Delilah pov
It's been four days since I found that letter in my Diary and I can't believe what I read. It's been all a blur between me and Logan- he avoids even looking at me- all I want to do is tell him I missed him and ask him if there are any more letters except if I tell him I have the letter he will probably ask for it back and I don't think I can handle that, so instead I made my way to the showers after a hard training session.
This time my practice hours doubled and as soon as I finished the hockey team started arriving
and changing into their gear and sometimes they would even hit the ice when I was finishing to start warming up. It became a routine they would say hi and I would say it back once I finished whatever skill I was doing. I still couldn't believe that soon I will have 'the' date with Silas.
The worst part is the fact I see him and wonder if he still meant what that letter said, but anytime I go up and talk to him he ignores me or goes away. Daisy's fine, today is my night with her so yay. What I'm still nervous about are grades. They still haven't uploaded them, so I'm taking this shower to then see them.
...
I finally finished my shower and I'm on my way to eat before I head to my dorm. I left my backpack at Emory's and then went to eat with the girls and even invited Ivy, Emory's roommate, to eat with us.
We sit at our table with our food and take out our phones to check grades.
"Ap's first," Cleo says and I nod opening my physics grade
"Yess," I whisper looking at the A plus in the system
I was really surprised with the transcript . The majority were A's except for history which was a B plus and I'm grateful but scared the B isn't going to be enough
"Four B's and Three A's," Cleo says excited
"All A's," Ivy says happy
"Two B's one C and four A's," Emory says eating the salad
"Six A's one B," I say smiling because I'm grateful it's finally over.
"To the acers," Cleo says and we all laugh at how stupid it sounded
"Do you girls want to come to the football game," Ivy asks devouring her sandwich
"When is it," I ask, reaching a redhead strand of her hair out of the mayonnaise. Gosh how I hated mayonnaise
"Friday," she says and I hum
"Yeah sure," Cleo says leaving a big pause "what color should we wear," she asks and I wonder too because I do not know the colors of Leighton
"Blue and beige," Ivy and Emory say in unison
"Help me pick an outfit out because later that day I have a date," I say drinking my coke
"Really, with who," Ivy asks eating her dinner
"Silas," I say smiling
"Hendrix," she asks and I nod
"That's so cool do you know where you are going," she asks me
"I think he's taking me out to dinner," I say smiling
"Where," Cleo asks this time
"He said something about Italian food," I say eating "Also I can't believe we start the application process for universities next week,"
"I know right I can't believe we are going to university next year it still hasn't settled in," Emory says
"What are your plans," I ask them since I guess because we just met we never talked about this. We emerge talking and I found out Ivy is going to UMiami in a full ride as a cheerleader, Emory will study business and Cleo will probably go to engineering or something like that.
I still can't believe I found people who are willing to be friends with me. Even though I had Ambar and Matias back at Westview I didn't have close friends like Cleo, Emory and me. That was clearly a blessing. With that I feel like I'm almost free of my past. I'm only haunted by memories, not current situations. I don't have to be scared of getting late at home or buying booze for my dad. I'm free. Clean
"Earth to Delilah," Cleo says and I snap out of my trance
" Yeah what's up," I ask her smiling
"Do you want us to do your hair too," Emory asks and I nod
...
I finish my sandwich and head to my room to see some boys in the common room playing some video games so I decide to just go back to my room. We make eye contact except I break it first and take out my diary after I close the curtain. Not a single word was shared
"Delilah," he says and I hum
"yes," I answer unaware about what was he gonna ask next
"Just forget it," he says and I frown not knowing how to respond so I made my way into the bathroom to change.
"Delilah I want to ask you something," he says and I answer
"Yeah," I say and what he said broke my heart to pieces
"Would it be fine if we just stop hanging out, I see you're uncomfortable and to be honest so am I," I say feeling a tear staining my face
"Oh," I say and I cover my mouth trying to drown out any sound that may come out. Out of all the hits I've received this was the deepest and the one that most hurt. "Ok, if that's what you want." I say feeling tears stream down my cheek. Not to be dramatic but once in my life he used to be my favorite person along with my dad but oh my how things have changed.
"It is," he says and I figure out I've lost the last Delcourt in my life.
"Okay," I say, staying in the bathroom frozen not knowing how to digest the words he just asked me to.
I don't think I'm capable of being in the same room as him anymore. I feel suffocated, unable to breathe. I'm feeling a lot of shit and I can feel them in the open but I don't want to feel them around him. I don't want to be around him anymore. I don't know if I can manage it. Feeling so much love and resentment at the same time.
