Author: [ Collect this chapter ] [Complain]Waiting to die
Because it was past the morning rush hour and there were not many people on the bus, Xu Deng casually found a seat by the window and sat down, looking outside with his thoughts drifting away.
Although his father doesn't love him, would his mother love him if he were still here? Xu Deng couldn't help but think about it sometimes.
She would rather give her life to give birth to him, she must love him.
The corners of Xu Deng's mouth curled up when he thought of this.
It was already very late when Xu Deng came to school. The guard opened the door with a stern face. He didn't like these students who arrive late and leave early. They don't learn well at a young age. But Xu Deng was in a good mood and even gave the uncle a smile.
Janitor: "..."
The third class in the morning was math class. When Xu Deng arrived at the door of the classroom, class had already started inside.
The math teacher was their head teacher Zhao Zhengping. When he saw Xu Deng, he immediately shouted angrily: "Do you know what time it is now? Just stand at the door!"
Xu Deng had already been mentally prepared for this and stood at the door without caring. , when he looked up, he saw Ji Ziyang walking half a step behind him.
Zhao Zhengping also saw Ji Ziyang, his expression froze, and then his expression softened, and he didn't scold him. He looked like he didn't notice, and turned around to continue class.
The classmates in the class are also used to it.
Zhao Zhengping always comes to watch people prepare food.
If Ji Ziyang goes in at this time, no one will care about it unless the teacher talks about it or the students talk about it.
But Ji Ziyang had no intention of going in. He dropped his schoolbag at his feet, lazily stood at the door, put one hand in his pocket and leaned back, just standing next to Xu Deng.
Xu Deng really didn't expect that he would run into Ji Ziyang
even if he was late for the first time... But then he thought about it, although he was never late, Ji Ziyang was often late. This young master had always been very concerned about going to school. Not too caring.
He can study casually and get excellent grades, and he still has such a big legacy to inherit... As long as he does whatever he wants, he can live a good life.
They don't take the rules seriously.
Xu Deng pursed his lips slightly and turned his head uncomfortably.
This is the first time that Xu Deng has been so close to Ji Ziyang, so close that he can almost feel his breath.
If you didn't know other people's thoughts or the plot in the book, you should be happy at this moment, right?
After all, he did that just because he wanted to be Ji Ziyang's friend. This was a rare opportunity to get closer.
But now Xu Deng only felt embarrassed.
But if I deliberately stand farther away now, will it seem too deliberate?
Ji Ziyang was leaning against the wall, looking sideways at the young man standing beside him.
It's really strange today.
Well-behaved students will also be punished for being late.
He thought that Xu Denghui would be the kind of person who would be frightened into tears even if the teacher scolded him a little, but he didn't expect that this was not the case.
He was following Xu Deng at that time, so he could see clearly.
Although the young man still maintained a silent posture, if he looked closely, he found that it was different from before.
Silence can mean being cautious and timid, but silence can also mean being indifferent to everything and being calm and meaningless.
The former Xu Deng was the former, but the current Xu Deng is the latter.
Why can people change so much?
Ji Ziyang couldn't help but take another look at Xu Deng.
The young man turned his head slightly and pursed his lower lip.
The originally leisurely and leisurely posture seemed to have become a little more tense after his own arrival. The eyes that were deliberately avoided... the profile of the face exposed due to turning the head, you can see the junction of the ears and neck, and the white skin. A thin layer of blush...
Ji Ziyang raised the corners of his lips. He had never known that Xu Deng had such a cute side.
Is this shy?
Rarely, Ji Ziyang thought of Jiang Yue's words again.
Jiang Yue said that Xu Deng liked him.
Ji Ziyang didn't take it to heart before. Among those who liked him, Xu Deng was the most inconspicuous one.
The boy seemed to exist in the shadows.
So much so that his existence is often ignored.
He didn't like Jiang Yue's jokes before, and didn't like getting involved with unrelated people.
But for some reason today, when I thought about the fact that Xu Deng might like him, I wasn't so resistant and impatient...
but my heart beat a little faster.
Ji Ziyang paused, and in order not to make Xu Deng more nervous, he turned his head and looked to the other side.
But, I wonder what Xu Deng is thinking about at the moment?
Xu Deng was thinking that maybe he shouldn't have come this morning.
Since he was already late, he might as well not have run into Ji Ziyang if he had been a little later.
I hope Ji Ziyang doesn't know about those boring rumors...
Well, maybe Ji Ziyang doesn't know at all! He has always been dismissive of suitors.
Thinking about it this way, it doesn't seem so embarrassing anymore.
Just let everything go with the wind!
But for Xu Deng, this class was extremely long.
