Sunday
1:45am
He holds my hand tightly and walks me up to my bedroom, we step in and he turns around to look at me. The room is dark but the moon shines enough light for me to admire his features, his bushy eyebrows, his soft, plump lips and his majestic eyes that never fail to make me feel special every time they land on me. Christian raises his hand to tuck my hair behind my ear,
"God, you're beautiful." He almost whispers.
I non-stop smile because of how nervous he makes me feel, he then pulls my hand up and softly kisses the top of my hand, while still making eye contact with me. Like I said, no one can ever kiss my hand the same way. It won't feel right. I look down a bit shy, my confidence is not kicking in right now.
"Look at me."
He says softly and used his finger to lift up my chin.
He leans in and softly plants a kiss on my nose, then my cheek, then to my lips holding it there for a while.
He pulls away, and stares at me while one of his hands starts to pull down my vest top strap, the same hand going to the other strap.
Christian then waits for me to pull down my own top, he didn't want to make me uncomfortable. I gladly pull down my top down all the way to down past my ankle. I come back up with a nervous look, no one's ever seen me topless before.
Christian takes a strong breath in and back out, taking his shirt of his head. There's the mole I love, I think to myself and touch his mole near his nipple. He softly laughs but goes back to serious. I then understand that it's time for me to take off my thongs, if this goes wrong I'm going to cry. Thank god I shaved. I take a big gulp before I take off my thongs, my fully naked body being revealed to him. He looks at me with such gentle eyes, looking me up and down. He gives me a quick smile, before he undoes his belt and trousers. He stops at his boxers.
"Are you sure?" He asks me one more time.
"Christian I'm sure." I say.
And then he slips his boxers off, I saw him become a little anxious and he blinks a lot. He does that when he's nervous.
I look down to admire his form, he has a good size, it's making me scared because I know it's going to hurt. Christian sees me looking down, and looks at me and smirks.
"Like what you see?" He says.
I get flashbacks from when I first saw him with his shirt off, how times have changed, I'm now getting the full package, pun intended.
I walk forward and wrap my hands around his neck, he grabs my waist in instinct.
"Oh I love what i see." I say back to him making him smirk.
"Lay down" he tells me.
I lay down on the bed, making myself comfortable and he snakes up, until he's on top of me, it feels so weird to have our naked bodies touching like this, but a good weird. He makes contact with my lips and slips his tongue in my mouth, wasting no time.. he's horny.
I moan loud as christian bites my bottom lip and pulls on it until it bounces back to its normal place. Christian comes back in for another kiss, before sneaking down to my breasts, he sucks on my left nipple, swirling his tongue in a circle while my right breast is caressed by his hand. I moan from the feeling of his tongue, wanting to feel more. Christian takes it really slowly, and moves to my next breast teasing it. He nibbles on it, making me moan from pain and pleasure. That's when he grabs both of my breasts with his hands and squeezed them together. I look at him,
" I love it when a girls boobs are like that" he slightly laughs.
I shake my head at him and smile, i try to pull him back into me but he breaks out of my grip and goes further down. He lays light kisses all the way down past my stomach to the top of my vagina. That's when he stops, I stare at the ceiling about to say something when he starts to suck on my clit. My body immediately arches, pulling myself more into his face, that's when Christian holds my hips together so he can keep his grip on my clit. He swirls, and move up and down on my clit, I've never felt this much pleasure before, it's driving me insane. He then goes down to run his tongue through my folds, I moan as he does this. I grab his hair and play with it, making him let out a moan.
"Ah- Christian."
I say as he moves back up to my clit, flicking his tongue over it at a fast speed. He then looks up at me, fuck he looks hot. His hair all messy and his tongue flicking over my clit. I feel my orgasm start to build up and I hold his hair tighter. Christian catches on and pushes two fingers inside my entrance, he covers my mouth with his hand, muffling my loud moans as he went faster and faster. He then lets go and I'm a moaning mess at this point, his tongue flicking over my clit at a fast speed and his fingers plunging inside of me. It was a weird feeling, a mix between pain and pleasure.
"Ah, Christian- I'm gonna cum" I say breathing heavily and through short moans.
"Do it." He whispers on my clit.
That's when I feel my orgasm come up and I push my head back into the pillow, the feeling of pure ecstasy, Christian quickly comes up back to my lips and forces his tongue in my mouth, he then grabs my hand and puts it on his dick... he's rock hard. My eyes go wide and he breaks the kiss to look at me,
"This is what you do to me,"
he says biting his lip as he slowly grinds himself on me, making me let out a short moan as my orgasm that had just been hasn't fully gone away yet.
"Ah"
Christian let's out as I rub my thumb over his tip, i then go down to his shaft and move up and down in a repeated motion. He lets out a choked moan, unaware I was going to do that, and slightly falls on me.
I do this for another 2 minutes and stop. That's when he lift his head up from the crook of neck and stares at me. He puts his hand on my cheek,
"You ready?" He asks.
I nod my head, a bit nervous.
"If it's hurts, just tap my shoulder or say my name. I'll stop." He says to me.
I nod my head again, I was so nervous I couldn't even get any words out, I was losing my virginity right now... and I hope to god it's with the right person.
Christian grabs my hands and puts them behind my head, kissing me to distract me. I suddenly feel this sharp pain, and I know that he's entering me. I grit my teeth accidentally breaking the kiss and squint my eyes, because of the pain. He caresses my hand with his thumb. Once he's all the way in, he lets out a light moan.
"You okay?" He asks me.
I nod
"Want me to continue?"
I nod again.
Then Christian starts slowly thrusting in and out of me, while keeping my hands behind my head, his face was right on top of mine so I could see his facial expressions, his eyes were squinted and his mouth was open slightly. Suddenly, I get this feeling of panic come over me, I don't know what it was I just felt so... not me.
I tap on Christian's shoulder,
"Christian, Christian."
I say quickly and in pain. He stops and looks at me,
"What's wrong? Did I hurt you?" He looks worried.
"No, no I'm just having some other thoughts and I- ... did you know this was going to happen? When you came here?" I speak quite fast and panicked.
He shook his head "no,"
"No? It didn't cross your mind?" I ask.
"Well of course it's crossed my mind, I-" he looks confused and a bit taken back.
"It's fine, I'm speaking to much aren't I" I say.
He looks at me.
"Are you alright?"
I nod and smile.
He smiles back and me starts to thrust in me again, and I suddenly get that feeling again.. i don't think I'm ready.
"I just don't understand how your so calm, I mean I'm going crazy over here but with you everything's fine." He gets up and sits next to me.
"I mean you don't have a care in the world?" I say.
I sigh realising that came out wrong,
"I'm sorry" I say.
He looks at me,
"I love you." He says.
"I hope you know that, I do."
I nod my head and smile.
"I love you too."
"We don't have to do this if you don't wanna." Christian says.
"I don't think I'm ready." I say.
He leans in closer to my face and rubs his nose against mine,
"That's okay." He says softly.
I peck him on the lips before I get up to put some pyjamas on, my legs are shaking like mad. Christian then comes up behind me and kisses my neck, before walking downstairs, obviously with his boxers on.
I sigh and when he left the room and curled myself up into a ball when I got back on my bed. For ages I thought I was ready to do this, I feel so embarrassed.
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2:34am
Christian comes walking back into my room 5 minutes later.
"Goodnight" he whispers from behind me.
I turn over to look at him,
"Goodnight" I whisper back.
And he leans in to peck my lips.
I turn back over and Christian big spoons my body from the back.
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