Chapter 56
If Xu Zhizhi also liked Jiang Shi, then this tragedy would not have happened, but she just didn't like it.
It's really cold on a snowy day.
After attending the annual meeting, Xu Zhizhi put on her coat and sunglasses and left the company building. When she left the company building, she noticed Liang Chao's gaze.
But it wasn't a big deal. She glanced back at him, turned her head and got into the nanny car, quickly disappearing from Liang Chao's sight.
Liang Chao knew that his thoughts were selfish, but he had no way not to think so. Jiang Shi was his brother and his best buddy. If they couldn't be together, he also hoped that Xu Zhizhi could visit him and stop him from behaving so lowly. .
Give him hope of living.
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When I thought of Jiang Shi again, it was the day after the heavy snowfall. Jiang Qing and Liang Chao knocked on the door of her house together, and Xu Zhizhi just came out from the shower.
She was wiping her long hair with a towel. When she saw two men, she put down the towel in her hand and went to pour a cup of tea for the two senior executives of the same company.
After preparing these things, he sat in front of the sofa and asked the two people about their purpose of coming.
"Thank you." Jiang Qing and Liang Chao said in unison.
"You're welcome, Mr. Jiang and Agent Liang came to see me for something?" Xu Zhizhi understands that Liang Chao came to her. The two have some business dealings with the same company and it is normal for them to need to contact each other, but why did Jiang Qing come to her?
"Miss Xu, I'm here for Jiang Shi. I know it's unfair to you, but I still want to say that Jiang Shi wants to see you." It was Jiang Qing who spoke, with a calm face and a gentle attitude.
It's not that he is superior because of his status. On the contrary, perhaps because he wants something from her, his attitude can be said to be a bit low.
But this was not the reason for her agreement. As soon as she heard that person's name, Xu Zhizhi's expression turned bad involuntarily. It was undeniable that even after so long, that person still left a lot of shadows on her.
"Mr. Jiang, I think our original agreement was very clear. I won't dwell on that matter anymore, and you don't let Jiang Shi bother me." She drank the water in the cup and suppressed the discomfort in her heart. .
He didn't say anything that couldn't be said, but he clearly expressed what he meant.
Liang Chao and Jiang Qing naturally understood.
In the past, Jiang Qing would never have gone back on his word and slapped himself in the face, but this time it was different and it concerned Jiang Shi.
He has seen all the changes in Jiang Shi this year. He is his biological brother. How could he be so cruel and careless? No matter what, he wants Xu Zhizhi to see him.
"Miss Xu, don't refuse in a hurry. We can make a deal, a deal you will never regret." The young man took out the documents he brought and put them on the table and pushed them towards her.
"I think you need it very much now."
"Director Guo's new work is indeed a great temptation, but I don't need it." Looking at the pile of documents, Xu Zhizhi shook her head.
If she went to see Jiang Shi for money, then why couldn't she be with Jiang Shi for money in the first place? How ridiculous.
"No, Sister Zhizhi, this book belongs to Director Guo. You also know how competitive this book is. If you take it and make the movie next year, you will definitely be you!" "
You don't have to tell me, I won't go. , if you two are fine, please come back, I want to rest." She issued an eviction order and refused completely.
The temptation is indeed great, but Xu Zhizhi can completely rely on her own efforts to get this book. There is no need to wrong herself for that book.
Xu Zhizhi's rejection did not surprise the two of them. If she cared about fame and fortune, then her and Jiang Shi's child would be almost three years old.
They were prepared to be rejected when they first came, so they were not discouraged at this time, but took out some other things and put them on the table.
"I'm sorry to disturb you. Miss Xu, I understand your dislike of Jiang Shi, but I still want you to take a look at these photos." There were
five pictures in total, and each one was placed in front of her desk. She originally disdained it. of.
She didn't know what else she and Jiang Shi had to talk about, but Xu Zhizhi was still stunned for a moment when she saw those photos, because in those photos, the messy wounds were covered in large bruises, and the scars that had scabbed after a long time when the blades cut the flesh, His skin was covered with intricate wounds and red gashes dripping with blood.
The young man's beautiful body was tortured to a state of disgrace by himself...
Xu Zhizhi was a little shocked, but she concealed it well, but her slightly lowered head still made people keenly aware of her discomfort.
Taking advantage of this discomfort, Jiang Qing added: "Jiang Shi is now showing obvious self-mutilation behavior. None of us can persuade him, and even increasing the dose of medicine has no effect." "
So are you kidnapping me morally? Using these pictures ?"
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Her discomfort was well hidden, but that didn't mean the two of them didn't see it. Those photos were of a world that Xu Zhizhi had never touched, which was bloody, depressing, and breathless.
This was something she didn't want to see, but someone still brought it to her, regardless of her displeasure or her feelings.
"I'm sorry to make you uncomfortable."
"But I still want to say, Miss Xu, that I have no morals to kidnap you. I just want you to sympathize with Jiang Shi. We have used many methods to save him, and we have tried many but to no avail. ."
"He doesn't even talk to us and gradually closes himself off. Apart from you, we can't think of any other way." For Jiang Shi, Jiang Qing can be said to have lowered his attitude enough.
But so what?
What does it have to do with her whether Jiang Shi dies or not? Xu Zhizhi looked at those pictures and thought of herself in the original work, the one who died under the overpass.
Jiang Shi had the same disease as she had before, the same shameful disease, but Jiang Shi's disease was more serious than hers.
In the original work, she died under an overpass. It was because of her many evil deeds and because the Jiang family contributed to the situation. They pushed her to a desperate situation without leaving her any hope of survival.
