The night was quiet and all I could hear was my own heartbeat.
The silent screams I had to stifle inside of me.
Had been drowned myself with tears.
And numbness of my entire being never lets me sleep.
My eyes were lifeless and not seeing anything but black and white.
My lips always quivered as anxiety attacked.
Never in this life had been right.
Always had been dull and had no meaning.
My face never tear into a genuine smile.
My heart so shattered and I just wanted to die.
Contemplating so hard until an idea will pop up.
This life had been nothing but a fucked up.
I felt so alone and unloved.
No one would care if ever decided to be gone.
Gone forever and never come back.
Knowing that it will probably bring back their laugh.
I was alone.
I was lonely.
No one ever cared and gave me two shits.
Always been ignored.
Because I was ugly and fat.
I was worthless and deserved to die.
The world would be more fun without me in it.
A/N: So after reading this larry fic called "Homophobic" which fucked me out to no end, I was ended up so emotional I had to get it out on my system so yeah...obviously I need to write some shit about it. Ugh, I swear to never read anything like it again...it totally ruined me even though I fucking know it was just an AU but still... 10.14.15
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