The room was pitch black when I awoke, Tom was still sleeping on me - I thought he was at least. Bill had left and was probably asleep in his room. Toms really comfy I won't lie. And I really don't think I can hate him in this moment, or maybe ever again.
"Sienna" Tom kinda scared me icl, thought he was sleeping.
"Yeah?"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Go ahead"
"Did you actually sh because of me" I tended yo when Tom asked. I don't want to tell him.
"Uh no" I forced a smile
"Sienna tell me" I couldn't see his face but he sounded upset
"Ok I did yeah but I don't anymore I'm fine now completely clean" I wasn't lying. I am clean. I have been for maybe just over 11 months, nearly a year.
"I- wow...I'm sorry" he sounded sincere
"No I'm fine now don't worry" I replied
"And it was because of me?." He asked
I took a deep breath before answering
"Well yeah when I first started being friends with Bill you started being a bit of a twat...I got upset at first and yk did that but then I eventually just started being horrible back"
Tom was silent for a while.
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"Well yeah when I first started being friends with Bill you started being a bit of a twat...I got upset at first and yk did that but then I eventually just started being horrible back"
I thought it was jokes? Like she jokes with Bill and the rest of the band? Should I have made it obvious it was jokes? She definitely hates me because of that.
And I was starting to have feelings for her.
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"Tom?" I asked after receiving no response
"Oh yeah sorry" he snapped out of whatever he was thinking about.
"Are we friends?" This question had been killing me from the inside.
"Yeah. I think so" He responded
"Oh" was all I could get out. I thought he hated me.
"We don't have to be don't worry" Tom reassured me sadly as he started to move to the other side of the bed.
"No" I pulled him back by his shoulder "I just thought you hated me" I continued
"No...?" Was all Tom said
"Then why were you so like- horrible?"
"You were to Bill but you were best friends. I thought it was all jokes I'm sorry" He was joking? The whole time?
"The whole time?" I asked
"The whole time." He responded. I couldn't see him that well in the dark but I could tell he felt guilty. Just the time of his voice gave it all away.