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Weird symptoms of my research
→Since i started this research, weirdly enough, i have been having some weird symptoms.
*I have been having awful headaches since my 1st day of research (01/04/2023)
*weird noises in my house, others heard them too, 2nd day of research (02/04/2023)
*my e-devices have been glitching like crazy.
-music making static noises, apps closing and opening by themselves, entire laptop glitching, my phone just today turned spotify on by itself and started playing 505-am (not that i complain about the song choice), bad phone and wi-fi signal etc.
*3rd day of research (03/04/2023), my entire body is in pain
*sharp heart pains (keep in mind i have a heart condition, but the only reason my heart hurts so badly is usually anxiety, but at the moment i have nothing that worries me)
*probably nothing to do with my research, but odd enough to be in this list, the weather in my town got dramatically worse with no explanation(03/04/2023)
-thunderstorms, fog, rainstorms, cold, very windy, the sky is abnormally white
*i feel very tired, but oddly enough do not want to sleep
*my mum started saying things connected to Him
-"i thought the people in this drawing didn't have faces"
-"that guy looks like Slenderman don't you think?"
*i feel very tired, and i feel like giving up on my research. i won't. (04/04/2023)
*that probably doesn't have to do with my research but i've lost weight?(05/04/2023)
-i hadn't lost weight in a long time, i eat normally and now suddenly my fingers are a lot thinner and longer, and also my ribcage seems to be a lot skinnier and narrower. it is a bit unusual for me to just shrink like that...
*i can't remember my dreams
-i am a person that ALWAYS remembers my dreams. and now i wakeup with an unsettling feeling and no memories of what i had seen...
*i feel very unsettled, scared even for no reason
*i don't feel like interacting with others, i avoid leaving the house which is weird for me (05/04/2023)
*my memory is getting blurry, i forget literally everything from the smallest things to things i should remember
*saw him, was I hallucinating?(06/04/2023)
-I woke up at ca. 6am and saw this human like shadow by the balcony door. I thought nothing of it until it grew taller and taller. I swear it looked like him. Our door is almost 3meters tall. It is entirely possible that since I was not "fully awake" my subconscious mind could have shown me something which was not really there. I acknowledge this to be a distinct possibility, but I am including it because it still influences my thinking.
*Beeping?
-After I saw the shadow this beeping started and it went on for at least half an hour. I tried to find where it was coming from but i couldn't. Maybe it was an alarm? I asked my grandpa about it and he has no idea, nor did he hear anything.
update: i searched up morse code and it sounds EXACTLY like the beeping i heard. But morse code? How could that be?
*I finally got my period?? (06/04/2023)
-It was supposed to be here some days ago. My circle changed. I got it today, on a full moon. Kinda creeped me out.
*I am feeling depressed
-I have suffered with mental illnesses since i was a child, and i was proud to say i had fought them. I hadn't felt the way i do now since i came out of the psych yard.
*My grandma's oxygen device started by itself?(06/04/2023)
-My grandpa came to tell me "good think you remembered to turn on the oxygen. your grandma has been coughing a lot today"... i am 100% sure i did not. "Ummm pa i didn't do that..." i went to check on my grandma almost 20 mins before he came to tell me, because she was coughing a lot. I am certain the machine was off and my grandpa was asleep."...you probably forgot to turn it off in the first place." i told him to not freak him out. But i very much am.
*Sudden pains (07/04/2023)
-These have been very frequent since i started my research. Random sharp pains on my arms, legs, usually my waist and back.
-My mum also told me that she felt something touching her, while in my room. I heard her scream, she seemed very terrified.
*My head is killing me(07/04/2023)
-My migraines have been getting worse. The weird thing is that they start at specific times and places. ex. when i do my research, when i enter my house.
*i feel very hot, but i do not have a fever
*my memory is getting worse
-I told Violet i was sorry for forgetting her birthday yesterday. She said "What do you mean? You wished me happy birthday and also we talked about what cake i should buy." i have no memory of that.
*I feel so dizzy, i almost fainted today, i couldn't walk in a straight line
*coughing (07/04/2023)
-It started when i walked in the house. I went on a walk to forget about what is going on, and the moment i stepped foot in the house i started coughing like crazy.
*My head is going to burst (07/04/2023,11:00pm)
-I literally needed a pain killer, this headache is getting worse. My ears are ringing so much. I will stop researching for today.
