Content Warning: R-18
"Emir, someone's calling you." Pikit-mata kong saad habang marahang tinutulak siya palayo. I heard a small growl from her but she continued to devour my neck, neglecting the irritating sound of her phone.
"Emir, baka hinahanap na tayo."
"I don't care." I can hear the irritation in her voice when she murmur those words on my skin. Marahan akong napasinghap ng maramdaman ang marahang pagkagat niya sa akin.
I couldn't help but cling on her when she slowly push me backwards. Nang maramdaman ang isang table sa likod ko ay agad-agad niya akong binuhat at pinaupo roon. Still kissing every expose skin that I have tonight.
"Emir!" I groaned when I heard her phone ring for the nth time. She let out a frustrated curse before pulling away from me at inis na kinuha ang phone sa backpocket ng pantalon na suot.
"What the hell are you calling for Josephine Elisse?!" Singhal niya sa kabilang linya. I couldn't help but roll my eyes as I look at her smudge face, iritang-irita sa pagtawag ng katrabaho sa kanya.
When she shifted her gaze on me ay hindi ko napigilan ang mapangisi. The look on her face screams that she didn't like the sound of the phone call for one bit. Lukot na lukot ang mukha niya habang nakapamewang at handa ng pagalitan ang kausap.
"This doesn't feel like a fucking birthday party. Fine, fine I'll go there in a bit... Tangina mo!" I immediately slap her arms when I heard her cussing. Hindi napigilan ang pag-iling habang pinapanood siyang ibaba ang tawag.
She utter another set of curses before finally facing me, magkasalubong pa 'rin ang kilay
"God, I wish I didn't just invite these insignificant people."
"Emir! They are your friends and colleagues! What are you saying?"
"I don't care. Ang tanging nasa isip ko lamang ay ikaw, sa ilalim ko."
Hindi ko napigilan ang pagtakip sa bibig niya ng sabihin niya iyon. Isang tawa naman ang kumawala sa kanya when she saw how I reacted before brushing off my hands on her lips and embracing me.
"I wish the party would end swiftly. I just want to spend the rest of my night with you."
"We will. Mahaba pa naman ang gabi. Besideds, I told you. I'll be sleeping over."
"Who said you'll be sleeping tonight? Huh, Selena?" I can feel my cheeks flush by her questions. I tried to squirm out of her arms but she was just too strong for me. Her laugh once again echoed around the room before she finally planted a soft kiss on me on my head.
"Don't go out there and be friendly with all these people." Mahina niyang bulong sa akin.
"Emir, ano bang sinasabi mo?"
"I'm just saying. Hayaan mo ng si Ivah ang kumausap sa kanila."
"You're becoming quite possessive with me." Mahina kong komento at bahagyang tinatanaw ang mukha niya.
"I'm possessive of you. Ikaw lang yata ang may hindi alam kung gaano kadaming tao ang gusto kang makuha, Selena."
"Hindi naman ako interesado sa kanila."
"At kanino ka lang interesado? Hmm?" I immediately rolled my eyes upon hearing the delight in her voice as she asked that question. Marahan siyang tinulak papalayo sa akin and pretend to fix my top.
"Lumabas ka na roon. Just come and find me when the party ends. I'll be with Ivah and George—"
"I'll be finding you once I finish greeting them all and saying my thanks. Sagutin mo ang tanong ko, Selena. Kanino ka lang interesado?" She hissed as she pulled me back by the elbow, marahang kinukulong ulit sa mga yakap niya.
"Stop fooling around, will you?" Her laughs once again echoed in the room before she planted a short kiss on my lips.
"You should go first, I'll be going out after a few minutes." She playfully said while wiggling her eyebrows, as if we did something unholy and people shouldn't know about it.
I mean, we were kinda hiding —- ugh! This is making me go insane!
Hindi na ako nagprotesta at nauna ngang lumabas ng kwartong iyon. I immediately found Ivah with some of other familiar faces. Kung hindi mga nakatrabaho ay mga previous project owners naman.
"Where's the birthday girl?" Mapang-asar na bulong sa akin ni Ivah. The scent of cigarettes from her breath mixed with her sea-salt smell.
"Probably greeting her friends of whatsoever." Prente kong sagot bago sumimsim sa kopitang hawak. Ivah just answered with a laugh bago ako kalabitin at ituro ang kabilang direksyon.
When I turned my head, I immediately saw her laughing face. As if she immediately felt my gaze, she also turned my way — without a second thought a smirk flashed on her smug face. Tila tuwang-tuwa na mahuli akong nakatingin sa gawi niya.
