Chapter 32.
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Closeted
- someone who identifies as gay but keeps their sexual orientation hidden or secret, often due to fear of discrimination or rejection.
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MONDAY
📍Warehouse
TEVOY'S POV:
5:00 PM
We were in the conference room at my warehouse. "We" meaning Dominique, Jevante and Macka.
"Arite hear weh mi think gwaan. Swifty cousin a mussi wah fren weh Esco kill zeen? Escobar nah guh memba dat cah when dem man deh guh fi get dawk dem fly any bat."
Not true. Mi memba every smaddy mi kill. How mi fi figet dem when them a the reason mi demons a fight mi?
"No chaagie. The man weh mi shoot a the party, mi seh it aready seh a haffi him. A did Swifty party suh him invite e man dem weh him wah fawud. The man diss mi suh mi haffi show him what time it is. Weird ting is Swifty neva retaliate or try calm the situation."
"Calm which situation chaagie? Which man Ina dem right mind aguh intervene? Mi fraid fi get bore up."
"Yyyyyy." The rest of us said in unison.
"Suh a who did aguh bore up nuh baddi?" I asked laughing. "Fix up yuh argument badman."
"Cool nuh man cah unu know weh mi mean." Macka explained.
"Bredda as mi a seh, mi almost sure seh a dat gwaan. Mi just nuh see why him Neva warn e man or try retaliate."
"Esco. Pon a big man medz mi neh did aguh retaliate when you have no weapon ina yuh hands. Mi see how yuh can get." He added defending his statement.
He was referring to when I found out my mom had died under the hands of my sperm donor. I had the gun pointed at him and my uncle tried to unarm me.
One dead and one crippled fi life.
But that's beside the point.
Mi anuh fren killa.
"Henne yuh memba e b weh did a eyes me?"
"Which one dat?"
"The same one weh the man approach mi bout Ina the fuss place."
"Ohhh yeh. Weh ya think we haffi gi ar a link?"
"ASAP mi fada. Macka dealid e location fimi."
"Ah."
I got up from the desk and made my way to the fridge grabbing another Heineken and opening it with my ring.
"Find it."
"E man fast yuh fuck." Chippy said shocked.
"Taneisha Foster. Uppa Merlgrove. E same community weh Kim shop deh. The lane right between it and the house. The last house poh yuh leff hand side."
"Respect mi fada. Mia mek a move inuh." I spoke walking back to the table to retrieve my phone and keys.
"Mia fawud." Henne spoke getting up too.
"Ahh. Hope unu find unu team already inuh. Sunday a match."
"How yuh mean man. Six nil unu a get." Chippy stated laughing.
"Mek we see nuh." I spoke. "Macka weh yuh seh dem nah guh even know how the ball feel doh?"
"Yeh mi fada."
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I was on the verandah speaking with Taneisha while Henne remained in the car. Mi nuh want she feel like we a force no information outta her or seh she need fi hide anything.
"Think mi wouldn't see you again inuh." She said hands rubbing my thighs.
I'm not gonna deny that she's a decent looking girl but dat nuh mean mi want ar a feel mi up.
Instead of moving it I allowed her to continue so she felt more comfortable.
"Yuh know why mi come yah?"
"True mi a suspect?"
"Suspect of what? I asked my eyebrows furrowed.
"When you shoot Damone?"
"When dat?" I asked in an attempt to confuse her.
"Seriously??! Everyone saw. Dats why mi run."
"Tone dung yuh voice chaagie. And mi nuh know weh the fuck yah talk bou. The party did still up and running when yuh cut."
Cya ketch me lacking. If a mi fi confess she woulda wait till God come fi him world.
"Anyways anuh dat mi come bou. Yuh man and Swifty did close?"
"Yes very. Dem always aguh pon endz dats why mi did feel suh comfortable fi come talk to you cah mi know seh him did a fool round wid smaddy."
"Weh yah seh? Dem guh pon ends together or dem aguh poh ends wid other catty?"
