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Ok, bro just take a deep breath and chill. Take a chill pill cause, I know you're freaking excited. So breath in and breath out slowly. Ok let's get started now.
Today is my worst nightmare, VALENTINES DAY. Today is the day I try to kill myself multiple times and find myself gagging. Very immature for a 13 year old but sorry, I have a fear of this whole love drama thing. I don't want to get involved in all that.
Anyways, the first two years of Hogwarts I had survived without any of these issues. But this year was definitely different. The one and only reason is JENNIE EMBERLY. Who is right now at this moment certified as the biggest problem in my life.
I swear to god she's gonna come up to me and give that weird giggle and hand me a letter and some chocolates.
If you ask me, Well it doesn't seem that bad Lysander, she's only giving you chocolates right? Well then, sorry bro you clearly don't have friends. There is this quote stating:
'Who needs enemies when you have friends'
And yes, this quote stands true for my current situation. If Jennie does that, I'm gone. My roomies are gonna roast me until I'm burnt to the ground and reached the door ways of hell. Mainly cause, I don't think anyone except Val is going to get chocolates to be honest.
Val is the type of person to talk to like everyone so even if he doesn't get chocolates because someone is attracted towards him romantically (I never thought I would use this word, oh shit) he's getting at least those 'You're my friend' chocolates.
Anyways, they day of Saint Valentine (Sounds like Val's name 'Valentino' lol) had arrived. It was a Monday and I of course got up late. I ran to great hall for breakfast and saw a people in groups and pairs. They were all exchanging chocolates and laughing and talking. I saw the table where my roomies were seated in so I went to join them.
The first word I hear as I approached them was, "SO ABOUT JENNIE" Val started popping up into my face. "Well, what happened with you and Diana?" I shot back at him with a smirk. "I don't like her" Val said. "Is that why you were muttering her name all night in your sleep?" Hugo added.
The gang broke into laughter. "FAKE NEWS AGAIN!" Val screamed. "Ok ok we're convinced" Lorcan said sarcastically. "NO ACTUALLY" Val said sensing the sarcasm. "Val, you bought chocolates yesterday when we went to Hogsmeade. Who was that for?" Jared asked sneering.
"Can't a boy just buy chocolates for himself?"
"Of course he can, but why heart shaped ones" I said as I gave a hi-five to Jared. Val looked at us disheartened. OMG! BULLYING IS SO FUN, I DON'T BLAME ANYONE WHO HAS BULLIED ME BEFORE! ITS NOT THEIR PROBLEM THAT ITS SO FUN.
"GUYS! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!" Lily said as she jumped towards our table and sat beside raging Valentino Anderson. "What's wrong with him?" she asked patting Val's back. "Well we kinda found out who he likes" Lorcan said. Lily's mouth dropped and she went closer to Val's face and said, "DUDE, I'M YOUR BEST FRIEND, TELL ME!"
"I don't like anyone" he said choking and almost in the verge of tears. "Guys, stop making him cry, look how sweet he is to all of you" Lily said giving him a hug. "Where's Jennie?" Lily asked looking at me.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH POTTER! I TRIED SO HARD AND DIVERTED THE TOPIC AND LOOK NOW! SHE'S RUINED EVERYTHING! GOSH!
"You diverted the topic didn't you" Lorcan said. I gave a look of self-disappointment. "So anyone has a date?" Lily asked. "Potter where are your friends?" I asked her trying to chase her away. "They don't care about Valentines day they're just talking about some random news" Lily said sighing.
"Am I friends with the wrong people?" I asked her looking at my roomies. I should be friend with Potter's friend, what am I doing with my life?
"Trust me no" she said. "So Lysander choose one" Lorcan said sticking out his index and middle finger. I chose the middle finger. "Yay!" Lorcan squealed like a baby. "What?" I asked. "You chose Lily!" he said. "Sorry I reject him, he's too short" Lily said.
WAIT WHAT DID I CHOSE AND GET REJECTED FOR AGAIN? I'M SO CONFUSED. "Ask Lily on a date" Lorcan said. I started laughing. SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH HUMANS!!!! THEY ARE ALL DUMB. WHAT MADE ME THINK CHOOSING A FINGER IS GONNA MAKE ME GO ON A DATE?
"No thanks, I don't like short girls " I said to counter her statement to reject me due to my height even though I didn't even ask her on a date.
"I'm not short" Lily said. "Me and you are the same height, if you're not short them how am I short?" I asked her. "Guys, you're conversation is boring me to death" Jared said out of the blue. "When is Jennie gonna get here I'm so bored" Val said.
WHY IS EVERYONE ATTACKING ME IN SOME OR THE OTHER WAY?
"Lysander"
PERFECT! SOMEONE JUST KILL ME! I'LL HAND YOU A DAGGER JUST PLEASE END MY SUFFERING!!!
