hiraeth - part forty-eight
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"Oh, no," Gohan chuckled at Y/n's reaction, knowing it must've come as a surprise that Bulma had more children now. "She just kind of took them in a little while back, I don't know where they're from."
Gohan introduced the three children as Pilaf, Shu, and Mai. Y/n figured Bulma must have gone crazy during Y/n's time away, because not only did she now have four children to take care of, but she was pregnant. Five kids was way too much for Y/n, but Bulma was way stronger than her in terms of mentality, and better than Y/n in almost everything.
"I guess Bulma's the only one who hasn't changed in the slightest, still taking random kids in," Y/n chuckled, remembering when Bulma had offered to let Y/n live with her. Now Y/n knew Bulma was just crazy like that.
After drying her hair off and fixing it, Y/n joined the others in the living room, where Lord Beerus and Whis were patiently waiting. Or about as patient as Beerus could get. He glared at Y/n as she entered the room, slamming his drink down on the table.
"Finally! I did not give you permission to disappear all day! I was just about to leave you!" Beerus yelled, standing up. Y/n raised a brow, wondering what kind of food he had picked up that made him want to go home so badly. She gave the taller phoenix cat a smile, but avoided looking at him.
"Could we maybe... Stay one more day? I'm not ready," Y/n spoke, rubbing the back of her neck. Whis raised a brow, smirking, making Y/n shift uncomfortably.
"Oh? Are you beginning to enjoy your time here, Y/n? It looks to me like you're happier here than you said you'd be," Whis said, making Y/n huff as she glared at him.
"Don't say that, Whis. I just haven't made up my mind yet," Y/n said, crossing her arms. Her attention was pulled to the young Saiyan as Goku, who had been listening to their conversation silently, spoke up.
"What do you mean? I thought you decided to go with us, Y/n," Goku said, tilting his head to the side in confusion. Y/n sighed, suddenly feeling bad. If she decided to stay, she knew it'd be a let-down to Goku, who so desperately wanted to spend time with Y/n again. And if she did decide to stay, she didn't want Goku to give up his chances of training with Whis for her.
"I-I don't know, I've actually been enjoying my time here, especially thanks to Gohan's help," Y/n smiled over at Gohan, who rubbed his arm, blushing abashedly, a small smile on his face. Goku huffed, stomping up to Y/n and wrapping his arms around her, but it wasn't any sort of pleading hug, rather a protective and jealous hug.
"But you like me more than him, so why don't you go with me?" Goku leaned down close to her ear, smirking. "I can make you feel good again."
"I-I'm good, thank you!" Y/n yelped, a bright blush across her face as she wiggled free of Goku's grip. She cleared her throat, trying to will away her blush as she smoothed her clothes. "I haven't made my mind up yet, Goku. I need more time to decide if I want to stay or go."
Goku puffed his cheeks out in annoyance, crossing his arms as he turned away from her. Y/n sighed, wishing he'd understand her side of the story more. She was just trying to find her place, but Goku wanted her to follow him everywhere, and always be with him. Y/n wanted to do something that made her happy though, even if it meant not getting to see Goku again.
"I suppose we'll stay one more day, if you make my dinner," Lord Beerus smirked, making Y/n sigh. That was one thing she did want to escape, was cooking for Beerus. He was quite critical of her cooking.
That was what led to Y/n cooking for everyone, having to make enough for five Saiyans, five humans (Y/n assumed Pilaf and Shu counted as human anyway), and a God of Destruction and his angel. She was basically up all night, but at the very least, she got to spend more time with her Earth friends.
"Do you need help, Y/n?" Gohan asked as he walked into the kitchen, looking around at all of the food she had made. His eyes landed on the girl, who wore an apron covered in sauces and spices. Gohan tried to look away to hide the blush that bloomed across his face, a nervous smile forming. "I-I'm not very good at cooking, but I felt bad leaving all the work to you."
"I can teach you if you'd like," Y/n said, pulling off her oven mitts. Gohan smiled, nodding as he approached her. Y/n handed him an apron of his own, giving him a warm smile in return.