After Zhao Zhengping left, Xu Deng walked into the classroom as if nothing had happened, not looking at Ji Ziyang from beginning to end.
Ji Ziyang fell two steps behind and glanced at the young man's back before returning to his seat.
As soon as Xu Deng returned to his seat, He Xiaosong looked at him with admiration and said, "You are also the one who was punished with Ji Ziyang." Xu Deng: "?" What is this difficult
thing
? Something? You can come late tomorrow and have a look. If it doesn't work, just be late for a month. You can meet me one day.
He Xiaosong's eyes were filled with the light of gossip, and he asked again: "What's it like to stand with the school's idol?"
Xu Deng didn't want to answer such a boring question. He knew what He Xiaosong really wanted to ask.
Xu Deng's face was expressionless: "The teacher is here."
He Xiaosong sat up straight nervously. Then he looked at the door and saw where the teacher was. Good guy, Xu Deng can actually bluff people!
the other side.
Jiang Yue leaned on the chair and smiled half-heartedly at Ji Ziyang: "Today is really strange. By the way, what did you and Xu Deng talk about?"
Ji Ziyang thought of Xu Deng, suppressed the small waves in his heart, and said calmly: "We are here to stand, not to chat."
Jiang Yue looked surprised and said in an exaggerated tone: "What? Didn't you stand together for a whole class without talking? Mr. Ji, you are so cold and heartless, don't It breaks the little pitiful heart."
Ji Ziyang suddenly frowned in displeasure. Jiang Yue would never use the description of 'little pitiful' to call Xu Deng before.
Ji Ziyang looked at Jiang Yue: "I remember you were very dissatisfied with him yesterday."
Jiang Yue joked and said with a smile: "What happened yesterday is yesterday's thing. Don't say that it has been changed. Even if it is not, it will not affect my sympathy for him. I still like you." Jiang Yue has always been so frivolous
. Ji Ziyang looked like someone who spoke freely. In the past, Ji Ziyang just turned a blind eye, but today he found it unbearable.
Ji Ziyang's voice was slightly cold: "I told you not to make such jokes."
Jiang Yue shrugged, just as the class bell rang, he said nothing more.
Ji Ziyang turned around and opened the textbook, only to find that he couldn't read anything. He felt a little irritated for no reason. Jiang Yue's words lingered in his mind. Was his performance today... really cold and heartless?
Will Xu Deng be sad?
However, he just didn't know what to say, and he didn't want to make Xu Deng more nervous.
Didn't mean to hurt him.
Jiang Yue also stopped looking at Ji Ziyang, lowered his head and pretended to play with his mobile phone. He always had a spare mobile phone in his desk, and it didn't matter if it was confiscated.
He just deliberately tested Ji Ziyang.
Yesterday, Ji Ziyang stopped him in the cafeteria. Although it seemed that there was no problem and it was what Ji Ziyang would do... But Jiang Yue felt sensitively that things might not be that simple. If Ji Ziyang really wanted to cover up With Xu Deng, you have to be more careful in your actions.
But now it seems that he has thought too much, and Ji Ziyang still looks like that.
He doesn't really care about others at all.
There was a sneer in Jiang Yue's eyes.
The time of a class passes quickly.
Xu Deng and He Xiaosong went to the cafeteria together at noon.
Jiang Yue and others did not come again.
Seems like everything is fine.
But when Xu Deng was queuing up, he found that there were always glances around him, some of which were admiration, sympathy, and curiosity...
Yesterday, Xu Deng and Jiang Yue openly had a conflict in the cafeteria. Although Ji Ziyang stopped it, Jiang Yue was not People who are easy to mess with, everyone thinks that Jiang Yue will find trouble with Xu Deng sooner or later.
I don't know what happened to them?
Xu Deng prepared the meal and was silent for a moment. He did not sit down to eat, but walked out with his lunch box.
He didn't care whether Jiang Yue would retaliate, but he just didn't like the feeling of being noticed. Maybe... he was born to be in the shadows.
He Xiaosong was stunned for a moment, then chased out with his lunch box in his arms, saying, "Wait, I'm with you!"
The two came to the shade of the trees beside the playground. There was a row of stone benches here, just right for sitting down and eating.
Spring had just begun, and the weather was still a bit cool, so there weren't many people outside.
Xu Deng likes it here very much.
Quiet and empty.
He Xiaosong rubbed his hands and breathed a sigh of relief. It was really cold outside! But when he looked at Xu Deng, he looked completely indifferent and asked in surprise: "Aren't you cold?"
Xu Deng shook his head. He was indeed not afraid of the cold.
He remembered that when he was a child, he was playing in the snow once, and the nanny was absent and neglected to take care of him. When he found out, his hands were purple from the cold, but he didn't seem to feel anything.
The nanny was originally very panicked, fearing that she would lose her job, but later she saw that he was neither crying nor making trouble, so she coaxed him back to the house, and the matter passed without letting his father and brother know.
Xu Deng saw that He Xiaosong seemed a little uncomfortable, so he said, "Why don't you go in."
He Xiaosong stubbornly shook his head, it was okay!
Xu Deng smiled and said nothing more.
He ate slowly, and as he ate, he suddenly seemed to feel something, and instinctively glanced back.
He saw a black cat squatting on the tall locust tree next to him. The black cat had golden vertical pupils and was looking at him intently.
Is this the school cat?
How long have you been here?
Xu Deng asked He Xiaosong: "Have you seen this cat?"
He Xiaosong is a plush lover, but he has never seen this cat before, and for some reason, being looked at by the black cat made him feel a little furry in his heart. , as if being targeted by some dangerous existence.
He Xiaosong scratched his head: "I haven't seen it before."
Xu Deng thought, maybe it was just a wild cat somewhere. Wild cats often appeared in the school, so he didn't take the cat to heart anymore.
But when he finished his meal, the cat was still there, looking at him motionless.
Xu Deng:?
What a strange black cat.
Xu Deng stood up to leave, but just as he stood up, the black cat finally moved.
It bent up and jumped down, landing quietly and walking towards Xu Deng step by step.
The black cat circled around Xu Deng's feet, first sniffed carefully, then rubbed it with its head, and finally lay down lazily at his feet and yawned.
Xu Deng was slightly startled.
He looked down at the cat at his feet.
Because we were so close this time, we could see clearly that the black cat was all black without any impurities, but not stained with any dirt. Not only did it not look embarrassed, but it also moved gracefully and calmly.
Is this really a wild cat?
Although he had never raised any small animals, Xu Deng could feel the closeness of the black cat to him, so he did not leave in a hurry and simply squatted down.
He touched the black cat's head.
The black cat squinted his eyes and snorted happily.
Xu Deng's heart softened a little.
He Xiaosong was filled with jealousy.
He usually feeds the school's wild cats, but these proud little things are difficult to get close to, and today's black cat, he instinctively feels that it is difficult to get along with... But now he sees that Xu Deng has taken advantage of it so quickly. , I couldn't help but feel itchy.
He Xiaosong slowly stretched out his hand -
at this moment, the black cat suddenly opened its eyes, its cold golden vertical pupils glowing with a ruthless cold light when it looked at him.
It seems to be saying, if you dare to take action, you will be dead.
He Xiaosong: ...
Isn't this differential treatment too obvious? !
The two of them were focused on the black cat and did not notice that someone was watching them in the corner behind the experimental building in the distance of the playground.
Jiang Yue looked away from Xu Deng, lowered his head and lit a cigarette.
Students are prohibited from smoking in school, but if they smoke secretly here, they will usually not be discovered by teachers.
In addition to Jiang Yue, there are two boys.
One is Zhang Zeyu who came to the rescue in the cafeteria last time, and the other is Zhao Yuanfeng, the son of the head teacher Zhao Zhengping.
Zhao Yuanfeng said with a smile: "Brother Jiang, if you really can't swallow this breath, I will bring Xu Deng over to you. He came here on his own, and we accepted him, right? Since we are all friends, how can we accept him?" It's like this without even saying hello. When the time comes, you can ask clearly and you can say whatever you think."
Zhang Zeyu remained silent.
You must know that before Xu Deng appeared, he had always played the role of running errands for Jiang Yue and others. He knew Jiang Yue's personality well and could not understand Jiang Yue's behavior, but he did not dare to say anything.
Not only do his parents work in Jiang's companies, but he himself is not that courageous.
So he envied Xu Deng, he could not come if he didn't want to come, and he didn't take Jiang Yue seriously.
Zhang Zeyu was silent for a long time, paused, and said cautiously: "If Xu Deng doesn't want to come, forget it..."
As a result, before he could finish his words, he met Jiang Yue's sinister gaze and froze for a moment.
Jiang Yue stared at him and raised his eyebrows playfully.
I'm afraid this guy has forgotten what his status was when Xu Deng was away. Xu Deng has only been here for a long time, and he can't recognize his identity, thinking that he can talk like this.
Jiang Yue said in a slow tone: "Then what do you think?"
Zhang Zeyu's scalp went numb when Jiang Yue looked at him, and he stammered: "This, this is not what you mean, Brother Jiang. I actually don't have any ideas..." Jiang Yue said in a slow tone: "What do you think?
" Yue snorted lightly, quite sensible.
Zhao Yuanfeng crossed his arms and looked at Zhang Zeyu, and sneered, "You useless coward, you really think you dare to say anything."
He is not like Zhang Zeyu, he is useless.
Zhao Yuanfeng relied on his father as the class teacher, and he got along well among teachers and classmates. He could also do things for Jiang Yue. He was much more effective than Zhang Zeyu in front of Jiang Yue. Jiang Yue never made things difficult for him for his father's sake. His attitude towards him was quite kind.
Zhao Yuanfeng volunteered and said with a smile: "Anyway, there is still a while before class. Should I go and talk to Xu Deng now?"
Zhao Yuanfeng is more sensible.
Jiang Yue nodded and said: "Go."
Zhao Yuanfeng was about to set off excitedly. He liked to hang out with Jiang Yue because he liked the feeling of being superior to others. An inconspicuous classmate like Xu Deng, whom he used to But it's been a lot of trouble.
As a result, after taking only two steps outside, Zhao Yuanfeng paused, a smile froze on his face, and he was in a dilemma for a while.
Ji Ziyang slowly walked out from the corner.
There was a serious look in his black eyes.
The look in Jiang Yue's eyes froze for a moment, then he threw down the cigarette butt and stubbed it out with the soles of his feet. He smiled nonchalantly and said, "Why are you here? We are about to go back."
Ji Ziyang doesn't smoke, so he never comes here.
Facing Jiang Yue's familiar gesture, Ji Ziyang did not smile, but slowly said: "I thought I made it clear enough yesterday, don't bother Xu Deng anymore." Jiang Yue's expression turned cold
.
He suppressed the unhappiness in his heart and smiled: "What's wrong? I haven't seen you care about him so much before. Besides, I don't want to cause trouble for him..." "In that case."
Ji Ziyang looked at Jiang steadily. Yue said word by word: "You'd better remember what you said today."
Jiang Yue's face was tense and he could hardly restrain himself.
Before Ji Ziyang turned around, he glanced at him, frowned and said, "Let's go back and let the smell go."
He left here.
Jiang Yue kept watching Ji Ziyang's back disappear, his eyes were so gloomy that he could almost drip with water, his chest heaved violently, and he said angrily: "What kind of person is pretending in front of me all day long!" Zhao Yuanfeng stepped forward quickly and sneered: "Ji
Ziyang I don't think I have any other intentions. It's just that it's not good for the teacher to find out about smoking in school..."
Jiang Yue had nowhere to vent his anger. He kicked Zhao Yuanfeng away and sneered: "What on earth is he doing? You know very well what it means."
Zhao Yuanfeng's face turned pale in pain, but he did not dare to say a word. He usually showed off his power in front of other students, but Ji Ziyang was something he did not dare to provoke. When gods fight, little devils will suffer. Today is a What's going on!
Zhang Zeyu said nothing from beginning to end, looking down and turning a blind eye. Just now he was a little worried about Xu Deng, but now it seems that he doesn't need to worry at all.
What surprised him was that he thought Ji Ziyang would no longer care about Xu Deng's life and death, but he didn't expect that Ji Ziyang came to warn Jiang Yue.
If what happened in the cafeteria yesterday was understandable, today it's not like what Ji Ziyang would do.
There is no room for sand in Ji Ziyang's eyes, but the world is full of sand, and he never cares if it doesn't fall into his eyes.
Ji Ziyang, why do you care so much about Xu Deng?
A long while.
Jiang Yue slowly calmed down his breathing, but the anger in his eyes deepened. He had tolerated Ji Ziyang for a long time, and he was just pretending. Do you still think he is a good person?
That arrogant look, what is the difference between him and himself in his bones?
Jiang Yue snorted coldly.
Moreover, when he tested Ji Ziyang in the morning, Ji Ziyang was clearly very cold and distant. He had never taken Xu Deng seriously before, but now he acted in a defensive manner. It was so hypocritical and disgusting.
It's just... it's not that easy for him to give up so easily.
Jiang Yue's eyes darkened when he thought of Xu Deng.
The boy who rejected him yesterday appeared in front of his eyes again, like a little hook, which made people's anger turn into something else. In the past, he only thought he was a boring guy, but now it seems that he has misjudged him. He is clearly a very good person. Interesting stuff.
Look, even Ji Ziyang is interested, right?
However, I only promised you not to touch him, but I didn't promise anything else. Who are you, Ji Ziyang, who can't control anything?
Jiang Yue sneered when he thought of this. He turned his head and saw Zhao Yuanfeng looking at him in fear, and said angrily: "What are you looking at? Go back to class."