Chapter 471 - Selfish
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
The crash of something resonated in the room and then there were pieces of shattered glass everywhere. Su Wan silently watched the woman who was standing on the window sill, the woman turned around to look at her and smiled. There was no warmth in that smile. It was empty and somewhat cruel, the woman looked at her with a broken gaze as if she was suffering so much that she couldn't even think straight, then the woman parted her lips and spoke in a cold and hoarse voice " I am sorry Wan Wan but mommy can't do this anymore" she sniffed as tears trickled on her cheeks " Look your daddy didn't come to visit us even today, it's your birthday but he didn't even think of showing his face .. why...why didn't he come? How could he do this to you.. to me? He could have just called if he was this busy but I know he must be with that goblin! My dear Wan Wan, when your daddy come please tell him that I died because of him alright?"
Then the woman jumped. Su Wan who watched her jump didn't even flinch and simply stared at the cake that was smashed on the floor. Tell daddy that you died because of him? How naive. If her mother believed that her father would be bothered by her suicide then she was fighting a lost battle. Her father was a good for nothing bastard, who was ruthless enough to dump his pregnant wife alone in this apartment and went out to have fun with his mistress.
Why would he care about her mother?
He didn't care when her mother slashed her wrists and was admitted to the hospital and he didn't care when her mother strangled herself.. so why will he care now? It was a stupid and complete waste of her life.
Su Wan didn't ponder on this matter for long, she cleaned the house and then called the ambulance before leaving the apartment, when she reached the ground floor a crowd was already surrounding the broken body of her mother. She didn't pay attention to their confused, sympathetic gazes and simply walked to the centre of the gathered crowd.
Blood. Blood and more blood- the entire floor was covered with blood.
" That woman was really crazy, what was the point of dying for a man who never cared about her? It was pretty stupid if you ask me"
" She must have lost her mind, she actually killed herself on her daughter's birthday, can you believe it? It was like she was trying to shift all hurt on her daughter. If she wanted to die she should have killed herself in front of that man!"
Stupid. Crazy. Pitiful.
The people around her kept calling her mother names like that but Su Wan knew that her mother was neither of those things, no she was the epitome of a selfish woman. She didn't die because her heart was broken, no she died because she wanted revenge, on her father and his new wife and daughter. She was vain and downright selfish, she killed herself not because she wanted to forget her pain .. she died on her birthday so that Su Wan will never be able to forget her.
Su Wan's eyes snapped open, as she sat up straight on her bed. The illuminating pearl was shining next to her bed and there was no smashed cake or pieces of shattered glass. Su Wan covered her face with her hands and that was when she realized that she was sweating so much that her entire bedsheet was covered with her sweat.
" Damn that woman." cursed Su Wan as she hopped out of her bed and stomped to the door of her room, she was angry and tried - a small nap that was all she wanted but that woman was still haunting her and Su Wan couldn't help but curse if she was going to die just go and die already! What's the point of making your ten-year-old daughter see it? Just because she was the daughter of that bastard?
Su Wan wished to forget everything but every time her birthday got near, she would end up having nightmares one after another, that woman was sure ruthless, when she couldn't get her father's love she destroyed his reputation. Su Wan was all up for it but the fact that her mother involved her too in that shitty plan of hers made Su Wan despise her even more.
Once she was out of her room, she decided to take a walk around the courtyard to calm herself down. She knew that Lin Rui meant no harm when he wished her but she wished that he said nothing, birthday - it only made things harder for her.
" Wan Wan? What a..are you doing here?" Lin Yu who saw Su Wan come out of her room chased after her, it was two in the morning and he was worried about her when he saw her going out to the courtyard so late at night. He didn't know what happened that made her upset, but that wasn't enough to let him leave her alone.
Su Wan turned her head and looked at Lin Yu and shook her head " Just go, Yu. Right now, I am not in the correct state of my mind" she was angry and frustrated and there was no way to release that pent up anger. She didn't want to hurt Lin Yu because when she got angry, she wanted to hurt someone- and get hurt in return because that made her feel alive, the pain would give her a sort of relief and she would be able to fill the void that was left behind by her mother.
" I c...can't" Lin Yu limped over to her side and stood in front of her " I can't l..leave you alone when you are this upset, and it's so late at night, I won't be at ease leaving you alone"
Su Wan stiffened not because Lin Yu was interrupting her alone me time but because his hoarse voice was deep and languid that made shiver dance on her spine. Her gaze snapped to his lips, they were pink and moist ... they looked kissable and soft if she.... if she asked then Lin Yu would help her forget this pain won't he?
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Chapter 472 - Wan Wan?
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
" Wan Wan"
She spun around to look at him, Lin Yu was standing several feet away from her. He might be trying to be considerate by giving her the space that she wanted but Su Wan was in no mood to be considerate of his feelings, that cold laugh, the victorious sneer - that woman's face was still burnt in her memories even after so many years. She should have forgotten her mother just like she forgot that she was her daughter before leaving her scarred for life but she couldn't- Su Wan hated her mother just as much she loved her, no matter how much that woman went cuckoo in her later years she was once a loving mother .. it was just that her love for her kid was on the backpedal of her life while the love she had for her father was something that she could never compare to, it wasn't her failed marriage that caused her to doubt herself but this - the suicide of her mother. Was she not enough for her mother to stay alive for?
She took a deep breath as she looked away from Lin Yu " I want to be alone" but this stubborn husband of her remained where he was " Just go, Ah Yu."
" No" As if he could let her be alone in such a condition. She didn't know it but she hadn't been alone for a single second, he had followed her the minute she stepped out of her room and stayed at her safe distance behind her to give time to find her solace but he remained close. It wasn't easy, he could still feel his knee throb after limping so fast after her " you might think that you want to be alone but you don't, who why don't you tell me what's going on with you? Maybe I can help you? There is nothing wrong with relying on us once in a while"
Shivers danced down her spine as Lin Yu's silky tone slid over her skin, he didn't even have any idea how he was stirring her senses. She wanted to rely upon... of course, she wanted to rely on someone but she knew that she will hurt him involuntarily " You don't want to be here with me right now, Yu. I don't feel good".
