Pic on side is Sophia xx
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*DREAM*
I grasped the railings tightly as I watched the traffic travel below me. My whole life depended on this decision.
"LILY!" Someone yelled, I turned and saw my dad who was holding James. Tears fell down his cheeks and James, well James was crying his eyes out. I just can't cope anymore.
"LILY, PLEASE!" Dad yelled, I shook my head and my grip loosened.
"LILY!" Someone else yelled, I know that voice.
Luke.
I couldn't look at him. I let my grip loosen more before finally letting go.
The air was cold against my face as I fell, it seemed to take forever. Finally my body slammed against the concrete. Pain spread through my head and body.
HONK!
I saw the head lights.
That was the last thing I ever saw.
*END OF DREAM*
I woke up sweating, shaking and crying.
I got up and walked over to the radiator, it was freezing cold. Great! Sophia probably turned it off last night! She's such a cow! I walked into James' room to see him pretending to play guitar.
"I FEEL LIKE DANCING TONIGHT!" He yelled and jumped into the air, like guitarists do.
"OMG DID YOU SEE THAT" I said in a girly high pitched voice, he turned around and blushed.
"I'll put that song on for you" I smiled.
Shawty said she wants to run away,
Says I look like a boy she used to date (Ha!).
Took me by the hand and pulled me to the stairs,
(I’m NOT interested, girl).
Put her tongue all up in my ear, (Gross!)
Almost made me spill my beer, (Oh Shit!)
She’s up and ready to go, but I don’t care.
(Pssh, whatever!)
'Cause I’m in the zone,
Turn off my phone, I've got my own agenda.
I feel like dancing tonight,
I’m gonna party like it’s my civil right,
(everybody get kinda awesome).
It doesn’t matter where, I don’t care if people stare, (Woah!)
'cause I feel like dancing tonight.
[Alex laughing]
Everybody getting kind of crunk,
I think some dude just grabbed my junk, (Woah!)
Now I know how Ke$ha must be feelin’,
(Like... what if we're the aliens?)
Bros try to turn me upside down.
I put a keg tap to my mouth,
But that’s okay, I’m dancin’ on the ceiling.
'Cause I’ve got the groove,
I’ll bust a move; just try and stop me.
I feel like dancing tonight,
I’m gonna party like it’s my civil right,
(everybody get kinda awesome).
It doesn’t matter where, I don’t care if people stare, (Woah!)
'cause I feel like dancing tonight.
Somebody call the police, (Woo-oooh!)
I think they’re coming to get me,
They say: “You’ve got the right to remain on the dance floor”,
So show us what you've got 'cause you know that you've got more.
I feel like dancing tonight,
I came to party like it’s my civil right,
(everybody get kinda awesome).
It doesn’t matter where, I don’t care if people stare, (Woah!)
Because I feel like dancing tonight.
Oh, one more time,
I feel like dancing tonight,
(I feel like dancing…)
I’m gonna party like it’s my civil right, (Woooah)
It doesn’t matter where, I don’t care if people stare,
'cause I feel like dancing tonight (Oh, oh, oooh!)
I feel like dancing tonight.
We collapsed on the bed laughing and giggling.
"I love you" He smiled and hugged my stomach.
"I love you too" I replied.
BEEP BEEP
I walked over to my phone.
From: LUKE IS SO DAMN SEXY! <3
I laughed at the name.
Hey, do you wanna come out today? It's just my friends wanna meet you..
To: LUKE IS SO DAMN SEXY! <3
I'd love to but I have James, I have to look after him, sorry maybe another time?
I had that small amount of disappointment inside of me, OK a big amount. I heard a loud smash downstairs and James ran into my arms.
"Shh, she can't hurt you while i'm here" I told him, smoothing his brown hair.
From: LUKE IS SO DAMN SEXY! <3
Bring him with you, unless you don't want to.
To: LUKE IS SO DAMN SEXY! <3
Sure, where do you wanna meet? and what time?
From: LUKE IS SO SEXY! <3
I'll pick you up, and around 12?
To: LUKE IS SO DAMN SEXY! <3
K see you then :)
From: LUKE IS SO DAMN SEXY! <3
OK, see you soon :)
I squealed and grabbed James, he laughed at me.
"You wanna come out with Luke and some friends?" I asked and he nodded.
"Let's get you dressed then" I smiled and he ran towards his wardrobe and pulled down his spider man costume.
"Please?" He begged, I nodded and he tried to put it on. I helped him and he ran around the room, pretending to spray web from his wrist.
"I'm going to have a shower be back in a min" I told James.
I climbed into the shower, locking the door behind me.
