Jk pov
" t- tell me something" she turn off the stove and pour me a cup.
" tell you what ?" I leave her for a minute.
" as long as I remember you behaved rudely to me at first but now you become soft . I-is it because now you know I am not a g-gold digger?" She asked the question which I wanted to avoid at any cost.
" y/n " I cupped her face. " I was betrayed once by a woman and I hated the fact that I am falling in love again. I was hating myself that a person like me doesn't have a right to fall in love. Once you caught my eye I just wanted to run away from it . Whatever I said to yeji it wasn't true. In my mind I knew you were innocent. It was my ego who was saying all of this behalf of me " she shed a tear and my heart clenched . I quickly wipe it off and hug her .
" y/n trust me I'm not lying " I caress her head . Soothing her from the pain I caused her.
" I'm sorry it just you started to behave soft towards me so I thought you were pitying on me because of my family background " its my fault to confuse her towards her own feelings. I'm such as asshole.
" I'm so sorry I should've approached you earlier right ?" She pull away from my embrace. She shook her head.
" its okay " i peck her lips . For diverting her attention i introduce a new topic .
" I'm a bit hungry , lemme order something . Do you like pizza?"
" I love it " she eyes sparkled.
" okay then !! " I take out my phone and showed her the menu but she says she doesn't have much idea about pizza so I order by my liking . Hope she will like my taste.
I sip my tea and give her pineapple juice to drink . " if you were over eighteen we would've been enjoying red wine on our hands right now "
She laughed. " Its not true. Alcohol is bad . I won't drink it. "
I nodded " yes it is but alcohol is a stress reliever too "
" don't tell me you're alcoholic " she moved away but I held her in place .
" no worries your man is not alcoholic. My dad will kick me out from the window . If he ever knows that I'm drinking carelessly. " She scoffed
" ah yeah !! I've seen everything that day how much you obeyed him " she still holding grudges against me.
I exhale
"Forgive me.!! I have already apologized for my actions y/niee" she nodded but still has some hesitation .
Soon I received a call from an unknown number . I pick up the call.
" hello" and that call is from the delivery boy . Our pizza and other things are here.
" I've already done the payment, would you please pick up our delivery til I clear the table " I requested her and she replied okay.
I clear the table . Y/n came to me with two large boxes of pizzas , one medium box of white sauce pasta , chocolate cupcakes and some cold drinks .
" I'm so sorry , were they too heavy ?"
" not at all " she smiled
" do you mind watching a series with me ?" I connected my phone with my tv .
" why not professor " it seems to a bit awkward to hear professor From her mouth .
" y/n !! You can call me jungkook " I requested her wanting her to address me as hers.
" and why is that?" I frowned
" girls In relationship call their partner with cute names. Why don't you call me one ??" My mouth already formed in pout .
" do you want me to give you one??" Her gaze met mine .
" yes " I affirms.
" how about bunny ??" She smiled teasingly.
" are you for real? Out of all nice names you have to select bunny ?? Do I look like bunny ?? Come on y/n " I played the movie .
" Mr grumpy?" I snorted
" just call me jungkook " she giggled. Y/n come forth and sit on my lap. I was freeze on my spot because we only kissed and nothing else .
" lemme know if I'm too heavy ??" She's still feeling insecure . I hold her by her waist to keep her on place .
" everyday I wake up at 4 and do weight lifting and a lot of exercising . I'm not weak and you're not heavy so stop saying that , okay ?" She nodded
" I need words y/n ?"
" yes , jun-jun- kook " she blushed after announcing my name and this put a smile on my face .
" Alright, you will get use to it " I peck her cheek . She smiled and lean her body to put her head oh my chest . I open the food boxes and serve her on a plate . She take it and we start eating it . Both were cuddling on a sofa while movie is playing on the background. I love the existence of my daughter so damn much but right now I'm happy that she's not here to disturb our precious moment . Her bare thighs were coming in contact with my private part . I cursed loud and she jumped on my lap making me groan .
"W-What happened?"
" n-nothing darling it just the scene " she look at the scene and then me.
" you don't like romantic scenes?"
" thats not true ?"
" then why did you cursed ?" She's stuck on this topic so I took her jaw and kissed her passionately.
" let's not ruin our precious time " she agreed and I sighed in relief . Whatever people says but I ain't gonna talk about sex to her.
I gulped and start focusing on the movie . We enjoyed with a bit of skinship . I maintained my distance from her . I don't want her hormones to get the best of her . Same goes with me . I tried my best to Stay sane .
I dropped y/n into her house and stayed until her mom returns .
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Y/n pov
As soon as I comeback to my room I plopped my on the bed . I breathe out and giggled unwillingly . I didn't know is it love or attraction ? But one thing I know for sure that I chose this path now I will walk and see what will happen after that. I wanted to explore fire now if my luck will save me then we'll and good otherwise I ready to burn .
I willing to tell Nancy everything but the dead we made days ago make me step back . I don't wanna be part of her victory even though I'm the winner. Still a little bit doubt is left on me . Is he really into me ? I mean I'm not even beautiful as her daughter. I'm the ugliest and fattest girl in our group. I never received a proposal nor a praise from a boy while Nancy, rose, yeji their lockers are always filled with chocolates and lobe letters . Never in my life I receive any rose from a guy . If we talk about taehyung then it was crystal clear from the beginning that we are using each other and nothing more. I let him explore my body and he let me kiss him and cuddle him . I did nothing wrong it's not like jungkook never had skinship with anyone. My lips lost the smile when I remember the conversation i had with mom minutes ago . Since jungkook's arrival we are getting more orders. An ordinary florist like my mom are Many in this city . Why the heck that guy wanted my mom's flowers ? It's not like we sell many varieties or our shop is too famous . The question is his sudden confession and interest on me is making my heart clenched for no reason.
I sighed and takeout the journal which I bought from the stationary days ago. I love writing ✍️ yet I don't write daily. I don't wanna fill my journal with bad memories cause every year I want to enter with good memories . That's the reason why I have two journals . The one which is filled with good memories and the second one is filled with bad memories . I take out the bad one cause I'm not sure .
DEAR JOURNAL ,
I don't know the path I'm taking is good or bad . The pond water I'm willing to drink is pure or dirty . The mysterious prince who is feared by many took a step towards me . His eyes filled passion leaving no trace of softness inside him yet I feel so good with him . I'm like a broken poor butterfly who has no will to fly cause I don't have wings . Wings are only for the butterflies who are colorful not a ugly broken like me . His scent which makes me dizzy all the time and makes my wings shiver why I'm willing to inhale it . Why i just don't hold my breath and walk away. Sure I did a mistake by accepting the flower he offered me . The flower was colorful. It was the only color which I have seen in my entire sixteen Years life. The mysterious price who cut off my wings are willing to give me new wings . This thing makes me bleed internally. That prince has no idea what he is doing to my poor heart . First he make me bleed now he is putting ointment on my wound . Why hurt me into the first place then ? What was my fault to feel this way ? This behavior of his is confusing Me . He better not feeding me the bread which he is holding for needy like me . I will never accept the help which Is done by the name of love .
After writing it I close the journal and hide it on the respective place . I don't want mom to understand anything if she even finds it . Jeon jungkook you are the lock or key to my happiness. You are writing my destiny with your pen and I'm helpless here . Hope you are not pitying on my situation .