She was restless after having the same nightmare that hasn't left her for so many years, her mother was a woman who was supposed to protect her not taint her life with a stain that she could never wash away. And it only made things worse than the original Su Wan shared the same birthday with her, maybe she should have forgotten that woman but she was like a dark shadow that would always creep out of her stupid grave whenever her birthday got close.
Lin Yu saw her pace around in distress and he could notice how closely winded up she was, she was trying to make herself look strong but this only made her look even more vulnerable. He could feel the onslaught of his own emotions, he wanted to get close to her and soothe her. He also wanted to bury the person who was behind her distress - Lin Yu had never been someone who wouldn't acknowledge his emotions, he was someone who relied on sheer facts and he wouldn't brood in silence trying to deny his own feelings, it was something he learned as a hard lesson after losing his legs to that accident.
He knew that Su Wan was a woman for whom he would happily kill people and he have killed a few people for her, so how could he ignore her when she was like this? He took so low deliberate steps, he could see that her eyes were dancing back and forth with anxiety and anger, once he got close, he gently took her hand in his " Wan Wan, Look at me, what's wrong?"
Su Wan paused in her pacing, she looked up at Lin Yu who was standing in front of her because she was too lost in her own thoughts trying to keep her haunting memories in close check, trying to keep the memory of the nauseating smell of blood from overwhelming her, she didn't even notice when he got close to her. She was looking at him but at the same time she wasn't looking at him-she was looking at someone who was masculine and warm, someone who could help her in taking her mind off that woman, upon whom she could release her frustration, whom she can hurt and in exchange ask him to hurt her in return.
She saw her release in Lin Yu, he could totally help her, she inwardly thought as her gaze drifted to those sturdy pectoral muscles. She couldn't even pay any attention to what he was saying, all of her attention was on his mouth that was moving as he spoke something to her. If she asked Lin Yu would give her what she wanted an outlet for her pent up frustration but that would make her just as selfish as her mother. Didn't she use her as her outlet by committing suicide in front of her? Because she wanted to hurt someone just as she was hurting?
Su Wan wasn't comfortable with that... Lin Yu has done nothing wrong. He didn't even know why she was reacting like this - so how can she look at him like this? How can she even think of using him as a human toy? What was wrong with her? She was better than this, yes she was a better woman than this, she forced herself to look away from Lin Yu and said " You won't understand, even if I tell you" She closed her eyes and took a few steps back before covering her front with her chest " You need to go, Yu"
Yeah right, nothing in the world could make him move from her when she sounded so vulnerable. Even if Lin Yu was hard-hearted enough to ignore everyone else, his protective instincts towards Su Wan wouldn't let him ignore her. He will never leave her alone when she wanted him the most " Is it because of your past life?"
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Chapter 473 - Sick.
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
Silence descended upon them and Su Wan was stunned to hear those words from Lin Yu's mouth. She didn't know how he knew about her past life, she looked at him shocked as ever until he cleared his throat and said somewhat embarrassingly " I h..heard it when you were telling it to my second brother, I didn't want to but I was worried and went to look for you and second brother and well, I ended up hearing everything because it was already too late for m..me to stop, so you can t..tell me e..everything"
Su Wan was a bit surprised at first but then she thought that she hasn't really tried to hide the fact that she transmigrated here so it shouldn't be much of a surprise that Lin Yu heard her. She laughed out loud as she leaned against Lin Yu feeling both aggrieved and happy, it wasn't that she was trying to hide it from them but she didn't want to burden anyone with her pain " how much did you hear back then?"
Lin Yu pursed his lips and sullenly answered " I heard m..mostly everything that you had a good for nothing husband in that world and your f..father was a serial c...cheater who had an affair with y..your mom's best friend" Lin Yu didn't like what he heard back then not only because he was jealous of some other man having Su Wan as his wife but also because he couldn't string those two bastards by their intestine and hang them upside down on a tree. How dare they hurt Wan Wan? If he could go to that world he would have killed the two before they could even beg for mercy.
" Well yeah I did have a father and a good for nothing husband" hearing his sulky voice Su Wan laughed a little despite the dark swirls of emotions rising in her heart " other than those two, I also had a mother. She was nice, I mean as nice as she could act with her husband cheating left and right but then she sort of snapped I don't know when it happened though, maybe that makes me a bad daughter for not paying enough attention to her" she sighed as that familiar face flashed in front of her eyes and she closed them at once " she jumped off from the twenty-fourth floor of our building, right on my birthday- its sort of funny that she even prepared a birthday cake and feast before jumping off the window like I would have the appetite to eat chicken wings with her body broken like that. She didn't survive her fall, that was no surprise after all she jumped from such a height" she shook her head as the murmurs of the past once again hissed and whispered in her ears " what was surprising was that I didn't cry. I didn't shed a single tear throughout her funeral, maybe that's why she hasn't left me in peace after so many years"
She pulled back and looked at the wide-eyed expression of Lin Yu " I just had a nightmare about her, there is that.. now, I think you can leave right?" She knew that after listening to her story he would try to comfort and calm her down, but that wasn't what she wanted from him, she wanted pain ... any kind of pain that will make her feel alive.
But that was not right, she couldn't hurt someone else because of her selfishness. Just because she wanted it doesn't mean Lin Yu wanted it too, right? The intimacy between husband and wife was all about ' them' not just ' me'.
