Stacey's POV
During the drive I stole a couple of glances at Xavier
He looked so anxious
He still hasn't said a word during the drive
"Are you okay" I asked and he quickly looked at me probably surprised I asked him then turned his attention back to the road
"Yea" he said
Not gonna lie I felt a pang pf pain surge in my heart because his reply was short
"Oh" I said back at him in barely a whisper
"I don't like going to the therapist" he said in a low voice
He looked way too vulnerable and sad everytime I asked or brought up his bipolar disorder
"Then I'll go with you" I said not sure of what am saying
He quickly glanced at me again then directed his attention to the road as though he was calculating something
"Will you do that for me" he said I could hear a whole lot of emotion in that sentence
"Of course" I said in a hush tone resting my hands on his shoulders then I gave him a tight squeeze and removed my hand
He didn't say anything after that and I just felt like an idiot
Later I felt his hands on my thighs and a flow of electricity rushed through me
"Why.....why do you do this" he said and I looked at him confused
"I am only trying to help" I said to a more angry Xavier
"EXACTLY" he shouted gripping my thighs making me whimper in pain then after taking couple of breaths he calmed down
"Why do you help me after all I had done to you................. I don't deserve it" he said the last part in a whisper
I really didn't know what to say because I don't know the answer to that question
Why am I helping this murderer he is also a rapist and an abuser
I don't even have any plans of leaving him yet
As long as I don't get attached to him he will let me go and I will forget about him
The rest of the drive was silent
When we pulled up at the clinic I came out first out of the car because the tension was thick in the car
Xavier came to my side and we both walked into the massive clinic
We walked for a while with a lot of staffs bowing there heads and greeting Xavier then we reached an office
Without knocking Xavier entered the office
Rude
Seated at the table was a middle aged man
He looked really kind and calm
He rose up from his seat to give Xavier a handshake and that was when he finally noticed me
He also shook me too and all three of us were sat down
"Who do we have here" the psychiatric said looking at me cumulatively
"My wife Stacey Anderson" he said and I raised my head to meet the the psychiatric face
He looked shocked but immediately masked it up with a smile
I was used to this everytime I am introduced as Xavier's wife people looked shocked and look at me as though I was insane
They don't know I was forced into this marriage
"Oh...nice to finally meet you" he said and started the session with Xavier
In the middle of the session I felt Xavier tense up and I immediately held his hands under the table which made him relax a bit
"Do you mind telling me how you feel about your husband" the middle aged man asked me at the end of the session
"Excuse me I need to go get a check up" Xavier said immediately standing up and exiting the room he looked so embarrassed
"Mrs. Anderson, sorry to break it to you but your husband is obsessed with you" he said
"I know" I said in a whisper bowing my head
"Then why do stay in this toxic relationship" he said as though he was warning me
"I don't know" I said I felt my face burning up
"Listen.... everytime he comes in here you are all your husband talks about, you are his reason for waking up everyday" he said and I looked at the man shocked
"It's either you leave him now or stay by his side forever, don't get me wrong Mrs. Anderson you have a great husband" he said and I just nodded my head ready to leave
"I strongly suggest you don't leave him because he is responding to treatment fast but if you leave him he may do something outrageous.....he can go as far as killing himself he really loves you dear" the psychiatrist said and I looked at him wide eyed
"Thank you" I said exiting the office just then Xavier was also done with his check up
He had an iron grip on my waist he looked down at me
"Are you okay" he said and I just nodded
We were back in the car I spoke to Xavier before he could start the car engine
"I care about you" I said to him immediately
"Hmm" he said simply then started the car
My face flushed red from embarrassment
I don't think he likes me anymore I should feel happy about that but am not
"I want ice cream" I said to him and he looked at me then raised his brow up
"Are you getting me ice cream or not" I asked stubbornly making Xavier burst out laughing
I gasped then turn around to face the window why was he making fun of me
"You look so adorable with that pout" he said and I immediately straightened my lips ignoring his laughter