A few people are around her. I'm guessing that's her close friend circle. Ang iilang mukha ay pamilyar dahil nakita ko iyon mula sa pader niyang puno ng retrato.
She motioned her head as if telling me to go there. Agad ko naman siyang inikutan ng mata before gesturing a short shook, a subtle no to her invitation.
She just laughs at my answer and return to their conversation. Para naman akong nabunutan ng tinik sa dibdib ng makitang mukhang hindi naman siya naapektuhan ng pagtanggi ko.
Muli na lamang akong sumimsim sa kopitang hawak before gazing back at Ivah na ngayon ay nakakunot na ang noo at nakatutok sa phone niya.
"Are you heading home early?" I ask her absent-mindedly. She strung almost immediately upon hearing me at tinago ang phone niya.
"Nope, not important."
Hindi na ako nangulit pa ng makitang humugot na naman siya ng isang sigarilyo sa kaha niya. She took a few steps away from me before lighting the cigarette, acknowledging the fact that I don't appreciate her vices.
"Andyan na pala ang main guest, eh." Napakunot naman ang noo ko ng bigla iyong sabihin ni Ivah.
When I look in the direction of her gaze, I can feel the poison running down my throat once again. Seeing those perfectly straight jet-black hair makes me want to throw up.
"Oh my god! Celeste! You're here!" Tila gulat na gulat na saad ng isang babaeng kasama ni Emir. Their whole group looks so delighted upon seeing that girl in flesh.
In a see-through lace top and white flared pants, she looks effortlessly gorgeous. All of Emir's friends flock to her, kissing her cheeks and looking comfortable around her.
"C'mon, Cel! Greet the birthday girl!" Pang-aasar pa ng isa at sabay-sabay naman silang naghiyawan. As if pushing the two ex-lovers together.
God, I immediately hate them! Even though I'm pretty sure they are nice people! I loathe them from this instance!
Celeste looks embarrassed as she sneaks up to Emir. She said her greetings in a low voice before planting a small peck of a kiss on Emir's cheeks.
The lump in my throat grew bigger. Hindi ko napigilan lagukin ang alak na hawak habang pinagmamasdan silang magkantyawan dahil sa ginawa ni Celeste.
A dark side of me wants to scream at them! I want to engrave in their head that woman is mine and no girls or ex-lovers should show up, greet them a fucking happy birthday and kiss them on their cheeks! GOD!
"You are killing them, Selena." Oh yes! In my head? Dear, I already did!
I tried to hide my irritation on Ivah's remarks bago kumuha ng panibagong kopita. She just laughs at my silent reaction before shaking her head. As if disbelieving that I'm actually in such a foul mood in split seconds.
Nang muling ibalik ang tingin sa gawi nina Emir ay nahuli ko agad ang tingin niya. She was looking at me intently, as if observing my whole soul. I met up her gaze and slightly raise my glass, motioning a toast and giving her a small smile.
God, I'm no actress! I'm a fucking model! Could I hide away such murderous intent towards her?
I wish!
Mukhang hindi naman siya na-convince sa ginawa ko at pinagpatuloy ang paninitig sa akin. I don't want to spoil her birthday party kaya naman matapos inumin ang margarita ay agad na akong tumalikod and pretend to discuss something with Ivah who's just enjoying my unprecedented jealousy!
I tried to held myself back the whole night. Ang iilang kwentuhan sa mga kakilala ang siyang nagpalayo ng isip ko sa nakita. I appreciate the number of people flocking my way to converse with me because they kept me busy the whole night.
Hindi ko na muling hinanap ang titig ni Emir o tinignan muli miski anino niya. I don't want to ruin her day that's why I want to avoid sighting them as much as possible.
"George, are you okay? You seem a bit drunk." Bulong ko kay Georgianna ng makita ang itsura niya. Her cheeks are flushed and she seems tipsy already. Agad naman akong natawa ng makitang umiling siya followed by a hiccup of sort.
"Oh, God! George!" I haste when she tried to walk but stumble almost immediately. Nang makita kami ni Ivah ay agad niya akong dinaluhan para Alalayan si George.
"Never should have let you sip, Georgianna." Pinaghalong asar at natatawa niyang bulong kay George as she grab her by her waist.
"H-Hindi ako lasing, Maam I-Ivah?" She seems so confused and flustered upon seeing Ivah holding her. Natatawa naman akong sumunod sa kanila hanggang sa parking lot because it looks like Ivah made up her mind on driving George home.
"Are you gonna be okay here? I'm gonna drive her home, Selena." She intently said as if I would change her mind after niyang ilagay ang seatbelt ni George na ngayon ay nakapikit na. Agad naman akong umiling sa kanya.
"I'm gonna be okay, Ivah. You should take care of George."
"I will, but please don't do anything stupid."
"I'm not someone who would do anything stupid, Ivah!"
"I highly doubt that, Selene."
"Just go home and drive safely!" Pagtataboy ko sa kanya. She shook her head as if convincing herself that leaving me alone here was okay.
"You will call me if anything happens, a'right?"
"Oh, I will. Take care, Ivah. Drive safely." She gave me a nod before entering her car and slowly driving away.
Nang makitang malayo na ang kotse niya ay nagpasya na akong bumalik sa party. I would be fine all on my own, marami naman akong katrabaho sa loob. I know they will entertain me just fine until the party's over.
Nang i-angat ang tingin ay agad akong napahinto when I saw her ocean blue eyes. I immediately felt my heartbeat on my pulse when I saw how undelighted she was as if I had done something wrong.
"I thought you left." She said, in a low and small voice.
Marahang sumikip ang dibdib ko ng marinig kong sabihin niya iyon. I bit the side of my cheeks as I continue to stand there in my cold fee.t
"I-I just accompanied I-Ivah. She and George went home already. Lasing kasi si George." I explained, almost breaking my voice because of how nerve-racking it is to be situated under her heated gaze.
Hindi siya sumagot ngunit nagpakawala lamang ng isang buntong hininga, as if trying to pull herself together.
"Let's go inside, I'll end the party na." She demanded.
"Emir, no. These people came for you, it's too early to end your party."
"I don't care, you're all alone now. No one will keep you company inside—"
"I'll be fine, I know a lot of people inside." Tila hindi niya nagustuhan ang sinabi ko at mas lalong dumilim ang mga titig niya.
"I'll fucking send them all home—"
"Emirson Sicilia!"
"What?!"
"I'll be fine I promise." I convinced her one more time, stepping closer to her just to seize the distance between us for a little.
"Are you upset with me?" She asked, her voice on the verge of breaking. Agad-agad naman akong umiling ng marinig ang tanong niya.
I'm upset with what happened and how her friends still pushed them together, but I'm not upset with her. There's a huge difference between that at hindi ko ugaling ibuntong sa kanya ang inis na iyon, I'm not that immature...
"Then why did you avoid me all night?" Tila lugmok na lugmok niyang saad as she looks at me with her sparkling blue eyes, glistening under the moonlight.
"I just didn't like what happened, but I'm not upset with you. C'mon, don't be your party pooper, Emir."
"Do you want to stay in my room while you wait for me? I know you're not a social butterfly."
"Is that really the reason?" Pang-aasar ko na agad ikinaikot ng mata niya. Hindi ko napigilan ang paghalakhak ng makita ang pag-nguso niya.
"Those people are gawking at you as if you're the reason they attended this party." Hindi ko napigilan ang matawa dahil sa sinabi niya.
"Then, maybe I'm the reason they attended this party." Mas lalong sumimangot ang kanyang mukha dahil sa naging sagot ko. I couldn't help but bite the side of my cheeks to refrain myself from teasing her more knowing how cute she reacts to every tease.
"Fine, fine. I'll stay in your room. I'm already exhausted too."
"That's good.—"
"Cia!—"
Parehas kaming napatigil ni Emir ng marinig ang tawag na iyon. I could almost feel my body run cold when I realize someone saw us and probably heard us talking.
Nang lingunin ang pinanggalingan ng boses and saw Celeste's confuse face ay muli na namang nabuhay ang inis ko. Imbis na matakot na may nakakita sa amin ay parang mas lalong sumama ang timpla ko nang makita ang gulat niyang mukha.
Oh, God?! Really? This girl?!
"I-I'm sorry, hinahanap ka kasi nina Jia and saw you going here-"
"It's okay. I'll go there after awhile. You should go back, Celeste." Prenteng sabi ni Emir. Nang ibalik ko ang tingin sa kanya ay sa akin lamang nakatutok ang mga mata niya. As if proving to me that she's no longer interested with the girl in front of us.
"I'll just wait for you—"
"Go back inside, Celeste." Hindi na siya pinatapos ni Emir ng sabihin niya iyon. I unconsciously swallowed hard when I realize the tension between the three of us kaya naman ng marahan sinipat si Celeste ay nasa akin na ang atensyo niya.
Her reaction is a mixture of anger and jealousy. I kept my facial expression neutral and nonchalant as much as I could before leaning on Emir and whispering.
"You should go back. Ako na lang ang pupunta sa kwarto mo." Agaran naman siyang umiling, protesting at what I said.
"We'll go back inside together, then you can go to my room."
"Fine." Suko kong saad, para hindi na rin madugtungan ang bulungan namin and give away a malicious thought to Celeste, which I doubt if she doesn't have any coming from the look on her face.
"Let's go." Malambing na sabi ni Emir. I didn't wait for Celeste to react and even lead the way pabalik sa bahay ni Emir. I didn't see how she reacted to Emir's motion kaya ipinagsawalang bahala ko na iyon.
Nang hindi na muling nagpapa-alam kay Emir, ay agad na akong nagtungo sa kwarto Niya. Some of her guest greeted me on the way kaya naman I greeted them politely and converse shortly.
Nang marating ang kwarto niya sa pangalawang palapag ay doon lamang ako nakahinga ng maluwag.
I'm sure by the way Celeste looks at us, she's forming her own idea of who I'm to Emir. Hindi ko naman iyon pwedeng pangunahan at pigilan siyang isipin ang kung ano-ano mang pwede niyang maging conclusion sa nakita niya.
I'm just really hoping she's not the kind of freaky ex that would make a scandal out of this.
I decided to take a long shower after settling into Emir's room. I was floating the whole time I was bathing. I got accustomed to her place now since this was not the first time I slept here.
I slowly bit my lower lips as I stared at the pair of toothbrushes in her sink. Hindi mapigilan ang marahang pag-iling ng ulo habang inaabot ang kulay puting toothbrush na para sa akin.
While brushing my teeth, I study myself in her bathroom mirror. In her pajamas, a white cotton button down, and shorts which are too big for my body, I look so different from the Selene that I knew months ago.
Ni hindi ko man lang nakita ang pagdating ni Emir sa buhay ko at kung paano niya babaguhin ang direksyon noon. I just know that the moment I saw her, there was something inevitable between the both of us.
Something waiting to happen, something that we both couldn't help.
Ni hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na ako sa kama niya because of too much thinking over what happened in the past few months. I was just woken up by the feeling of being spooned.
"Hi, baby..." I heard a soft murmur on my neck. Nang marahang buksan ang mata, ang pagod na mukha ni Emir ang bumungad sa akin.
"Are you done na with your party?" I lowly whisper, trying to take a peek at her wall clock. It's already 11:55 PM. The party went on too late, I guess.
"Yeah, they were so persistent in staying. I'm sorry I made you wait." She whispers before hugging me fully. Marahan ko naman siyang itinulak para abutin ang regalong inilapag ko sa bedside table niya.
"Baby—"
"Shhh! I still have five minutes, shut up." I insist sa pag-alma niya sa pag-alis ko sa yakap niya. When she saw the gift wrap in a white silky paper, her expression softened.
"You don't have to buy me anything, I'm just so happy you're here with me."
"Oh c'mon, stop being so dramatic and open it." Natatawa kong saad ng inabot na sa kanya ang regalo.
She carefully unwrapped my gift, not even ripping a single wrapping paper off, like she was about to keep that thing along with the gift itself.
Nang makita niya na ang nasa loob, her shock face makes it so much worth it. No amount of money, time or value would ever suffice for that happiness in her face right now. I'm so glad, I bought it off!!!
"Selena, this is so expensive—"
"Shut up, Emir! Just check it out." She giggles in so much excitement as she opens the camera and brings out the equipment. Her awe and happy expression will forever be painted in my mind. I'm so happy she liked it.
"Jesus, Selena! It's so beautiful! How did you manage to get one?"
"I have my connections." I playfully said.
"Thank you. Thank you so much!" Masaya niyang saad bago dampian ng isang halik ang labi ko.
"Happies Birthday, Emirson Sicilia." I whisper softly. She stopped when she heard me. Dahan-dahang ibinaba ang hawak na camera at ibinalik iyon sa bed side table niya.
"This was the year that I've been happiest. So thank you for making me feel special again." Marahan niyang saad before finally claiming my lips again.
Her soft kisses were full of passion, full of care, and emotions. I couldn't help but feel so weak when her hand found the back of my neck and she pushed me more into her, deepening the kiss and slowly increasing her pace.
Her soft kisses turned hungrier in seconds and before I could even realize it, she was already biting my lower lips as she hovered on top of me. The sound of our kisses makes me so arouse as she continues to devour the shit out of me.