Once I got out I changed into black ripped jeans and a blue button up. I straightened my hair before pulling it into a high pony. I checked the time, it was 11:50. I grabbed James and headed downstairs. we got to the bottom of the stairs when I realised I had left my phone on my bed.
SMASH!
"Go outside" I told James, he did and quickly ran outside. I hurried upstairs and grabbed my phone before walking back downstairs.
"Where are you going" Sophia asked. I didn't reply, I began to run towards the door before she blocked it.
"I asked you a question!" She spat.
"And I didn't reply" I muttered.
"I'm sick of you! I'm in charge of you! Shut up and listen to me! I don't want you leaving this house! You're dad hates you! He loves me and only me!!" She exclaimed, before I could stop my hand flew to her cheek. She held her cheek before balling her hand into a fist and punching me. I grabbed my nose and held in my tears. I pushed her out the way and walked out, slamming the door behind me. I leaned against the door to catch my breath. I was super angry. I began feeling faint, I looked at my hands and noticed the red liquid.
"LILY!" James screamed and hugged my legs. "I'm fine lets just go" I said and began walking away.
HONK!
Luke jumped out of Ashton's car, while it was still moving, and ran towards me.
"OMG! Lily what happened?" Luke asked removing my hands, so he could inspect my nose.
"I fell" I muttered, it looked like he didn't believe it but he dropped it anyway.
"Get in the car I'll take you to mine and clean you up" Luke smiled guiding me to the car. Once I got in he passed me a tissue, I thanked him before holding it against my nose and leaning forwards.
"There's blood on your top" James pointed out.
"Wow...Just wow" I laughed. He laughed and fell onto me, landing on my thighs. I gasped and pushed him off holding in the tears. He jumped and looked at me.
"What's up?" Luke asked gently.
"I...Bruised it?" I muttered but it sounded more like a question. He didn't buy it but he dropped it. Once we arrived Luke opened the door, I climbed out before walking to the door. Luke smiled and opened the door before guiding my to the bathroom. It was a typical boys bathroom shaving cream, after shave and deodorant laid across the counter. Towels and clothes laid all over the floor.
"We weren't expecting people round" Luke muttered and scratched the back of his neck awkwardly. I took in what he was wearing, he had black jeans, a blink 182 top and black vans on.
"Sit on the counter" he smiled. I tried to but I couldn't. Luke chuckled and grabbed me making me flinch but he didn't notice, he lifted me onto the counter.
"Thanks" I smiled, he smiled back and pulled my hands away from my nose, he cleaned the blood off my face and nose.
"OK, um, what are we gonna do about your top?" He muttered, more to himself than me. He looked around before walking out the room. Shortly after he returned with a Nirvana jumper in his hands.
"It's the only clean one I have" He smiled, I nodded and thanked him before taking it from his hands.
"It's OK, Nirvana's cool" I smiled, he walked out and changed into his jumper. The sleeves covered my arms because they were long, I smiled gently, it was so comfy and soft. I grabbed my blood stained button up and walked out, Luke was leaning against the opposite wall on his phone.
"Ready to go?" He smiled, I nodded and we walked downstairs. He grabbed my button up and put it into his washing machine. We walked back into the car and were surprised when we found Ashton in the back tickling James.
"LILY *giggle* HELP *giggle* ME!" James yelled while laughing. I giggled quietly before trying to pry Ashton away from my little brother.
"No fair! Lukey come help!" Ashton exclaimed and suddenly I was being tickled. Luke pulled me back so my legs were hanging out the side of the car and my body was on the back seats, with Luke leaning over me.
"No *giggle* Luke *giggle*stop" I laughed, I covered my mouth, my laugh is loud and gross. Luke smiled at me. I tried pushing him off me but he was too strong. I wrapped my legs around his waist and some how flipped us. This must look so wrong, my legs were either side of his waist and my arms were either side of his head.
"Whoa, guys not in my car!" Ashton laughed. I pulled myself off Luke and climbed back to rescue my brother. Ashton laughed and he climbed into the front of the car. Ash drove off and we headed to wherever we are going.
Finally Ashton pulled up at Pizza hut and James screamed. I looked at him and he instantly shut up. We all laughed and we headed into the restaurant. We walked over to a booth where two boys and a girl were sat. The first boy had dark brown hair and brown eyes, he was wearing a plain blue shirt and black jeans. The second boy had pink hair and green eyes, he was wearing a rolling stones shirt and black jeans. Finally the girl had long straight brown hair and brown eyes, she was wearing a One Direction jumper with high waist jeans.
"Hey guys" Luke smiled at them.
"Hey Luke" They replied.
"Guys this is Lily and her younger brother James" Luke told them and they nodded.
"Lily, James this is Calum" Luke said and pointed towards the first boy.
"His girlfriend Jessie" Luke continued.