She turned around to leave before she said or did something that might hurt Lin Yu but just as she turned around he gripped her wrist " w..when I was a child, I was always bullied by Lin C..Che because I was d..different than him and the others. He was the big b..bully and I was just a w..weak kid that couldn't fight back. I would o..often complain to my brothers and they will help me beat Lin C..Che but then the kids from the village started calling me a cry baby. I wasn't a cry baby but-" he paused leaning against her backs he whispered softly " But they called me one, things w..went out of control and one of the kids pushed me off the cliff. I lost my leg and almost my life but do you know what the villagers said when my mother went to complain to the parents of the kids who pushed me off?"
" What?" Su Wan didn't push him off when he wrapped his arms around her and simply let him lean on her, her temper was there, she was still seething with rage but she wasn't as volatile as before.
" They laughed" answered Lin Yu with a dark chuckle " They all laughed, s..saying that my mother was making a mountain out of m..molehill. I nearly l..lost my life and they said I was making the matter bigger than it was. My b..brothers tried to fight but in the end, they couldn't do anything because the villagers were big and strong and my brothers were all young and my mother was alone with so many kids to take care of, in the end, she gave u..up. Not b..because she wanted to but because she had no other choice. No one could g..get me the j..justice that I de..deserved" his voice turned hoarse as he looked at Su Wan's nape and nuzzled his face in the crook of her neck " In the end, I t..took the matter in my own hand and one by one pushed the kids who were responsible for the i..incident from the same cliff, some died and some turned limp like me. Till d..date no one could find a thing that it was me who did it"
Putting his arms on her shoulders, he whipped Su Wan around to look at him " do you despise me for this?"
Su Wan shook her head " No, I don't. How can I hate you for being you? And what you did might be wrong in the eyes of others but I think you did the right thing they deserved it."
Lin Yu grinned and tipped her chin up " You don't find me sick? Revolting? Freak?"
She shook her head again.
" Then why don't you say what you want? Why are you getting away from me? Because I assure you that no matter what you have in your mind it can never be as sick a..as mine"
Su Wan swallowed just as he took her in his arms rocking her back and forth " say it, Wan Wan"
She leaned back and placed her mouth on his jawbone before biting hard. He stiffened but didn't let her go " Say it"
" I want you to f*ck all the bad memories that are circulating in my head.... I want you to make me forget my pain" she snapped as the truth burst out of her " there happy? Now let me go before you call me abnormal for wanting more pain when I should be asking for cuddles."
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Chapter 474 - Dang It
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
Just like that the atmosphere around them changed, sparks sizzled between them as the air around them thickened with the same old sexual tension that never seemed to leave them.
Su Wan tried to get rid of Lin Yu's arms as she continued " I know you will find it weird because the women in your era are supposed to be shy and timid, but I am not like them. I can never be like them, I can't squash down what I feel and then happily smile after being cuddled or coaxed. No, it's not the same for me, I want to feel something when I can't...I want to be roughed up. Hard, fast and deep, in any case, you need to go" Or she would channel her inner emotions at him, just like her mother had used her to channel her emotions and then she would drown herself in self-hate for doing the same thing to Lin Yu. He might try to make himself look like a cold-hearted, soul snatcher but Su Wan knew how kind and caring he was, he wrapped himself securely but that was all because he wanted to protect himself from feeling the same hurt he had felt back then when he was betrayed.
He wasn't vain or cruel, he wouldn't hurt anyone who was innocent and he had much more emotional depth than he let others see. He was a good man and a good .. husband.
And he was exciting her by that hungry expression on his face, her entire body was roaring to life by that cold and slightly psychopathic glimmer in his eyes .. she knew she triggered the wolf in him but right now wasn't the time " Don't"
Lin Yu raised his eyebrow while his lips curled in a satisfied grin " What d..do you mean?"
" Don't look at me like that" She retreated away from him.
" And how e...exactly I am l...looking at you?" Lin Yu took a step towards her but Su Wan shook her head and backed away from him even more. She knew that Lin Yu would try to give her what she wanted but she didn't want it ....no, she wanted it but at the same time she didn't want to become a woman like her mother. She was strong and she rarely depended on anyone else, she knew that she could lean against her husbands if she wanted to but this was different- she wouldn't use them as her outlet, they deserved more than this, especially Lin Yu and Lin Yan who have been nothing but patient with her.
" Leave Yu, Don't try to get close to me" but he didn't leave, he stayed where he was and his glittering dark eyes were locked at her with a promise of sexual satisfaction that she craved right now, Su Wan could feel her guards drop one by one as the need to get closer to Lin Yu became even more fiercer and hotter, that it frightened her. It was also beginning to overwhelm the anger that she was feeling in her heart. She sighed " I told you that you wouldn't be able to get together with me if you don't start speaking coherently and fluently, you haven't so - leave or you will be breaking your promise"
" Oh that" Lin Yu laughed as he rubbed the back of his neck and took a step closer to her " I was going to keep it a secret a little more but if it's going to be a f*cking cock block then I guess I have no choice?"
Su Wan's eyes widened as she looked at him " You-"
" I told you I am not a good man, you are just bent on treating me like one." Lin Yu shook his head as he hooked his finger and motioned Su Wan to come closer to him " I am not going anywhere Wan Wan, not just because I want you so badly that I can hardly think straight, but also because this is the only thing I can do for you right now," his eyes darkened when Su Wan bit her bottom lip, curse it. He wanted to bite those lips. " Come here, Wan Wan"
She wanted to, really, really wanted to but just as Lin Yu said he wasn't a good guy. Su Wan had no doubts that he would taste good, and fill her up and leave her just as satisfied as she wanted but she was a bit hesitant on crossing the path, Lin Yu wasn't like others, his mind worked differently and surely he will trigger those feelings that she tries to keep hidden in her heart -will he like her when he realises what kind of woman she really was?
