Why is it that when you get back from somewhere,
Sometimes it doesn't feel like you've been anywhere.
A fucking trick of the mind,
Why do I feel so hopeless?
Blegh!
The circling vultures are coming for me
My thoughts are spilling, what a useless cycle.
You mean everything to me
But I can't, see my future.
The insects crawling again
When I'm trying to sleep
Looks like another lonely night
Til the birds sing
I want them out of my head,
I bite my tongue and taste blood
To remind myself I'm still alive
Or is it all just a dream?
I wanna wake up,
I just wanna wake up
Or at least fall asleep,
Then I could think clearly again
Muddy waters, bloody knuckles,
Beating myself up again.
I have no feelings, I'm not enough,
Could you please show me the light?
I'm reaching, I'm grasping towards the sky
I'm writing, I'm bleeding through the night
I'm asking, I'm pleading for my life
I'm hoping, I'm praying to survive
The walls are whispering, echoes in my ears
I don't fucking deserve everything I fear
If pain's an illusion, I'll hold on my dear
I know what I want now, that much is clear.
Put a bullet in my brain, make this pain stop
Cuz I don't really know if I can go on.
Put a bullet in my brain, make my thoughts stop
Cuz all I fucking think about is you now.
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