Chapter 1
When I opened the door, I still shouted "I'm back" into the house out of habit. Although there is no response as always, it doesn't matter, I'm used to it. Firstly, Yi Tian is not always there, and secondly, even if he is here, he never responds to me.
I pulled my suitcase into the house. This business trip went to City A for a week, and I followed the manager to the factory every day. In the evening, I had to drink with the bosses, and went back to the hotel in the middle of the night. I vomited in the toilet, and I didn't know what time it was when I finally fell asleep. I haven't had a good rest for several days, and now I'm completely exhausted. I just want to take a shower and throw myself into bed and have a good sleep.
When I bent down to change my shoes, I realized there were two pairs of shoes on the floor. I was stunned, walked into the living room, and immediately heard sweet breathing coming from the direction of the bedroom.
I stayed where I was.
"Yitian... be gentle... be gentle... ah..." The voice became louder and louder.
As I listened to the sobbing moan, my heart felt as if hundreds of densely packed holes had been poked with needles. The pain made me tremble all over.
Suddenly I remembered a piece of news I had seen. When the wife came home, she found her husband and his mistress fooling around in bed. In a rage, she stabbed them to death with a knife. At this moment, I suddenly admired this wife. She was able to convert pain into anger, and she still had the strength to die together. And I could only tremble like an epileptic patient, holding on to the sofa and slowly sitting down, so as not to fall to the ground in embarrassment.
In fact, humans have the instinct to avoid pain. Just like now, every cell in the body is trembling and clamoring to leave this place, but I clenched my fists and sat here no matter how painful it was, just like self-abuse.
Something is rapidly draining from my heart. I am glad that the inexplicable and determined love that has never wavered since it took root has gradually disappeared from the bottom of my heart. At the same time, I could only watch the collapse of my inner world, helpless.
When I was a child, I accidentally saw a scene on TV. The world in a boy's eyes was black and white, but when he saw a girl, he saw colors. Starting from the figure of the girl, the colors slowly unfold, with the blue of the sky and the red of the cherry blossoms, and the boy's world becomes more colorful and brighter little by little.
During that time, whenever I closed my eyes, I had this gorgeous picture in my mind. I told myself: One day, I will wait for such a person to redeem my hopeless and dark life and bring me light and hope.
And now, I'm light and want to have sex with someone in my room, my bedroom.
I exhaled, stood up again and went to the door to get my luggage. Maybe it was because the pain was so extreme that I became numb, or maybe the storage of pain in the human body is limited. This time, I was greatly stimulated. I finally used up all the pain at once, so I no longer have to suffer from it.
I pulled the box into the living room. The two people were probably done, and there was no sound in the room. Opening the box, I took out the things I bought for Yitian that took up two-thirds of the space. The bits and pieces he likes to eat are piled on the table. I found a big bag from the cabinet and put all those things in, preparing to throw them away later. Looking at this full bag, I feel so sad that my teeth are sore. What is the difference between this and throwing away money.
There was a "click" behind me, and I turned around to see Yi Tian pushing open the door and walking out. This man was wearing a pair of jeans, but the top was bare. His hair on his forehead was a little damp with sweat, and his lower lip on the bridge of his nose was pursed coldly. He didn't show any surprise when he saw me, he just walked over to me and poured a glass of water and drank it down. I stared blankly at his Adam's apple rolling up and down, and at the handsome side face that I had missed for a week. I thought about throwing away the cup together, otherwise the disinfection would not be able to clean it. Another delicate and beautiful boy came out of the bedroom. If I am the kind of person who can't be found on the street even with a magnifying glass, he is the kind of person who will become the center of attention wherever he goes.
I thought he would be surprised and ashamed when he saw me. After all, this is my home, and the person who just pressed on top of him was my lover. Who would have thought that he didn't look at me at all, he just smiled lightly at Yi Tian and said "I'm leaving" and left. I shook my head and looked at his back, secretly sighing that this kid was really high-level. Compared with the little boys who used to sleep with Yi Tian and then sarcastically and show off their prowess at me, he was more than one level higher. But these have nothing to do with me, just let them do whatever they want.