" I know you want this Wan Wan," said Lin Yu as he limped over toward her and Su Wan back-peddled even more until her back hit a wooden door " I know you want it just as much as I do, so let's just get on it"
" I don't want this-"
Before she could finish her sentence, Lin Yu placed his finger on her lips " Shh, there is one thing that I like the most about you and that's you never try to lie to us, but you are lying right now why?"
Pinned in place, with no escape from his blazing eyes Su Wan stuttered " I don't want to use you as my mother used me"
And she broke his heart right then and there " It might be what you are thinking" hooking a strand of her hair he kissed it " but that's not how I see it"
" I am not like other women .." she wasn't shy and her moral values had a vast difference from those women with whom Lin Yu and the others were familiar with, if this was before she wouldn't have ever questioned herself like this but right now she was vulnerable just like this- she was weak just as she was when that woman jumped off.
" and I don't want you to be like them. I want you just as you are"
Forget it she thought as she wrapped her arms around his neck just in time Lin Yu moved.
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Chapter 475 - Beg Me
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
The instant their bodies locked together, Lin Yu's mouth came crashing down-frenzied and out of control, his mouth was greedy and demanding as he dominated her. His body was yet to grow as tall as his brothers but he was tall enough to press Su Wan against the door and cage her within his arms. Not like she would have tried to run away from him, Su Wan was surprised that he was able to crowd her so magnificently, she should have been upset with him for playing witty games like hiding the fact that he stopped stuttering long ago but that only made her crave him more, somehow it didn't prickle her conscience.
Lin Yu fumbled with the lock of the door behind them and once the door was pushed open, the two of them went tumbling down but Lin Yu was prepared he wrapped his arms around and turned Su Wan's body around so that the fall was cushioned by him. He grunted when his back collided with the ground before switching their position and pressing her under him. He wanted to be soft and sweet with her but he couldn't, his control was splintering with each frantic tug of her fingers as she tried to rip his shirt off, he wanted her .. needed her touch, so without wasting even a second he stripped off his shirt and Su wan dug her nails in his skin, it was not smooth - and there was no finesse in her touches as she skimmed her nails on his skin leaving her marks.
Wanting to touch her just as much Lin Yu yanked down her pants, he didn't even bother unfastening the string and when the loud of a snap of cloth tearing resounded in the room neither of them cared about it. He pulled and tugged baring every inch of her skin that belonged to him, he cupped her opening and skimmed his fingers on the soaking wet petals " So wet for me, you know why? Because you know you belonged to me"
" Not just you" Su Wan wasn't lying when she said that she wanted to fight him, hurt him. She was used to her reckless behaviour, she wanted to give pain and wanted it just as much, she wanted her body to match the pain that she felt in her heart.
Lin Yu chuckled as his eyes flamed with a ruthless glint " can't say you are wrong but .." he slid one finger inside her as she hissed " But right now you are mine, and I will own every part of your body" he grunted when Su Wan dragged her nails on his back just as he didn't hesitate to lower his head. His lips brushed the curve of her neck and then his teeth sank in the sensitive spot of her skin. Her inside pulsed and Su Wan whimpered and his teeth embedded into her skin. She never admitted it but something about having a husband with a secret dark side was a big turn on.
Lin Yu sucked on the patch of the skin that he bit into to soothe her before he drove two fingers inside her. Su Wan gasped, she curled her legs around his waist and started grinding against him. His mouth latched on her hardening beans as he lapped and sucked on them, he was greedy and possessive.. every spot that he touched was marked by him. She slithered her fingers over his skin and Lin Yu grunted when she pricked his abs.
Her need for him wasn't something that she could describe as she looked at him, her gaze fell on a sketch over his shoulder. It was perversive and nothing about it could be said was moral but it didn't make her disgusted instead the flame in her body ignited, even more, Lin Yu followed her gaze and smirked when he saw what she was looking at " You like it? That's my favourite hobby" her delicious scent was tingling his nerve endings winding him more and more as he thrust his fingers in and out of her " I want to take you like this one day"
The sketch was of course hers, lying on a bench with every limb tied up and at his mercy-" of course, you would" she arched a brow at him " but you will never see me that helpless"
" oh, I will" he ignored her glare when he drew her hardened bean in his mouth. Maybe he was determined to torture her for he sucked hard just as she wanted him to while plunging his fingers in and out of her. Su Wan writhed, twisted and turned beneath him .. she alternated between cursing him and moaning his name.
When her insides clenched around his fingers, he pulled back slowing down his pace " You got that helpless look on your face, Wan Wan" she glared at him, of course, she had that stupid expression- the prick stopped just as she was getting close to her orgasm, he withdrew his fingers and she cursed at him " Stop being a jerk and give me what I want!"
Lin Yu sucked his fingers clean and shrugged innocently " but you didn't say what you wanted, Wan Wan" he blew at her ni**le making her quiver when his warm breath skimmed over her skin " if you want it you have to say it- just like me"
Annoying little shit. She lifted her head to bite his shoulder punishingly but then he collared her throat and pushed her down on the floor making her snap at him, he chuckled and rubbed the pulse point on her neck " you have no idea how much I wanted to see you like this, I wanted you to be ready and writhing for me while your face begged me to take you"
Su Wan bristled at those words " I am not begging you" she licked her lips when he fed her just an inch of his member and pulled back the next second.
" Why aren't you?" asked Lin Yu as he licked the seams of her lips " Beg me, Wan Wan, I want to hear you say it"
She bit on his tongue hard enough that she tasted blood " you are not the boss of me"
" Outside this room? Yes. But when you and I are alone here then I am the Boss of you" he circled the tip of his member collecting some of his come with his thumb and popped it inside her mouth " suck" he ordered and she instinctively did, smilingly he rubbed the pad of his thumb on her lips " good girl, now what are you supposed to say"
" F*ck me"
He didn't budge.