This time it was Jiang Shi, why should he get a happy ending? In the original novel, she did those bad things and was punished.
But what about Jiang Shi? He has nothing, because he has money and power, and he kidnapped her and tried to rape her. Aren't these crimes? It's no worse than her illegitimate life in the original novel.
But he was only spared because of his mental illness. He suffered no crime, and now he appears in her world again.
"I won't go, Mr. Jiang. No matter what you say, I won't go. No matter if you call me cold-blooded or ruthless, I will abide by our agreement and I hope you can abide by it." She looked
away and didn't look at Looking at those pictures, love is not the reason why he hurt her.
You have to pay a price for doing it. Xu Zhizhi is not a saint, but she will also hate it. No matter how many times she undergoes scar removal surgery, the wound on her calf cannot be completely erased.
She always wears thick foundation when filming on the show. How can she stand being so ugly? "Mr. Jiang, don't worry too much. Didn't you hire the best doctor for him? We have to trust the doctor."
I don't know whether this was sarcasm or genuine relief. Jiang could only smile bitterly after listening: "I understand. Miss Xu."
She refused completely and there was no room for redemption. Jiang Qing also knew that staying here would only be annoying, so he apologized like a gentleman and was ready to leave.
Seeing that Jiang Qing was about to leave Liang Chao, he was a little reluctant: "No, Sister Zhizhi, you have to pity Brother Jiang. Just go and see him! This will cause you no loss. On the contrary, you will get a very good deal." "
I know what he did was excessive, but it was just because he liked you. Look at his wounds and wounds. He has received his retribution! We don't ask for anything else. Just go and see him." Well, let him have hope in life and stop doing these self-torture things."
He was moved with emotion and reason.
To be honest, Xu Zhizhi was shaken for a moment after hearing Liang Chao's words. After all, it was a human life...a living human life.
She is not a cold-blooded person. On the contrary, her family is very happy and she has grandparents who love her. She grew up in love and is actually more compassionate.
It's just that Jiang Shi scared her...
In the end, Xu Zhizhi refused. She really didn't want to see that person. That was the person she had finally gotten rid of. He had been by her side like a madman for six years.
Even if she had sympathy, it couldn't offset her disgust for him. She only hoped that he could cure his illness somewhere.
"Sorry, Liang Chao, I don't want to go." She shook her head and finally refused.
It's just that this time there is no toughness as before. In the end, he is still not cruel. Xu Zhizhi didn't know when Liang Chao and Jiang Qing left. She only knew that the other party left reluctantly.
She originally thought that the matter would be over and her life would return to normal, but one afternoon while she was filming on the set, a gentle lady with beautiful eyebrows and melancholy eyes suddenly walked in.
She was Jiang Shi's mother, whom Xu Zhizhi had seen on the financial news. She was an elegant and dignified rich lady.
It looked like he was here to find her again.
This guess was correct. When she finished the scene, Mother Jiang came up. Because there were many people on the set, it was easy for others to hear what they said.
Xu Zhizhi took people to the rest room on the set. As expected, it was still for Jiang Shi.
"Miss Xu, there is nothing we can do. Jiang Shi's child is dying, so you have to pity me as a mother. Please, just go and see him." "
I'm not forcing you, I'm just I'm begging you, please have mercy on me, and I have pity on Xiao Shi. Zhizhi, I know you are a good boy, but Jiang Shi is not good enough for you. Just this once, go see him, don't let him commit suicide, and let him cooperate with the treatment." The woman said while crying, she was out of breath from crying and completely lost her usual image of a lady.
That was her son, her biological son who was born in ten months of pregnancy. How could Mother Jiang not feel distressed.
Rescue after rescue, intricate scars, her son is about to die... How do you ask her to maintain the image of a noble lady?
"I'm begging you, kid, I beg you for just one look. Just let him see you."
Maybe the Virgin's heart was wronged. Seeing this scene, Xu Zhizhi's indestructible heart was shaken again. It was a human life...
"Jiang Shi is very good, but I don't like him." Perhaps because she is a mother, Xu Zhizhi has never seen her mother since she was a child. She will always be soft-hearted when faced with the pleadings of other mothers.
They succeeded.
"I promise you, but I also hope you can promise me, we can only be one side." On the one hand, she is soft-hearted, and on the other hand, she does not want Jiang Shizhen to die, because she is afraid that the Jiang family will blame her for his death. superior.
The Jiang family is indeed gentle and polite in everything they do now, and they understand her very well.
But that doesn't mean that they won't blame her in their hearts for turning their son and brother into this. They also have opinions about her, but their opinions are buried deep.
Few people notice it.
After much consideration, Xu Zhizhi agreed.
"But I agreed in advance that I will only go to see him and nothing else."
"Okay! It's okay, thank you."
"When will you have time? I hope it's as soon as possible. He can't wait and wants to see you." After hearing her agreement, the sadness on the middle-aged woman's face immediately disappeared, and then a smile appeared at the corner of her eyes and eyebrows.
However, the long period of melancholy made her look very haggard, and her joy at this time did not make her look much better, but she was no longer as worried as before.
"The day after tomorrow. There have been a lot of scenes in the past two days and I don't want to delay the progress of the crew." Xu Zhizhi thought for a while and then said.
"It's been too long, how about today! Miss Xu, I know you are a kind and good child, but you pity me as a mother, can you do it today? If you go a day earlier, Jiang Shi's child will suffer less. "
You don't have to worry about the crew, we will take care of it. As long as you agree to go, it won't be a problem." The woman said it in a hurry and seemed impatient. She was indeed anxious that it was her son.
There is indeed no problem for the Jiang family to come forward.
As long as they wanted to, the crew wouldn't even say a ten-day holiday for the director, but Xu Zhizhi didn't want to. She wanted to finish filming the movie before the Spring Festival. Since she graduated from college and started working, she hadn't spent the Chinese New Year at home for a long time, and she also thought about it. After filming this movie, I will stay in my hometown for a while.
She also has some other work, and each one is very full, so she really can't spare time to see Jiang Shi.
But seeing Jiang Mu, a noble lady, begging her in a low voice, no matter how much she wanted to say no, she couldn't.
"Is it okay at eight o'clock tomorrow night? I am very busy during this period of time filming night scenes. The only free time is after ten o'clock tomorrow night. I have to return to the set before six o'clock the next day."
Where they are now Although it is also a northern city, it takes four hours to drive back and forth from the suburbs to the city, and traffic jams during peak hours are even more troublesome.
Xu Zhizhi has made a lot of concessions, and Mother Jiang is not unreasonable. She is worried that her son will understand Xu Zhizhi, "Okay, okay." "
I will ask the driver to pick you up when the time comes."
"Okay." She nodded. I nodded in agreement...
The snow was getting heavier and heavier, and white piles covered the entire city. The mountains and forests far to the north were no exception. Withered yellow leaves fell on the ground, heavy snow covered the branches, and the whole world was quiet.
In the north of the city, inside Qingshan Sanatorium.
The beautiful and pale young man was sitting on the bed, holding a photo in his hand, which was a photo of him and Xu Zhizhi.
It was also the only photo they took together in the true sense, but that photo looked strange, with the scene and characters incongruous.
Because it was a photoshopped photo, it was a cropped picture. Although they were in the same photo frame, there were many people separated in the middle. This only group photo was also fake.
This thing should not have appeared in his room originally, because the doctor took away all the things about Xu Zhizhi. Only by not coming into contact with these things could he have a chance of recovery.
But Jiang Shi couldn't accept it. He had no way not to think about her or miss her. Not seeing her already drove him crazy, so why did they still deprive him of the right to see her.
Even if it was a photo or an image, he could accept it, but even these medical staff disagreed, and those doctors were helpless.
Seeing him smashing and knocking, the well-kept ward was shattered into pieces in no time. When he went crazy, they increased the amount of medicine and increased their supervision of him.
But after discovering that going crazy didn't work, the young man seemed to be desperate and started to harm himself. In this way, he forced them to compromise and let him out...
But how could it be possible? They would only watch him more closely, but in the end they gave in because of the bleeding wound and the possibility of almost dying on the operating table.
If he wasn't exposed to those things, he would get sicker, and they started exposing him to those things, TV images, photos, everything.
Sometimes the attending doctor would tell him about Xu Zhizhi's current situation, because he was afraid that he would be irritated, so the things he showed him had been processed in advance and were harmless.
At the beginning, I just came into contact with these things.
The young man's condition did improve. He was no longer throwing things and getting angry like when he first came here. He began to receive treatment from doctors, and everything started to go in a good direction.
But soon the doctor discovered that something was wrong... The young man's condition got worse. He became depressed, paranoid, and even began to close himself off, becoming silent and unresponsive.
The only thing that could make him react were those images, but every time Jiang Shi watched those images, his emotions would become extremely depressed and negative. The final result was that he would die if he didn't see them, and he would die if he saw them.
It's a vicious cycle.
There is no solution to this except to let the person who made him depressed come to see him.
The young man sat on the hospital bed and looked at the photo in his hand expressionlessly, quietly without any reaction.
This was what Jiang's mother saw when she came back from outside. The tears in the corners of her eyes could not help but flow out. This was her biological son who was born in ten months' pregnancy. She had been used to pampering her son who had never experienced any hardship since he was a child. , but now it has become like this, neither human nor ghost, the scars that are so deep that it can be seen are turned out and white, revealing a disgusting flesh.
He almost lost his appearance, he was pale and gray.
The door was opened, and the sound of waving did not attract the man's attention. He just sat on the bed with his head against the wall, huddled in the corner.
The door closed softly and the middle-aged woman came to the bedside. As she got closer, she could see the wounds more clearly. The tears in Jiang's mother's eyes also flowed faster, but she couldn't cry because today she came to tell him good news. of.
Her son will be cured soon, so she should be happy and not cry.
She held back her tears and said in a warm voice: "Xiao Shi, mommy came to see you today."
"Did our son take the medicine well? He must have." There was no response, nothing, and it had been like this for a long time.
He was completely unable to accept the outside world's voices and completely closed himself off. When Jiang's mother saw this, she felt uncomfortable and distressed.
But soon she thought that Xu Zhizhi was coming tomorrow. As long as Xu Zhizhi came, her son would be saved. As long as she came tomorrow, Jiang Shi could return to normal.
Thinking of this woman's bad mood, she began to improve. She wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, and finally a smile appeared on her face.
"Xiao Shi, Miss Xu is coming to see you."
"Xu Zhizhi, your favorite, listen to me, son. Do you know that Miss Xu has agreed to come to see you." She couldn't help it as she spoke.
But the young man finally had some reaction, and was no longer silent. He raised his head slightly, revealing a pair of beautiful starry eyes, and looked straight at Mother Jiang.
"Zhizhi?"
Mother Jiang hadn't heard him speak for a long time. Her dry voice was a bit hoarse but not unpleasant. It was the sequelae of not speaking for a long time.
"Yes, it's Xu Zhizhi who promised her mother to come see you." Jiang's mother replied quickly, fearing that if she said a word too late, the young man would change back to his previous appearance.