Having Gohan there, making mistakes occasionally did slow her down, but Y/n found herself having fun showing Gohan how to cook basic things. And when they were nearly done, Y/n figured there was nothing that could ruin this night now. She had spoken too soon though, as of course, something had happened. That something being the Supreme Kai.
Y/n held a plate of rolls, going to take them to the dining table, when suddenly, something appeared in front of her out of nowhere. Y/n let out a cry in alarm, stumbling and trying not to run into it, dropping the plate of rolls and watching them scatter everywhere with wide eyes.
"O-Oh! My apologies, I didn't mean to teleport so close!" Shin exclaimed, catching Y/n before she tripped. Y/n stood up straight, catching her breath and smoothing her clothes, glaring down at Shin.
"You definitely did that on purpose, I know you know how to teleport properly," Y/n spoke, placing her hands on her hips. Shin chuckled nervously, scratching his cheek as he looked away. Y/n sighed, bending over to pick the rolls up. Shin stared down at her, a small blush forming on his face.
"So... When are you coming home? I assumed you'd be back sooner," Shin asked, glancing up. That was when he finally noticed Gohan, who did not look very happy with Shin, his dark eyes glaring down at Shin. Shin forced a smile, feeling awkward suddenly. Y/n stood up, clearing her throat as she sighed.
"I-I'm not sure. I haven't made up my mind yet..." Y/n said, unsure of how to break it to Shin that she might not come back. It felt like no matter where she went or what she was doing, she always abandoned somebody. That really wasn't the case and Shin could easily visit her on Earth, but all Y/n could see were her flaws.
Walking around Shin, her and Gohan took the food out to everybody while Y/n tried to easily explain to Shin that she kind of didn't want to go back. Shin gave Y/n a comforting smile, chuckling.
"Y/n, you don't need to feel bad about staying, it's great you want to stay in your home. I just want you to be happy," Shin spoke, his words making Y/n smile. As they entered the room, Shin left her side to go join Lord Beerus and Whis, greeting them with a bright smile. Y/n heard Gohan huff as he leaned closer to her, glaring in Shin's direction.
"Does Shin have a thing for you? He stares quite a bit," Gohan said, to which Y/n smirked.
"Why? Are you jealous?" Y/n asked. Gohan blushed, coming to a stop as he tried to process her words, staring at her. Gohan suddenly felt a strong pull he hadn't felt in a long time, wishing he were alone with Y/n. Instead, he was forced to be at her side, in public where everyone was watching them, especially a particular Saiyan who wasn't too happy about both Gohan and Shin walking out of the kitchen with Y/n.
Y/n had just barely made enough food to feed everyone, excluding herself. Y/n didn't have much of an appetite, and so quietly excused herself to go outside. Standing on the balcony, Y/n took a deep breath of the crisp fall air, the wind blowing through her hair as she stared up at the bright moon. The moon no longer held the hypnotizing effect it used to have on her in her previous life, so Y/n could admire the moon all she wanted now.
Y/n heard the glass door slide open, catching her attention as she looked back. She met a pair of dark eyes, Goku grinning as he approached Y/n, a plate of food in his hands. Standing before her, the tall Saiyan looked away nervously, unsure of what to say.
"I saw that you weren't eating with us. You need to stay healthy and in shape, so..." Goku pushed the plate into her hands, Y/n looking down at it in surprise. She glanced back up at Goku, who leaned against the railing, looking up at the moon. "You know, some nights, I would try to guess which star is Lord Beerus's planet. I can't sense that far, so I had no idea where you were."
Y/n stared up at Goku, guilt suddenly eating her up. She wanted to stay at his side, to be his friend, but it seemed they were constantly being split apart or having some sort of problem. It was her fault for everything; for splitting apart his marriage, his family, his age, his whole life. She ruined everything in his life, and it felt wrong for her to continue to stay around.
"Goku..." Y/n sighed deeply, staring at the plate of untouched food in her hands, unable to look him in the eyes. "I know that... I made it seem like I wanted you when we, um..."
Y/n paused, not wanting to mention when they had made love together. Goku seemed to immediately understand what she was referencing, a smile forming as he chuckled.
