𝑲𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒔𝒉: 𝑴𝒚 𝑫𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝑫𝒆𝒔𝒊𝒓𝒆

𝟒𝟎.

KASHISH

I couldn't sleep after that unknown call for three days. I was so fucked up. Ranvijay was so busy with his work that we barely had time to speak to each other. Meantime, I tried to talk to him but his yelled voice over the calls made me reconsider my decision.

So, I dropped the idea but I needed someone's help so I called Arjun. He will surely help me. My heartbeat thudded with no reason when I called him. Maybe I'm nervous. All is well.

ARJUN: "Yeah Kashish" we didn't greet each other but he spoke in a harsh steady voice I'd never heard from him before.

ME: "how have you been bhai?"

ARJUN: "I am okay. Any urgent work Kashish" he looked in hurry.

ME: "Nah! Nothing urgent" I couldn't think straight through the fog of adrenaline.

ARJUN: "Kashish, I will call you later. I am busy with some work" Before I could say bye, he hung up the call.

Something was weird with Arjun. He had been behaving so oddly for the last two months. I hope everything is okay between Isha and him. These days whenever someone take Isha's name in front of him, it would only made him crazy in certain way. 

I think it's a bad idea to interrupt him again. My phone dings. It was text from stalker. My eyebrows went straight after reading his message.

STALKER: "I taught a good lesson to Satvik for troubling you all the time. He is in ICU now"

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I tried not to shiver but things weren't in my favor. That bastard is back. No matter how strong I would've pretended to be whenever he called me, deep inside, I was fucking scared. He brutally beat up Satvik and he ended up in the hospital.

He is now hurting people around me. Things like stalking never bothered me. It would be fascinating to read stories about stalkers, but reality hit different. Knowing you have a stalker, is fucking scary.

I wanted to scream as I'm responsible for Satvik's condition. No matter how much Satvik deserves that treatment, Satvik was just another parasite in my life. He was obsessed with me, even Vikrant once warned him but Satvik never stopped following me.

"I will kill that Major who has my girl" his girl not even in his dream. And he has desire to kill my major; he doesn't even know how many pieces Ranvijay would make if someday he bumped into him.

I've never underestimated Ranvijay. No one knows better than me how ruthless and scary Ranvijay is? But still, a soft part of my heart worried for him. Ranvijay is my only source of love. My life! My family! Everything!

"Kashish! Kashish!" someone tapped my shoulder. It was Riya. "Yeah!" I was struggling with my answer because I don't have any idea for how long I was zoned out. I was blackout. Totally.

"Is everything okay? You look so flushed, so lost" she run her finger into my hair. I took deep breath. One! Two! Three! I mustered a forced smile. "Yeah, everything is fine" I don't want to tell her anything. What if that stalker hurt her?

"What were you saying earlier?" I tried to be clam but I was still tapping my feet beneath the table. We were in canteen for our lunch break. "Have you interviewed for internship? I mean, we barely left month so what's your plan?" Riya sipped her tea.

How did time fly so soon? I forgot about my career. This stalker—I want to kill him. Yes, our golden period was coming to an end. Golden period because in the past five months I found out how insanely I'm in love with Ranvijay.

Ranvijay wasn't in town for week. Where did he go? I don't know. Sometimes his absence gave me thud in my chest. Untold fear. Fear of losing him.

He will be all right. I know my beast very well. But yes, his habits annoyed me most of the time. Ranvijay changed his behavior but some of his habits put me on edge. First, he never wants to talk about his family. Second, he never updated me on his departure.

"I am going to take internship in Pune, in Siddhartha hospital" after all, he already gave me the opportunity. Siddhartha Hospital only entertains VIP's patients, and that would definitely give great push to my medical career.

I dropped the idea of being part of army or more convenient answer I couldn't be part of the army anymore because of my past entanglements with terrorists. But I've personal reason too. After my father's death, I am too vulnerable. I feared losing people.

"Who is Siddhartha?" I mouthed sorry when I tossed the tissue by mistake on passing guy. "He is Ranvijay's friend and the doctor who saved me many times" I owe him as well. I almost forgot to express my gratitude to him. Don't worry, I will give him drinks party.

"Is he handsome or single?" I looked at her. "Don't give me that look. I also want to settle down and doc will be perfect match" Our classes finally wrapped up, and we again continued the topic.