*I'm seeing creepypastas, Slenderman and MH everywhere in the internet (08/04/2023)
-It started yesterday when i saw a random comic of Slenderman on instagram, keep in mind i do my research anonymously, so i shouldn't be seeing that there. I then saw MH on tiktok, like alot. And now i got a YouTube notification about creepypasta.
*08/04/2023 the coughing continues.
*Amnesia?(08/04/2023)
-Ok i can't call it amnesia but what the hell is happening to my memory?! Everything is blurry! I don't remember some important things i wanted to write down! I know it was important but what was it?!
*I did the song question i do when talking to spirit
-So the thing i do is i get my mix of random songs and ask out loud "Spirit, or what entity is here with me, please give me a song, that will explain to me what is happening in my life right now" and then i push suffle. The song that is going to play is the message i should resive. Hollywood Undead - Been To Hell was today's choice. I am a little freaked out by the accuracy.
*I feel so angry
-I literally feel so mad! For no reason! The smallest thing anger me so much, and i don't want to fight with my family...
*My bedroom's door started shaking (08/04/2023)
-My bedroom has a glass door that connects it to the dinning room (weird i know but most of the rooms in our house are connected somehow). I was standing in front of it, with my back facing it, when it started shaking. I could hear it, i thought it would break. That only happens when someone slams the entrance's door, but noone did. I didn't want to turn around, i was too scared of what i might face.
*My music box started playing by itself (09/04/2023)
-It sure didn't last long, but it freaked me out.
*My dreams are getting weirder...Well at least when I remember them.
*our town flooded (06/09/2023)
-thankfully we are all ok, but this is the second time this happens...
-the newspaper says "The town of ... have been mercilessly hit by powerful storms with huge amounts of rain and entire areas have been turned into vast lakes."
*I had stopped my research for almost a year, and suddently i felt drawn to it once more. (end of february to begginings of March 2024)
*Depressing feelings and paranoia are back.
*Nightmares started, worse than ever before, they are warning me, something is happening.
*I feel watched. (04/03/2024)
*My head is killing me. (06/04/2024)
*The crows are circling and cowing, they seem anxious.
-Is there something in the forest?
*Whenever i close my eyes, I see Him. (29/03/2024)
*Insomnia (30/03/2024)
*What is wrong with the weather? (02/04/2024)
-The weather keeps changing, it was sunny all morning and the moment i started researching it got so cloudy and windy. Also when i go to school (keep in mind i go to evening school because of sun sensitivity) it is always this eerie weather. This has been happening way to often, i started believing there is a connection.
*Glitches (03/04/2024)
-My phone and laptop have been glitching ONLY when i'm doing my research. How is that possible?
*Scratches and marks? (03/04/2024)
-i woke up with markings all over, as if someone burned cigs on me, or bug bites? (keep in mind i'm not allergic to anything and these look more like spider bites, but how could that be? also we always clean our matresses just in case there are bugs...)
-Today my bf was full of scratches as well, we both think he did it to himself, but they were very deep and in weird places, he is worried...
*Ringing in my ears (04/04/2024)
*More intense headaches
*Paranoia, i think He is always with me, i feel his presense
*I've been drawing the symbol everywhere.
*Went to the art gallery. These drew me in.
Faceless figure
misty forest
the god Pan?
*More scratches (05/04/2024)
-today I woke up with big scratches on my chest. Perhaps I did it myself but I've become paranoid.
*the ringing in my ears won't stop (06/04/2024)
-it comes suddenly and usually when i'm thinking of Him (i went to the doctor before for this, it is not tinitus)
*i dreamt of Him again (07/04/2024)
-he was simpy standing in the background, lately he is always doing so in my dreams.
*sudden sharp pains (09/04/2024)
*i feel very weird today... (10/04/2024)
- i feel as if the only meaning there is in my life is Him. I have to find the truth, i need to be haunted.
*what did I want to write???
-it was important but what was it?
*dead pigeon (16/04/2024)
-it was outside of my school, I almost stepped on it, its brains were spiling out, I almost threw up.
*Dogs
-I was walking home and one dog was following me. Another dog appeared and started growling and barking at the other, eventually they attacked. I was petrified.
*My boyfriend didn't have a face... HE.DIDN'T.HAVE.A.FACE! (20/04/2024)
-I woke up in the middle of the night, turned around to check on my bf, and froze in fear. His features were gone. I understand i was hallucinating, but at that moment of terror, it was the most nightmarish thing i ever experienced. (he is fine, he was very confused and tried to calm me down)
𓆩♱𓆪A/N: I will continue updating this list whenever i have new symptoms!
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