EPILOUGE
Shiro survive the operation, Thank God! Hindi ko na siguro alam ang gagawin ko kapag nawala pa ulit sakin si shiro.
Pero isa lang ang pinangangamba ko. Shiro might lost his memory. That is what the doctor said. I can't bare seing him in that situation. Forgetting everything about us! Forgetting everything about his past. Pero hindi pa naman sigurado, dahil may posibilidad daw na hindi sya magkaroon ng amnesia. Malalaman lang ang resulta kapag nagising na sya.
Nandito kami ngayon sa room nya, nasa tabi nya ako hawak hawak ko ang kamay nya. On the other side is his mom & sister.
Tumabi naman sakin ang ate nya, she pat my shoulder, nakita nya siguro kung gano ako katakot sa magiging resulta. Pero kahit ano pa man iyon, matatanggap ko. Hindi ko sya iiwan ano man ang mangyare, sakaling may amnesia sya, hindi ako aalis sa tabi nya. Gagawa kami ng bagong memories magkasama. Ang mahalaga ngayon ligtas na sya tatanggapin ko ano man ang magiging resulta.
"Everything will be fine nam, my little bro is a fighter. Tignan mo nakaligtas sya diba?" I nod at her. I know that. I know it very well. My shiro is a fighter. Hindi sya ganun kadali sumusuko kaya tiwalang tiwala ako sa kanyang makakaya nya ito.
"Oh my god! He's moving! Tita! Tita! Shiro is moving!" I became histerical! Gumalaw kasi ang kamay ni shiro na hawak ko. Ramdam na ramdam ko. Pinisil pisil pa nya iyon.
Lahat kami nakatingin sa kanya. Unti unti syang gumagalaw. He open his eyes slowly at nilibot nya ang tingin sa piligid. Tumingin sya saakin. I smiled at him
Kumunot naman ang nuo nya. Oh god! Dont tell me?
Binaling nya ang tingin nya kay tita. He slowly moving his lips. He's saying something.
"M-mom?" He uttered. Para namang nabuhayan ako. Thank god! He dont lost his memory!
Nakilala nya si tita! Oh god! Thankyou so much!
"Yes son, how are you? May masakit ba sayo?" Nagaalalang tanong ni tita sa kanya.
He smiled and then umiling lang sya. Oh! That smile!
Tumingin naman sya sa ate nyang katabi ko.
"A-ate?" He ask again. Confirm. Shiro survived it all. Thankyou so much Papa jesus!
"How's my beloved brother?" Malambing na sabi ng ate nya.
"I-im fine" sagot nito.
Unti unti namang tumingin sakin si shiro. Hanggang sa bumaba yung tingin nya sa magkahawak na kamay namin. Im waiting for him to utter my name.
Kumunot yung nuo nya pag tingin sa kamay naming magkahawak. And now? Unti unti na akong ginagapangan ng kaba sa buong sistema ko.
"S-shiro" naka ngiting banggit ko sa pangalan nya.
He look at me intently. Hanggang sa tumatalim ang titig nya saakin. Ramdam ko ding unti unti nyang tinatanggal ang magkahawak na kamay namin.
No no no! This can't be!
"W-who are you?" He coldly say. And with that my tears started to fall, nangyare na ang kinakatakutan ko. Hinayaan ko ng matanggal ang kamay nya sa pagkahawak ko.
Nagumpisa naman ng magpanic ang ate at mama nya
"Oh god son! Dont you remember nam?" Kinakabahang tanong ni tita. Ako naman nakatingin lang kay shiro habang umiiyak padin.
I saw him look at me at agad ding nag iwas.
"I wont ask if i know her" dirediretsong sabi nya.
"Mom i'll call the doctor now" sabi ng ate ni shiro. Umiling naman ang mama nito.
"I'll come with you, i want to know what's happening on my son" salaysay ni tita.
Then they left us alone.
SHIRO'S POV
"S-shiro?" I look at the girl beside me. She's still crying. I want her to stop. I want her to hush. I want her to on my arms. But i just cant destroy my plan. I can't destroy it just like that.
Im sorry nam
"Will you stop crying? Your sob is annoying" i put irritated tone on my voice.