"HEY JENNIE!" everyone said in a creepy cult-like chorus. Dude that so so creepy the way they said that.
"Happy Valentines day" she said as she looked away from my eyes and handed me a box and chocolates tied with a red ribbon and a letter attached to it. MY INSIDES WERE DEAD. I WASN'T ABLE TO SAY ANYTHING. I THINK I'M BRAIN DEAD. Until Val kicked my knees and I came back to reality. "Uhh" I said.
Jennie just stood there her brunette hair all combed up and her blue eyes lingering around like she was searching for something she dropped.
Val gave me another kick. VALENTINO ANDERSON YOU ARE SO FREAKING DEAD AFTER I OVERCOME THIS AWKWARDNESS.
"Well, ok" I said as I took the chocolates from her. Lysander did you just say 'ok' when she said 'Happy Valentines Day'? I asked myself. I feel like some kind of cool kid for some reason.
"Bye" she said as she walked away quickly.
"What was that?" Jared asked me. "What was what?" I questioned him back. "THAT" he said pointing at the chocolates I got from Jennie. "Am I supposed to say chocolates?" I said and right at that moment I could see Jared ready to slap me. "That was so awkward, you're weird Scamander" Lily commented.
"I should just fall off a cliff" I said sitting down. This is so bad, I feel disappointed. I was supposed to be a person lurking in the shadows, how come this girl noticed me and I can't believe I got my first chocolate at thirteen.
"Lysander and Jennie sitting in. a tree" Val started waiting for me to react, I was too disappointed in myself to react. "Dude are you actually ok?" Lorcan asked concerned. "No" I said in a low voice. I'm still not over the fact that I got chocolates, a sudden overwhelming feeling passed through me.
"Can you believe this guy? He's feeling bad for getting a chocolate" Lily said exhausted. "I really don't get him either aren't you like supposed to be happy? I would have been pink all day if someone gave me a chocolate" Hugo added. I said nothing, I didn't wanna talk back.
"I'm going" Val said and in chorus the boys except me asked "Going to give chocolates to Diana?" and immediately started laughing. Val started choking Lorcan and Hugo grabbed Val and tried to pull him away.
"You guys are so silly" Lily said and started to laugh. "Stop" I said annoyed and put my heads down. I can't believe I got chocolates. WHY AM I WHINING? ITS NOT EVEN A BIG DEAL.
"Good doggie" Lily said as she pat my head and ran her fingers through my golden hair. "Stop" I groaned. "You're like a golden retriever" she said and continued patting my head. "Please stop" I said again.
"Guys its about time to go to class" Jared informed us. Hugo, Lorcan and Val had finally settled the fight. "I'm going now, bye guys, I promise I'll give you all chocolates in the evening" Lily said and left.
I lazily got up and started walking towards class. The effect lasted until lunch but after that I think I eventually forgave myself for this sin.
As the day progressed, I found myself oscillating between embarrassment and a strange sort of amusement at my own predicament. The incident with Jennie, was so awkward.. I'm literally in hell right now. But it had started to fade into the background as classes resumed.
During lunch, my mind wandered back to the morning's event. I couldn't help but chuckle at the absurdity of it all. After all, getting chocolates on Valentine's Day wasn't exactly the end of the world. Well, on second thoughts maybe it is.
"Dude" Val started looking at my empty poker face, I didn't reply anything back. I was still numb. "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU OVERREACTING FOR THIS OH MY GOD LYSANDER SCAMANDER STOP BEING SUCH A DRAMA QUEEN ITS GETTING ANNOYING. IT WAS JUST CHOCOLATES IF YOU DON'T WANT IT GIVE THEM TO ME!" Lorcan screamed and everyone was looking at us.
Lorcan just made this a hundred times worse. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM?? Everyone was still looking, it was so embarrassing I wanted to dig a hole crawl into it and die. Then I felt a tap on my back. This person for one thing was going to be MURDERED by me.
I turned around and gave the most cruel look I could ever give and it was Potter. "What's with that face, don't tell me you're still not over Jennie" she said smirking. "Not over Jennie? Do you realise how wrong that sounds?" I shot back and for some reason all my roomies were in surprise and shock.
"LILY! TEACH ME YOUR WAYS!" Val said kneeling and Jared continued, "How did you manage to make him talked? We've been trying for the past 3 hours and made no progress"
"Ehh" Lily let out a sound and said, "I made chocolates for all of you, here" she said handing out some chocolates. "You sure its not toxic? After all you made it" Hugo asked laughing. "Shut up" she said furiously.
"It's kinda burnt" Val said taking a bite. "Yeah, I kinda had a kitchen mishap" she replied. Then she turned to me and said, "Are you gonna cry if I give you chocolates?"