I should put the clothes in the suitcase back in the bedroom, but I don't want to go in there right now. It wasn't because I didn't dare to face it, I was worried that the smell inside would knock me down, so I had to get down to business first.
"Yitian, let's break up." My voice was as calm as saying, "The weather is so nice today." Even I was a little surprised at my calmness.
The man opposite put down his cup and looked at me with raised eyebrows, and after a while he uttered: "Have we ever been together?"
It dawned on me and I thought to myself that I was really stupid to say such a thing. How did the two of us get together? I, Yu Yitian, am just a free tool to vent my sexual desires, and I am also a tool to use despicable means to hold on to him.
I walked into the study, opened the locked cabinet under the desk, took out a file bag, opened the bag and checked the photos and negatives inside, then got up and walked out. It was these things that kept him by my side for three years.
I walked up to him and handed the bag over, "The photos and negatives are all in there."
He didn't reach out to take it, but raised a sarcastic smile on his lips and asked me, "What do you want to do again?"
I looked at his distrustful expression and felt extremely empty in my heart. He probably thought I was setting another trap for him to jump out of, so even if there was something in front of him that he had been desperately looking for for three years, he didn't dare to take it.
It's not really his fault. 3 years ago, I drugged him, had sex with him, took photos and threatened him to stay with me. These photos are my only bargaining chip. If I lose them, I will not only lose him, but I may not even be able to save my life. If I hand it over to him so easily, it would be strange if he could accept it without any doubt.
In fact, given Yi Tian's background, even if those photos were leaked, no one would dare to post them openly, but what does it matter? His character would not allow one more person to see those photos. So I still succeeded and managed to keep him by my side. Even though I was beaten so hard that I ended up in the hospital, I was still filled with excitement and happiness.
I thought everything would be fine. As long as I work hard, treat him well, be the best to him, and treat him better, he will definitely be moved and accept me and fall in love with me.
I was so naive and stupid at that time, and I didn't understand that in this world, you don't get what you pay for.
I pushed the bag into his hand, "You are free, no one can threaten you in the future."
He frowned and looked at me as he opened the bag. His expression immediately changed when he saw those disgusting photos, as if he had seen something extremely disgusting.
I am a little tired, so tired that I can hardly open my eyes. Finally, I went to the bedroom to find a bed and the air conditioner was carried to the living room to sleep on the sofa.
Yi Tian still stood still in the living room, probably because happiness came too suddenly and he was a little unprepared. I ignored him and leaned on the sofa to fall asleep. Suddenly a strong force pulled me up. When I opened my eyes, Yi Tian grabbed my collar and looked at me fiercely: "What on earth do you want to do!"
I looked up at the ceiling. The lights on the ceiling were broken and old, and the walls were wrinkled and yellowed, exuding the same decadent atmosphere as their owners. After a while I heard my own hollow voice, "Yitian, this is my home..."
Ever since I was a child, my most extravagant wish was to have a family. When I was picked and returned like commodities in the orphanage, when I was ostracized and bullied in school, when I lay in bed with a fever in the middle of the night and was delirious, the only thought in my mind was: It would be great if I had a family. .
When I grew up, I finally had a family. Although this house is rented, although it is small and dilapidated, even though my only family does not love me. But it doesn't matter, I'm very satisfied.
I just didn't expect that Yi Tian hated me so much and wanted to bring people here to humiliate me to the extreme.
From the time we were together, he used various methods to hurt me and test me, and he took pleasure in watching my pain and finding my bottom line. Congratulations, he finally hit my most fatal spot this time, which made me so painful that I didn't even have the strength to hold on to him.
Yi Tian looked at me coldly, then suddenly stood up, went to the bedroom to get his clothes, grabbed the document bag, and left without looking back.
After the "bang" sound, the room returned to silence.
Before I drifted off to sleep, I thought it was finally over.
Three years of hard work was all in vain.