"Yes, he is single too" we were walking across the corridor. "Really, oh my god, I need some air" she was flipping her hand to wipe her face sweat while scrolling his Instagram profile. Siddhartha is daddy material. Too hot, but womanizer as well.

"Put your tongue back in your mouth" I tapped her shoulder while she was starving at his shirtless picture. "Is he really doc? I mean, look at him; he is no less than model" models. People crush on heroes, but this girl has crush on models.

"Okay! I'm getting late Ranvijay is waiting for me" I passed her but suddenly her words paused me. "But you mentioned he is out of town" I stopped and looked at the drive-way. He wasn't there like usual, leaning against the car crossing his hands across his chest.

"Yeah, I forgot"

"Okay I am getting late bye" Riya waved at me before getting inside her car. I pulled out my phone and opened my gallery, only to see someone.

"I'm missing you major" my phone is filled with Ranvijay's photos. He will kill me one day if he finds out that I clicked his pictures without his permission. I myself don't know how long I am doing that. I liked to oggle at my husband.

"Are you waiting for someone?" a voice echoed into my ear. "Yes, I am waiting for my husband" I bit my tongue. This voice was familiar. Smile spread over my lips when I saw a man in black t-shirt and combat pants resting his head on my shoulder. "Ranvijay"

I couldn't help it—I threw my arms around him. "You didn't tell me that you're coming" he pressed his lips over my cheek before saying. "surprised" I sighed with pleasure.

"I just entered the city, looked at my watch and realized I have an hour to pick up my wife, so here I am" he stopped the car near the park. I kept my books and iPad in the backseat and stepped down.

I insisted him to take me to dinner. He didn't like crowded places but he never denied my wishes. He is just a gentleman. "How's your trip?" I don't have any idea whether it was work or trip but I want to talk to him.

"It was great, btw. I visited the hospital too" he wrapped me in his protective embrace when a passing guy about to bump into me. My heart stopped beneath his touch. Suddenly, my mind filled with Ranvijay's naked images.

My clothes rasped against my skin as I almost felt him behind me, over me, and deep buried inside me. Last week, I dreamt the same fantasy on auto-tune.

"So, what's your report?" I managed to hide my dirty thoughts from him. I thinks so.

"I am perfectly fine and after one month I will get my fitness certificate" I nodded at his words. Water filled my mouth when I saw golgappa stall on my right side. "Ranvijay, I want to eat that" I pointed out at the stall and he followed my gaze.

We walked towards the stall. I told the shopkeeper to make spicy golgappa for me. Ranvijay was only doing one thing staring at me while tugging his hands into his pants. "Ummm" I sighed as my whole mouth filled with big golgappa. Ranvijay's eyes narrowed when I widened my eyes.

"What happen? Are you okay?" He cupped my face. His expression was tensed. "Raaje tell me," he said, raising his voice. "I am okay"

"Then why were you panicking few seconds ago?" he said while I filled my mouth with another one. "I-it wa-ws" he closed his eyes in annoyance. "Bloody, clean your mouth before uttering a word"

"It was tasty, that's what I was trying to say" he scrubbed his face with his hands. "Raaje, Grow up. You aren't kid anymore" he rasped. My eyes were popping between him and golgappa. Almost hard to choose but I choose golgappa. "Spare me, ran"

"What?" he growled when he caught me staring at him with mischievous smile. "Open your mouth" he shook his head. I nudged his leg with my foot and he forcefully opened his mouth. His eyes turned red and his forehead was filled with sweat.

"You liked it, I know" he shook his head. He opened his mouth and barely said. "Raaje" I again filled one more into his mouth. I flickered my eyes. "Spicy" he said in barely audible voice. He started coughing. Oh no.

I sat him near the bench as he was continuously coughing. Oh god, it was too spicy. How can I forget that he didn't eat spices like me?

"I am so sorry. Wait, I will get water for you" I almost rasped at the shopkeeper when he said he didn't have water bottle. Unbelievable. I snatched the water bottle from the passing guy and gave it to Ranvijay. He gulped down half a bottle.

"You okay?" I rubbed his chest, sitting next to him. Our eyes met. His eyes dropped to my lips. "I need honey to melt my tongue burn" he rubbed my bottom lip with his thumb. A wild sensation flushed through me but I jerked his hand. "We are in public place ran"

"Excuse me" we turned our gazes at the voice from behind. A girl was staring at me, like she wanted to punch me for grabbing her bottle. "Oh, thanks for your help and I am so sorry" but she shifted her eyes to the person sitting behind me.

