2 months until mock exams,
I would be lying if I didn't say I was actually
shitting myself. Felt like yesterday I was signing shirts and getting my gcse results and now I'm doing my mocks . Who the fuck is eating time.
I'm so scared for these exams man it's actually not funny I've spent the past week crying while POWER plays in the background .
I can't lie the only reason I'm watching that show is because of Tommy that man is FINEEEEE I swear he's the only reason I love white men. Him and Dylan o Brian they're just too yummy looking. The way my friends hate on him like he's not the finest guy to walk on earth hurtsss meee
Look at me rambling about men like I've ever spoke to one I'm so inexperienced when it comes to boys I swear I don't know how to spe..
"ANIYAH" she shouted
Huh
Wtf is wrong with you, you've been staring at the wall for the past 10 minutes" she sounded concerned
Forgot I was in school for second icl..
"Oh I was just thinking"
"Better be about our fucking exams" she said with an attitude
"Yhh it was dw"
Not like I'm lying it actually was . Well part of it
"Anyways lesson ends in 20 minutes wnana go get food after, what you feeling?" She asked
She asks this question like it's not the same answer everytime
" Lidil bakery!!!" - Me
"YEAHHH.. free food innit "
You can't blame me I'm a broke gyal with an empty stomach gotta do what you have to survive. Especially in this day and age mannn.
"Anyways.... Aniya babes ..."
I know where this is going .... Every single week she tries to set me up with some gangsta boy from god knows where .
"Layla nooo I'm not doing it, I can't and I won't"
"You haven't even seen or met him yet plsss"
She's not wrong but she should know by now that I don't talk to boys i just simply can't, majority of my followers are female I've got like one boy on my snap. That doesn't count because it's Jamonne.
"Ok... let me see my next victim" I sighed
"Yayyy.. ok bacually he's mixed half Jamaican and half Tanzanian " she said with a big grin
" just show me mannn I don't care"
I can't lie I was a little excited ykkkk
"Ok ..okk here"
She pulls her phone out and shows me a TikTok of a boy lip syncing to Dave's new song wearing a Nike tracksuit and his hair in long braids
I can't lie he was leng .. and he was my type
"He's leng, but Layla you know how I am with boys I just can't talk to them remember that time in year 11"
"BROOO!!! how could I ever forget u were soooo awkward I almost felt sorry for you"
"You're actually a snake you just stood there and watched me embarrass myself"
"Character development i can't mess with that shit it had to happen"
"Fair enough... but what's my victims name"
"Amari"
Swear I've heard that name before I just don't know where..
"Does he have snap or insta ??"
Of course he does leng boys never wanna keep their looks to themselves they just have to tell the whole world finding a shy leng one is difficultttt
"Yhh.. the thing is I already gave him your snap so add him back yeah" she said while laughing
"Laylaaaaa whyyyy you putting me under so much pressure"
She's getting too quick it would've taken me 4 months to add him and by then I would've blocked him by the next hour.
"Ok I'll add him but i swear if he asks for a pic of me without even saying hi I'm blocking him "
"Oh no need he knows how u look"
WTFFF THIS BITCHHHHH
"Layla what did you do" sigh
"I did YOU a favour, you're welcome by the way"
Favour the fuck is she actually fucking dumb
*ping*
My notifications go off and to my surprise it's from Snapchat.
"Laylaaaa"
My heart started beating faster and I could feel my braids getting tighter.. I cantttt I hate this feeling so much. Why is it scary talking to boys I swear, wish I wasn't awkward like Layla. You know Laylas the only reason I talked to new people well she did and I just stood there.
"Hurry up and add him back mannnn"
Not gonna lie it scares me with how fast Layla gets these boys is she pulling them out some genie hat ??
Under threat i force myself to add him back. He didn't have a bitemoji great... another one of these. I didn't have a bitemoji but that's different .
|Yo
|this Aniya?
2:45pm
"LAYLA.... What do I say??!!!"
