In Medieval Christianity, the terms incubus and succubus refer to evil spirits or demons that had sexual intercourse with sleeping men and women. Tinatawag sila na "sex demons" o "night demons". Sila yung nakikipagtalik sa mga taong walang kamalaymalay habang natutulog at sa mga panaginip. Ang Incubus ay lalaki habang ang Succubus naman ay babae. Both evil and both dangerous. Eto ang topic namin ngayon ni Sister Aurora habang nasa garden kami ng St. Agnes Shrine. Kwenento ko sa kanya ang tungkol sa napanaginipan ko kagabi including the broken rosary and the mysterious snake dream.
Puyat ako ngayon, kulang sa tulog. After what happened to me last night ay hindi ko na magawang makatulog ulit. I was so anxious and terrified that the moment I will close my eyes, another disturbing nightmare might appear. Buong magdamag akong gising habang paulit-ulit na nagdasal na sana bigyan ako ni Lord ng protection mula sa mga masasamang elemento. The nightmare experience had raised my anxiety so bad. For the first time in my life, ngayon lang ako nakaranas ng ganito.
"Diyos mio, Angel. Nahihintakotan ako sa mga kwento mo. I suggest you to seek for an advice to an exorcist priest. Ngayon lang ako naka-encounter ng ganito sa isang tao, sayo pa lang." aniya habang sapo ang dibdib. She was so shocked and so worried for me.
"I'm really scared, Au. Simula 'nong umuwi ako dito sa probinsya natin, nagkakaganito na ako. I never experience this back when I was in Manila. Dito lang talaga." saad ko.
"Honestly.....hindi ko alam kung anong advice ang maiibigay ko sayo aside sa magdasal ka at magpa consulta sa isang Exorcist. This is a very rare case, Gel. Alam na ba 'to ng mga magulang mo?"
I shook my head. "I haven't told them yet. Ayoko silang mag-alala."
"Then how about your siblings? Alam na ba nila?"
Umiling ulit ako. "Hindi rin."
Sister Aurora sighed. "I think it would be much better kung magpa seek advice ka nalang sa isang exorcist. He will listen to you and will provide pastoral guidance and deliverance prayers. Gusto mo bang samahan kita?"
Huminga ako ng malalim at napatingin sa altar ng simbahan. "I'll consider your suggestion, Au. But for now, kailangan ko munang umalis dito sa probinsya. Ayoko ng magtagal dito. Natatakot na ako."
Natigilan si Aurora. "Wait, babalik ka na sa maynila?" takang tanong niya.
"Hindi. Magbabakasyon lang ako sa malayong lugar. Somewhere I could find peace and calmness. Kumbaga, self therapy." inalis ko na ang mata sa altar at hinarap siya.
Sister Aurora looked worried again. "Paano kung maulit ulit yung panaginip mo? Nag-aalala parin ako sayo, Angel."
I clenched the rosary I was holding, knowing well it was a powerful weapon to use against the evil. "I'll pray harder, Au. Alam kong hindi ako papabayaan ng panginoon. I have his protection. I know I'll be safe."
Sister Aurora somehow became calm. Ginanap niya ang kamay ko at pinisil ito. "Then I wish for your safety, Angel. Kung saan ka man pupunta."
A soft smile appeared on my lips. "Thanks, Au."
She smiled back. "You're welcome. So, when are you leaving?"
"Mamayang hapon na. I already had my parent's consent. Even though hindi nila alam kung saan ako pupunta."
"Saan ka nga ba pupunta?" curious niyang tanong.
"Somewhere in a private Island in Mindanao." sagot ko.
"Ikaw lang mag-isa?"
I nodded, twice. "Oo, ako lang."
"Would you like me to come with you? I can clear my schedules para samahan ka. Yun kung okay lang sayo."
Medyo hesitant ako. I wanted to say yes pero naalala ko yung sinabi nila Franz at Ginger sakin na tanging invited lang ang pwede makapunta sa Sanctuary Island.
"I would love too, Au. Pero gusto ko munang mapag-isa ngayon. I hope you understand."
Mukhang naintindihan naman ako ni Aurora. "It's alright, mag ingat ka na lang."
"I will." I smiled at her before gazing back my attention to the church's altar.