"You mean when we had sex?" He asked, his bluntness making Y/n blush as she nervously shook her head. Goku's smile brightened at the way Y/n's face lit up, making him lean closer. "You were amazing, Y/n. I never really got the chance to tell you, but... I've never been that happy before."
His words made it even more difficult for Y/n, her eyes beginning to water as she remembered everything Goku had done for her, all of the support he had given her. And she had ruined his life in return. Y/n swallowed thickly, squeezing her eyes shut to hide the tears that she didn't deserve to shed.
"Goku, I—" Y/n was cut off as Goku looked at her with a small smile, chuckling. He had a melancholic look in his eyes, reaching his hand to place it on top of her head.
"I know, Y/n. You don't want me, and you regret having sex with me. I know." Goku spoke. Y/n's eyes widened, her eyes burning as she held back tears. Her throat hurt as she held back all of her emotions, her heart screaming at her to tell him he was wrong. That she did want him, that she did enjoy him. But it was wrong. It was wrong for Y/n to continue pursuing Goku, Gohan, Shin, anybody. Y/n gasped, feeling as though she couldn't breathe, suddenly feeling light headed. Goku's eyes widened as Y/n stumbled, nearly dropping the plate of food as she cried.
"I'm sorry, Goku. I'm so dumb, I don't know what's wrong with me," Y/n cried, crouching down. Goku sighed, taking the plate and setting it aside. He watched Y/n cry, unsure of what to do. She sobbed as hard as she could, releasing all of her pent up emotions. Goku's eyes widened when she started pulling on her hair, dropping to his knees and grabbing her wrists.
"Stop it, Y/n! You're going to hurt yourself!" Goku exclaimed, surprised by the amount of fight Y/n was putting up as she jerked around in his grip.
"Leave me alone, Goku! Just stop talking to me! Can't you see, all I ever do is hurt you! I ruined your life and broke your heart! Why don't you hate me!?" Y/n exclaimed, tears pouring down her face. Goku had never seen her so emotionally distraught, even through all the times she had cried around him. She truly did hate herself, and he had no idea why.
"I don't hate you because you're my best friend, Y/n," Goku said, confusing Y/n. She glanced up at him with a brow raised, wondering what he meant. How could someone who was gone for over six months still be considered a best friend? Goku sighed, sitting on the ground and pulling Y/n toward him, hugging her. "I could never hate you because you helped me. You helped me with issues in my life that nobody would ever want to help with. You made me experience real emotions, something Chi-Chi could never do. You made me actually happy, Y/n. I would never hate you for making my life better."
Y/n stared up at Goku in surprise, shaking like a leaf in his arms. She wanted more than anything to wrap her arms around him and kiss him, hold him forever and pretend that they were the only two left in the world. Instead, Y/n was hyper aware of her surroundings, she knew people were aware that something was happening between the two. Her energy was giving her emotions away with how wildly it was acting, and it must've been obvious to anyone with a lick of energy sensing abilities that she was crying.
Goku didn't even need to read her mind to know exactly what she wanted, cupping her cheeks and pulling her into a kiss. Y/n immediately reciprocated, pressing her lips as hard as she could against his, scared that if she didn't, he'd pull away. Every single time she thought she could escape Goku, escape the way he made her feel, Goku would reel her right back in, make her feel like she was his everything. She thought if she ran away, eventually, things would get better, but it didn't get any better than this, being in his arms, all of her fears melting away. This was exactly what had led to them having sex, but in that moment, she didn't care.
Goku broke apart, his breath fanning her face as he leaned forward, pinning her to the ground. Y/n let out a soft whine as she brushed her hands along his waists, pulling at his clothes. Goku chuckled, his face heating up as he pressed a kiss to the tip of her nose.
"Do you really want to do it right now? I think people are waiting on you..." Goku said, reminding Y/n of Lord Beerus, who was impatiently waiting on her decision. Y/n sighed, dropping her hands from his sides.
"You're right... I'm sorry," Y/n spoke, sitting up. Goku sat up with her, grabbing her shoulders and holding her close.
"Why are you sorry? You didn't do anything wrong," Goku said. Y/n sighed, knowing he was right. She just felt bad for submitting to his advancements so easily, knowing it was a bad time. She just couldn't help herself anymore.