"She's coming to see you, tomorrow night."
"You lied to me, Zhizhi won't want to come see me." She raised her head and lowered it again, her weak and soft voice full of self-disgust.
"No, mom won't lie to you."
"She promised me that she would come to see you tomorrow. It's true!"
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"It's true, mother won't lie to you." She gently brushed away the broken hair from the young man's forehead, "Xiao Shi, Miss Xu promised mother that she would come to see you tomorrow night. Mother will not lie to your son. "
He is very thin because he doesn't eat. He relies on nutritional supplements to survive, but he still survives. In just one year, her child seemed to be a completely different person.
The assurances one after another touched the chord in Jiang Shi's heart, and he looked at his mother.
The woman in front of him, who had haggard for him, couldn't help but shed tears. He hugged his knees tightly and placed the picture closest to his heart.
"No, Zhizhi doesn't like me. She hates me the most. She won't want to see me." "She
doesn't like me. She doesn't like me."
"I have nothing to do with her. I have always been pestering her. She, I also did a lot of very bad things...Mom, Zhizhi will not come to see me."
Jiang Shi already knew clearly that he was sick, and he also knew how much Xu Zhizhi hated him and what he had done Everything made him sick.
He shouldn't like her anymore, but he just can't control it. Long-term medication and self-torture have made his nerves very fragile, and any bad thing can trigger his self-loathing.
When it was serious, Jiang Shi couldn't help but hurt himself. It was because he clearly knew that he was sick that Jiang Shi couldn't accept it. He couldn't lie to himself anymore that Xu Zhizhi liked him.
Zhizhi doesn't love him, she has never liked him, and she doesn't belong to him. He also did so many disgusting things. Even... Zhizhi hated him, which was why Jiang Shi couldn't accept it.
He knew very clearly that there was no possibility between him and Xu Zhizhi, and there was nothing more cruel than this.
Tears fell from his eyes and dripped on the white and blue striped hospital clothes, leaving a bunch of marks. "She doesn't like me." The extremely suppressed voice was full of pain. It was obviously a small voice, but Jiang Shi's mother still understood it.
"No, no, no! Mom went to see her today. Miss Xu told me personally. She said she doesn't hate you, don't cry, don't cry, we are all here." "We are
not lying to you, really you are obedient Don't make trouble but take medicine well. Miss Xu will come tomorrow."
"Our Jiang Shi is very good and well-behaved. We will be fine if we take the medicine and everything will be fine."
In order to prevent Jiang Shi from falling into self-loathing again. Due to his poor health and fear that he would harm himself again, Mother Jiang quickly comforted him.
Perhaps it was his mother's assurances, or perhaps the young man's heart was extravagantly hoping that she would come, but Jiang Shi chose to believe it.
What can I do if I don't believe it?
He was also looking forward to it, he really wanted to see her.
In addition to taking medication, the young man has never had a good night's sleep in this year. This is the first time he has not taken medication.
Looking at his sleeping face, the smile on the lady's face gradually turned sad. Xu Zhizhi didn't like her son, and she had to be her son.
It was her fault as a mother that it ended up like this. Only when it got to such a serious point did she realize that her son was sick.
Why wasn't it discovered earlier? If it had been discovered earlier, would things have been different?
Her son wouldn't have been so seriously injured.
After tucking him in, the beautiful middle-aged woman left the ward. She met Jiang Qing in the corridor.
Ever since Jiang Shi moved into Qingshan Sanatorium, this place has almost become the second home for the Jiang family.
"I'm already asleep, don't go." She stopped the visitor and whispered.
Seeing that it was his mother Jiang Qing, he didn't insist on stepping forward. He paused for a second before saying, "Sorry, I asked you to come forward."
After hearing this, the graceful middle-aged woman shook her head: "That's right. My son, no matter what, I will go if I can save him no matter how lowly I am."
...
It had been a night since Jiang Shi's mother came to see her. The next day Xu Zhizhi got up at six o'clock as usual and arrived at half past six. crew.
I was so busy with makeup and filming that I didn't have time to have breakfast. I took a half-hour lunch break at the end of the morning and ate some vegetables and ham. Xu Zhizhi worked overtime again to catch up with the progress.
I made up a promotional video in the afternoon, and then continued filming until nine o'clock in the evening.
It was dark and the people in the crew were still busy. The snow was getting heavier and the weather was getting colder.
What they were filming today was a costume drama, in which a wealthy lady fell in love with a poor scholar, and was deceived by the scholar in the end, resulting in the death of two people.
There is no love, only money and sex.
The scholar is handsome and behaves like a gentleman, but he is talented but cruel. The final irony is that the scholar did not get the punishment he deserved. Instead, he became stronger and stronger until he reached the top of the world.
The heavy snow covered up the existence of Miss Gaomen, and also covered up the blood at the feet of the scholar. He traveled to the mountains, was a gentleman like Heng, and was a highly respected prime minister.
A sadistic drama, a hapless female drama.
It's also quite realistic...
Xu Zhizhi came out of the play very quickly. She just returned the favor to the concubine, but now her face immediately turned cold. It's not that she was angry or had a bad temper, but it was too cold today and it was almost ten o'clock. Just now Who can be in a good mood after work?
After saying hello to several people in the crew, Xu Zhizhi immediately went to the dressing room to remove her makeup. Before she entered the dressing room, she caught a glimpse of the gentleman from the Jiang family arriving. It was Jiang Shi's eldest brother Jiang Qing.
Because she didn't arrive, Xu Zhizhi didn't bother to say hello and just pretended she didn't see him. Of course, since she agreed to go, she wouldn't regret it.