My goal for today is to spend my remaining time praying before leaving the province. I don't know what awaits for me the moment I will step my foot on Sanctuary Island. Ang hiling ko lang sana ay may Chapel doon na pwede kong tambayan kapag gusto kong magdasal. I think sa lugar na ito ako magkaroon ng peace of mind lalo nasa sunod-sunod na bangungot na nangyayari sakin. I already saw the pictures of the Island. Litrato pa lang ay masasabi kong magiging maganda ang pag-stay ko sa Isla. I'm honestly excited. First ever solo vacation ko ito matapos ang mahabang panahong pananatili sa kumbento at simbahan. I needed a break too.
Nagpaalam na sakin si Sister Aurora para umattend sa bible study nila sa Monasteryo. Ako naman ay pumasok sa simbahan at pumuwesto sa pinakaharapang upoan upang gawin ang daily rosary prayer.
Ako lang mag-isa sa loob ngayon at tanging huni ng mga ibon lang ang maririnig. I silently started my rosary with full concentration.
All the while, focused ako. I'm on my knees, kneeling, but my mind felt like i'm in heaven and the prophets of God were with me, joining me in my prayer and surrendering my soul to the lord almighty.
Nasa pangatlong mesteryo na ako ng Sorrowful Mystery nang makaramdam ako ng presensya sa aking likoran. In just a matter of seconds, nawala nasa isip ko na nasa langit ako. I got distracted, kadiliman na ang pumalit sa maliwanang kong isip. I tried to calm down but the presence behind me was strong, like really strong. Katulad yun sa naramdaman ko 'nong nakaraang linggo. My anxiety triggered.
Nagpatuloy parin ako sa pagrorosaryo ko kahit parang nawawalan nako ng konsentrasyon. Makalipas ang ilang segundo ay tuloyan nakong na side track. This is so weird, I don't easily get distracted whenever i'm in my prayer. I already mastered the art of focus and concentration, anong klaseng kababalaghan na naman ba ito?
Losing my whole focus, lumingon ako sa gilid ko. Shocked filled me upon seeing Saint.
"Hi." bati niya. She was smiling at me.
"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" yun agad tanong ko sa kanya.
"I just dropped by hoping that there will be a mass today. Kaya nandito ako." sagot niya.
"Walang misa tuwing weekdays sa shrine. Tuwing linggo lang. Haven't I told you that yesterday?"
"Oh shoot sorry, I forgot. Naisturbo tuloy kita."
Inalis ko na ang tingin sa kanya at bumalik sa pagrorosaryo.
Lord, i'm sorry. I'll start all over again na lang po. Wika ng isip ko.
Muli akong nag sign of the cross at nagumpisa ulit sa pagrorosaryo. I managed to do that with Saint sitting behind me.
My mind was fracturing into twin minds;
One, determined to finished my rosary with grace and compassion. Two, determined to stay focused even though my whole body is trembling at the fact that Saint is here with me. Naalala ko yung sinabi niya sakin kahapon.
You're giving me a fucking hard on, sister.
I hate how my brain interpreted her words differently. Bakit naman kasi iba ang naisip ko?
Snap out of it, Angel. You need to stay focus! Sigaw ng isip ko.
Hinigpitan ko ang paghawak sa rosaryo at nag concentrate.
Pagdaan ng kalahating oras ay sa wakas nasa panghuling Misteryo na ako ng Sorrowful Mystery. Nasa likod ko pa rin si Saint at mukhang hinihintay niya akong matapos. I find it so uneasy especially when I felt her staring at me. Though my uneasiness didn't last long because she stood up and walked away.
I felt relief. Thank god, umalis na siya.
But just as I thought she was gone, naramdaman ko ulit ang presensya niya sa aking harapan. Nanumbalik yung uneasy feeling ko kanina, I could smell her expensive perfume penetrating my nostrils. Tumaas lahat ng balahibo ko at tila may kung anong gayuma ang amoy niya na nagpapabago bigla sa mood ko.
Her scent......it's so......addicting.....and hot. Parang gusto ko siyang singhotin sa leeg at paglandasin ang ilong ko doon. Tila ako hinihigop sa mapang-akit niyang amoy. My mind was lost and all I could do is imagining myself sitting on her lap while inhaling her with all to my contentment as she caressed my back, waist and thighs. Tapos dinala niya ako sa kwarto at pinahiga sa kama at kinaibabawan. She was looking at me like a hungry lioness and I am her desired lamb. She opened my legs wide exposing my wetness and began to lower her head down to eat my throbbing pussy and----wait what?
Naibuka ko bigla ang mga mata ko at natauhan. Bumalik na sa tamang huwisyo ang utak ko kasabay ng pagbalik sa aking tamang katinoan. Bumungad sa harapan ko ang nakatayo na si Saint. Her middle part was near my face. I gulped hard seeing the big bulge forming on her pants.