She was ogling my husband in front of me.

"Are you okay? Do you need more water?" She asked him, but Ranvijay didn't even glance at her. I fixed my frown at her. How dare she flirt with him? She flinched when I squashed leftover water on her extra-smiling face. "How dare you?" she said.

"Your next glare at him, and I will gouge out your eye balls with my surgical scissors" A fire of anger ran throughout my body. She is lucky I wouldn't stab her eyes. Ranvijay entered the scene, only to hold me back. "Apologies" he softened his voice and she disappeared.

I looked at him. "What?"

"Why did you apologize to her?" He wrapped me in his strong arms, thinking I'd kill her if he opened his grip. He was right. "Jealous that she is flirting with me" he kissed my hand but I jerked my hand. I was so angry.

"I really like your this side" he pressed his lips to my neck, making me tremble beneath his wet mouth. "Ranvijay, someone can see us; stop it" My tensed eyes rolled all around but my fantasies wanted him to keep going.

He scanned the whole area before saying. "You are legally my wife. I've got right over you" he cupped my chin. "Now smile or else I will kiss you in front of everyone" he sounds serious. I liked his dominance.

"Why do you always threaten me?"

"I've never done that" I slapped his arm. "You do"

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We were walking around after having a delicious dinner at nearby restaurant. He would never allow me eat street food unless he's in good mood. It was warm weather, with pleasent winds. Ranvijay's hand tugged into his pocket.

People were enjoying their night, couples making out on benches. I cracked big laugh as Ranvijay said something. "Stop ran your jokes are too bad" I took some steps further knowing he was following me.

"Don't tell anybody or I'll have to kill them" A thin smile touched his lips but only for few seconds. "Te ves demasiado sexy cuando te rastrillas el pelo" his mouth twitched.

(You looks so hot when you raked your hair)

"I will punish you one day for using this code language. Use Hindi, English or our favorite Marathi" he got annoyed. Gosh, he looks too cute and hot as well. Sometimes I just wanted to sit on his lap and devour his lips.

"Listen, you dropped something" he immediately looked down. Too innocent. "What?" I tiptoed, only to reach his ear and whisper. "Your excellent IQ major" he lifted his eyes at me. If I were someone but his wife, he would strangle me. Definitely.

Before he walked to me, however, a gunshot ripped through night and chaos happened in the park. One second, I was laughing and next I was on ground, my back and hips pressed to grass while Ranvijay was on me, shielding me with his body.

"You okay?" Before I could reply, there was another gunshot followed the screams. People were trying their best to hide themselves. It was beautiful night, dinner, golgappa, and Ranvijay came back after week, and I was living at that pace.

My brain took beat of time to catch up all, as it happened so quickly. Ranvijay let out a curse so low but I almost heard it and I just realized he was out of his sweet husband suit and wrapped in heartless officer.

"Is that gunshot, Ran?" after his nod I was sure and scared as well. I've always feared guns, but after kidnapping, gunshots panic me. Ranvijay had drawn his gun. He always carried gun that was tucked into his pants.

"On the count of three, we're running for the truck cover" his steady voice sliced through the fog of adrenaline that rushed through me. "Are you seriously going to shoot someone?" my question only fueled his anger. I don't know why my brain works like fool in serious situations.

"Do your interrogation later, Kashish" he used Kashish, definitely he was serious. "Got it" I nodded at his first command. Ranvijay shifted himself so that I could onto my knees.

"Crawl" he lifted his eyebrows at me. I learned crawling during my manikaran training session. Crawling was most difficult part. I mean it was so painful to run onto your knees and lower arm, and it required so much strength. Ranvijay is best at crawling, even in mud. I didn't think twice and crawl.

I was crawling while Ranvijay gave me cover to the truck but his eyes were scanning the whole area like tiger. After fucking five months, I again met his ruthless demeanor, who would cut his enemies if they dared to touch me with their eyes.

"Stay here, do not move until I come back" His voice hardened and his frown darkened. "And most important, do not let anyone see you" my heart beat reached as its peak. We're both supposed to hide, if I'm not wrong. "Where are you going, Ranvijay?"