"I-im sorry, haays bakit kasi di mo ako maalala? Nakakainis ka! Pati ba pagmamahal mo sakin nakalimutan mo na kaya ganyan kana magsungit! Nakakainis!" Bumubulong sya pero naririnig ko padin.
I look at the other side dahil ayokong makita nya ang lihim na pag ngiti ko.
"Are you saying something? Ayoko sa lahat yung bumubulong bulong lalo na sa harap ko" i act annoyed again. Nam sighed then she look at me with those cute brown eyes.
I got shock when she cried her heart out
"I hate you! Sila ate, sila tita naalala mo pero bakit ako hindi?! Why do you have to forget about me shiro? Alam mo ba kung gano kasakit yun? Tagos dito e!" Then she point out her heart "Pero kahit ganon, hindi ko parin magawang magalit sayo! This is what you do to me! Im so madly inlove with you! Na kahit na nakalimutan mo ko hindi ko parin magawang magalit at sukuan ka. Mahal na mahal kita shiro e. At kahit mainis ka, kahit sungit sungitan mo pa ako dito, hindi ako susuko at hindi ako aalis sa tabi mo." She sob again. But this time the louder one.
I know how much she love me. I gave all the reason for her to hate me back then, but she chose to understand and pursue me.
God! Help me with this plan! I cant take it anymore! I can't bare seing her cry. Im gonna stop this shit. I'll stick with the second plan. I hope it'll be succesful i want to own this girl. I want to her for the rest of my life.
"Aaargh! N-nam?" Nagkunwari akong masakit ang ulo at binaggit ko ang pangalan nya.
I saw her stiff. She look at me with her jaw drop. Nakatitig lang sya sakin disbelief is written all over her face.
"N-nam?" I ask again.
Umiling iling sya. Then she look at me again. How i wish that i have camera on my hand. Im gonna capture this precious moment of ours. Nam is really cute with her own simple ways. That's traits of her makes me fall deeply. Deeply that i dont know if i can get up on that deep. But it's ok as long as this girl beside me would stay and never leave myside i dont care if i cant get up. Honestly? I would love to fall harder if she's the one who's staying on my side.
"OH MY GOD!" She slowly said. I did'nt utter any word i just smiled at her "Say it again shiro please!" She plead.
"S-say what?" I ask. "Say my name again please?"
" Nammie Stephan KIGAWA." Pinagdiinan ko talaga yung apilido ko. Her eyes got teary again. I gestured her to come over me. And she did. I hug her.
"Silly! Im not yet your wife. That's not my surename" natatawang sabi nya.
"Im sorry nam" i hug her tightly.
"Sorrt for what? You dont need to say sorry shiro, having you is enough, surviving your operation is enough lo--" i cut her. Hinarap ko sya saakin. And then i look straigthly in her eyes.
"Sorry, im just pretending while ago, I did not forget you. Im sorry. I just did that because i want to do something, then there you are crying, and with that i realize how jerk i am making the most beautiful woman cried" i said.
Nag iwas sya ng tingin sakin. I started to panic. Is she mad at me? I was about to lift her face when she look at me wearing her genuine smile.
Heaven is all i can see.
"I know you wont do that for nothing. Now tell me what are you planning why did you do that?" I gulp. Should i say it now?
NAM'S POV
"Shiro? Im asking you?" Sasagot na sana sya ng biglang dumating sila tita.
"Oh my god son! Are you o--" he cut his mom.
"Mom ate? Can you go out for awhile. Were talking" si shiro nga ito. Ugh! I saw her ate smirk and smiled at me.
"Mom, let's leave them for a while let nam punished her right nam?" Kinindatan pa ako ng ate ni shiro. Napangiti nalang ako. Alam na nila siguro na hindi naman talaga ako nakalimutan ng mokong na to.
Tuluyan na silang lumabas. Hinarap ko naman si shiro.
"So what are you saying?" Nakita ko naman ang pag aalangan sa mukha nya. He acted on me awhile ago. Ako naman ang aarte ngayon.
"Wag mo nalang sabihin kung nagaalangan ka tatawagin ko lang muna sila, sabihin mo nalang sakin kung handa ka ng sabihin tsaka ako babalik. maiwan muna kita" i act dissapointed. Akma na akong aalis ng bigla nya akong hilain at kinabig papunta sa kanya.
He's now hugging me.