Oh my god, it's growing! Mukhang tama ang hinala ko kahapon, may tite nga siya!
Napatingala ako sa kanyang mukha. She was looking down at me while bitting her lip.
"W-what are you d-doing?" ako ang una nakabawi sa amin. My voice cracked a little.
"Nothing, I was just checking outside. Umuulan kasi." aniya habang nakangisi.
Napatingin ako sa labas ng simbahan.
Tama siya, umuulan nga, wala pa naman akong dalang payong.
I return my gaze back to her and was about to say something when she spoke.
"Ganon ba talaga kayong mga madre? Palaging naka luhod?" she asked, still grinning for unknown reason.
"Our knees are used of kneeling due to hours of prayers." i answered.
"Damn, kaya mo bang magtagal ng dalawang oras?"
Wala sa sarili akong tumango. "Y-yeah, more than that actually."
Saint bit her lip again. Nakatingala parin ako sa kanya habang nakaluhod. She was staring at me so intently and I couldn't help myself from giving her the same energy. Tila magnet ang mga mata niya na hindi ko kayang iwan. Staring her at this position is making my neck hurts. Inalis ko na ang mata sa kanya at ibinababa ang tingin sa gitna niyang may bukol. I know from this very moment nagkasala ulit ako sa panginoon dahil hindi ko maiwasang isipin kung ano hitsura ng gitna niya. Was it big? Was it long? Was it yummy? Was it--Oh god, what am I thinking?
I quickly shook my head and snapped myself out from the forbidden thought. Tumayo na ako at puno ng konsensya siyang hinarap. I barely know her for a day and I don't know anything about her aside from her name.
"H-hindi ka pa ba uuwi? Aalis na ako ngayon." sabi ko, trying to sound formal. Nakatingala pa rin ako sa kanya dahil sa sobrang tangkad niya. I stood up 5'6 and I felt like she towered over 6 feet.
"Not yet. I'll just wait for the rain to stop, wala kasi akong dalang payong." sagot niya. Both of her hands are now tucked inside her pockets. Ang attractive niyang tignan, at hindi ko yun mai-dedeny.
"Mauna na ako sayo kung ganon. I'll see you next time." paalam ko. Hindi ko na hinintay ang magiging sagot niya dahil naglakad na ako palayo.
Saint's presence is something else. Kahapon ko pa lang siya nakikilala pero pakiramdam ko 'makasalanan' ang hatid niya. It's not that i'm judging her based on her looks, she's very beautiful despite of her tattoos. Basta pakiramdam ko lang ay para akong makakagawa ng kasalanan kapag makakasama ko pa siya ng matagal. I need to avoid it.
Nang makalabas nako sa pintoan ng simbahan, nagdadawalang isip ako kung lulusobin ko ba ang ulan o hindi. The rain was too heavy and I might end up having a fever kung uuwi akong nababasa ng ulan. Now what?
Isang tikhim ang umagaw sa atensyon ko. Paglingon ko, it was none other than Saint.
"May dala ka bang payong?" she asked, gently.
"W-wala po." mahinang sagot ko.
"Dito na lang muna tayo sa loob, mukhang matatagalan pa bago humina 'tong ulan e."
"S-sige lang, dito lang ako maghihintay. Mukhang hindi naman magtatagal 'to."
Saint let out a soft chuckle. "Why am I sensing that you're afraid of me? Relax, hindi naman ako nangangagat."
Lihim akong napakagat-labi. I don't want to lie but I also don't want her to feel offended, kaya ibang rason nalang ang sinabi ko.
"Nahihiya kasi ako sa nangyari kahapon. You know, about 'don sa nakikita mo."
Mukhang na-gets agad ni Saint ang ibig kong sabihin. "Oh that." she laughed a little. Amusement dance her eyes. "Don't worry, at least ako lang yung nakakita. Don't get too embarrassed about it, Angel. Pareho naman tayong babae."
Yeah right pareho nga, pero tinitigasan ka at may tinatagong malaking anaconda na nanunuklaw. Anang isip ko. I wanted to tell her that but I decided not to.
"Still, nakakahiya pa rin." saad ko.
Saint laughed again and stood beside me. Nakasuot lang ako ng flat sandals kaya nakumpara ko agad yung height namin sa isa't-isa. I'm the tallest among my friends and sisters but comparing my height to Saint's, sobrang liit ko tignan. Hanggang balikat niya lang ako at baba, she's a freaking giant.