She is not a person who keeps her word, except when it comes to Jiang Shi.
The loading and unloading was quick but the headdress was a little troublesome. It took more than twenty minutes to get it ready. By the time she got into the Jiang family's car, it was already ten o'clock in the evening.
Xu Zhizhi was originally planning to take her own car, but in the end she decided not to. Her driver was quite tired following her around recently.
The car passed through the neon city and did not stop. It was still heading north, and the scenery around it became darker and darker.
Mental hospitals and high-end sanatoriums will definitely not be built in cities. Most of them will be built in mountains and forests with beautiful scenery and fresh air.
Aoyama Sanatorium is no exception.
Xu Zhizhi had checked on the Internet when she came here. It was not surprising to enter a mountain at this time. She just sat quietly in the car.
Because of habit, she couldn't fall asleep in front of outsiders, so she managed to hold on even if she was very drowsy now.
After driving for an unknown amount of time, the car finally stopped. It stopped in front of a huge building. The courtyard door was slowly pushed open, and the car drove in again.
It quickly stopped again, this time it was really there.
Someone wanted to open the car door for her, but Xu Zhizhi refused. She opened the car door herself and wrapped her shawl tightly to prevent the wind and snow from attacking her.
The snow has not stopped, covering this sanatorium hidden in the mountains. Every time you take a step, the snow will sink into it, and the sizzling sound of friction will let people know that someone is approaching.
Stepping up the steps and entering the building, she shook off the snow on her body, because it was almost early in the morning and the nursing home was very quiet. There was no one else except the nurses and doctors who stayed on duty.
This group of them is still moving forward, all the way in.
Xu Zhizhi felt very strange when she was about to meet that person. After all, she hadn't seen him for more than a year, and the relationship between the two was so complicated.
In front of a room, Jiang Qing suddenly stopped moving forward. He turned around and faced the woman behind him: "He is in the room, he is waiting for you."
"Miss Xu, I hope your words can be gentler. Jiang Shi is a patient now and cannot be stimulated. I know it's good that Miss Xu can come. I shouldn't ask for more, but I still hope you can be considerate of the patient."
There was nothing wrong with Jiang Qing's words. She was asked to come here just to appease Jiang Shi's mood. If she made bad words as soon as she entered, it would be better not to come.
"I understand." She nodded.
Seeing that she agreed, Jiang Qing immediately stepped aside, revealing the door that was originally hidden behind him. "I'll wait for you outside."
"Won't you come in with me?" Upon hearing what he said, Xu Zhizhi frowned.
Why is he waiting for her outside?
Didn't they do her a disservice by letting her go in and be alone with a madman? Xu Zhizhi decisively refused: "I need someone to accompany Mr. Jiang."
"He is not aggressive, don't worry." Jiang Qing shook his head, and then said: "He only wants to see you, and he likes you very much and will not hurt you. " Sorry
, if that's the case, I don't think I need to go in." She took a step back, appearing very resistant.
It's true that he should resist. Although the scar on his ankle has faded, it is still aching at this moment.
Not aggressive, just a liar.
There was a stalemate. In fact, there was nothing to stalemate. Finally, Jiang Qing nodded and said helplessly: "Jiang Shi likes you very much and he won't hurt you, but Miss Xu should be worried. After all, he is a patient now."
"Let's do that. , let's open the door to the room and I'll watch from the door, okay? We're all here, and Jiang Shi has just taken medicine, so his mood is definitely not in danger." "
Okay." She agreed.
Maybe it was because it was too late, Xu Zhizhi didn't want to argue with anyone here, so she stepped forward and knocked on the door to tell the people inside that she was coming.
After a three-second pause, and no voice of rejection was heard from inside, she turned the doorknob and opened the door.
There is nothing strange about the world behind the door. Some of them only have incandescent lights that are too bright. The layout of the room is very simple. There is a bed, a sofa and a TV. It is a strange layout, but it just exists.
The room was very white and smelled of disinfectant. She pushed the door as far as it would go and walked in.
It was only after she walked in that she saw the young man on the hospital bed. He was very thin and white.
It's the kind of unhealthy whiteness that heralds the passing of life. There are traces of knife cuts on the face, and the exposed wrists are wrapped in gauze.
There were wounds even on his five fingers, and there was not a single piece of good skin on his body, at least Xu Zhizhi didn't see any good skin in the exposed areas.
Either green or purple looks terrible.
The meeting was far more shocking than those pictures. He was thin, sickly, and unhealthy. These words Xu Zhizhi never thought would be applied to the young master Jiang Shi.
Compared to Xu Zhizhi's shock.
Jiang Shi's reaction was similar. He waited for a whole day, more than ten hours from day to night.
By the end, he almost didn't believe it.
How could Zhizhi come to see him? She hated him so much. She even told him to die. He should die...yes, die.
The negative emotions reached their peak, and the tears couldn't help but flow out. Just when he was most desperate, the person he was looking forward to really appeared.
They didn't lie to him. Zhizhi really came to see him. This was a great joy to him, like a dream.
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He wanted to get out of bed and go to her side immediately. Jiang Shi's heart would always speed up involuntarily when facing her. He really liked Xu Zhizhi so much that he was a little morbid.
He couldn't wait to get close to her, but when Xu Zhizhi's eyes fell on him, the young man hesitated... Zhizhi didn't like him, Zhizhi hated his approach.
He was still ugly. Yes, when the woman's surprised eyes fell on him, Jiang Shi's first reaction was shyness, followed by fear.
He is very ugly now, with ugly scars everywhere on his face and body. Zhizhi doesn't like this.
She likes pretty things and he isn't pretty anymore.
The young man raised his head and lowered it quickly, unable to hide the panic in his eyes.
The clothes covered the wounds. He wanted to hide all the injuries. He didn't want them to be exposed and he didn't want Xu Zhizhi to see them. The everted flesh and black and red scabs were disgusting to him.
Zhizhi, who likes beautiful things, will definitely be more disgusted. Tears can't stop flowing out again. He hates why he has become like this.
But no matter what he did, he couldn't cover it up. Some of it would always be exposed. There were also wounds on his face. He was extremely ugly at the moment.
Will Zhizhi feel sick after seeing it? Definitely, he doesn't want it, he doesn't want Zhizhi to feel disgusted... Just cover it up, and as long as she can't see her, she won't hate him.
But Zhizhi already hated him, and seeing these wounds only made her hate him even more...
The young man's behavior and thoughts were uncontrollable. He would do whatever he thought of. Even now, he had obviously taken tranquilizers, but his His emotions were still affected, and he hugged the quilt next to him tightly to try to cover himself.
But he couldn't help but get closer to her.
His thin body and fragile mental state made him look strange. Xu Zhizhi couldn't believe that the person in front of him was Jiang Shi.
Because he looked so sad.
His reaction was also very strange. If she had met this person before, he would have run up to her immediately, half threatening and half coaxing, wanting to be intimate with her.
But now...
"Jiang Shi, I'm here to see you." Since I'm here to see a patient, even if it's a patient he doesn't like.
Xu Zhizhi also prepared a gift out of politeness, which was some fruit, beautifully packaged in a small basket. When we were on the road, the driver of the Jiang family took it, and when we got to the room, it was naturally handed over to her.
She put them on the bedside table and then sat down gracefully. For some reason, Xu Zhizhi's mood suddenly became heavy.
Perhaps the Holy Mother's heart was really wronged, and she actually began to sympathize with the person in front of her. Of course she still didn't like him, and she wouldn't forget those hurts, but looking at him now, she couldn't treat him like that lunatic anymore.
He is sick, very sick.
There was no fluctuation in her clear voice. She was still as beautiful as ever, no different from a year ago.
But there was no disgust for him in the voice, and there was no harsh words, just a very calm sentence, "Jiang Shi, I'm here to see you." '
The young man who was on the verge of falling into chaos again gradually regained his senses just because of this calm sentence of "I'm here to see you."
He didn't dare to look at her. He was afraid of seeing bad emotions in her eyes. He was afraid of being disliked. He knew he couldn't accept it, but he still couldn't hold it back.
The young man was very embarrassed. He was afraid of making people unhappy, but he also wanted to get close to her. The two thoughts struggled and split in his mind. In the end, love defeated cowardice.
He raised his head. The long hair on his forehead partially covered his eyes, but some of them were still exposed. They were beautiful and looked like clean obsidian.
And because he had cried, there was a layer of water in his eyes, making them clearer... He seemed to have changed into a different person, not only in appearance but also in temperament and these eyes.
The biggest difference is these eyes.
His sight always made her feel uneasy and creepy, disgusting and terrifying, full of lust and aggression.
But now, these eyes only made her feel a little too clean, full of nostalgia, love and caution, but without aggression or desire.
It's hard to believe that a newborn bird is so clean and childish, and it even cries.
His situation was very difficult and he was a little slow to respond. He obviously had a lot to say, but he didn't know how to say it when facing her. He was afraid that Zhizhi wouldn't like what he said.
She finally came to see him, but he didn't want to spoil it.
It was a strange feeling to meet his eyes, as weak as a deer... Xu Zhizhi thought.
"I heard that you want to see me." The person in front of him looked abnormal. Xu Zhizhi didn't care if he didn't reply. She was originally asked by Jiang's mother to come here today.
She followed the instructions and was ready to leave after just saying a few words, because she didn't know what she could do to help Jiang Shi. The only person who could help Jiang Shi in this situation was a doctor.
Xu Zhizhi originally thought that tonight's meeting would be a tea party for her alone, but no one who had been silent for a long time spoke.
It was just that the voice was a little hoarse and a little soft, making it hard to hear clearly, but Xu Zhizhi, who was sitting on the chair next to the bed, could still hear it clearly.
"Yes." He nodded gently. He was a bit too good-natured. It seemed that he had really taken medicine, which was really uncomfortable.
He leaned against the corner and hugged his knees. He wanted to get closer to her, but when he thought of being rejected, scolded and disliked, Jiang Shi stopped again.
He only dared to look at her like this... smelling the fragrance emanating from her body, it was very light but smelled good.
"Well, that's why I came to see you." Xu Zhizhi didn't expect that he would reply. She thought that she would just leave if he just said a few words without saying anything.
Unexpectedly, he said so and looked at her weakly with a pair of dog eyes, looking extremely pitiful.
To be honest, Xu Zhizhi felt a little uncomfortable being seen, and she didn't know how to get along with Jiang Shi at this moment.
The two of them didn't have a good relationship to begin with, and they had no topics to talk about. In the past, he would only pester her, because he didn't like Xu Zhizhi and wouldn't pay much attention to him, and sometimes he was just bored.
She is very unfamiliar with him, has no common topics or common good memories. Most of the time, he is the one who pesters her, and she can't even hide from him, so how can she bother to understand him?
So after saying these two sentences, Xu Zhizhi was at a loss for words, but her eyes were sticky and watery, looking at her pitifully like a puppy.
Apparently, he was listening and still waiting for her to continue.
