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Well, the 22nd of March had arrived after a year. Yes, my birthday had arrived. I usually don't care enough about birthdays.
I mean it was cool when you were like six, you get a huge birthday cake and all those fancy decorations and balloons. But as you grow it kinda just fades away, it is actually kind of sad when you think about it.
I remember trying to stay awake until 12:00 am so I could celebrate my birthday exactly when the day starts but now, I'm just glad I manage to get 8 hours of sleep in my busy schedule. Things have really changed.
Today, I was woken up by a strange noise when the clock struck 12:00pm. They were party popper noises. "Happy Birthday!" my roomies screamed. I was very annoyed by the noise and the light. I woke up grumpy and gave them a look. There was confetti flying all around the room.
Lorcan's blue eyes were shimmering with excitement, happiness and gratitude . Dude how'd you wake up with a smiley face that's just creepy. Meanwhile my cold gray-blue eyes gave the same reaction as always, that cold look.
Val brought a cake and stood with it in the middle of mine and Lorcan's bed. "Go on" Hugo said. Lorcan got up and went opposite to Val. "Come Ly" he said, calling me.
My vision was still blurry, I still felt dizzy and sleepy and for some reason cutting a birthday cake started to seem cringy. I don't know why.
I awkwardly got up from my bed and stood next to Lorcan. "We sing right?" Jared said. "Yeah I guess" Val said awkwardly. Oh no. This was so embarrassing.
They started singing 'Happy Birthday' and immediately after the first verse ended I blew out the candles and rolled to my bed and hugged my bolster.
"Sleepy head" Lorcan commented, giving out a slight chuckle.
My roomies started laughing and surprisingly Lorcan wasn't offended that I blew the candles alone cause once when we were seven, we both got only one cake and I blew the candles out first and Lorcan started crying so my parents got me a new cake just for him. From that day we always got separate cakes.
Funny to think that Lorcan had changed and was way more mature than before and seven year old me and fourteen year old me still have that same reaction of 'I don't care. Not my problem'.
In a second I found myself back in the place where you go when you sleep. That empty place filled with darkness.
I was then woken up by Lorcan at 8am. "Dude get up, we have class! Did you forget? It's Tuesday!" he said, shaking me. I let out a groan and opened my eyes slowly. Oh gosh the sunlight was burning my eyes.
I slowly got up with half of my eyes open, I took my clothes and walked towards the bathing quarters. I took a short shower and came out within ten minutes. It was 8:17 am when I found myself walking towards the great hall.
I went and sat next to my roomies along with Novah and Zayn. I was wished 'Happy Birthday' multiple times. I don't know why but I suddenly felt overwhelmed. Perhaps you call them mood swings.
I don't know why, I suddenly just wanted to be alone and just maybe take a day off. I felt so old, fourteen is insane. Next year, I'll be fifteen... then sixteen... then seventeen... then I'll have to be on my own, I'll be a legal adult. That's old. It's all so quick.
What am I going to do? What am I doing right now? What is happening? Thinking that in four more years I'll be moving out and I'll have a job of my own is CRAZY.
Suddenly everything just felt empty and blank. What is all this even for? All this running? All this studying? All these fights and flaws? Why am I still 5'4?
Suddenly I found myself snapped out of my thoughts as I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was definitely the one and only...
Lily Luna Potter...
"Hey! Happy Birthday Peasant Princess!" she said as she handed me a gift which was wrapped in a black wrapper and a royal blue ribbon was tied. "Is it from aunt Ginny?" I asked when a bunch of parcels was put down by my owl, her name is 'Hermes', just saying.
The parcels were of course mine and Lorcan's gifts. I saw a gift from aunt Ginny in all that mess, so this gift I'm holding is directly gifted by Lily to me.
"Thanks Hermes" I said as she flew away. "Here Lorky" she said as she handed Lorcan a similar gift box but with a red wrapper. Great respect for her cause she wrapped mine in black.
"Open it" she said as me and Lorcan were searching for her approval. I opened mine to find an eagle quill. To be honest, a quill was a kind of a, 'to-go' gift. It basically screams, 'I don't know you enough but I want to give you'.
Lorcan got a bunch of chocolate frogs cause he was definitely that kid obsessed with card collecting. In the muggle world you collect Pokémon or football cards and we wizards collect chocolate frog cards. That's the only difference.
"Thanks" I said to her as I put it back into the box and started opening the other gifts. "I engraved your name on it" she said. I could say she seemed quite disappointed that I didn't give the reaction she expected me to give. "Yeah, thanks" I said again.
"Lily, you're awesome! You really know me" Lorcan said as he opened his chocolate frog. "OH MY GOD! GLANMORE PEAKES!" he exclaimed after looking at the card followed by a funny gasp that Jared let out. Lily was laughing.
"Can I trade it for my Pokémon cards?" Val asked. "I will never trade this for some yellow cat" Lorcan said. I let out a little chuckle. 'Yellow cat' my brain said and started laughing.
"Ok, I'll get going now" Lily said as she left.
"I don't feel like eating" I said as I rested my head down on the table. "What's wrong?" Jared asked. "It's just-" I started, "Never mind" I said and terminated the conversation. I don't know why, I just felt that these were personal problems that will just get resolved, I didn't want other people getting involved in my deep thoughts.
Then I turned back and I heard Scorpius's voice, "Happy birthday Lorc and Ly" he said approaching us. "Thanks, Scorp" Lorcan said, giving a fist bump. "How's the plan going?" I asked. "Shhh" Scorpius indicating the presence of my roomies and the others.
"No one cares" I said with a poker face. "I can't bring myself to date anyone except Rose, I tried getting a date on Valentines day but I screwed up and ended spending time with Albus at the black lake" he said whispering wheezily.
"You should just date Albus at this point" I said and he gave a very weird reaction for that. "Well, he's my friend" Scorpius said uncomfortably. Perhaps he doesn't understand that boyxboy is very normalized in the 21st century.
"Look, I tried bro. It's not going to work, '' Scorpius said. "Look, I tried too. I tracked all the possible methods, this is the way" I said, giving him that nonchalant look.
He was visibly annoyed. "Next time I see you, you'll see me with a girl. I swear" Scorpius said, getting all worked up. "Next time I see you, I bet you won't be with a girl. I swear" I said, giving that cunning smile. "You're losing Scamander, I'll play easy cause it's your birthday" he replied with a signature Malfoy look.
"Try me" I said in a cruel tone. "Till we meet" he said dramatically and left.
Well then as usual morning classes had started, nothing much happened apart from Val almost burning the whole classroom down after a misfired 'Incendio'. But it was entertaining and we had learnt a bonus spell, 'aguamenti' a water casting charm so I guess it's kind of a win.
Lunch had arrived. Everything seemed normal. Almost too normal. And you know, if a day is normal it's never too late for it to become a total mess. I knew something was coming up, I could sense it.
I had the eureka moment. Where was Jennie? I'm surprised my stalker still hasn't showed up yet. And yes, she's my new terrible stalker. She's been stalking for a few weeks now and I have to say if there was a definition needed for terrible stalking skills, it was 'Jennie'.
The day went on, afternoon classes were pretty chill. Everything was going on just fine. I was surprised, I was still waiting for the darkness to hit me and ruin my day.
I was on my way to the common room with Jared and then I heard those giggles. Jennie was close by. I quickly pulled Jared and started running towards the common room. If I get there she won't be able to enter and I won't have to face her.
"Why are we running?" Jared asked me. "Shut up and come" I said, pulling him. "Password" the fat lady asked. "Ashwinder" I said and the portrait opened and I ran in. "YES" I said proudly after we entered the common room. "What?" Jared asked panting. "I just escaped from Jennie" I said with a sense of accomplishment.
Michelle walked in through the door and walked towards me and said, "Jennie is waiting for you outside". "I'm busy" I said. "So? I can't do anything. I was just told to inform" she said and went. "Come on lover boy" Jared said, teasing me. "Stop, they day went so well" I said sadly.
"Look you can ditch her today, but you gotta face it tomorrow anyways" Jared said and continued "Just reject her" Jared said proudly. "Are you dumb? She didn't even ask me" I said, letting out a sigh.
Then suddenly someone pulled me back, dragged me and threw me outside the common room into the corridors. It was James Sirius Potter!
"Your girlfriend is calling you! You don't wanna break up right? Then you go when she calls you!" he said in a caring tone and shut the door. I got off the floor and saw Jennie flustered. I don't know why but the Potters want me to award them with a doctorate in 'Ruining Lysander's Life'.
"Uhh. Are you ok Lysander?" Jennie asked as I got up. "What do you want?" I shot at her with a rude tone. She kind of fell back and handed me a gift. "Happy-- Bir-th--day" she said blushing and choking on her words. URGHHH....
I took the gift and said, "Thanks" in a harsh tone. Dude I have been so toxic to you why do you still like me? Girls these days are just built differently. "I hope you like it" she said, looking down at the floor, embarrassed.
"Leave me alone" I said, calming myself down. "What?" she asked me, coming back to reality from her fantasies. "Leave me alone" I repeated. "Ok" she said, confused. "I meant like always, don't come after me and stalk me" I said. She seemed so surprised that I found out about her stalking. I was going to laugh. But I controlled it.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to disturb you" she said innocently. "You clearly did" I said. "I just wanted to pick out a good gift" she said almost tearfully. Guys, something is wrong with me. She was on the verge of crying and there I was trying so hard not to laugh at the whole situation.
A moment later she took her flight from the entrance and ran away. "Quite the drama" the fat lady remarked as she let me in. In the morning I was depressed over growing up and now this.
I went to my dorm and I saw no one there. I think they were all at the library completing their essays and Jared had just left to eat dinner after I entered the common room. I sat on my bed and opened the gift.
It was another quill...
All these meaningless gifts for what? For just reminding me that I'm on my own and I have always been.
I'm just an unknown devil disguised as a known ghost.
XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX