Thoughts of a Rambling Mind

Who am I?

Sometimes I wonder,
Who I truly am.

Is it the character I play, when I'm with you every day,
Or the one I keep inside, the one I always hide.

My character is pleasant, jovial, and kind.
Lives according to the rules, and has a well-framed mind.
She doesn't argue or speak back, even when she's right.
She loves all things good and pure, just as you'd like.

But that demon who's inside me is quite the opposite.
She'll sometimes use her P's and Q's but really she doesn't give a shit.
She'll argue if she has to, she loves to prove you wrong.
And all those dark forbidden things, seem like so much fun.

I wonder what you'd say if you met that me someday,
Would you smile and say hello, or simply walk away?
Would you realise that my sound mind, is just a husk of what it was?
Would you still love me with my oh-so-many flaws?

I'm scared to admit,
that I've always known
Who I truly am.

But what scares me most,
Is my intention to keep her locked away,
Because it's safer to remain the character I play.