"Well...you have changed a lot after not seeing you for a year. Jiang Shi, your family cares about you very much. They hope that you can cheer up, cooperate with the doctor's treatment, and get back to health." After
stumbling, Xu Zhizhi said a few words to the Jiang family . I hope she said it. After she finished speaking, she was once again at a loss for words, but she felt that it was about the same.
The expression is also very clear.
She will have to get up early at six o'clock tomorrow morning to continue working. The journey back will take more than an hour, and she will have to wash up until two or three o'clock. She will have less than three hours of sleep.
It was already very late. She had already been in bed at this point before. It was inevitable that she felt sleepy at this time.
In order to leave as soon as possible, Xu Zhizhi said again: "That's it, Jiang Shi, take good care of your illness, take your medicine, and listen to your family and doctors. I'll leave first." As she spoke
, she prepared to get up without consulting anyone. She stood up and wrapped the shawl tightly around her as usual, but just as she was about to turn around and leave, someone grabbed the corner of her clothes.
It's Jiang Shi.
The dark black shawl is soft, elegant and warm. It looks a bit heavy and simple when worn on the woman's body. At this moment, the end of the dark black cloth is tightly held in the hand of another person.
The finger bones were long and extremely white, but they were covered with scattered wounds. There were deep red wounds that had scabbed over, and there were also new red wounds surrounded by pink wounds.
The hand was covered with various injuries. Xu Zhizhi looked at the hand silently, and finally looked along the hand towards Jiang Shi.
He was nervous, Xu Zhizhi could detect it.
"Will you come to see me again?" He said, not talking about her bad things, but just asking her if she would come again.
She used a little force to pull off the clothes tightly held by the young man.
"I don't know." She didn't answer directly because she didn't want to arouse the emotions of the person in front of her.
"Jiang Shi, your family is very worried about you. They hope you can live well and healthily." "
What about you? Does Zhizhi care about me?" He wanted to know urgently and wanted the other party to give a positive answer. , but after saying that, he regretted it.
He is not qualified to call her Zhizhi. They have nothing to do with each other. It is wrong and annoying to call him such a name.
He didn't want to be disliked: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have called you Zhizhi, I should have called you Miss Xu."
Xu Zhizhi was a little unbelievable that he could say this. He admitted that they had no relationship and it seemed that he was hospitalized. Treatment can still be of some use.
But for some reason, Jiang Shi sounded a little aggrieved in her ears.
"I know I'm wrong, I know I'm wrong, don't hate me, okay, don't hate me." Urgent but gentle, he wanted to catch that black touch again.
But he didn't dare.
With pitifully red eyes, he spoke condescendingly.
"It's okay, you don't have to blame yourself." Maybe she still couldn't bear it, she comforted her again.
"Then will you come to see me again?"
"It's getting late, I have to leave." Two voices sounded at the same time.
"I will take medicine and treat my illness well. Miss Xu, will you still come to see me?"
She was not prepared to answer at first, thinking of pretending that she couldn't hear him, but she didn't expect him to ask again.
The young man's expectant eyes and humble attitude, coupled with the fact that he was a patient, made it difficult for Xu Zhizhi to refuse...but she knew that she would definitely not come.
At least it won't happen again this year.
"It depends on the situation. It's a little unclear on the time. Okay, I won't say anymore. Jiang Shi, I really have to leave." She said casually, it was her business whether she came or not.
No one can force her, so why bother irritating others now.
Will come, Zhizhi said she will come.
"I'll wait for you. I will take the medicine well and treat the disease well." The woman's figure became farther and farther away, until the door was closed and everything was isolated.
On the other side, out of the room.
Xu Zhizhi quickly got in the car and prepared to go back to stay, because it was too late and she was not in the mood to talk to others.
Jiang Qing asked her to take a nap first.
When they arrived at the set, he was calling her.
But she was rejected by Xu Zhizhi. She is a person with a very low sense of security, especially in front of strangers.
She couldn't do it by letting her fall asleep in the car of a man she was not familiar with. "Thank you, no need."
An hour and a half was long and difficult.
But finally they arrived. Jiang Qing helped her open the car door. Maybe she was too tired this time and Xu Zhizhi didn't insist on opening it by herself. She wrapped herself up again before slowly getting out of the car.
"Thank you for today, Miss Xu."
"You're welcome." After saying that, he bypassed the other party and entered the green room specially prepared by the crew. He had to put on makeup again in less than a few hours.
So it's better to come directly to the crew.
Chapter 60:
December 16, 2023, heavy snowfall.
Since Xu Zhizhi came that day, Jiang Shi's condition has indeed improved a lot. He no longer hurts himself, but he will also cooperate with the doctor's treatment.
Take your medicine on time every day and work hard to regain your health.
Jiang Shi likes to sit in the courtyard covered with heavy snow. He likes to look at the courtyard gate because it is the only entrance to the place. As long as Xu Zhizhi comes, he can see her first.
He wanted to see her for the first time, and I wanted to greet her here. In his heart, he was also praying for that person to come, thinking about it every day, but that person just didn't come.
One day, two days, one week and half a month, he waited for a long time until he began to give up hope.
But Zhizhi promised him that she would not lie.
Because of his depression, Jiang Shi was not allowed to leave the ward that year. His scope of movement was strictly controlled, and even the doctors did not dare to worry.
He started to leave the hospital bed and sit on a chair in the yard during this period. Since he behaved well and his mood was stable, they gradually allowed him to do so.
It's just that every time he goes out, there are always a few bodyguards watching him, who are afraid that he will lose control and that he will do something stupid or run away.
But fortunately none of this happened.
He is very good and obedient.
Jiang Shi's attending doctor was named Li Xu. When he looked at the young man's recent examination report, the sorrow between his brows gradually eased. Every examination result was better than before.
