"Can you even imagine
Falling like I did"
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XAVIER'S POV
It's weirdly amazing how just one girl is enough to send my mind into overdrive, just one girl is enough to change me, just one girl is enough to fill every single part of my brain and body. But the thing is, she isn't just one girl.
In all I do, I think of her. When I sleep, when I eat, heck, even when I'm doing homework. I'm starting to wonder if this is even normal. How can someone have so much power over you and your thoughts without even knowing? This must be what Oliver was talking about the other day.
To be honest, I've been interested in Amy ever since my last break up. Which is a long time ago. It was like three weeks before Amy and Jason broke up. So imagine my relief when I hear they -finally- actually ended things.
And when she accepted my offer, is when my mind just couldn't stay still when it came to her.
"Hey." Alex snapped his fingers in front of my face. He's my closest friend, after Andrew of course, and right now we're in the middle of a class. I just realized I have no idea what the teacher is going on and on about.
"Yeah?"
"I want to ask you something." He eyed me.
Considering our last conversations, I already knew where this was going.
"Ask." I eyed him back cautiously.
We began packing our stuff once the bell rang.
"How long are you actually going to date Amy? Do you really like her? Like you seriously want to be with her."
"First, you asked two questions. Second, how many times do I have to tell you? I am sure. You're actually acting like her right now."
"So you're telling me no more meaningless flings every two weeks?"
"I- why did you have to bring that up?!" I smacked him on his arm, but he just smirked at me. "No."
"Are you sure-"
"I'm. Sure."
"Ok." He shrugged. "I just think old habits die hard."
"Trust me, at this point they're already buried and everything."
We stood up, and once we walked out the door he hooked his arm around my neck.
"Amy actually seems interested in you, you know?"
"Everyone is." I brushed it off, trying to ignore the way my heart rate picked up suddenly. "But...uh, how so?"
He laughed, already catching on to me. "I'm not going to tell you, obviously."
"Whatever." I stepped away from him, his hands falling back to his side as we got to his classroom door. I walk him to his class since it's really close to Amy's locker, then after I meet her, we both walk to class together.
And if there are no...distractions, we make it early.
"Goodbye or whatever. Quit giving your teacher a headache." I smirked.
"And you, don't be late." He smirked back, but mine fell completely once those words left his mouth.
"I'm leaving you now." I scoffed, before turning and walking away as he just laughed at me.
I walked quickly towards Amy's locker, obviously really eager to see her. A small part of me -a really tiny part- scolded myself for acting like a puppy, but lately that part shrinks each time I see Amy's smile. Each time I hear her voice. Each time I see her blush.
I just can't get enough, and I always can't wait to see them again.
I finally got to her, and immediately hugged her from behind. I pecked her cheek, before whispering a 'hi',cocking my head back enough to see the red on her cheeks, which brought a grin to my lips.
See? Ever since we parted ways at lunch, all I could think of was seeing her again and getting to be this close to her.
How did I get so freaking lucky?
I have to admit though, a part of me is a bit scared Amy thinks this is all still fake. Sometimes I feel she thinks all I do is just for show, and other times I feel it's the other way around. I try my best to completely murder that part, cause if there's one thing I hate, it's doubt. No matter who or where it's coming from.
Amy turned her head around slightly to look up at me.
"I always wonder why you have to be so freaking dramatic!" She pushed me away, but all I could do was laugh at her reaction.
These are the favorite parts of my days. The parts with her in it.
"Don't act like you don't like it." I smirked as I looked down at her, folding my arms across my chest.
"Whatever." She muttered.
"Anyways...." I slid my hands around her waist and pulled her closer, loving how she leaned in to me. It felt perfect, it always does. "I have a very serious question. Your answer will change pretty much everything."
"Yeah?..." She turned to narrow her eyes at me.
"You wanna go to class?"
She giggled. "What kind of question is that? Of course I don't wanna go, I have to go."
"Yeah but...we can skip, right?"
"You're such a bad influence."
I just winked at her, then she grinned. I couldn't help but grin too. She just does that to me, and I wonder if she feels the same.
"Fine...I guess we're going to class then." I sighed.
"I can't skip again, Xavier. I've been doing that a lot more recently cause of you."
"Hey, I skip alot cause of you, too!"
"You suggest we skip! So of course you'd skip too if I accepted!"
"Well...well, you accept."
"Cause you tempt me!"
"Oh really? How?" She had a slight blush on her cheeks.
"I-I can't believe you." I chuckled, feeling weird all over at her small voice.
"You love me."
"Uh...love is kind of a strong word..." She glanced up at me.
"Ok let me rephrase that. You like me."
Facing forward, she was silent for a moment, and it seemed like she was actually thinking about it. To be honest, whatever she was going to say would actually affect me. That is, if she didn't say something sarcastic or something.
"Uh..." She muttered. "I guess, maybe." She shrugged and tried to make it seem like nothing, but I knew better.
I couldn't help but grin. I always can't help but grin when I'm around her. Even when she's just being brought up between me and someone else, I just can't help it.
"Ok well, I guess I maybe like you too." She looked up at me again with a matching grin of her own. I loved the way her brown eyes actually shone and twinkled. I think brown eyes are my favorite now...no offense.
We just stood and looked at each other for a while, I couldn't look away. I never can.
I always think of how no other girl has made me feel this way. It's just her. It's always her.
I looked down at her lips, before looking back up at her eyes, asking silently for permission. But I was surprised when she placed her hands on my cheeks and pulled my face down to hers. Our lips met in a second, and as usual, my whole body felt like it was on fire.
This girl has no idea what she does to me every single day. A simple peck on the cheek is enough to leave me as a mess. Of course, I try to hide it as best as I can, but it doesn't mean it isn't true. It's beyond true. And...my feelings for her are too.
At first, I thought of her as another girl to use and pass the time. I thought she'd benefit from it too, after all, she might have needed to get Jason out of her system, and she did. Instead, I quickly fell for her. At a point I couldn't even deny it ,no matter how much I tried to convince myself she's still just a fling and I'm still just a distraction to her.
Unfortunately...the part about me being only a distraction hasn't really left my mind. I trust her but...it just sneaks up on me.
My heart fell a bit when she pulled away after a while.
"What?" I asked breathlessly.
"We...are in the middle of a freaking hallway!"
"Shh!" I pressed my index finger to her lips, biting the inside of my cheeks because of how soft they felt. "Besides, everyone has left already."
"Yeah, after passing us and witnessing everything!" She cried.
"You're the one that kissed me."
"You're the one that kissed me back." She glared at me. "And fine, I'm never doing it again."
The sheepish smile on my face immediately dissapeared as I stared back at her, trying to see any hint of insincerity.
"O-ok I'm sorry, I take it back, I take it back!" She giggled, her hands finding their way around my neck.
"Apology accepted."
"Wanna go somewhere else?" I smirked.
"Uh..." She looked past me as she thought about her answer. "Ugh fine!"
I laced our fingers together and led her away, my heart pounding with each step.
I guess we're getting distracted today.
Could you blame me though? I can never get enough of her. I don't care if I'm the one always making the first move and kissing her, her response alone is so addicting, heck, even her hugs are so addicting. She is so addicting.
But in the best way possible.