Gritting her teeth she added "Please-" and then only did he hit home burying himself balls deep inside her.
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Chapter 476 - Make Me A Father
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
" Are you awake?" When Su Wan woke up, the first thing she saw was Lin Yu's extremely handsome languid profile, her youngest husband was indeed the prettiest when compared to his brothers but right now he didn't look like a frail little beauty but rather than that he looked like a cunning wolf who finally ate his fill. Su Wan didn't even realize when she got so engrossed in the pleasure that Lin Yu was giving her that she completely forgot about all the gloomy feelings that were roaring in her heart after that nightmare.
Last night, Lin Yu didn't just make love with her instead he completely crowded her space until she could do nothing but feel and breathe him and him alone.
She tugged on the bedsheet that was covering her and glared at Lin Yu " what do you think?"
" I think that you are awake and feeling great," said Lin Yu with a devilish smile as he tugged the bedsheet away from her body, Su Wan didn't want to let go but after last night. She didn't even have the strength to lift a finger much less fight against Lin Yu whose strength was definitely something that he had hidden very well like his ability to speak coherently. Thus, with a single tug, the smooth bedsheet was yanked away from her body.
Lin Yu's eyes raked every inch of her skin, especially the places where he left his marks which meant every freaking inch of her skin. Su Wan was sure if she were to look in the mirror right now, she would look like she had a battle with a vampire last night and lost. She narrowed her eyes dangerously and sat up straight " were you hiding your strength from me too?"
Lin Yu shrugged and took her in his lap, the head of his member poking her opening which made Su Wan gasp out loud " I didn't.. I never hid anything from you," kissing the curve of her shoulder he fed her an inch of his member, the friction caused Su Wan to groan. She was sensitive and really, really tired to continue her struggle against him. Last night, she had a new understanding of Lin Yu unlike her husbands, he was really too dominating. He didn't listen to a thing she had to say and if she tried to go against him, he would only try to suppress her even more. " You just assumed everything on your own and I just let you think it like that, you can't blame me"
" you are such an a**hole" cursed Su Wan as he began to thrust in and out of her, his pace slow and languid. She tried to get up but Lin Yu's arm around her waist was like an iron grip. He didn't budge for a second, and slowly started to increase his pace " Ne, Wan Wan.. why don't you make me a father?"
Su Wan, who was slowly beginning to enjoy what they were doing, immediately jumped up high in the air like her tail has been stepped on " what? What Father? Have you seen yourself? You are like a kid yourself! What do you want a baby for...Hey!"
She gasped when he gave her hard punishing stroke that sent shivers down her spine, and then a dangerous chuckle resonated next to her ear " If I didn't know better I would have gotten angry but now that I know you a little I know why you put up that stupid conditions"
She stiffened slightly, but then Lin Yu rolled her around so that she was looking at him, his gaze wasn't judging or blaming like her ex-husband but she could feel a sort of loneliness wafting off his body " you are scared of having a child aren't you?"
" I am not" she bristled but her retort lacked the anger she normally would have shown in case she really got angry " I am just not ready"
Lin Yu looked at her eyes but Su Wan seemed to be adamant about avoiding his gaze, he sighed and kissed her forehead " as you wish but" kissing the heel of her hand he softly whispered " I would have loved to have a daughter like you"
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" Wan Wan !" Shen Junxi who saw Su Wan coming out of Lin Yu's room rushed up to her at once, he looked at her overly pallid complexion and glared at Lin Yu. The latter simply shrugged, in a ' what can you do' sort of gesture that made Shen Junxi so furious that he wished he could let Shen Zizhen loose on him. He wanted to say a lot to things to Lin Yu from scolding him for tiring Su Wan to warning him to keep his evil claws to himself but then he remembered the warning of his wife and immediately shut his mouth up as he put his hands on Su Wan's shoulder and dragged her away from Lin Yu, who waved her goodbye with a smile.
Once they were out of Lin Yu's hearing range, Shen Junxi opened his mouth " Wan Wan, you... I know I cannot stop you, after all, you all are still young but I think you should pay attention to your health. Your physique is similar to that of your mother and I am afraid that you will harm your body if you rush a few things, so why not take it easy? You are still young after all."
" I know, Eldest uncle" Su Wan didn't want to talk about this matter anymore. She knew that her husbands wanted a child, especially Lin Yan and Lin Jing, the two of them were the oldest and their urge to have a child was fiercer than everyone else. She still remembered the look of disappointment on Lin Jing's face when he found out that she got her period though they never forced her and even went along with her, Su Wan was certain that they all hoped for a miracle.. Something that she couldn't say for herself.
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Chapter 477 - Unconsciously Avoiding It.
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
" Wan Wan, you are awake early?"Lin Yan who was fixing the breakfast in the kitchen greeted her as usual. His smile was bright and he looked his cheery self but that was until his gaze drifted to her neck and his hands instantly stiffened, Lin Yan's smile faltered a little which made Su Wan a little guilty, she and Lin Yan had been together for most of the times yet he was the only one who was sort of ignored by her the most.
Su Wan strode inside and came to stand beside Lin Yan who was taking out a handful of chillies from a basket, her lips twitched as she looked at him in incredulity " don't tell me you are going to use that much chilli in the breakfast"
Lin Yan picked up the chopping board as he skillfully handled the chilli and started to busy around the kitchen" why not? It's getting hot, chillies will definitely help us get rid of the heat," he smiled dangerously as he poured the oil into the pan ", especially those who are suffering from extra heat"
Su Wan shook her head as she leaned against the counter and caught his wrist, stopping him from pouring all that spiciness in the pan " Alright, I think you have taught enough lesson to ah Chen, he is still suffering from all the spicy crayfish that you gave him, I don't want Ah Yu, to suffer from the same thing" she pondered for a moment before sighing a little " I am afraid that if you try to play a prank on him, you will be the one who will suffer the most, so stop for your own sake"
Lin Yan struggled for a moment before he put down all the chilli that he was holding in his hand and exhaled heavily " You are right with how cheeky that brat is, I am afraid that I will be the one suffering the most. However," he narrowed his eyes and poked Su Wan's forehead " I do have a bone to pick with you. I might not treat you as well as Ah Chen but I think I am the closest to you after him, why is it that I am the only one!" He clenched his fists and banged them on the counter " The only one who can't even have his wedding night with my wife even though it's going to be a year?"