"And finally that's Michael" Luke smiled gently, I was extremely awkward when I was talking to new people.
"Hi, I'm Michael Clifford" He smiled and patted the seat beside him, I shyly muttered a 'Hi' before sitting. James climbed onto my lap and played with Michael's hair, Michael just laughed. Luke climbed in next to me before Ashton climbed in next to Luke. A waitress walked up and pulled out her note book.
"Hello, My name is Anna, what drinks can I get you?" She asked.
"Uh, 5 pepsi's please and..." Luke turned and looked at me.
"Um, a water and an orange juice please" I smiled.
"Coming right up" She smiled before walking off.
"So Lily what's your favourite colour?" Calum asked.
"Blue, black and purple" I muttered.
"Animal?" He asked.
"Penguins are cool and I quite like amphibians like Frogs and I like Turtles" I told him.
"LUKE SHE LIKES PENGUINS!" Michael yelled. Luke hit him across the head gently.
"Shut up Michael!!" Ashton exclaimed.
"Do you have a favourite song? Favourite Bands? Singers?" Calum asked.
"My favourite song is...The rest of us, Favourite bands Simple Plan, McFly, The Fray, All Time Low and Blink 182 and I haven't really got a favourite singer" I told them, they smiled at me gently.
The waitress arrived with our drinks. "Are you ready to order?" She asked. We ordered before going back to our question and answer.
"How old are you James?" Michael asked him.
"I'm 4" He smiled, Michael smiled back making me smile.
"Twitter?" Ash asked.
"it's just Lily Rivers" I told him, they all pulled out their phones, I pulled mine out as well and soon I saw I had 5 new followers;
@LukeHemmings
@CalHood
@AshyIrwin
@MikeClifford
@JessieXX
I followed them back and began to eat.
After the food
"Do you wanna come over mine?" Luke asked.
"Sure" I smiled and he smiled back.
"I have to go now, Me and Jess are going to see a movie" Calum smiled.
"OK, We're gonna head home" Ashton said and Luke stood up. James ran over and grabbed a balloon before heading towards the car. We got in the car and Ash drove us to Luke's house. Once we arrived there Ashton didn't get out.
"You going out with Hollie?" Luke asked Ashton, who nodded and blushed a deep pink.
"Good luck and remember some girls don't like it when you kiss on the first date" Luke winked and Ashton blushed more. Ashton drove off and we walked inside.
"So..what do you wanna do?" Luke asked.
"Don't know" I giggled. James pulled out a DVD and threw it at Luke, luckily he ducked just in time.
"Whoa carefully there" Luke laughed, I just hid my face embarrassed.
"Can we watch it please!?" James asked quickly.
"Couse, Lily do you wanna watch it with us?" Luke asked, I smiled and nodded.
Luke put the DVD on and just as he was about to get up, James climbed onto his back.
"James!" I exclaimed and started laughing hysterically.
Luke started running around as James grabbed his hair and pretended it was the controls. Luke started walking around like a robot.
"Movies starting!" I told them, they ran in and sat on the couch, James sat in Luke's lap and leaned against him.
"Lily, do me a favour, can you go into the kitchen and there should be a pack of popcorn seeds put them in the microwave for 2 minutes" Luke smiled, I nodded and walked into the kitchen doing as I was told. once the popcorn was done I grabbed a bowl and poured the popcorn into it. I brought it back out to see Luke blowing raspberry's on James' stomach, dad does that. James laughed and Luke smiled.
"Here you go" I smiled and sat down next to Luke, holding the popcorn.
"Thanks babe" Luke smiled, I blushed and he realised what he just said.
"Sorry, I, Just, Uh...Sorry I just say it" he muttered.
"It's fine" I smiled and handed him the popcorn.
We all sat and watched 'Finding Nemo'.
After the film.
James was asleep on Luke, I was staring into space while laying with my head on Luke's shoulder and Luke was asleep.
My phone buzzed and I knew that meant the P's were online. The P's are a group of bullies who think they are 'popular' and 'perfect'. They're my bullies and the group consists of 6 people. Brandon Dawson, Amelia Striker, Matthew Cole, Hannah Bedford, Ryan Dawson and Carla Trey. Brandon was the leader, Amelia's his girlfriend, Hannah is Amelia's best friend, Hannah dates Matthew, Matthew's ex is Carla, Carla is now in a relationship with Ryan. All the girls were fake blonde's and had the usual orange face with bright pink lipstick and bold mascara. Brandon and Ryan are twins, not identical, they both had brown longish hair and brown eyes. Matthew has blonde hair and blue eyes. If I had to pick which one I hated most it would have to be Amelia, she's every one of my lessons, EVERY single one. There's no escape. There is one lesson which they are all in which is P.E, you don't understand how much I hate that lesson. There's always the ball thrown at me, getting tripped up, being called fat and the thing that sends me off the edge is making me be last when we pick teams.