"Are you really that conservative? Or sadyang bawal lang sa mga practiced nuns na tulad mo ang ganon?" tanong niya sa amused na tono.
"I'm a conservative type of person, ma'am. Big deal po sa akin ang ganoon." sabi ko.
"A conservative, huh. Experts said, kung sino pa yung mga conservative, sila pa yung wild. Hmmm, I wonder kung isa ka sa mga yun."
Nabulonan ako sa sinabi niya. "Me? W-wild?" I pointed myself.
"Yeah, wild." she smirked ridiculously.
"H-hindi po ako ganon, ma'am. I never done anything w-wild in my whole life. I was born and raised in a very religious family. Wala po sa bokubolaryo ko ang maging ganon."
Saint smiled. "So, you're a good girl then."
I nodded without hesitation. "Yes I am."
"Hmm, kahit kailan ba wala kang naging kasalanan?"
Umiling ako. "Wala."
Saint chuckled again. "Why do you want to be a nun by the way? Hindi naman porket galing ka sa isang banal na pamilya, susunod ka agad sa yapak nila. Pwede ka naman maging religious na hindi kinakailangan maging madre. Is it a requirement?"
"No, it's not a requirement. But it's a personal choice, ma'am. Desisyon ko pong silbihan ang panginoon at ang simbahan. Hindi po ako pinipilit ng pamilya ko." i explained.
"Why? I mean, I respect your choice. Pero bakit? With a pretty face like yours, you could've pass as a model or an actress instead. Sayang."
I appreciate her compliment. Tumingala ako sa langit at ngumiti. "I want to be a nun because I could feel that God is calling me to the religious life. Other than that, nakikita ko rin ang sarili ko na maging alagad niya noon pa man, kaya hindi nako nagdadalawang isip na pumasok sa kumbento at manilbihan."
"Yun lang?"
"Yup. Pero may kanya-kanya namang rason ang mga tao kung bakit nila gusto maging alagad ng panginoon. Eto ang sakin, iwan ko lang sa iba."
"Tsk, so malabo sayo ang magkaroon ng asawa ganon?" there was a hint of bitterness on her voice.
"Sadly, yes. Before I entered my journey as a servant of God, I made a vow of celibacy. Meaning, hindi ako pwede magkaroon ng romantic relationship ng kahit kanino man."
"Including sex?"
"Yup. Including that."
Saint pouted. "May naging ka relasyon ka ba 'nong hindi ka pa pumasok sa kumbento?"
"Wala."
Saint's eyes twinkled. "So, you're a virgin?"
Nag-init bahagya ang magkabilang pisngi ko. "Y-yes."
Naging pilya ang ngiti niya. "You never experience kissing someone before?"
"N-never." mabilis akong umiling.
"How about dating? Naranasan mo ba yun?"
"Hindi rin."
"Holding hands?"
"Mas lalong wala."
"Damn, you're a complete package babygirl. Maganda, mestisa, mabait at virgin. God is one hell of a lucky motherfucker to have you as his servant."
Napangiwi ako sa komento niya. "Please don't cursed at God like that."
"Heck yeah I will. He had taken away the woman whom I--" she paused. "Never mind." lumipat siya ng pwesto sa harapan ko at malambing na ngumiti. "Hindi ka ba pinapahirapan ng mga senior nuns mo 'don sa kumbento?"
"So far po hindi naman. Mababait po silang lahat sa akin."
"Eh yung mga pari? It's quite impossible for them to get a hold of themselves especially if they see a beautiful woman like you everyday. For sure tinitigasan din ang mga yun sayo."
Namula ako. "Mababait lahat ng tao sa Monasteryo namin, ma'am. Wala pong manyak 'don"
"Drop the formality, babygirl. Just call me with my name. Don't call me, ma'am."
My brows furrowed. "Bakit babygirl ang tawag mo sakin?"
"Because you are. Fvck, bakit kasi naging madre ka pa?"
Napakunot-noo ako. "Huh?"
"Wala, sabi ko tawagin mo lang ako sa pangalan ko. Ayoko ng ma'am."
I stared at her, judging. "But you looked older than me. Parang napaka disrespectful naman at informal kung mag fifirst name basis lang ako sayo."
"Just call me anything you want, huwag lang ma'am."
Napa-isip ako saglit. "Okay. Ate Saint." wika ko.
"The horror, mukha ba akong matanda sa paningin mo?" she looked offended.
"Bakit, ilang taon ka na ba?"
"I'm only 32."
"Well i'm 24. Mas matanda ka ng walong taon keysa sakin. I think it's more better If I will address you that way. Kung ayaw mo ng ma'am, e di Ate nalang."
Saint cringed, parang labag sa loob niya ang tawagin ng ganon to think na mas matanda naman talaga siya keysa sakin.
"Just call me Saint, alright? That's all I want you to address me." she said, still cringing.
"Fine, I'll call you Saint then."
Napangiti naman siya at pagkatapos napakagat labi. "Say it again."
"Saint."
She bit her lip again, eyes twinkling. "Say it one last time. Slowly."
Weird ko siyang tinignan. "Saint." sabi ko naman sa malumanay na boses.
"Fvck." sapo ang mukhang hinarap ni Saint ang semento at saka yun sinuntok. "I'm melting, i'm fvcking melting."
"Are you alright?" weird ko parin siyang tinignan.
"Yeah i'm good." she stopped punching the wall and faced me. "Nagpapalabas lang ng damdamin."
Nagtataka man ay hindi nako nagkomento. Surprisingly, nawala na yung discomfort ko sa kanya. I think she's not a bad person after all. Na-guilty tuloy ako kasi pinag-isipan ko siya ng masama kanina.
"You know what, after all the talkings. I haven't formally introduce myself to you." wika ko sa friendly na tono. "I'm Precious Angel Gabriel. Ikinagagalak kitang makilala Saint."
She smiled. "And i'm Saint Elijah Bernasconi. Toń fan numéro un mon amour." pakilala niya rin.
"What language do you mainly speak? I just noticed the accent." i curiously asked.
"I used to live in France before. 20 years ako 'don bago nag settle dito sa Pilipinas." she answered.
"You're half french?"
"Yup."
Tumango-tango ako at ngumiti.
Saint came forward and sweetly tucked some strands of my hair that covers my face. Nagulat ako sa ginawa niya at gusto sanang umiwas, pero sa hindi malamang rason ay hindi ko magawa. I just stood in front of her, muted and dazed, with her combing my hair. Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng close contact sa isang taong bago ko palang makilala. Kung totoosin ay estranghero pa siya dahil hindi ko pa siya totally kilala. I don't trust people easily, but what is this? Why am I letting this person combing my hair like as if we already knew each other for years?
Dahan-dahan akong umatras palayo at nag-iwas sa kanya ng tingin. Malakas parin ang buhos ng ulan at kami lang dalawa dito sa Shrine.
"It's cold out here. Pasok muna tayo sa loob." rinig kong sabi niya.
"Sige." sang-ayon ko. Nauna na akong naglakad at bumalik sa pwesto namin kanina. I was about to sat down when I noticed some candles got blown away on the altar. Lumapit ako doon at kumuha ng isang kandila para sindahan ang iba pang mga kandila.
"Hindi ka ba natatakot dito?" hindi ko namalayan nasa tabi ko pala si Saint.
"What do you mean?" i glance at her after lighting all the candles.
"Madami kasing nagsasabi na mas nakakatakot daw ang simbahan kumpara sa sementeryo. Are you not scared?"
"Nope. Why would I? Bahay ng panginoon ang simbahan. Yung mga nagsasabi na mas natatakot ang lugar nato kaysa sementeryo, gawa-gawa lang yun."
Saint's lips twitched up. "You're one brave girl huh. Hindi ka takot sa multo?"
"Nope. God is with me and I know i'm safe."
"So you feared nothing?"
Natigilan ako. I suddenly remember my nightmare last night. So far, yun ang pinaka traumatic at pinaka nakakatakot na pangyayari sa buhay ko. But I always believe that nothing is more scarier than God's wrath.
"Mas takot ako sa diyos." wika ko. "I love him but at the same time scared of him. Siya lang kasi ang may alam sa buhay nating lahat. He knows our faith, he knows our plans and he knows what's on our minds. Kaya nga may kasabihang; God knows everything diba? And as his servant, i'm scared of betraying him. Natatakot ako sa posibleng consequences na mangyayari sa akin kung sakaling suwayin ko siya."
Saint made a sarcastic remark. "Akala ko ba, mapag patawad ang paningoon mo?"
"Yes, he always forgives. But not all the time."
Saint smirked. "Kapag gagawa ba ng kasalanan ngayon, papatawarin ka niya?"
"Of course, he will."
"How confident are you?"
"100% confident." giit ko.
"Then I guess you need to ask forgiveness later after this." nagulat ako nang bigla niya akong hapitin sa baywang at ikinulong sa bisig niya.
"S-saint?" nanlaki pareho ang mata ko sa ginawa niya.
"I can't hold it anymore, amour, kanina pa ako nagtitimpi sayo." aniya sa nahihirapang tono. Unti-unti niyang inilapit ang mukha sa akin bagay na ikinasinghap ko. I think she's going to kiss me. Dapat nagpumiglas ako at humingi ng tulong pero hindi ko ginawa. Sa halip, hinayaan ko siya sa kanyang nais gustong gawin.
"S-saint...." I uttered, almost like a whisper. Ilang dangkal nalang ang layo ng mukha namin sa isa't-isa. I know at this very moment, I have broken my promised vows because I closed my eyes and placed my arms around her neck and accepted her kiss.
Saint groaned and kissed me hungrily. Hindi ako tumugon dahil hindi ko alam kung paano siya sabayin. This is my first time being kissed by someone. Ang tanging nagawa ko ay kumapit sa balikat niya lalo na nang lumalim ang paraan ng pag-angkin niya sa labi ko. I was lost. Mariin at puno ng pagnanasa ang halik na ipinagkaloob niya sa akin. It was so deep and senseless. She nibbled my lips and sucked it hard. Bahagya niya pang kinagat ang labi ko bagay na ikinaungol ko.
Saint was a good kisser. Her lips were firm, soft and masterful. What we did is forbidden. It is against my vows and rules of being a practiced nun. I wanted to stop her but my body betrayed my mind. I let her kiss me right in front of the altar; right in front of the crucifix where a tragic, agonized Jesus hanging in sacrifice. Nakaramdam ako ng konsensya at gusto na sanang kumalas, pero mas nagdominate ang kagustohan kong ma-angkin ang labi ko. Kaya kahit hindi ako marunog humalik, ginaya ko ang galaw ng labi ni Saint. I felt her smile, but later on she continued ravaging my lips.
I leveled her passion and returned her kisses with zero experience. It was a bit difficult on my part because I had a hard time keeping up with her. Sa huli, siya nalang ang hinayaan ko na halikan ako.
"Damn it, Amour. Mas lalo mo akong binabaliw." anas niya. She took my hand and placed it on her middle. Nagulat ako nang maramdamang sobrang tigas 'non, daig ko pang nakahawak ng bato.
"S-saint....."
"I want you so much, Angel. Matagal na akong may pagnanasa sayo. I want to fuck you here and now." she whispered hoarsely. Bumaba ang labi niya sa leeg ko at doon naman ako hinalikan.
"S-saint...."
"Open your legs and let me touch you please. I've been fantasizing this for a long time. Come on, babygirl. Open it."
Lost in sensation, I oblige. Ibinuka ko ang hita ko at hinayaan siyang damhin ang nais niyang gustong hawakan sa akin. I gasped when I felt her hand cupping my middle and rubbing my sensitive nub outside my panties. I moaned at the pleasurable feeling it gives. Napa-ingtad pa ako nang ipasok niya ang kamay sa loob ng panty ko at hinawakan ang pagkababae ko.
"Oh shit ang basa mo na, amour." malanding bulong niya.
"Ahhhh." another moan escaped my throat. She was stroking my wetness rhythmically and I cried out as a strange hot liquid heat gathered on the pit of my groin.
"That's it, amour, moan for me." ginalingan ni Saint ang pagrub sa clit ko. Ginawa niya yun habang panay ang halik sa leeg ko. Nasarapan ako sa ginawa niya, first time ko palang makaramdam ng ganitong klaseng uring sensasyon at gustong-gusto ko ang pakiramdam na ma-romansa ng ganito.
"Ahhhh." ungol ko ulit nang binilisan ni Saint ang pag galaw ng daliri niya. Napaliyab ako sa init ng kanyang ginawa at napasinghap nang gigil niyang pisilin ang kaselan ko. "Ahhhh."
"Let's go to my place, amour. Let's continue this there." she whispered again before licking my earlobes.
Natauhan ako bigla. What she said snapped me back to reality. Oh my god!
Mabilis pa sa alas kwatrong itinulak ko siya palayo habang sapo ang bibig.
"Angel......" anas niya.
"I....I....s-should've not done t-this." i said, trembling. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa nangyayari. Hindi ko dapat ito hinayaan!
Without saying goodbye, dali-dali akong tumakbo papunta sa main door ng simbahan at lumabas. Narinig ko ang pagtawag sakin ni Saint pero hindi ko siya pinansin.
I just ran away, feeling guilty and ashamed, not minding the heavy rain that poured all over my body.
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