Su Wan blinked her eyes and looked away, in all honesty, it wasn't her fault either. It wasn't as if she was the one refusing but her uncles who were keeping a close eye on her husbands... she was still surprised that she and Lin Yu could do all that without being interrupted " Calm down, one of these days we can consummate our wedding too-"
" which day exactly?" To her surprise, Lin Yan took out a tiny notebook and a brush from his pocket and with a serious expression looked at her " I would like to have everything prepared so, just give me an exact date!"
" Are you really that desperate?"
" After a year?" He tapped his chin as if he was seriously thinking about it before turning to look at her in a second" I will say, Yes!"
Su Wan's eyes twitched under Lin Yan's gaze, she really wanted to say that she was tired but then she thought about how he has been nothing but patient with her, she could only weaken her resolve as she answered his question " a week from now on"
His downcast expression told her that he was very dissatisfied with the answer but she simply waved her hand " My waist hurts a lot, it's one after the another, give me a break. If this goes on, my waist is gonna break- EEP!" She shrieked when Lin Yan suddenly poked her waist making her entire body tremble with pain " what are you trying to do!"
Lin Yan shrugged " just trying to check if you were speaking the truth or not," and when Su Wan jumped at him, holding him by the collar- only then he cleared his throat and said " alright I am just joking, alright? I noticed that you were upset about something that's why," he pried off her hands off his collar and softly asked " what's wrong, you don't look good"
Su Wan pursed her lips and looked down at her feet. She didn't want to share what Lin Yu said to her, she wasn't scared of having a child, she was just afraid of affecting her health! "it's like this- " even though she wanted to keep the thing to herself she still told Lin Yan because she wanted a second opinion and because he was the only one other than Lin Yu who knew about her past, she could freely talk with him " he then asked me to give him a child but when I said 'no' he said that I was afraid of having one but I don't! I just don't want to ruin my health!"
Her reasons were justified but Lin Yan who should have immediately agreed with her didn't say yes or no to her at once, instead he hesitated- yes, hesitated like he was trying to take care of her feelings before speaking anything. Seeing him like this Su Wan, frowned and stomped on his feet " just say what you want! Don't mince your words I am a big girl, I can take it"
Lin Yan sighed running his fingers through his hair " Well, I should have known that brat would find trouble with you"
" What do you mean?" Su Wan asked with a confused expression.
" I don't know whether you are afraid or not Wan Wan but I have often seen you reacting quite severely when it comes to having a child" he began slowly, she wanted to tell him that she had never done anything like that but then he raised his hands and interrupted her " I won't say that you are afraid of having a child, it's more like you avoid the entire thing subconsciously... you might not have noticed but you seem to be procrastinating a lot"
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Chapter 478 - I Will Give You Babies
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
' Subconsciously avoid it?' Su Wan had never once tried to avoid the matter of having a child that was what she always thought but now that Lin Yan was saying the same thing. Su Wan couldn't help but think back to what she has been doing till now, did she really avoid the topic altogether? Maybe she did because she had no confidence that she would be able to raise a child sensibly. Her mother's suicide had left a very deep scar and even if she knew that she was nothing like that woman what if she became like her? After all, in the beginning, her mother was also a kind and loving mother.
Lin Yan noticed the change in Su Wan's complexion and knew that she was most probably troubled by what Lin Yu told her, he softly smiled and raised his hand to smoothen out her hair. Su Wan felt a warm hand caressing her hair gently and looked up, her gaze met with Lin Yan who gave her a light smile " You don't need to look so trouble. I know what Ah Yu said disconcerted you, but there is no need for you to be upset about this, if you don't want a child then there is no way we would ask for one. You can take your time and tell us when you are ready, alright?"
Su Wan clenched her fists, she really wished that Lin Yan wouldn't be so understanding of her every time. It made her feel like it was alright for her to be selfish, clearly, this matter was something that her husbands should also have a say in - so why, why do they have to be so selfless? Even Lin Yu, though the brat said that, he still went ahead and brought her that pregnancy prevention concoction after they were done.
She stared at Lin Yan's eyes pensively and said " What if I never get ready? What will you all do then?"
Lin Yan was a bit stunned when he heard her words, he didn't know that Su Wan would say something like that -but, his eyes softened by ten degrees and he crouched down so that he and Su Wan were looking at each other without her trying to crack her neck, he smiled as he cupped her cheek " Then you don't give birth to our children alright?"
" Yan, why are you-" Su Wan wanted to ask why he was being considerate, yes, she had done a lot for them but they have done a lot for her too, if they want.. they can ask her .. tell her what they want, because at least then she wouldn't have the chance to run away by hiding behind stupid excuses. That way she will have to face what she doesn't want to, however, before she could say such things, Lin Yan placed his finger on her lips and silenced her.
" I know what you want to say but don't..don't say it" Lin Yan was still smiling but his smile was strained and he looked a bit aggravated " We would like to have children with you, of course, no man would dislike having his kids but .. this is your decision too. If you don't want to we won't force you because being scared is normal... I understand that better than anyone, if you want to face your fears, you can do that but if you don't want to do that then you don't have to feel burdened by it either. But remember that I will always be by your side no matter what you chose alright? Because we want children but we don't need them to survive, you on the other hand are much needed so, don't be upset okay?"