"D-dont leave me nam please" he plead. Hindi ako nagsalita hinayaan ko lang syang nakayakap saakin.
"Ginawa ko lang naman yun kasi im planning something. I want to s-surprise you, i want it to be the most unforgetable event in your life, kaso nung nakita kitang umiyak, hindi ko kinaya that's why i cut the act" paliwanag nya. Salamat talaga at nakayakap ako sa kanya kaya hindi nya makikita ang lihim na pag ngiti ko.
"So what's the main reason mr. Kigawa?"
Kumalas sya sa pag kakayakap at unti unti nya akong hinarap sa kanya. He's looking me in the eye.
"N-nam?" Halos matawa ako kasi, ilang beses pa syang lumunok bago banggitin ang pangalan ko, mukha syang kabadong kabado.
"Yes mr. Kigawa?" Tanong ko sa kanya.
"Pleasemarryme!" Mabilis nyang sabi
Kahit naintindihan ko yung sinabi nya pinaulit ko pa ito. "Please marry me" mabagal na sabi nya. I am so damn happy! I am so full of emotions, di ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. Pero nangingibabawa ang tuwa.
My eyes started to water. Hindi dahil sa lungkot kundi sa saya.
"Ugh! Nam. Talk please! Wag mo naman ako pakabahin ng ganito" usal nya.
"Sorry shiro" banggit ko. Unti unti naman nag bago ang reaction ng kanyang mukha. Puno ng takot at lungkot.
"A-are you rejecting me?" And now the cold shiro is starting to cry. I hug him tight.
"Sorry because starting today? Im not gonna let you go. I'll always keep you mine. Be ready for the consequence of asking that question shiro"
"Is that a y-yes?" Nagagalak ng tanong nya.
"Yes shiro it is a yes! And now are you ready for the consequence?" I ask him.
"What consequences future Mrs. Kigawa?"
"Marrying me shiro. I am fully aware of me being stupid most of the time, can you bare that? I am also messed up, and I am so hard to deal with you can’t even imagine how hard it would be and I know you always try so hard to put up with me and my shits. I am always just scared of us breaking up because I don’t think I can handle it. But God, if you were gone in my life I don’t know if I can move on. I don’t even know if I can still get my life back after I have lost you. I don’t want to love anyone after you if we ever got separated. Sobrang natatakot ako. Hindi kita kayang pakawalan kung sakali man. Hindi ko kayang mawala ka. I don’t think I can love anyone after you. I might be clingy & possesive shiro. Are you sure you want to marry me?"
"What are you talking about nam? I want to marry you because i love every single thing of you, & i dont care if your hard to deal with, i will understand you all of the time. I ask you to marry me because i love you and im sure of that. No one can change this feelings nam no one. So im asking you again. Will you marry me?" Hindi ko na alam ang isasagot ko. I am so speechless. All i know is im happy. Im blessed.
I nod at him.
"You wont regret this nam" the he kissed me. "I love you" he whisphered after cutting our kiss.
"Finally!" Nagulantang naman kami sa sumigaw. Sila tita at ate.
"Kelan ako magkakaroon ng pamangkin?" Tanong ng ate ni shiro.
"Hoy shiloliyah! Ayoko pa maging lola ha!" Pag poprotesta ni tita
"Pwes ako ma, gusto ko na maging tita" humarap sakin si ate liyah tapos bumulong.
"Little boy ha? Then she wint at me.
"Mom? Ate? Why cant you just leave us muna? Cant you see? Were having our moment here" pagsusungit ni shiro. Kinurot ko naman ng mahina ang tagiliran nya.
"Why?" Kunot nuong tanong nila.
"Kanina mo pa sila pinapaalis let them be here they're your family shiro.
"Ang gulo kasi nila. Hindi kita masolo. You know i can't get enough of you kahit nasa tabi kita" napatawa naman ako sa sinabi nya. Hindi lang ata ako ang possesive dito.
"We'll be together shiro. Sooner or later hayaan na muna natin sila makasama ka. Tutal were already engage. We'll be married soon. Magkakasama din tayo ng matagal. So let them be here with you"
He sighed.
"Ok. As long as your here with me too" he said then he kissed me again. Napalaki naman mata ko. He's kissing me infrony of his ate and his mom! God.
SHIRO AND I WILL ALWAYS BE AN
UNFINISHED BUSINESS!