Naeun' POV:
Tonight's my last night here in my house. By tomorrow afternoon, I'd be deported to my dorm already.
I lay in my bed,rolling and rolling looking for the right position to sleep. I sat up,there was no chance that I could shut my eyes now.
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. It was nearly 1 am in the morning. How could Mom or Dad be awake at this time?
I opened the door and found Dad carrying a glass of milk for me.
"Can I talk to you Naeun?" - He asked.
"Of course Dad. Come in."
Dad entered my room and looked around. I shut the door and placed the milk by the bedside table.He sighed.
"Are you having a hard time to sleep?" - He asked.
"Yes, I think I am. Maybe it's because I'll be going back tomorrow."- I sighed.
"You've grown so much Naeun. I can't believe you are so much of a lady now."
"I'm still your Naeun, Dad. You don't have to worry."
"Do you know why I wanted to talk to you?" - he asked.
I rattled my mind for possibilities why he wanted to talk to me but nothing came up.
"Why Dad? What is it?"
"It's about you, Naeun."
I felt myself become tense. I wasn't ready for that.
"Why Dad? What's with me?
"I have been observing you since you arrived. I realized that you have grown so much. It seems only yesterday that you were a baby but look at you now."
I grinned at him.
"You're a 20 year old now and you have been married twice at this age. I was surprised that you were. You haven't even tell us that you were going to get married."- He laughed.
Oh right. The moment I became 20, I was married not just once but twice. My marriage in WGM was really a surprise so I had no choice. Even my members didn't know. So far, my marriage with Taemin left a mark on me more than the other one.
"But you know, that WGM with Taemin has helped you express yourself. Maybe now, you can express yourself to me, Naeun."
"What do you mean Dad?" - I feel confused of his words. What is running in his head?
"Is there someone you like these days?" - He asked.
Okay. I didn't see that coming.Panic. What do I say?
Reasons, allibies and excuses. Think. Just think.
"Dad you see..." I lowered my head, trying to avoid Dad's eyes.
"I know how you feel Naeun, I know you like him."-
I slowly darted my face to see Dad's reaction. I feel tense now, I better start the reasoning .
"Oh. Dad. You see that's because we got married and somehow we-"
"Hushh Naeun. I have seen everything about the two of you."
"You what?" - I asked.What! did he see everything in WGM? As the thought arise, I couldn't help but feel awkward.
"I watched all your WGM with your Mom."
I couldn't help but groan. I hid my face in a pillow and screamed there.Seriously, some programs just have to be banned from my parents.
"You see that's the reason why I wanted to talk to you, Naeun."
I let go of the pillow and faced him.Dad's tone seemed serious now. I wonder what he's been thinking lately.
"What do you mean Dad?"
"There was one thing that bothered me, Naeun. It was when you cried in Heiri."
Oh that incident.
"When you're Mom and I watched we were worried for you since you never had any experience on how to deal with those situations, how to feel hurt from someone you liked."
"When you cried, the same thoughts came running in me."
"What thoughts Dad?"
"That you aren't ready for love, Naeun."
"What makes you say that Dad?"
"Because you were always scared of being hurt. That was why."
That hit me real hard.
"There's no person who loved, that didn't get hurt.I want you to remember that Naeun."
I nodded at his words. I now understand why he wanted to talk. He was direct on his points.
"Dad why are you telling me this?"- I asked.
"Because I don't want you to be broken, I want you to be prepared."
We became silent for a while.My thoughts were all over the place. There was something I wanted to ask Dad about.
"Dad, can I ask you something?"- I asked.
"What is it?"
"Earlier before dinner I saw you talking to Taemin, what did you tell him? Was it about me?"
"That is between him and I. It's getting late. We both have to rest now.You better drink your milk so you could sleep."
Ugh. Why couldn't he just tell me?
Dad walked towards the door. I watched him reach the door's handle but then he suddenly spoke...
"Naeun?"
"Yes dad?"- I replied,hoping that maybe he'd tell me.
"Taemin's a nice guy, I can see that but always remember what I told you. Not for me but for yourself."
I dashed to Dad and gave him a tight hug.It wasn't what i was hoping for him to say but, the moment needed it.
"Thanks Dad."
"Good night, sweetheart." - He said as he kissed me goodnight.
I closed the door and went back to my bed. I lay there thinking.
Late at night when everyone's sleeping,I now stay up just to think of Dad's words and of Taemin.