"Someone has to stop them, I can't stand under tree" his gunmetal eyes screamed. I clenched his elbow and stopped him. "You don't have to do that; it would be police" he cut me off when next gunshot ripped through our ears.

"It will be too late for police engagement" he looked grimmer that I'd seen many times. "Stay here" with that he was gone. Gone.

I watched, keeping my hand on my chest as Ranvijay walked over the grass. It's too dark I can't see vividly what's going on but all I could hear were gunshots back-to-back. I haven't seen anyone being attacked openly in the night in Bangalore in quite some time.

The shooter aimed at someone who was knelt on the ground. The tree blocked my view, but when I squatted lower, I could see the proper view and my horror intensified. It wasn't one human. It was two. A pregnant lady, holding the hand of girl but judging by her size, it was baby. Baby

Now I get why Ranvijay had that look across his face when he left. I can't believe that someone targeted pregnant lady and her baby girl. But world wasn't surrounded by roses it had thorns too.

Ranvijay was skilled and experienced officer but still my heart scared for him. My father was skilled officer too but still he died. Because at the end of day officers are humans and humans can die.

Tears were rolling down my cheeks as Ranvijay was still there, fighting with shooters. I closed both ears with my hands as the gunshot sounds were painful in my ears. Ranvijay, please come back to me.

Ranvijay's hand was bleeding; I almost ran towards him. But his words captured my mind. And it's better to stay here or he'll kill me with his bare hands. Ranvijay hit the shooter with his gun and he crumbled on the ground.

After twenty minutes of horror the police siren finally wailed somewhere in distance and after that, the medical team was there too. I couldn't help it and ran to him.

"What the hell are you doing here?" He slammed at me. He wasn't sweet anymore. He was hell scary. But I ignored his dead glares and quickly scanned him from head to toe to see if he had been injured anywhere.

My heart skipped, and I wanted to cry, but my aggression choked my tears. He kneeled before the baby girl, holding his gun. "Are you okay, baby?" Ranvijay's voice was smoother than ever, I couldn't believe that he was the same guy who intended to kill someone few moments ago.

The girl was terrified by the incident and what we could expect from seven-year-old child. I was terrified, like her, when I got the news about my father's death. She was luckier than me, her mother was all right.

"Will he kill my mom?" The girl needs assurance. I kneeled beside Ranvijay. "He will not do anything". I patted her hair and said, "The police have taken them away". The lady was unconscious, but she wasn't hurt seriously anywhere; of course, Ranvijay had been shielding her.

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RANVIJAY

A pleasant night had ended with so much adventure. Police entered the scene. We had few medical check-ups. Questions. The past hour tested my patience but shackles of my patience were torn out at the sight of woman I loved insanely.

"I told you to stay there, it was a simple instruction Kashish. Can't you obey that?" I growled. My heart was crushing in panic at the sight when I saw her walking towards me. Shooters were still out in the open, it didn't matter that I had disarmed them.

But if they had another gun and I'd missed? I could handle getting shot it's part of my work but I couldn't handle Kashish getting hurt. It would worse than getting shot. When they first fired, my heart skipped for a moment.

I thought titan admirer somehow got her access. I was so bloody scared. "First get your first-aid" her concern wrapped in fury. I should be angry at her for disobeying me.

Kashish grinned her teeth. No matter how angry she was, she failed to hide her worries for me. "I'm fine" it doesn't look fine. I mean, a bullet grazed my left hand and one almost pierced my shoulder. I'd be good in next one or two weeks.

The ambulances had taken the kid and her mother away a while ago. The lady had minor injuries, and the baby girl was okay too. That baby had reminded me of the girl I saved when I was sixteen years old.

After formalities with police, we drove back home. She was silent all the time. She looked more traumatized than that kid. But I was driving, silently. "Stop the car" she said, making me roll my eyes at her. "What?"

"I said stop the car Ranvijay" this time her voice has wrath and I cut the engine in the middle of nowhere. "Kashish, stay" she exited the car even without glancing at me. I've never seen someone stubborn like her. I walked towards her and gripped her hand or she would cut her palm with nails.

"Why are you hurting yourself?" She looked at me with teary eyes. Pain crawled over my spine. "What happened, Raaje?" I want to know.