"I'm gonna take Daisy for a walk," I say trying to not to sound sad
"Okay," he simply says and I don't know what's worse, reuniting with him just to tell me he doesn't want to see me or not seeing him again for five more years. As I'm walking and crying at the same time I miss my mom. I miss being able to talk to my mom. I miss her too much and then I start to feel anger because who is capable of leaving their child. One thought led to another and then it finally reached the worst thoughts an Emerson always has. 'I need a drink'.I ignore the urge and continue walking with Daisy until I accidentally reach a building I haven't been in before so I decide to walk in even though it was dark and to be honest kind of creepy. It was a trophy room. I oversaw all the trophies until one caught my eye. First place Ice skating state competition 1997 Aria James, second place Ice skating skate competition Aurelia Rosewood and third place Chiara Delcourt. Underneath the trophies there was a photo of both my mom and Logan's hugging while Aria was smiling, putting her arms around them. I notice how much I look like my mom. Almost a spitting image if you must say, but that didn't catch my eye. The necklace Aria was wearing did. It was a rose. Almost the same one Chiara had gifted me for my eighteenth birthday.
They looked so alike it was worrying. Did our mothers meet here at Leighton and if they did why did they lie about it. If I remember correctly they told us they met in college and why Aria acted as if she didn't know me when I looked exactly like my mom. We looked like sisters and since this photo must have been taken at the same age I'm now I started to get... suspicious? I wonder what happened between them and why didn't they ever mention Aria. I take a photo of the photo and escape out of there getting out with more questions I had when I got in. How did they meet? Why didn't she ask about me? Is it anything else she's hiding?
I arrived at the room late at night and didn't hear any movement so I supposed Logan was already asleep so I just snuggle with Daisy and try to sleep but my questions never stopped. My mind is too awake and my body feels like giving out so I try to turn off my mind and go to sleep.
...
It's finally Friday morning and I feel like shit I go to the bathroom and Lord and behold I got my period so I just put on a tampon, take ibuprofen and go on with my life. I change for school leaving to eat breakfast when I bump into a strong wall in the hallway just for it to be Logan . He was sweaty so it must probably mean he had early practice or training or something, I don't want to know. I start to think if he also knew about our mothers and Aria except I can't ask him so without saying anything I pass him in the hallway and go to the dinning hall.
"Hi," I tell Emory who was entering with me
"Morning," she says sleepily and I adjust her tie which was wrongly done "Thanks," she says once I'm done and I do my best to give her a genuine smile
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'RE PREGNANT," we hear a commotion in the dining hall say and instantly enter
"IT MEANS YOU PULLED OUT TO LATE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE," the girl scream back I saw her at FSF she's in my calculus class, I think. Her name is Mia
"THAT'S BECAUSE YOU WERE A SELFISH BITCH WHO DIDN'T HAVE PROTECTION," the guy says and I take a tray while still listening
"THAT'S BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING DICK," Mia says and I snort
"That's Leighton to you welcome officially," Emory says to me and I laugh and seat with Cleo
"Morning," Emory says smiling and Cleo reciprocates
Did I miss a chapter here?
"You okay D," Cleo asks and I fake smile and eat my oatmeal
"Yeah, got my monthly so I feel tired," I say instead of 'hey I found out my mother and Logan's who is like a second mother to me knew my coach and lied about it also in another note my childhood best friend said he didn't want me around, what about you'
"Oh hope you feel better for your date later," she says and I smile
"Yeah me too," I say before continuing to eat my oatmeal in peace
"I'll come over at yours around four four and a half," I say and this time Emory's answers
"We will be doing it at my dorm by the way," she says and I nod okay
"See you then," I say smiling
...
This week was finally over and I was excited for this weekend. I knocked at the door and opened it since it was unlocked.
"Hi," I say and see Ivy doing her ponytail, Emory leaving the bathroom with her outfit which I must add was hot as fuck she had this leather pants and a lacey black corset top and she added a beige cropped sweater. Cleo was astonished and almost drooling, maybe daydreaming.
"Hey Winter close your mouth you're drooling," Emory says and she blushes yep I clearly missed a chapter there
"Okay outfit I brought two sweaters, one navy blue and one striped with both colors," I say and they all helped me get ready for my date. After we chose my outfit Cleo and I sat in a floor length mirror to do our makeup, Ivy was in her vanity and Em was in the bathroom.
Ivy brought the speaker and blasted Taylor Swift through it and this was the moment I knew I would cherish this friendship forever. This was going to be one of my core memories and when I have my children I will tell them all about it. Now I imagine the moms and Aria doing this and can't explain why they wouldn't tell and my brain was scrambled once again. The girls finished my hair and I felt beautiful.
We posed in front of the mirror and took some photos. I was wearing my striped navy blue and beige sweater with a random top underneath and some jeans, Cleo was wearing a button down with a navy sweater on top and some jeans, Em's outfit with her leather jeans and Ivy with her cheerleading outfit
First football game and date ready
AUTHORS NOTE
HII SORRY FOR THE LACKS OF UPDATE BUT I HAVEN'T HAD A CHANCE TO GET A HOLD OF A COMPUTER
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN A WEEK EXACTLY
DON'T FORGET TO VOTE AND COMMENT
THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT
HAVE A GREAT MORNING/ NOON/ NIGHT
LOTS OF LOVE
-BELLI