"No, why?"I asked. "Why? Scamander you've been acting like someone died ever since the Jennie incident" she replied with an annoyed tone. "Well, you're different, you don't have feeling for me romantically" I as I started sinking into the table again. "Here" she said and placed a box next to me and sat beside me.
"Good doggie" she said and started patting my head again. GOSH JUST STOP THAT, ITS ANNOYING BUT ITS NOT LIKE SHE'S GONNA LISTEN EVEN IF I TELL HER.
"Guys, if you all become fathers in a church, I won't be surprised" Lily said looking at my roomies. "Me neither" Val said giggling. "I can't believe you actually gave chocolates to Diana" Lily said. All of a sudden I felt a rush through me and I got up.
THERE WAS JUST SILENCE.
"You guys didn't know?" Lily said chuckling uncomfortably as Val gave her 'the devil's glare'. "WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN VAL? ARE YOU GOING TO SAY SHE'S LYING?" Lorcan asked jokingly. "You won't believe even if I told that would you?" Val replied. "Correct! 5 points to Gryffindor" I said smirking.
The rest of the day went well. Jennie was completely forgotten and Val x Diana was the main topic going around everywhere. To be honest I don't think anyone in the first place would dare to even bring up the Jennie topic after that whole silent treatment.
Eventually the clock struck 9pm. I got up from the common room chair and took my books and started walking towards the stairs to the dormitory.
"Goodnight Scamander" Lily said as she randomly spawned beside me. I let out a strange "uhh" and replied her with a "goodnight". How strange, there was definitely something more to it. She just stood there and I just looked back at her. "You need something?" I asked her straightening my brows.
"No, I wanna give you something" Lily said. I immediately looked at my wrist. OH SHIT THERE WAS STILL 2 hours and 54 minutes remaining for Valentines day to be over. I knew where this conversation was heading. I can't believe she still likes me I never knew that. How did that even slide past me. This is bad. This is very very bad.
My mind made up this vivid image of me and Potter. My heart rate was going crazy. If she steps one step closer, I run.
"Here" she said giving me a quill as she continued, "I remember I borrowed this from you but I forgot to return it" she said. THE HAPPINESS OH GOSH!
IT WAS JUST A QUILL! I HAD MADE FANTASIES OF HER KISSING ME BUT IT WAS STILL JUST A FANTASY OH GOSH I SHOULD REALLY LEARN TO APPRECIATE POTTER MORE OFTEN.
I can't believe I actually imagined myself with Potter at that moment oh gosh the fantasy I had was so vivid I can't forget it now. I let down a sigh and grabbed the quill and said, "Thanks".
She was still there. "Good night Pots" I said and I turned towards the stairs to start walking back. I made one last turn to see whether Potter was gone and then...
As I turned... She was barely millimetres away, for a fraction of a second, her lips on half of mine and our eyelashes tangled as our noses slid against one another. OH GOSH MY HEART EXPLODED! MY BLOOD PRESSURE WAS SO HIGH I COULD FEEL IT GET FASTER.
I died. RIP.
Here lies Lysander Alexander Scamander, 2008-2022.
Me and her immediately pulled back and said in terror, "I SWEAR I JUST WANTED TO KISS YOUR CHEEK TO RUIN YOUR MOOD, I DIDN'T THINK YOU WERE GONNA TURN I'M SO SORRY". She was profusely blushing or rather flustered at the whole 'situation'. I stood there half dead.
I was frozen. Mind blank. I was dead. There was just mist everywhere. Wait how the hell did I make it to heaven? Then slowly everything went dark. Oh yes, I was going to hell...
Then an earthquake I started shaking, no wait it was Potter. "Scamander, snap out of it!" Lily said shaking me, I had come back to reality. "Potter" I started and continued, "This NEVER happened" said emphasising on the 'Never'. "I'm sorry, I already told you" she said. My mind was still blank I didn't want to talk so I just left.
I went to bed and lied down. "Oh gosh what's wrong with him again?" Lorcan asked annoyed looking at my moody face. "I died" I told him and went under my bedsheets. I was awake lying on my bed until 1:24 am. everyone was asleep, I was still awake.
It was not the end of the world. Both of us clearly hate each other. It was an accident. But it was still my first kiss. And I can't believe Potter stole it. I'm pretty sure I stole hers too. DUDE I'M TOO YOUNG I'M ONLY 13. But I'm pretty sure that wasn't even a kiss, that was merely brushing of lips. I couldn't even get the feel of it.
I'm not gonna recover from this for a while. I can barely remember that moment to be honest. I can't even describe it. It was barely a second. But for some reason whenever I thought of it I felt very weird, like as if I wanna throw up.
I don't want to talk about this anymore.
Everyone is like 'Oh my god its Valentines Day I feel so single' and they all cry that they didn't get any chocolates and then look at me.
I guess I'm just built different.
XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX