the veiled lady/hailstones between my teeth

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I DO NOT KNOW WHERE I AM OR WHAT I'M DOING ANYMORE!!! EVERY DAY I STRUGGLE JUST TO EXIST AND BE A PERSON AND GET OUT OF MY FUCKING ROOM AND HALF THE TIME I LOSE!!! I SPEND MY DAYS ALONE AND WATCHING MY OWN DARK FLESH BEGIN TO ROT AND LEAVE MY BONES AND TO THAT I SAY GOOD RIDDANCE I AM TIRED OF MY SKIN BEING MY SKIN!!! AM I DOOMED TO LIVE LIKE THIS FOREVER??? HOW MANY DAYS ARE GOING TO TAUNT ME LIKE THIS??? HOW MUCH TIME HAVE I ALREADY WASTED??? WHEN WE RUN OUT OF TIME WHERE DO WE GO??? I STARE INTO THE ABYSS AND IT DOES NOT STARE BACK AT ME!!! THERE IS NOTHING ELSE!!! THERE IS NOTHING AND NOBODY BEYOND!!! THIS, HERE, THIS IS IT!!!