Liv's pov
It's been 2 weeks since i have been out of the hospital and today me and Jenna are going to our first therapy session and I really don't want to go to this but Jenna convinced me once again i also wanted to drive my own car here but Jenna insisted that she drives her car because she feels like I'm more safe when she's around, anyways we're now walking into the room where i therapist is in
"Hello you guys my name is Azra and I'm gonna be you guys therapist" she said as she greeted us
"Good morning I'm Jenna and this is Olivia" Jenna says
"Good morning" i say tiredly
We take our seats and the session begins
"Okay guys tell me a little about yourselves starting with you Jenna" Azra says
"Okay well I'm 20 and pregnant I'm also married" Jenna says with a smile on her face
"Okay and you Olivia" Azra says
"Same thing she said except for the pregnant part" i nonchalantly says and Jenna rolls her eyes
"Congratulations to you both on being married and expecting a baby" Azra says
"Thank you" Jenna says
"Okay now i wanna know how you guys relationship is going" Azra ask
"It's a roller coaster" Jenna says as she glances at me
"Because of me" I blurt out
"Why do you think it's because of you" Azra ask
"My mental health is shit and i have very bad depression and ever since it got worse our relationship hasn't been the same and now that we have a baby on the way makes it so much harder for me because I don't want to leave him but then again I can't help it" I say
"What do you mean you can't leave him" Azra says
"I don't know if I should go that deep because I have a feeling that after today you're gonna put me in a mental hospital" i say
"I'm not gonna do that" Azra says
"How can I trust you" I ask
"Trust her Liv she's not, if I haven't put you in one by now then she's not either" Jenna says
"Okay well I've been trying to kill myself since all of this started, like i tried to take pills or i even self harm and i tried cutting deep so i can bleed out but I'm still here so" i say
"May i ask you why you don't wanna be here" Azra ask
"I see no point in being alive if I don't even wanna be here, waking up everyday with something in my head telling me to end it all is tiring, I mean I'm not even happy if we're being honest I'm only here because I'm being forced to be here not because I want too" I say
"Why do you feel like you're being forced" Azra ask
"Because of Jenna" I say
"I am not forcing you to be here, I'm helping you not give up on yourself or your life and I'm also giving you advice and I'm doing that because I love you and you have so much more people who also love you and want to help you" Jenna says
"I don't feel loved by anyone or even you Jenna" I say
"Why do you feel like she doesn't love you" Azra ask
"if she loved me she would let me go and be happy" I say
"Me keeping you here is me loving you" Jenna says
"Do you think you're depression has you thinking and feeling like nobody loves you Olivia" Azra asks
"I honestly don't know" i say
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The therapy session is finally over now we're in the car, Jenna had stayed in azra's office a little longer than me for some reason i guess to thank her or something I don't really know, she's also a little pissed at me for the stuff i was saying in there and i know that because she's gone all quiet.
While she's in one of her moods i turn the radio on just in time to hear one of my favorite artists singing, i start bopping my head and tapping my hands on the steering wheel, after a couple minutes the song goes off and another song comes on but it's lame so i just turn the radio down and continue driving
"Are you hungry" i ask Jenna
"Yea" she deadpans
"You wanna go to a restaurant and sit and eat or you want me to grab something from a fast food place" i ask
"You can just grab something" she says
As i pull up to our favorite fast food spot and we sit in this long line i start to realize that Jenna's in the passenger seat and I'm the one driving right now and i don't think she realizes that because she's to busy being pissed off at me
"Do you hate me" Jenna blurts out
I immediately looked at her in a confused face expression
"No?" I say
"Are you sure" Jenna ask
"Yeah Jenna why are you asking me that " i say as i pull up in the line a little
"I'm only asking because you already think i don't love or care about you" Jenna says
"I regret saying that okay, i know you love and care about me, after talking with Azra today it helped me realize that being in my head can cause me to believe some of the stuff i be thinking about and I'm gonna work on that" i say
"So we're gonna keep going to therapy together" Jenna ask
"Yeah it seems to be worth it so I'll keep going" ok I'm lying it still feels like a waste of time to me, plus all she did was ask me questions then state her opinion to my answer but I'm gonna keep going for Jenna's sake
"See babe i told you it's gonna help, I'm so happy that you think it's worth it baby" Jenna says while she smiling
I give her a fake smile and pull up to the fast food worker and start telling her me and Jenna's order, once we get our food and everything we head home
We pull in our driveway and i get out and unlock the front door then i sit our food on the counter and go back out so i can get Jenna out of the car
I finally get her out the car and now were sitting in the living room eating our food and watching tv
"Babe i think we're gonna need a bigger vehicle once the baby gets here because most of your cars are two doors except for one and my cars are to fast and there not as spacious like my Audi but i think I'm gonna get rid of that one i mean i had it for so long" Jenna says
I already had a feeling she was gonna say this soon so i got her a black Range Rover with leather red seats and tinted windows, i just have to pick it up whenever I'm ready, it's a present from me to her because she deserves everything even the whole world if i can give it to her
"I'll see what i can do baby" every time she brings it up I'm gonna have to keep playing it off
I think I'm just gonna go ahead and call the company and tell them that I'm gonna pick it up today so i can go ahead and give it to her, i'm also gonna get some bouquet of red roses.
"I'll be back baby" i say as i pull my phone out and walk outside to call the company
I'm off the phone and one of the guys from the company I think his name is mark said that him and his guy can actually bring it to me , they already have my name and address in their system and plus i paid for it already so I don't have to worry about that, I'm so ready to see how happy she gets when I surprise her with this
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It's been a hour already and they guy just texted me a few minutes ago and said there pulling up, Jenna's laying on the couch watching some show, she wanted to go upstairs but I asked her to stay downstairs anyways I'm making my way outside good thing she's distracted right now
This car look so sexy in person especially because it's all black, damn Jenna's gonna look sexy driving it
Me and the guys chatted it up a little and there actually cool but now they're pulling out my driveway, I guess it's time to surprise my beautiful wife with this car
I made my way back into the living room and leaned over the couch where Jenna is laying at and i start giving her kisses on her stomach
"He was just kicking the shit out of me earlier" she laughed out
"I can't wait to see little bean" i say
"Me too" Jenna says also
"Do you feel like walking baby, i have to show you something" i ask
"Sure I need to do a little walking anyways" she says
I help her off the couch now we're making our way out the door but before i open it I had her close her eyes now we're walking over to the car, she's scared she might fall but I'm guiding her so that won't happen
"Okay love open your eyes" i say as we stop
She slowly opens her eyes and once she realizes what's in front of her, her eyes go wide
"Babe is this a joke" Jenna ask
"No baby, i bought this for you because I knew you needed a new car for when the baby gets here" i say
She grabs my shirt and pulls me into a kiss
"I fucking love you so much" she says as her eyes get teary
"I fucking love you so much too baby now go check it out" i say to her as i kiss her back
She opens the front seat of the car and her mouth opens in shock once again
"Red interior babe" she happily yells out
"Yes baby" I say
"You're so lucky I'm pregnant right now because if I wasn't I would take you to our room and ride you so hard right now" Jenna says
"Babe" I laugh out
"I'm seriously not kidding since i can't do that when we go back in the house I'm gonna do something else cause fuck, you deserve it right now" Jenna says
"you deserve this car baby" i say as i kiss the top of her head
Once we finish checking out the car and everything we make it back in the house and Jenna demands me to go to our room and lay on my back on the bed with my shorts and boxers down , i have a feeling what she's about to do so I'm gonna definitely enjoy it