If I didn't say my heart was knocking on my ribs like Macbeth's I would be lying.
"Sorry Aniya but your on your own, you need experience" she said with a smirk on her face
What she on about I got enough experience from watching her. I do not want that stress. I can't even handle school let alone boys,
Luckily I half swiped so I will be responding when my heart rate goes back to normal .
"Class you're free to go, enjoy your weekend and try to get some revision done guys. "
"Just let us out man" I muttered
*bell goes off*
"Finally freedom" she sighed
"Your coming to my house" I asked
"Yh I'll be there around 6"
Me and Layla have been friends since year 9, when I left my friendship group because they felt too suffocating. They were too shy for my liking. Then like a night in shining Armour Layla adopted me and it's been me and her ever since. Whenever you saw Layla you saw me .
"Mhhh yk food does taste better when it's free"
- it was a 60p donut babes-
"Yeah i guess so" I said as if we're not sixth formers.
"Oi, so have you replied yet to your 'victim'"
I can't lie I don't remember when we started calling the guys i talked to victims, it just sorta happened. Accurate name though.
"Nahh I'm just to nervous"
"I get it Aniya but you need to, what you gonna do when ur interviewing Footballers for your job"
I wanna be a sports journalist and I like the fact that Layla acknowledges my dreams and is always pushing me .
"Yh but I'll deal with that when that time comes"
"Aniya" she said with a sad face
"You need to do this"
She's not wrong honestly she's probably almost 100% right I did need to do this
" i don't know why your scared you're a leng girl with big dreams what more could a guy want ?"
"Layla your gassing me up too much"
"Not but honestly he wouldn't have added you if he didn't think you were leng, so go and talk to him"
This is the only time where Layla is actually making sense obviously it's after she's gotten food in she system but you know what I might do it .
"I'll think about it"
"Finally " she sighed
"Out of curiosity what pic or video did you send him?"
Gotta see if I looked leng
"The one at your uncles wedding"
Ohhhh okkk ngl I looked lengggg in that pic
"You look so leng in that pic it was an obvious choice" she said with a giggle
"For realll but you don't think he's out of my league I feel like I just need to see that vid again" I said trying to not smile
Not gonna lie I used this as an excuse to see that video of him again and you just know I'm gonna memories the TikTok username
"Oh here"
J24trappz got it . Cringy username .
"He's so fine brooo where did u get find this man ?"
"Oh he's some relative of mine, met him at some party and he was going on about his ex and how he wants a good girl all of that. Then I thought if you. So here we are"
I feel like she summarised this too much..
"Makes sense, was wondering why you didn't keep him to yourself "
"Ew he's family" she said with a disgusted face
"I know"
"Wait how old is he?"
"18 and he can drive"
"Dammm he's lucky I just turned 17 or he would be looking like some weirdo"
"2 years is not deep" she laughed
"Fair enough"
" Anyways my bus is here get home safe yh babes"
"Ok you too, love ya"
"Love you, byee"
And she was gone.
Walking home I put my AirPods on and started blasting jhene Aiko to get some clarity while staring at the snap chat message.
I opened it
|Hiiii Amari
|yhh its aniyah, Laylas friend
3:56pm
I closed my phone and tried to drown my thoughts out with music
*ping*
Wow that was fast.
| so how's alevels treating you ?
3:57pm
Wow not a Wyd yet this could be good .
| Baddd honestly I can't handle it
|hows school going for you
4:00pm
| Yeah, it's a little crazy icl
4:01pm
|oh why??
4:10pm
|Just got too many people hating on man yk
4:11pm
| fair enough
4:20pm
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Hope your enjoying this so far it js still not good cause its 12am and I got school tmrw 💀 but I'm writing this bc I don't see much black love stories coming from a shy girl soo yhh
Pls tell me if your liking this Bc I low-key ain't :/
Will update soon !!
Peace out babes !!! 🫶🏾
Stay safe!!!