"Both. Well... mi nuh sure but mi think suh. Everytime me woulda bring it up him get defensive and upset suh mi always wonder cause him nuh behave suh when mi accuse him wid other girl."
"Nuff time dem gone poh road together mi nuh hear back from him till late hours. When mi ask him weh him did deh him a seh him did out wid Swifty and bout mi fi call Swifty and him will tell me. When mi call Swifty fi true him woulda tell me seh a the two a dem did deh pon e road. But which fren nah go tell a lie fi dem fren?"
I listened as she explained but dis ya argument yah lean a wah pawt.
"One a the time dem mi did search e phone and find him a talk to somebody name pinky.
"Mi a scroll through the chat and read how the girl seh she miss fi a suck off e hood and all a the tings dem. Suh mi deh deh a scroll and is a buddy dat mi buck up pon weh she send him."
"Escobar mi know how my man buddy look and it nuh suh big. To how mi frighten mi puddung e phone. Cold sweat all a wash me."
"Weh yuh really a seh?"
She continued to explain some other scenarios and a God alone coulda convince me otherwise seh Swifty a neva battyman. Suh the man duh all a dat fi get revenge fi him man?
Battyboiiiii!!!
"Ah mi a liff up now inuh mumma."
"Yuh nah gi mi nothing?"
Ooman love money yuh fuck.
I reached my pockets and pulled out four five thousand dollar bills and outstretched my hand towards her.
"Anuh dat mi a talk inuh." She spoke after taking it.
Her hands climbed up my thighs until they were over my cock.
Ooman love buddy yuh fuck.
I lifted her hands from me and got up.
"You a battyman tuh?" Her eyebrows furrowed.
"No mi just nuh fuck scabby gyal." I said leaving her mouth to hang open before walking away.
Dem gyal yah need fi know fi watch dem mouth cah mi coulda just shoot har right in deh fi disrespect mi.
I entered the car and recollected everything Taneisha had just told me to Henne.
"Now mi need fi figure out a who send mi the head."
"All dat tuh. But how we aguh know? It coulda be any one a dem batty man fren. Or battyman family."
"Nuff suspect dat fi real." I agreed
"Is between Damone and Swifty battyman man dem or battyman fren or battyman family."
"Nuh Ina e dealings wid nuh whol eep a battyman inuh. Mi nuh know a wah kinda caylis situation dis." I spoke hissing my teeth before turning out of the lane.
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MONDAY
📍El Instituto de Mandevilla
Ja'Aliyah's POV:
3:00 PM
"Hi Ji-Ji." I spoke smiling as I took her backpack and lunch kit from her.
"Hi." She responded.
She wasn't her usual self. A wah duh mi baby.
"Wahpm tuh yuh?" I asked curiously.
"Nothing."
"You hungry?"
She nodded her head no.
I pulled out of the school and made my way into the town since I had to pick up some food from Cindy that I had ordered for mommy and I.
"You want pizza?"
She nodded her head no once more. This definitely serious because from me know my sister she neva yet turn down pizza.
"Wah duh you A'ziyah?"
"...A boy keep troubling me at school everyday for no reason and today him pull my hair really hard." She spoke crying.
"What?? You know the boy?"
"Yes. Is your friend brother. Right here suh him pull." She spoke as she turned around in the car so her back was facing mine. She lifted her hair and my jaw dropped when I looked through my mirror.
"A weh the bomboclaat." I immediately pulled over the car and got out to inspect my sister's head.
Her hair was in two high puffs and the back was let out.
A bald spot was in the back of her head though it was not completely visible if she hadn't lifted her hair.
My blood began to boil and I could feel as my body became hot.
"Who yuh seh duh this?"
"Remember your friend how unu always come and pick up me and him together when school over?"
Charity.
Mi aguh fuck up the whol bomboclaat family.
I got back into the car and turned it around making my way back to the school.
"Come." I spoke.
She got out of the car and followed me inside the building.
The grade six students had been doing extra classes for their upcoming exams so I made my way to his class.
I briefly spoke to the teacher making sure to leave out major details and she instructed him to come and speak to me.