Jiang Shi also took the initiative to cooperate with the doctor's treatment and no longer wanted to die.
Li Xu lamented that this was the most troublesome of the patients he took over. He resisted treatment, had strong self-destructive tendencies, was depressed, and had schizophrenia.
It's really unbelievable that such a person can come back to life just because he likes her. Love is really an elusive thing.
Li Xu laughed as he thought about it. He also forgot that Jiang Shide's disease was inherited in his family, but the cause was Xu Zhizhi. As the saying goes, heart disease is difficult to cure.
Isn't Jiang Shi's situation a mental illness? As long as that person is willing to be with him, the medicine is guaranteed to cure the disease.
But the girl doesn't like him.
...
The snow in the yard was falling heavier and heavier, so heavy that it covered everything. The snow-white and thin young man sat on a chair in the corridor, looking at the courtyard door with a dull look.
He kept looking there as if expecting something, but to no avail that person never appeared.
The sky turned dark, and he sat here for another day... His originally clear eyes gradually became lonely.
Zhizhi didn't come again today.
He was obedient and took good medicine, but why didn't Zhizhi come to see him? Is it because he is not obedient? He has been very obedient. He has taken medicine and received treatment obediently. Even the wounds on his body have begun to fade. There have been no new wounds for a long time.
He is not ugly, he can meet Zhizhi.
Jiang Shi couldn't help but look at his brother and asked him: "Brother, when will Zhizhi come?" He really missed her very much.
Because of his former occupation and his status, this hospital, called Qingshan Sanatorium, currently only accepts him as a patient.
The air in the deep mountains is fresh and isolated from the crowds.
Jiang Qing stood beside him holding an umbrella. In fact, there was not much snow on the porch, but Jiang Qing still hit him for his health.
Looking at the thin and sickly young man in front of him, Jiang Qing couldn't bear to speak. He didn't want to tell him the truth because the truth was too cruel to him.
It was impossible for Xu Zhizhi to come. He was a cold-blooded person, yes, cold-blooded. Jiang Qing was very keenly aware of this in just a few contacts.
She has a cold personality and is cold at heart.
She didn't care about Jiang Shi's life or death at all. If she wasn't afraid of endangering herself, or if something happened to Jiang Shi, their family would blame her, she wouldn't have come.
It wasn't because of his mother, or because she felt sorry for Jiang Shi, she was just afraid that her white dress would be stained by other people's blood.
Besides, she doesn't like him yet.
But saying these words to Jiang Shi now is undoubtedly not to stimulate him. He has just shown signs of improvement, and Jiang Qing cannot say that.
"Ms. Xu has been filming recently. She has joined a very busy crew and has not been able to find time to come and see you recently. Just like last time, she worked for a long time before she found some time to see you."
Got the answer, The young man raised his head and lowered his head again. He said in a small voice: "Yes, I will be very busy filming and have to stay in the crew. I won't be able to get away." As if he was telling himself, he murmured Talk to yourself.
Jiang Qing didn't know if he believed it or not, but I hoped he did. Only if he believed it would he have the possibility of surviving.
"Okay, let's go back when it gets dark." He put away his umbrella and reminded him.
The days in Qingshan Sanatorium were lonely and difficult, because he was isolated from the world, and he was always accompanied by doctors' medicines and long-term treatment.
The world outside the yard is very good. Because of Zhizhi, he really wants to climb over the wall and go to Zhizhi, but Zhizhi doesn't want to.
He always likes to think wildly, with many thoughts floating in his mind. Sometimes he wonders if Zhizhi will like him as long as he recovers from his illness.
Whenever such thoughts arise, he himself will refute without hesitation that what Zhizhi dislikes is him, and it has nothing to do with the illness, and he has done so many annoying things.
But as soon as such thoughts come to his mind, he can't help but defend himself. It's because he's sick that he does things that people don't understand. It's because he can't control his illness. As long as the disease is cured, Zhizhi will like him. Yes, right?
It was because of his illness that she didn't like him.
Because he has always been sick, people don't like the things he does. It's not that they don't like him as a person.
If he hadn't been sick and hadn't done those things, would the outcome have been different? Is it possible that he and Zhizhi are already together at this time?
Together they formed a happy family...
December 19, 2023, heavy snow.
"Brother, will Zhizhi come today?" On
December 22, 2023, the light rain turned sunny.
"Why hasn't she come to see me yet? Doesn't she want to come? Why hasn't she come yet."
December 26, 2023, Snow.
"She's just too busy, right? Dr. Li, can you tell me what Zhizhi is doing recently? Or read me the news about her? I miss her very much."
December 31, 2023, heavy snow.
"She will always come today, right? She will come, right? It's been a long time."
"She won't come. Zhizhi will celebrate New Year's Eve with her friends today. Without him, she won't come." Disappointed again.
December 31, night.
"Zhizhi won't come again, right? She doesn't want to see me. She lied to me, right? Did you force her to come to see me in the first place?" Hysterical, he lost control for once.
The emotional outburst was the culmination of disappointment, and he realized he had been lied to again.
"She is a liar, and so are you!"
"You are all liars!" She didn't want to see him at all, and the last time she came was only because of threats from his family.
That must be the case. If not, why would Zhizhi come to see him? She hates him so much that she doesn't care about his life or death.
She even wanted him to die.
Zhizhi said, let him die...only if he dies, Zhizhi will not hate her.
Is he dead? Zhizhi will like him. She said that if she wants him to die, she will let him die.
The knife cut through the flesh and once again made deep marks on the strong wrist. Blood dripped down the edge of the wrist and fell to the ground...