"Why have you left me? Why did you go to fight with them even after I stopped you?" She yelled. I would've never thought that I needed to explain my actions. I let go of my hand to cup her face but she jerked my hand before it touched her skin.

"I am soldier Kashish and most of all, they needed me; that situation needed me" I tried to explain, but she flipped her face in the other direction.

"Then what about me? Do I matter for you?" Of course, Raaje, you matter to me a lot. "Did you know I'm afraid of guns?" I nodded. I still don't know why, and I'd never tried to spill the beans. But yes, in manikaran she would've always found out random reasons to avoid guns.

"Do you know why?" she took one step towards me but still we had distance between us. 

"Let me tell you story. One day I was coming back home with my mother, holding her hand eating my mint chocolate ice cream. She told me that she cooked puran poli and I was happy. I was playing with rabbit which was sitting on the side of road while aai was taking change from shopkeeper as she buy apples for baba. "Kashish, let's go home baby" she called me and I ran towards her but one minute later she was on the ground, blood flowing from her body. Few masked men shot her and left out" She shallowed hard.

"When I walked over, her eyes were wide open, and I knew she gone. She was already dead but, in my mind, she would've fainted till the ambulance showed up and doctor made it official" her voice cracked at last. "My father's enemies killed her" I sucked in a breath.

"From that day on, I hated RAW but my father loved RAW more than her daughter" she hiccupped. First time, she opened up about how much she craved father's love. "He never loved me; he always put his work before me and now he left me"

"And now you make me hate the army because you love your work more than me" she brushed her fingers over the bandaged wound. "You were bleeding, Ranvijay" I stiffened with her touch.

"I don't want to lose you as I am scared to be alone. I don't want to stay away from you" she shattered in pain like her words. She was afraid to blink her eyes, like I might disappear if she did. I saw care for me in her blue eyes.

My heart ached with her tears. I couldn't remember the last time anyone really cared about whether I lived or died. But Kashish did. I don't know about others, but I mattered to her. I grasped her chin and lifted it up, but her shut eyes refused to look at me. "Eyes on me"

A muscle rolled in my jaw when she darted her puffy eyes at me. "I cared for you more than anything else. I could rather die before seeing you in pain Raaje. You matter to me a lot; only you matter to me" I lowered my head so I could reach her cheeks.

I kissed her eyes and tasted her sad tears. "Will you leave me after end of our contract marriage?" my voice wobbled at the end. She wrapped her hands around my neck, looping me. "I don't want to leave you Ranvijay"

It had been 1.5 years to make her mine and mine alone ever since I rolled over her body and she saw staring at me back with those beautiful blue eyes. Rescue mission.

She was mine and has always been mine. And my heart jumped into my muscles when she mentioned her desire to be with me forever. I've never believed in God but in this moment, I wanted to believe.

I travelled my hand around her neck to grab her nape, pulled her closer and crushed my lips to hers. I didn't touch her lips I touched my life. She tugged on my hair, pulling me closer to her. Her body was warm but her saliva was giving me cold sensation that went straight to my cock, but I ignored it.

My heart was beating crazy. Her tongue taste, her rose perfume smell, her hair around my fist, and her little moan that left her mouth whenever I bit her tongue in my invasion. I could tattoo myself on her lips.

She clung to me like I was her lifeline. Only source of oxygen. The night has only whimpered, deep crazy. I love you Kashish. I really love you. She broke the kiss only to kiss my bandage wound. "I was hurt here too" I pointed out my heart and she smiled.

My heart trembled beneath her touch as she kissed my heart. She tiptoed so she could press her lips over my forehead. "Make me part of your life Ran" she kissed my cheek.

"You aren't part of my life, you are my life"

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Precap

He took one step towards me. "Are you making me, jealous?" his hand trailed up my spine until he reached back of my neck, his movement was gentle before he fisted around back. my blood roared with vibration.

"I am just answering your question" my throat wobbled with swallow.

His pressed tightened around my nape, forcing me look at him. "you're my wife. Not his. Your mind supposed to have my pictures not his, not anyone else. It doesn't matter how hot their appearance or how much you liked them" he nipped my bottom lip between his teeth and bit hardly.

Pleasure and pain burst through me. "Careful ran, you are about to reveal how you earned reputation of being ruthless" a tight whimper escaped my mouth at the sight of his body grazed my skin. "I am just claiming what's mine"

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