"Is him?" I spoke asking Ji-Ji for confirmation.
"Yes."
I used my phone to kunk him in his forehead causing it to bounce backwards.
"Listen to me and listen tuh mi bloodclaat good. Yuh see when yuh see dah likkle girl yah, try walk faaarrrrr yere mi a tell yuh? Doh Eva mek e mistake a put yuh hand poh mi sista."
"Weh she duh yuh mek yuh peel out ar head back?"
"..."
"You mi a talk to inuh!"
"Nothing. A mi sista tell mi fi duh it." He spoke as his voice broke.
Everybody bad fi who anuh dem fucking size and when you talk to dem dem nuh wah hear.
Mi did a big fucking pickney when mi Ina grade six. Mi know more dan yuh coulda imagine. Suh imagine dem nowadays one yah weh exposed to everything.
Him know right from wrong and regardless of him saying a him sista tell him fi do it, him still haffi feel weh him put mi sista tru.
"Come." I spoke pulling his arms as I made my way outside the building.
"Ji-Ji gwaan Ina the front seat."
I reached in my handbag for my eyebrow razor and got in the back seat beside the boy.
"Whol yuh head."
"Noo doh duh dat." He cried.
"Shet yuh fuck and whol yuh head. Yuh neh know seh when you pull out fi her hair yours woulda gone too? Whol yuh head and Shet up!"
He complied.
I used the razor and raggedly patched out parts of his head before signing my signature in the back.
Artist inuh. Yuh angle dah hairstyle deh gyal.
Lastly I connected the razor with his face and cleanly removed any evidence of eyebrow leaving him with only one
"Come out!" I shouted once I was done.
After he got out I closed the door and made my way in the direction of Cindy leaving him there to stand shocked.
Mi nuh wah nobody tell me fi handle nuh situation like me a adult. Mi aguh fi Eva be wah immature likkle gyal and mi we fuck up anybody regardless of them age. I give zero fucks.
Mi nah guh Eva be the bigger one. Mi aguh always toe to toe with whoever when it comes to the people weh mi love.
The whol' family haffi get a trim. Memba mi tell yuh.
"Hush yere Ji-Ji. You want pizza?"
"Yes please. Extra cheese."
I smiled before reaching for my phone to order the pizza so it would be ready by the time I went to pick it up.
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5:00 PM
I walked into my mother's house with the pizza box and mommy's chicken chop Suey in one hand and my phone and key in the other.
"Wah mek unu tek suh long? A ina mi punny e gas reach inuh."
I don't want to laugh because of the severity of the situation that was about to unfold but I couldn't help but laugh.
"A'ziyah show mommy yuh head."
She walked over to our mom who was laying in the couch.
"Wa duh yuh head?" Mommy asked as she walked over.
"What the fuck! wahpm to yuh hair A'ziyah??" She spoke more seriously as she sat up in the couch.
A'ziyah explained the whole situation to mommy and we were now discussing what would be done.
"Tomorrow before the rooster even wash face mi a guh uppa school."
Mommy took some pictures of A'ziyah's head before sending it to her dad.
Everybody know how dah man deh gwaan ova him pickney inuh. Chaos when him reach home.
I showed my mom the picture of Brandon's head. She was not too pleased to see what I did but she also did not chastise me.
"This likkle pissin tale gyal need fi keep ar pickney dem in line because my own dem nuh chubble people. From ar man text mi phone bout him wah nyam mi pussy she nuh stop send ar pickney dem fi tek set poh unu!
Afta anuh fimi fault ar front wah some drain cleaner!"
My mom was going off. One thing bout she when it have nothing fi duh with her kids you cya tell her fi tone dung.
This wasn't my first time hearing that Charity's stepfather had said he wanted to do sexual things with my mom. She would always turn him down because of how loyal she was but would also ensure to add that he wasn't the best looking and would not stand a chance either ways.
"Mi afi fix ar business once and fi all." Was the last thing she said before she went into her room to make a phone call. After which she came back into the living room like nothing happened.
