adapt or Die ("PT/AT" pt.4)
77. I'm My Own Anti-You ("PT/AT" pt.6) [TR]
78. No, YOU Listen ("PT/AT" pt.7) [TR]
79. Hurt
80. I Never Liked You Anyways
81. Lion (Watty Contest)
82. Malignant Acrimony [TR]
83. Distal Hope
84. Daunted
85. Fool
86. Allison [TR]
87. Let Me See
88. Robert
89. Now You're Dead [TR]
90. Heed
91. Odd Man Out
92. Beast
93. Acrimony Times Infinity [TR]
94. Where are You?
95. M.P.D.
96. One Piece Left [TR]
97. Do You Know?
98. Why Exactly?
99. Disgrace
100. Always Looking
101. Disgrace
102. Onwards
103. Family
104. Friends
105. Only on this Understanding
106. Victory!
107. Join the Pieces
108. Abhorrent Dreams
109. Abhorrent Dreams pt.2
110. Fire
111. Second Chance
112. Book of Lies
113. Runaway
114. Luscious Fabrications to Bitter Truth
115. NPC
116. Dependence
117. Couplet Collaboration
118. New Book, Same Hate
119. One More Chance
120. Ghost
121. Social
122. Fuck You II [TR]
123. Torn Apart
124. Play [TR]
125. Ghost II
126. Social Scale
127. Farewell After All
128. September 4th
129. Itsy Bitsy Spider Redo
130. Visible
131. Sad Eyes
132. First to Fall
133. Hear from Thee
134. Fuck Off [TR]
135. Confession
136. Hear me at All?
137. Betray
138. I Would
139. A Love Poem (Requested)
140. Duck (Requested)
141. Doesn't Matter [TR]
142. Character Name Here
143. Pinnacle
144. Puppeteer
145. One Year
146. What it's Like
147. 300 Words
148. Push
149. Shout-Out to You
150. Heavy
151. Confession: It Hurts
152. Confession: I Never Hated You
153. Confession: ... (What Do I Say?)
154. What Betrayal Does
155. Still Hurts
156. Confession: I'm Done
157. 300 Words Again
158. I Don't Think So [TR]
159. Misunderstanding
160. Shards of Mirrors
161. I Met Her
162. Blind (Original)
163. Intelligent Conversation
164. Black and White
165. Complaining About Complaining
166. Valentine's Day II
167. Almost Died [TR]
168. Perfect Dream [TR]
169. Breaking
170. RP
171. Pretend
172. Usurpation
173. Civility Over Instinct
174. Torch
175. Grave and Shovel
176. Say it.
177. The Weight of Words
178. Compressed
179. Danger
180. LAmeENTING
181. Outlook
182. Bickering
183. Fit
184. Answers
185. Answers pt.2
186. Answers pt.3
187. Zombie (Requested)
188. Resilience to Burning
189. Empathy
190. Eyes
191. Heads and Names
192. Clue
193. Set Albaze
194. Poison
195. Getting it Off my Chest
196. Seeing
197. Time
198. Justification
199. Irony
200. Instability

76. I'll Always Make a Choice ("PT/AT" pt.5)

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By Deveritus

I don't think you understand
the situation at hand.
I don't think you grasp quite what I said,
Stop and listen for a moment,
what's the reason I'm not dead?
I don't quite see the value to which I exist,
but I'm still pressing on so thanks for the assist.
Trust me, I know I have plenty a reason to fight,
why do you think I survive through each and every night?
Yeah all I knew was hurt and all I knew was pain,
all I knew was hurt.
The problem's not getting down
I simply can't pick my knees up from the dirt.
Alright, alright, I'll listen and take the vow.
just give me a second to wipe the sweat off my brow.
I know what it's like to be free,
I'll always make a choice.
You'll have to take my word that I actually used my voice.
I'm not looking for a "simple escape",
no I'm looking for a change.
My tears have dried,
now isn't that strange?
Strength is simply a defeat of your fears,
and fear is the reason for these tears.
I don't have tears to be rid of but that's okay,
I get what you're trying to say.
If I'm all that's left I'm still left alone,
which isn't too different from the life in which I'm thrown.
Banishing my memories, well,
that's easier said than done.
Try living with P.T.S.D. then tell me it's easily won.
I have a funny feeling you care more than you admit,
after all why would you type that up and then hit submit?

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