"So you want ice cream huh?" He said and I just nodded my head still looking out the window
"You have no idea what you mean to me" I heard him say under his breath
But I pretended not to hear him
Soon we reached an ice cream driveway
"Can I get three scopes of peppermint chocolate flavour with..... 'I turned to Xavier and he mouthed vanilla' 1 scope of vanilla please" I said in the mic and Xavier just chuckled beside me
Soon we were given our massive cones of ice cream and Xavier paid
My mouth watered at the sight of Xavier's cone as he drove with one hand on the steering wheel and the other hand holding his ice cream
I took a huge bite from his and he looked at me shocked
"You beast" he said laughing
I wanted to laugh but damn brain freeze
I rested my head on the car sit waiting for my head to settle
Then I continued licking my ice cream
"Seems you like Ice cream" Xavier said looking at me in shock as I devoured the ice cream
"Yes I love it" I said taking the final big bite and collapsing on the car seat
At home
I thought Xavier was going to give me a surprise maybe he forgot
Once we pulled over at our driveway Xavier got out before me then turned around to open the car door for me to come out
He entangled our hands together which took me by surprise
Once we entered the house every where was dark the lights were off and curtains were closed
I walked in a little living Xavier behind
Soon the lights went on
The whole room was filled with red balloons and rose flowers
It was well decorated
I gasped at the beautiful sight
It's beautiful so beautiful
Xavier walked in and wrapped his hands around me resting his jaw on my head
"Do you like it" he said his voice a little low
"I love it" I said to him
He led me to the corner of the room where there was a table and two chairs
Candle lit up around it
It was so beautiful
The person who did this had a serious talent going on
He pulled out my chair and I sat down and he did the same
Infront of us was a plate filled with garlic butter lamb chops
It looked so delicious but I can't help but think there was a special occasion behind all this
"Why all this" I blurted out
He just chuckled
"Well for starters I noticed you don't like fancy and extravagant events so I decided to have my birthday dinner here with you" he said and my mouth was wide opened
Did he just say birthday dinner was today his birthday
"Birthday?" I asked again not sure if I heard right
"Yea" he said nonchalantly placing a lamb in his mouth
"Why didn't you tell me" I said getting angry
"You didn't ask princess" he said staring at me with a smile on his face
"Yea....I feel bad" I said feeling like a failure
"You feel bad.....pffft" he said taking a bite out of the lamb
"What do you mean pfft" I said raising my brow
"Do you know that you are the sole reason why I finally celebrated my birthday" he said and I looked at him confused
"Since I was born I had to carrying the guilt of killing my mother because she died while giving birth to me" he said looking down at his plate
"My father loved my mom.so much ever since she died he mistreated me and called me a murderer every chance he gets" he said with so much hurt
"And now I finally saw a reason to celebrate my existence and the reason feels bad about it" he painfully laughed at the end
His eyes were now red
"I should have died instead of my mom " he said and that was when I finally had enough
I stood up from my chair then went to his
I knelt down before him wiping the tear that escaped his eyes bringing my face closer to his
"I didn't mean it like that okay I appreciate you so much that I can't not give you a birthday gift of some kind" I said assuring him and it seems to be working
"Why, I asked myself this question for two months now why don't you kill me when am at sleep, or poison, or rather just leave me now" he said his voice breaking with every word
This was the most vulnerable I had ever seen him
"I don't know but all I know is that am not going anywhere till you recover no matter how long it takes and that I promise"
I said knowing fully aware I don't have a say in this
If I leave him today he will take me back that same day
The only option I have was to kill him of stay with him and I wasn't a bad person
I could never kill another human being
So instead I'll just turn him into someone better
"Promise to never leave me" he said with tears in his eyes holding my hands to his chest
"Till you recover......I promise" I said
"Good enough.....I wonder what good I did in this lifetime to find someone like you" he said and but my mouth was just hanged opened
Because I was speechless
"I have something to tell you" he said and since all this time I had never seen this emotion in his eyes
Fear, his eyes held fear
But why or what was he scared of
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