Cait POV
So far wala naman akong mga pinaglilihian initially akala ko lahat nakakaexperience nun. This is a whole new experience for me and I can say na worth it yung sacrifice na magpause na muna ko sa volleyball career ko para makabuo kami ni Bea. I felt na mas pinatibay kami ng pagbubuntis ko. Pag nakikinita na namin na magiging tatlo na kami kitang kita ko yung pagkasabik at saya sa mukha niya and it makes me happier.
We both love reading and watching stuff about pregnancy I'm so glad na in tune kami pareho sa ganun. Imbis na movie bonding ang ginagawa namin sa free time manood together ng mother shows. Kaaliw nga e. Napakacute niya pag hinahalik halikan niya ang tummy ko at tinatawag na baby peanut. I just knew in my heart that she will be a great mom and dad sa baby namin.
Everything was going great until that fateful day. I was almost entering my second trimester when I noticed na napapadalas ang sakit ng puson ko at nakikita kong may spotting ako at times. Di ko alam pero nakaramdam ako ng takot magsabi kay Bea ayoko siya madisappoint or malungkot. And then one day I experienced an intense pain on my abdomen tapos wala pa si Bea sa bahay dali dali napatawag ako dito.
"Baby please come home sobrang sakit ng tiyan ko."
After a lil while dumating na din ito and I didn't have the strength to move I was just lying in our bed and could only cry about our misfortune.
I felt Bea covered my lower half and took me in her arms.
"Andito lang ako mahal ko." As she softly kissed my forehead and rushed towards her car.
Bea POV
I was panic stricken when I received a call from my wife. She sounded so distraught. Kaya nagmamadali akong makauwi sa kanya, I was so worried what could have happened to her.
Pagpasok ko ng room namin I found her lying on the bed clutching her tummy in a fetal position. And the sheets were soaked red around her bottom half. Kinoveran ko ito agad at pinagbaunan ng mga spare clothing then binuhat ko na ito at sinakay sa kotse papuntang ospital.
Parang di pa din nagsisink in sakin lahat. Di ko alam ano mararamdaman ko sa ngayon mas nagwoworry ako kay Cait.
"I'm sorry ma'am but your wife just had a miscarriage. We have to evacuate all remnants of your baby so that she won't continue to bleed."
"Please do what you have to do to make my wife feel better. She means a lot to me." Tumalima naman ang doctor at umalis na din.
Kasalukuyan kaming nasa private room. Inadmit nila si Cait para mamonitor lang for a day dahil sa heavy bleeding na naexperience niya.
Di ko namalayan nakatulog na pala ko na nakaupo at nakayuko lamang sa bed niya. Naalimpungatan lang ako ng tinapik ako ni Mommy Tin.
"Anak magpahinga ka na muna kami na muna magbabantay kay Nani."
"Gusto ko po sana ako yung unang makita niya paggising niya."
"Hayaan mo na muna anak sure naman ako alam naman ni Nani na andito ka. Palakasin at alagaan mo din ang sarili mo para sa inyong dalawa."
Tumango naman ako dito at napapayag na magpahinga muna. Pumwesto ako sa couch at dun na nagpaantok.
Nagising ako na may nakasiksik sa bisig ko na nakahospital gown. Niyakap ko pa ito lalo at hinalikan sa noo. Nagising naman ito at tumingin sa akin.
"How are you feeling?"
"Not good. I'm sorry baby."
Hinawi ko ang buhok na kumocover sa mukha niya at hinawakan sa pisngi.
"May masakit pa rin ba sayo? Bakit ka naman nagsosorry?"
Umiling naman ito.
"I'm sorry we won't be a family anymore."
Hinawakan ko lalo ito sa mukha at pinaharap sakin at hinaplos sa pisngi.
"What are saying di na tayo magiging family? I'm still married to you. You're still my wife. Kung di man tayo biyayaan ng anak ngayon or someday. I will still forever be thankful to Him coz He gave me you. You are the best thing that ever happened to me."
Nadischarge si Cait ng maaga kaya nakauwi na din kami agad sa condo. I cooked her favorite pero wala itong gana. Days gone by and she still has not regained back her appetite ang onti niya kumain and she hasn't been taking care of herself well. Alam ko dinadamdam niya ng husto yung nangyari. Tinatagalan ko magstay sa bahay lately para mabantayan siya. Pinapabisita ko mga kaibigan niya sa condo pag free sila. Hoping they would be able to cheer her up. Even asked her mom if she could stay here for a while especially pag may inaasikaso ko sa mga business namin coz I'm really worried about her.
I went to kuya Loel to seek his advice.
"Kuya I know I'm trying to do everything I could to help her out but it seems di pa rin siya nagiging ok. Tell me if I'm doing something wrong."
"No you're not doing anything wrong Bei. People who get depressed take time to get better. The good thing is like you told me nakakausap mo pa rin siya and wala ka naman nakikitang unusual sa kanya."
"No wala naman."
"Then that's a good sign. You just need to hang on and keep showing her you are not going anywhere. For better or for worse right?"
"Of course kuya I love her so much. Di naman sumagi sa isip ko yan na iiwan ko siya ever sa ere. I just hate seeing her suffering this bad and I couldn't do anything about it when we both wanted this."
We saw this teacup maltipoo one time when Cait and I went out. Sobrang saya ko nun na napapayag ko siya finally na lumabas. As we were walking nadaanan namin yung pet shop and I saw the joy in her face while we were staring at it. I used to have a dog before kaso di ko maalagaan dati sa kabusyhan ko had to put up for adoption. Inaya ko siya sa loob ng shop para silipin ng malapitan but she declined. It gave me an idea.
"Baby I'm home."
"I'm here." Sigaw nito coming sa kwarto.
"Shh Wag ka maingay." Pat ko sa ulo ng puppy na bitbit ko habang papunta kami sa kwarto. As soon as makita kami ni Cait napaluha ito at lumapit papunta samin at kinuha ang puppy sakin.
"Thank you baby." Nagpout ito ng lips humihingi ng kiss at syempre ako pa ba give in agad syempre.
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AN: Sorry for the long wait. Medyo busy sa life si author. Anyhow, I do have an upcoming CB story after Friendly Neighborhood. Last 2 chapters remaining na lang to. The new one would be quite different from my previous stories. Slightly mas intense siya. I know I said before last na to. Pero last march ko pa kasi naconceptualize yun. And tbh naeexcite ako habang sinusulat ko yun. Kaya wala kain muna ng words. We will keep writing pag may time at habang di pa narawriter's block. Baka around May ko na yun marelease at busy pa din talaga medyo matagalan uli next chapter.