"I just wish I could control myself better," Y/n said, pushing herself to stand up. She dusted off her clothes, smoothing them out with a sigh. Walking toward the glass door, Y/n came to a halt as Goku grabbed her wrist. She glanced back, confused as Goku released her, chuckling nervously.
"You know, Y/n, I just want you to be happy. I don't really mind that you don't want to be with me. I guess I just missed you so much, I can't really help getting upset." Goku sighed, clearing his throat as he tried to think of how to put his thoughts into words. "What I mean is... If you want to stay, I really don't mind. I'll visit as often as I can too, that way, we can still be friends."
Y/n smiled at him, her heart swelling with happiness as she blushed. Goku was quite possibly the most emotionally confusing person she had ever met, but that just made him even more interesting. She reached for his hand, intertwining her fingers with his. She glanced up into his dark eyes, his warm smile making her heart flutter.
"I love you, Y/n," Goku suddenly said, surprising Y/n, her face lighting up. She forcefully cleared her throat, giggling nervously.
"I-I love you too, Goku..." She muttered, avoiding looking into his eyes. Goku chuckled, moving his hand from her own to her shoulder, leading her inside. As the two walked, Goku leaned down to whisper in her ear, his breath making her shiver.
"But now that I know you want me, we're going to have sex again later, Y/n," Goku spoke, his voice deeper than usual. Y/n felt her breath escape her, looking up at him like a deer in headlights. Goku chuckled at her reaction, pressing a kiss to the tip of her nose, before releasing her and going to join the others.
After that, Y/n had decided to just turn in, returning to her bedroom. Something that she noticed since coming back was the scent in her room, it constantly reminded her of Gohan. It reminded her of the fact that he had slept in her bed, lived in her room and likely even used her things sometimes. The idea of Gohan laying in her bed made her feel slightly nervous, wondering if it was okay for her to continue to stay here.
As Y/n took off her blue overcoat, the door creaked open, catching her attention as she glanced to the boy in her doorway. Gohan smiled nervously, waving as he stepped in.
"Um, Dad said you hadn't eaten anything and was upset. Are you okay? Do you need anything?" Gohan asked. Y/n was surprised at the fact that Goku had told Gohan of all people that, wondering if Goku had specifically asked Gohan to check on her. Gohan was the more emotionally understanding of the two, after all.
"I'm okay, I just didn't have much of an appetite." Y/n said with a reassuring smile, setting down her coat. Gohan chuckled, approaching her.
"I guess you didn't inherit our appetites, huh?" He joked, to which Y/n just smiled. Gohan cleared his throat, changing the subject. "So... Have you thought about what you're going to do yet? Lord Beerus was complaining earlier about how impatient he's getting. I think he's getting mad at you."
"Beerus will be fine," Y/n huffed as she placed her hands on her hips. "I'll come up with an answer tomorrow. It's late and I'm tired."
"Alright... I guess I'll go to bed too," Gohan said, walking toward his pile of blankets and pillows on the floor. Y/n still felt bad that he had to sleep on the floor now, but he insisted he was fine. The two got into their own beds, Gohan staring up at the ceiling. "Goodnight, Y/n."
"Goodnight, Gohan." Y/n said with a smile. Something as little as saying goodnight to each other made Y/n miss staying on Earth even more.
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Y/n stared up at the man pinning her down to her bed with wide eyes, her face flushed, body burning with lust, and the bite mark on her neck burning brighter than her lust as she tried to remember just how she had gotten into such a situation. Gohan panted heavily as he tried to contain his wild emotions, having missed the feeling of Y/n's body against his own, her warmth surrounding him. A familiar feeling began to stir within him, Y/n's clothes suddenly annoying him as he dug his fingers into her bed sheets, trying to hold himself back from tearing her clothes. Y/n whined as she ran her fingers over her burning neck, feeling Goku's energy flaring wildly, likely knowing something was happening. Gohan noticed her discomfort, his dark eyes staring down at her with lustful intent.
"Do you want me to replace that bite mark?" He asked, Y/n's eyes going wide as she finally realized the situation she was in.
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