A small gasp escaped my mouth when I felt her knees in between my thighs, slowly pushing and rubbing my core. God! She knows how to make me so wet in my panties! Curse her.
"E-Emir!" I moan as she starts going down on my neck, kissing and sucking every skin that her lips touch. I couldn't help but pull her hair when she started biting my shoulder and tracing my collarbone with her tongue.
Before I even knew it, she already unbuttoned my shirt, exposing my lacy underwear.
"Baby, where's the clasp?" She said eagerly as she kissed my mounds, trying to unclasp my brassiere from the back. Hindi ko napigilan ang mapatawa ng marinig ang sinabi niya. I slowly push her so I can see her face and she's so flush, pleasure written on her face, and desire is reflecting on her eyes.
"Emir, it's here." I seductively told her and unclasped the bra from the front, revealing my breasts to her. Her eyes rolled back as if the only thing that's been keeping her sane and controlled was thug, cut, and unleashes the beast in her.
"Baby, you're going to make me crazy." She whispers on my skin before sucking one of my nipples. Another moan from me when she bit my nipples and suck on it hungrily.
"E-Emir! W-wait—" I didn't even finish another word when I felt her fingers in my panties. I could feel a grin forming on her lips when she felt how wet I was. God! How can this girl make me this week and craving for her?
Without further ado, she motioned my shorts down along with my panties. Not wasting a moment, she immediately buried herself in between my thighs and flicked her tongue on my moist flesh.
"Oh my god! E-Emir! S-Stop!" I can feel my body shiver with every lick from her. When she kneed my clit with her teeth, I melted and run down along with the fluids in her mouth.
I can't count how many orgasms I had with her oral fucking the shit out of me. How wet the bed is because of me and how unholy it is to squirt on her! My goodness!!!
"Baby, how am I supposed to send this sheet to the laundry?" Even with a dizzy mind, I can't help but flush at her remarks while also feeling the wetness of the sheets beneath me!
It's her fucking fault! Oh my god!!! It was so good! I couldn't help it!
Nang marahang buksan ang mata upang hanapin si Emir, she's already running naked and fixing her strap-on. I couldn't help but gulp at the sight of it with her.
God, I don't know if it's a kink or whatever but she still looks hella hot with that kind of thing attached to her. Hella hotter, if I may add.
"C'mon baby, get on your knees." She said with a sly smirk on her face. I immediately shook my head. I can't even feel my thighs, and she still wants me to go all fours on her?!
"We both know you loved it, Selena." She whispers with a grin as she guides me on my knees. I absentmindedly obliged to her as she motioned me. Not even showing a protest from my body.
"God, baby. You're so wet."
"E-Emir! O-Oh my—" I couldn't even finish my sentences when she buried an inch of her thing inside of me. My hands immediately collapsed because of exhaustion, having my ass hanging with her hold.
Another inch and I can feel my hips shake already because of so much sensation. I can feel her grip tightening on my hips as she shoves all of it inside of me. A loud groan from her and another unholy moan from me when I felt the whole damn thing inside of me.
God! God! I will never get used to this sensation!
"Selena, don't give up on me now. We're just getting started." I groan in the mix of pleasure and pain when she smacks my ass. Gripping the sheets and trying to suppress my moans as I buried my head on her pillow.
She continues to thrust at me slowly, inch by inch, pulling all the way and repeating the same routine. Faster and faster as each pull.
"E-Emir! R-Right there!"
"Oh God!"
Our sinful moans filled the room. Her groans as her moves become more fast-paced and violent, hitting my womb like she's about to break me with pleasure. My cries in ecstasy are so loud, I'm afraid her neighbors are about to hear us!
"E-Emir! G-God! I-I'm cummin—" Before I even knew it, I was already shaking again for the nth time, collapsing on her bed as my fluids flowed down on my thighs.
When she finally pulled out of me, I could feel the gushing of my wetness down on me. Her sheets feel cold with both of my sweat and cum. God! I don't even know what to worry about!
"Hey, Selena? Are you okay?" I can hear her as she tries to remove some of the hair that covers my face.
"I can't feel my legs, Emir." I retorted at her. Her laughs echoed instantaneously before planting a small kiss on my nose.
"C'mon, baby. I'll clean you up." I couldn't even muster a protest when she nonchalantly carried me out of bed.
"I doubt that you're going to clean me up, Emirson."
"Selena, I thought I made it clear that it's you that I want as my birthday gift."
"What do you mean—-"
I can't even remember how I managed to stay up with her until dawn, moaning her name and asking her for more.