I slowly got up and headed into the bathroom, as I walked in I noticed the weighting scales in the corner. I slowly tapped it with my foot before climbing on I watched the numbers go up from 0.00. I got off before it stopped, I felt the tears form in my eyes. I was fat. My thighs were literally on top of each other and I had a huge stomach, every time I think I have lost weight I have only put on more. I have cut down eating and I walk home but nothing ever works. I did my business before washing my hands. I was looking around the bathroom before my eyes landed on the razors. I hesitated before grabbing one, I pulled up my long sleeve and looked at the old cuts.
Warning: self harm
I pulled my blade from left to right on my wrist. I watched as the beads of blood formed over the incision.
"That's for being fat" I whisper to myself.
I repeated the action again just below my other one.
"That's for being ugly" I whispered and tears began to fall.
I did it again before dropping the razor and crying. I curled up into a ball on the floor, I hadn't done it on my wrist for a while, the last time I did it on my wrist my ex best friend saw it and got extremely upset, it's not like she cares anymore. I stopped for a week but the pain got to me and I began attacking my thighs, they're only fat so it doesn't really matter. I sighed and got up pulling my sleeves back down. I picked up the razor and slid it in my pocket.
@StrikeaposeAmelia: Double P.E tomorrow and double Maths :( Bet @LilyRivers Can't wait!!
@Brandonhotness: @StrikeaposeAmelia @LilyRivers Ha lol! Sucks to be her!
@HannahStyles: @LilyRivers God can't you just go away and die, No one likes you!
@Carlababyx: @LilyRivers Why aren't you dead yet?
@MattCODPlayer1: Emo bitch @LilyRivers!
@RyanYOLO: @LukeHemmings @CalHood @AshyIrwin @MikeClifford Why are you hanging around with that slut? @LilyRivers
I turned off my phone and picked up James gently.
"Mhm, ugh, Lily?" James asked gently. I rubbed his back and headed for the door.
"Yeah it's me Jammie" I smiled and the door opened.
"Oh hey" Ashton giggled.
"Hey we were just on our way home" I said and began to head out.
"I'll drive you, it's too cold to walk" He smiled and led me to his car. I smiled and he opened my door.
"Thank you" I smiled and he nodded before getting into the drivers seat.
"Do you like Luke?" He asked.
"Yeah he's really nice, he's really quiet though" I told him and he laughed gently.
"No, I mean like, like" He giggled.
I blushed hard and laughed nervously.
"I don't know I only just met the dude" I laughed.
"This might sound really weird but he talked about you a lot, and he was getting upset because you didn't even know who he was and you know that day I almost ran you over, yeah, well he was talking about inviting you to sit with us at lunch and letting you in our friendship group" Ashton told me and I felt myself smile.
"Wow, I feel so bad now" I muttered.
"It's OK, he hates it when people eat on their own and he heard about you from a girl called Krystal, She said you were a really cool girl but you push people away and that in Luke's eyes was a challenge, He knows that there was something special about you and he wanted to find out what it was" Ashton said and turned into my street, I didn't know what to say. That was strange.
"OK Here you go, keep safe" He smiled, I grabbed the sleepy James before getting out and heading towards my house.
"Thank you, I'll see you around soon" I smiled and headed inside. I opened the door and closed it before heading into the kitchen. I grabbed some water and heading upstairs, I placed James in his bed.
"Night Spiderman" I muttered and kissed his forehead.
I headed downstairs and walked into the living room, only to find some dude on top of Sophia, in a heated make out session. I gasped and they stopped before looking at me.
"Who are you?" The man and I asked at the same time.
"I think you'll find I'm Sophia's daughter" I told him, an angry expression plastered on my face.
"Step." Sophia snapped, for once I could tell she wasn't drunk.
"Dude she's married and is pregnant!" I yelled and she looked at me shocked.
"Yes I know your dirty little secret, I know for a fact you are 3 months and that baby is my fathers, get your toy out of here before I call the police" I yelled and he pulled away from her, he walked out of the house, leaving me and my step mother alone.
"How did you know?" She asked, I could tell she was shaking.
"You left the test in the bathroom, and I heard you talking to the doctor on the phone, plus you only met that thing a month ago" I told her.
"His name is Tim" She told me.
"I don't care! You have a baby! You shouldn't drink! You are married! You shouldn't be dating other men!" I snapped and she nodded. I headed into my room closing the door behind me. I changed into my checked pyjama bottoms before deciding to keep on Luke's shirt and heading to bed. I laid down and put in my headphones before falling asleep.
A/N; it's bad but oh well....
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