"...WE'RE DONE..."
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...
...
It's like a knife that stabbed my heart to the deepest.
PAIN.
PAIN.
PAIN.
No...
No...
No...
I don't even know how to put my thoughts into words... coz even my tongue was frozen from those sudden words.
Gakupo...
Gakupo...
Gakupo...
He's just standing in front of me, silent, and hurt while looking down on the floor.
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...
...
"Let's...", he tried to say. "Let's just forget each other...", he continued and on the act of walking away but...
I don't know...
I don't know but my body reacted on its own and hugged his back so tight.
"I don't want!", I cried.
PAIN.
"I don't want!"
PAIN.
"I don't want!"
PAIN!!!!!!!!!
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
"I don't want!"
I repeatedly said.
I didn't stop.
I can't stop.
"Gakupo... I don't want...", I cried loudly.
...
"I don't want...", I still hugged him so tight and stomped my feet on the floor like a kid. "I don't want...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
But then, he just tried to take a step forward.
I tightened up my hug more because I knew for sure that if I'm going to release him...
...
...
...
...he will disappear from my life forever...
"I don't want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want, Gakupo!!!!!!!!!!!!! UUUUGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!", I cried loudly.
"But you're not listening to me...", he suddenly said.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"I!!!!! I will listen to you from now on!!!!!! I will listen!!!!!!!"
I never knew...
"I will!!!!!! Please!!!!!!!!!!!"
I never imagined...
"Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I never thought...
"Gakupo.... Gakupo...."
I walked on his front while still hugging him so tight.
I kept crying on his chest.
Can't stop.
Don't want to stop.
"Hug me too, Gakupo!!!! Hug me too!!!!!!", I said with sulky tone
I made his hands wrapped on my waist using my right hand but they're just falling down.
He's not...
He's not hugging me back...
"Gakupo... Gakupo... Hug me... Hug me too...", I'm still crying I tried to wrap his hands to me but he's not doing it.
No...
No...
I don't want this...
I don't want...
I kissed him everywhere.
I kissed his lips, neck, cheek and shoulders but he's not responding.
"Uuuuggghhh... Gakupo... Don't do this... Please... I love you... I love you...", I kept on saying.
...
"I love you...", I said but he did not move or say anything.
PAIN...
...
...
...
No...
It's the end...
We're really done...
...
I stepped back.
Still crying and trembling...
I accepted his decision...
But I still cried horribly in his front.
Cried.
It hurts...
Cried.
It really hurts...
Cried.
I felt like dying...
Was this really our goodbye?...
Was it really our goodbye to each other?...
...
...
...
And as I stepped back again, I just felt a sudden pull and it was the time that Gakupo just hugged me...
He hugged me so tight.
He hugged me like crashing me in his arms.
...
...
...
From that, I hugged him back and cried on his chest.
Crash me.
Break me.
...
...
...
Kill me.
As long as it's you... it's fine...
"I don't want it too. I don't want it too!!!", he strongly said and just kept on hugging me.
"I love you. I love you. I love you.", I kept mumbling while crying.
"I love you too! I love you so much!!!!", he said too and started to cry.
I cried more.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry for being like this... I'm sorry for being me... but I want you to be only mine... I want to be your world.", he said while crying.
"I'm already yours and you're already my world...", I cried to him.
We looked to each others' eyes.
Gakupo started to wipe my tears and I just put my hands to his shoulders.
"I will never do anything you don't like... I will never... Never again..."
"I know... I know..."
From that... I never saw myself...
"I love you.", he said.
"I love you more."
I got drowned to him more.