"There's no person who loved,that didn't get hurt."
I thought about that over and over again. Dad's right. You never have loved if you didn't get hurt.
It's not love at all.
Wait...
Am I ready of being hurt? I always thought that I was not ready for love because I was not ready of being hurt. When love comes, pain follows too.
What do I do now? Is it right for me to feel in love now?
So many questions but the answers are so few. All I really know is I have learned to love him. That's for sure.
Taemin's POV:
We arrived home after a long drive. Letters and gifts were out by the gate again. Fans were unbelievable as always. Some just freak me out.
Hyung got out and picked them for me. We'll never know what might happen if I gathered them myself.
It was placed in a huge box. All of which were really pretty stunning. Their efforts are really great.
I sat down and stared at them. The letters who were waiting to be read. started to see if there was anything special. I wondered if Naeun's letter was here.
I quickly scrambled the letters on the floor. The once beautifully nice pile of letters were on the floor, like a sea of letters.
"Taemin, why did you scatter them? Look at what you've done." - Mom said shaking her head in disapproval.
"Are all the letters from the fans?" - I asked them shoving off the letters I checked which were not Naeun's.
"I don't know. How should I know? Do I look like a mailman to you?"- hyung said.
"Then I guess, I have to look through all of them." - I sighed.
"Why? Are you expecting some particular person to write you a letter?"- Mom asked.
"Yes umma. It's not just someone, it's Naeun."
I continued searching for letters. It should be here right?
Mom came and sat right across me.
"I think I will have to help you. It will take you forever to look in all these."
"There's no forever Umma." - I told her.
"How come?"
"Because you're gonna help me right? This won't take forever if you help me."
"Wait,why would Naeun write you a letter when she could simply see you or send you a message?"
"We both wrote a letter to each other. It was my coming of age episode on We Got Married. The letter that we wrote will be sent to us on the same day the next year."
"Meaning what?"- Mom asked.
Ugh. Mom is really slow on mind intake. If she was a video, she is really "loading" or "buffering".
"Meaning that letter should have been with me. We wrote it last May and now it's merely the middle of July. I should have seen the letter months ago."
"Months?"- She asked.
Seriously is mom just slow or is she not paying attention.
"Yes,mom. MONTHS."
"Then I guess we should stop looking."
She suddenly stood up and left the room.
"Why? We're not even done yet.Umma where are you going?"
She went back in her home clothes and sat across me.
"Taemin if it has been months then, these aren't just the letters you received."
"What do you mean?" - I got up and stretched my muscles.
"When you weren't here, fans from all over just send some letters each and everyday. Do you know how much letters you still haven't read?"
Oh. The fans.How could I forget?
"Exactly how many?" - I asked.
"There's about 7 sacks in your room."
"What?! Seven?"
"Yes. Actually these letters aren't a part of that seven sacks yet. The letters now would make a full sack."
I groaned. So there's still a lot that I have to go through? Great, seven sacks to go.
"Okay, I'll just pack these letters in sack no. 8 then."
I grabbed a sack from the drawers and started placing all the letters in it. Mom sat on the sofa watching me.
I counted the letters while sacking them all.Seriously, I can't read this all even if I had free time. My free time isn't enough for a good sleep how much more reading eight sacks of letters.
Thinking about it now, I have eight sacks to look into for Naeun's only letter. Just one letter.
Ugh.
"You know son, I've been wondering. What's so special about Naeun? I mean there's a lot of other girls.- Mom asked.
I looked at Mom as she asked. Why a sudden question of Naeun?
She sighed.
"I know even if you won't tell me, I know you like her."
"Why Umma, is there something wrong with me liking Naeun?"
Mom walked over me and hugged me tightly. She squeezed me really hard. Hard enough to break my own skeleton.
"Nothing, it's just my Taemin's a big man now. You know, your going to date then get married. If you're gonna marry her, you married really well."- She exclaimed.
"Then you're going to have a house, a car and have children. I can't wait to have little Naeuns and Taemins to take care of. Isn't that exciting?"
I just stood there grinning at her. Mom's going way too far. Dating isn't just straight ahead to marriage. Even having a love life is hard since were both idols. We're too young and there's so much more to consider.
"Mom, you're going overboard. I'm turning 22 years old and that's too young to get married. And besides...
We still have a lot to go through."
"You're right you still have a lot to go through. Fights and all sacrifices along the battlefield of love."
"Fights?"- I asked.
"Yes, fights as in misunderstandings. All couples go through that, dear. There's no such thing as a perfect relationship."
"Okay Mom, I got it."
I stood up after placing the letters in the sack.My back seemed to hurt from all the bending. Seems like a good sleep would fix this.
"Mom, I'll go ahead. I feel so tired now."
I got up from the couch and pecked a kiss on mom's cheek. I started to walk to my room. The thought about laying down makes me feel that heaven is for real.
"Okay, go. I'll just check the sacks myself so you won't have to be stressed on them."
"Thanks!" - I said right before I entered my room.
As I entered the room, I found the sacks of letters lined up by my cabinet.Okay,Mom isn't joking about the sacks.
I managed to get my coat off and dropped to my bed. I lay there just simply breathing, staring at the ceiling. Sometimes I just want to be alone, face the wall and talk to it. All the people around makes me feel uncomfy. The wall and me would suit me fine.
I just want to veer away from the rest of the world. The pressure, the exhaustion and all those.The feeling of just wanting to relax just stays on me.
Lately,there's so much more to that now. Naeun is exactly why. I've never dated or liked someone that much before and that simply bothers me. I am worried of the things that might ruin us. Even having a relationship bothers me.The commitment we both have to make if we wanted a relationship.
Time would be the biggest problem for us. We have to make time then for each other. This would be hard but I guess it will be worth it.
I had my phone just by me. I wanted to call her but it's late. I don't want to be too greedy since I've seen her today. Ugh.How I wish on the stars that somewhere Naeun maybe, she's thinking of me too.
I thought of her and her dad too. Her dad happend to talk to me just before dinner when we were cooking. I can't help but feel nervous, for all I know when you get married the daughters were afraid of their mother-in-law while the guys...
The guys are afraid of their father-in-law.
And that was what I felt when her Dad talked to me. I smelled fear in me.
I remember everything from our conversation.
Flashback:
"Do you like my daughter?"- he asked.
I fely a sudden gush in myself. I was tense actually.
"Yes sir, I do and I would like to ask if that's okay with you?"
He heave out a sigh. What does the sigh mean? Negative or a postive reaction? This is nerve wrecking!
"You see Taemin, that decision isn't with me. It's with Naeun. If she likes you then that's okay but if not then don't force yourself to her. Seeing how you two are now, I think she does like you but there is one thing I wouldn't want you to do to her."
Her dad's tone became stern and his face was all blank, I guess this was something serious he wanted to say.
"If you don't mind sir, what is it that do you don't want?" - I asked.
He suddenly stopped cooking and focused on talking to me. His eyes were just fixed with mine and I didn't dare look away.
"Taemin, since you like her and she probably feels the same I know you're going to somewhere. A relationship, a commitment.
And when you're in that state there would always be misunderstandings, fights and sacrifices so someone gets hurt.
I know that being hurt is part of loving someone because there's no person in this world who loved that didn't get hurt. You never have loved if you never felt pain. It's not love at all.
If you have problems, I would stay out of that but this is one thing I won't want you to do to Naeun.
If you two don't end up together, that's fine. But when the time comes that you'll go on your seperate ways please...
don't leave her broken."- he said.
"What do you mean sir? What do you mean by that?"- i asked as I simply stare at him.
I can see through his eyes and words that he cared much for his daughters, for Naeun. What a great father he is.
"You know why a relationship doesn't last long? it's because we believe that letting go was so much better than holding on.
Us men, we love women when they're whole and happy but when they're broken we leave them, when in the first place it was our fault why they were broken."
I couldn't help but feel that he was right.
"That's why I'm telling you this Taemin,because I don't want my daughter to feel such pain. The pain of being broken."
"I know what you mean sir. I understand. I won't let that happen."
"Then, I put my trust in you Taemin. I'll trust your word and I hope you'll keep them."- He said as he stretched out his hand for me to shake.
I held it and shook hands with him. I felt great now that I know what her father thinks about me.
End of Flashback
Well I hope I'll be able to keep my word because I don't want Naeun to be broken. I don't want to be the reason why she'll be broken.
How can I, a person who loved her so much leave her like that?
This feeling is new.It's exciting but terrifying.
I definitely am not ready to fall so deep in love. This isn't just an ordinary love.
Author's Note:
Hey guys, it took a while for me to update the story. So sorry. Hope you'll rate this up. Thanks for the support. Write some comments,suggestions or the things you want to happen I may use them if it fits in the storyline.
Lots of Love...