My Hollow sunken eyes that seem to be lost from time to time
Betray the presence that my body provides but my eyes can't seem to hide
I am trying to starve myself to death blaming the food and my palate
I Nod yes to all the No's
Are you fine? Are you okay?
The ceiling holds more interest
Hoping to find some stash of secrets in random patterns
I can feel the graying of my hair which replace black from root to tip
I can feel the blood freeze in my veins
I blame the weather that brings the seasonal blues
I blame me, I blame you
I look wrecked in ragged clothes
What you see I hardly know
My thoughts are slower than my racing heart
Endless onesided conversations that have no meaning, fill my brain inside out
Till my mind goes to state of no more electrical signals
I lay there waiting for sleep which might shut off my reverberating empty mind
My closed mind and open eyes seek flickering lights in the dark room
That make my life appear and disappear.