Mi nuh know weh mommy a plan but mi know seh suhmu might end up dead and anuh she.
Mi know weh mi a duh tomorrow too.
As mi seh the whol family aguh feel it.
"Mommy mi aguh home now here? Mi warm up yuh food fi yuh just guh fi it when yuh hear the microwave go off."
"Later mi baby. Tonx and stay safe here? Mommy love yuh."
"Love you too. Later A'ziyah."
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12:00 AM
I had explained the whole situation to Poochie. I was hesitant to tell Dominique because I knew it would result in blood shed. God alone can tell me him nuh kill Mass Joe because from the whole incident happen mi nuh hear or see back from him.
Poochie was enraged and said she would be accompanying me to pull up on Charity and her sister.
I was now scrolling through my instagram feed with my cup of ice in hand.
Rass den Ivany an audition fi Baddies Caribbean? Dis shit afi lit.
With Shenseea and Spice as hosts it affi nice.
Haffi guh subscribe to Zeus to be very honest.
My phone started ringing and to my surprise it was suchman.
Mi nah ansa inuh. Mek him sweat likkle. Him nuh see seh a me and me man time now?
I resumed watching videos regarding Baddies Caribbean while kicking my feet and laughing.
One a CMR side ooman dem mussi deh deh a audition too. Hear Ivany she. "Nuh you fuck CMR?."
What a gyal turble.
I laughed while kicking my feet.
My phone began ringing again and I took a deep breath and swallowed the laugh.
"Hello." I was the first to speak.
"Why mia call yuh and nah get yuh?" His voice intimidating but very attractive.
"Did a duh suhmu. Wa kinda late hours dis yah call me? What if a neva me ansa?"
He was silent and then he spoke, "Who fi ansa yuh phone Ja'Aliyah?"
Laugh wah kill me. I muted the phone to laugh before composing myself to unmute.
"Who and yuh deh deh? Fuck yuh dia fuck mek yuh cya ansa e phone?"
I muted the call once more to laugh.
"Unmute e phone chaagie."
No him cya serious. I laughed so hard that I was gasping for air.
I unmuted the phone but was not able to conceal my laughter.
"A joke Tevoy." I declared while still laughing.
"Haffi. Weh yuh eat from day?"
Rass. The food weh mi buy put down ina microwave from mi reach home.
Because of the whole situation with Ji-Ji I lost my appetite.
"You mia talk tuh inuh miss."
I switched the call to show him the cup of ice that was in my hand.
"Ice alone yuh eat from day??? Weh yuh wah fi eat?"
"Nothing mi nuh hungry. Mi buy food from earlier but mi nuh feel for it."
"Nuh wah hear dat." He got up from his bed and I heard the sound of keys shuffling as he descended the stairs.
"Mia fawud." Is all he said before hanging up.
Him think him smarter dan nobody. Nothing more dan him a come look if mi did have man yah fi true.
About forty-five minutes later Tevoy was sitting beside me as we both ate the food he bought.
I was stuffing my face with the fries as I occasionally took a bite of my burger.
After we had finished eating I went to brush my teeth as I had already done my nightly routine.
I got into my bed and he followed behind me shortly after exiting the bathroom.
I turned the television on and continued watching my series as he scrolled on his phone.
Our silence comfortable.
A message came in on his phone and I peeped but tried my best to not make it obvious.
Which gyal dat?
Nonetheless I ignored it because we single and we a big people doh?
After a few minutes I began dozing off, suddenly the weight from the bed was lifted.
I opened my eyes and outstretched my arm to hold Tevoy's hand as he tried to discreetly leave.
"Weh yah guh?"
"Bathroom babe. Gwaan back guh sleep."
Instead I watched as he went to the bathroom then listened as he peed and washed his hands.
Force him force piss inuh.
He came back to join me in bed and I swiped down on my notification bar when something caught my attention.
A message request from a fake page.
Mi cya deal wid dat right now inuh.
I hissed my teeth and slid it back up before turning my phone off.
When I woke up in the middle of the night the bed beside me was empty.
The dawgshit really gone?
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