Though Lin Yan didn't show any aggression towards Su Wan, he marked Lin Yu's name in his heart and underlined it, one of these days.. he will definitely get him back for this trouble that he ignited. Lin Yan knew why his younger brother did this but there was no need for him to be so hasty, he should have waited and tried to get Su Wan to forget these bad memories of her past before tackling this problem.... But of course, even the greatest strategist would fail to think straight when they are using their lower body to think about something.
Su Wan didn't know that for her sake Lin Yan was willing to poke the feral wolf of their family, nonetheless, she was still touched by what Lin Yan just said, her husband was right there was no need for her to feel burdened if she wanted she could always take some time to prepare herself before thinking about having children and .. wasn't the matter of having kids a year away from now on? There was no need for her to worry about it so soon!
She will carefully prepare herself and face this trouble that she was now aware of... her mother had ruined her life enough as it is, she won't let her do the same this time too. Though she wasn't mentally prepared right now, people were ever-changing, she will one day change too!
She grasped Lin Yan's hand and with determination coursing in her veins, she declared " I... Ah Yan just you wait, I will definitely get rid of these trifling things soon and then I will give you all a bunch of pretty babies! Just wait!"
Her declaration took Lin Yan by surprise but then he smiled and nodded " That's right my Wan Wan is the most courageous one, I know you will definitely get over this fear of yours"
Su Wan beamed, she was really thankful for all the trust and faith, Lin Yan was showing towards her. She will definitely not let him down!
" Ah Yan-I" she opened her mouth to tell something to Lin Yan but then suddenly a figure popped out of nowhere, surprising her and Lin Yan so much that the two of them jumped and then-
BAM!
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Chapter 479 - Butterflies
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
The sound was so loud that it reverberated around the courtyard making everyone jump. Lin Chen who just woke up, was so shocked that he stumbled and fell face-first on the ground. Annoyed, he got on to his fours and stupidly asked " Who here is banging utensils it's still early, damn it!"
Even Lin Jing and Lin Rui who were sleeping in their rooms came out because the brothers were united after a very long time they drank a lot or maybe it was better to say that Lin Chen, was the one who made everyone drink until they passed out.
Among the five brothers, Lin Jing, Lin Rui and Lin Chen had it worst, the three of them couldn't hold their liquor very well and would end up getting too drunk until they couldn't even remember their names. Which was why the three of them, hardly ever drank outside.. on the other hand, Lin Yu and Lin Yan could hold their liquor very well, they could drink alcohol like a fish drank water and wouldn't even stumble.
Thus, the two were completely fine but Lin Chen and the other two were pissed as hell, especially Lin Chen who was having a throbbing headache that could make an earthquake look small- therefore it wasn't a surprise that he was in a foul mood as he stomped towards the kitchen after getting on his feet.
" Second brother, for what exactly are you trying to do? Why are you banging and cracking pots- no wait" as he arrived at the crime of scene, Lin the ever - never stopping his chatter Chen was too surprised to say a thing.
Because Lin Yan wasn't banging pots to wake anyone up instead he was cradling his forehead and so was Su Wan, both of them were crouching on the ground looking like they were in a lot of pain, his brows scrunched up unconsciously just as another wave of throbbing crashed in the back of his head, he pinched his nose to stop the delicious scent that was coming from the kitchen to fill up his nostrils because right now, unlike every other day, it didn't make his stomach rumble instead he felt like his entire stomach was churning which put him in an even more unhappy mood " Why are you two crouching on the ground like that?"
Neither of the two spoke but it was that one figure he was avoiding with all his might that spoke up-
" Ah, it was my fault! I surprised the two of them when they were all kissy, and that made them jump and then bang they hit each other" Fang Tao who finally came up with a proper method to get herself close to Su Wan after tossing and turning for an entire night, couldn't wait for the sun to rise properly in the sky after all she was just so excited that she immediately packed the things that she has worked for an entire night and rushed to the new Lin house.
It wasn't in her plan to scare either of them but - the naughty kid...Ahem the villainous in her immediately made her act, so that Lin Yan wouldn't be able to kiss Su Wan. This was, Fang Tao's explanation but the truth was that she herself didn't know what was going on behind the kitchen, once Madam Huo let her in, Fang Tao checked every cranny where Su Wan could be and when she found her with Lin Yan, she was just as surprised but her reaction was too slow and she was caught by the two of them.
Pretty much as soon as she spoke her mouth, Lin Chen winced at her shrill voice. He wasn't the only one, from behind he could hear two more winces as he turned around over his shoulder, he found that his brothers were suffering from the same hangover as him... Lin Rui, only drank a cup of fruit wine but he was looking dead to the world.
And Lin Jing... he was practically bullied by Sun Wan's uncle to drink the strong alcohol that Shen Zizhen had brought her for them from the capital and now his poor eldest brother was puffy-eyed with severe bags under them.
Lin Rui slapped his hands over his ears, looking close to tears "what's with all this noise?"
Lin grunted looking even more sullen than ever usually his brother was very laid back but right now he looked like he would gladly take on a bull who challenges him to a fight.
" You all are really .. looking like a bunch of idiots" Lin Yu who was looking even more annoying than ever simply walked past them and helped Su Wan up, who looked like she was in a lot of pain.
Lin Chen cursed himself for being too slow but every movement that he made ... was making him feel like he was under too much pressure.
" Are you okay ?" Lin Yu who helped Su Wan up looked at her in concern making Lin Chen scoff. Lin Chen knew that his brother was a sly fox but this was too much! He wouldn't even let go of a chance when his brothers are like this!
QAQ
" I am fine" Su Wan rubbed her throbbing forehead and looked at Fang Tao who looked both guilty and afraid, she couldn't harden her heart to scold the little girl so she simply asked " Fang Tao what are you doing here? It's still early ..."
" Exactly, as I said!" Lin Chen wanted to shout but the second he raised his voice.. his entire vision went dizzy so he lowered his voice and whispered scolded " what are you doing here? Don't you have nothing better to do?"
Fang Tao glanced at him before ignoring him, she turned to Su Wan and happily simpered " Sister Wan Wan, didn't I say that I will show you a better skill than your husbands?" She proudly raised her chin and took out a piece of embroidered cloth and showed it to Su Wan " so I am here to show you my special skill!"
A stunned silence issued after her announcement and then.
" Pfft! Hahahaha!" Lin Chen who was waiting for Fang Tao to show off some mad skills immediately burst out laughing as he looked at Fang Tao and the piece of clothing that she was holding " Aahaha! So this is your special skill? Don't you know that every second woman of the village can do this?"
Fang Tao snorted giving him an irritated glare before turning to look at Su Wan as she waved the cloth in the air " Just wait for a second, if anyone could do what I can then I will happily call you big brother"
" Humph, then I will wait for for-" Lin Chen was still going on when he was poked in the ribs painfully by Lin Rui who motioned him to look at the cloth that Fang Tao was holding-
On the little piece of cloth... for some reason, unknown sat several small butterflies.
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Chapter 480 - An Opportunity
Name：Shrewd wife of Lin brothers Author：fairytail72
" What's...what's this?" Su Wan never thought that there will be a day when she would see something that she has never seen before, being a transmigrator she often believed that she had seen everything in the modern world but ... it would be a lie if she said that she wasn't surprised by Fang Tao's embroidered cloth.
Fang Tao seemed to have noticed the surprise that Su Wan was currently feeling at the moment, she smiled triumphantly at Lin Chen who was glaring at her from the side and handed the embroidered piece of cloth to Su Wan " Its something that I learnt after working for many years. I don't want to boast about my unnaturally exceptional talents but I am indeed a very talented young girl" she cupped her cheek with an arrogant smirk that pricked the Lin brothers all the same.
However, Su Wan had no time to care about her husbands jealous expression, she took a sniff of the cloth and instantly an explosion of a sweet and rich scent occurred. The scent was very faint but it was so enchanting that Su Wan caught herself sniffing more of it, she worked on scented oil herself but this mix that Fang Tao came up with was different, it was like real flowers were blooming on the piece of this embroidered cloth!
It was rather surprising but Su Wan wasn't someone who wouldn't believe that there could be someone who was better and more skilful than she was, and she was indeed a complete rookie when it came to scents and perfumes. She looked up at Fang Tao and thought of several possibilities, this young girl was indeed a bit troublesome but if she hires her as a permanent worker in her shop then she will be able to enjoy the fruits of her talents.
Fang Tao stared intently at the multitude of expressions that crossed Su Wan's face and eagerly asked, " How is it? Does it smell good? Are my skills good enough for me to stay by your side?"
Su Wan grabbed the cloth in her hand tightly, holding back her excitement with happiness brimming in her heart, she replied earnestly " Fang Tao, you are indeed rather skilful, I never thought that I will be able to find such a talented individual in the village."
Fang Tao who was praised by her idol was so happy that she forcefully grabbed Su Wan's hands, holding back tears of joy in her eyes, she smiled at Su Wan, " Sister Wan Wan, you have no idea how much your words have overwhelmed me. I am not worthy of this extravagant praise but I will definitely try to do my best in the future too.. so accept me as your own!"
A couple of imaginary lines appeared above the Lin Brothers. ' hey! hey! First of all, what's with these grabby paws of yours? And secondly, do you think that we are dead? Why should Wan Wan accept you as her own? Furthermore, you little troublemaker, we are standing right in front of you but you are actually shamelessly flirting with our wife in front of us?"
Lin Chen who has been listening silently on the side immediately pulled Su Wan away from Fang Tao's grabby paws, he was really worried about leaving his wife with this woman. Not only because he believed that Fang Tao's intentions were not clear but also because he had heard a rumour flying around in the village a few years ago, the rumours were about how the imperial concubines who couldn't get the love of the emperor would actually help each other to solve their itch - Su Wan, of course, didn't need a help of a woman for that but ... this Fang Tao, he couldn't trust her alone with his wife!
How annoying! Now, not only does he has to worry about men trying to chase his wife but also this Fang Tao!
He peered at Fang Tao while pulling Su Wan behind him " Don't talk nonsense, just tell us how will this piece of embroidered cloth is worth enough for us to buy you from the Fang family? Won't the scent be gone in a month or two?"
" Tsk, tsk" Fang Tao waved her finger and clicked her tongue as she gave Lin Chen a superior glance as if looking down at him for asking such a question " are you sure that you have a good business mind? If the clothes never lose their scent then how will we be able to sell new clothes? Wouldn't it be a loss on our side?"
Lin Chen narrowed his eyes glowering at him but Su Wan stepped out from behind him with an eye roll, she was willing to play along with her husbands most of the time but not right now, it was such a good deal and if Lin Chen kept glaring at Fang Tao then they might lose the chance to make it big!
However, what Lin Chen said was also right. If the embroidery ends up losing its uniqueness in just one wash or two then no one will buy it. They have to think it through carefully. Thus, she cleared her throat and said " Fang Tao, I admit that you came up with a really good thing but I think Ah Chen, is right too. If we are going to piece these embroidered cloths in the dresses of our shops them we can't let these pieces lose their scent in just a few months or weeks, it won't look good for our shop"
When Su Wan took his side Lin Chen raised his chin and looked at Fang Tao with the same triumphant gaze mirroring it to tee as she has done before.
Fang Tao's eyes immediately narrowed but she didn't pick a fight with Lin Chen this time, instead, she turned her attention to Su Wan and carefully took a breath before beginning her explanation " that's not going to happen because these pieces of embroidered clothes will not lose their scents for at least six months!"