"FUCK YOU YOU WHORE "
I woke up to screaming again.
I threw her blankets off and went into the bathroom.
This has been going on since i was 5.
Since my dads an alcoholic, my mother lets herself get abused by dad.
moms no better.
She abuses me to get everything out of her soul.
I started to brush my teeth and wash my face.
I got ready for the day , put on an outfit and facetimed gigi.
"Hey babe"
She said
"Hey girl.
Are you doing anything today ?"
"No actually "
"You want to go to the library together?"
"Hell yeah!
I'ii pick u up in an hour
After we can pick cam up, i'ii text her rn"
"Alr"
"Are you in ur room ?"
"Yeah why?"
"Is ur door locked?"
"Yeah ofc" i showed her my door that had almost 7 locks on it.
"Thank god"
Me,cam and gigi have been bestfriends since kindergarden.
They were the only ones i told about my family,and they know everything about me.
We have been so close since forever and no one could seperate us.
This bond was crazy,and i was so thankful for it.
When we graduated, we promised eachother to stay close after graduating too.
You would ask me,why am i still living in this house ?
I havent been ready to move yet.
Im not mentally stable to have that weigth on my shoulder about moving.
One day,very soon.
"Okay babe im gonna go get ready bye "
"Byee i'ii see you in an hourr"
I saw the groupchat messages.
Girlies
Bookgirly📚 - nae
Stupidblonde🥿 - cam
Emogirl 🎧
- gigi
Emogirl🎧
Hey my loves
Stupidblonde🥿
Hey girls whats up?
Emogirl🎧
You wanna come w us to the library ?
Stupidblonde🥿
Ofcc
Emogirl🎧
Kay i'ii pick yall up in an hour
Bookgirl📚
Slay tbh.
Emogirl🎧
We love our bookworm fr
Bookgirl📚
Shut up
Bookgirl📚
Ily too
Stupidblonde🥿
Love yall bye
Emogirl🎧
Byee
Bookgirl📚
Byeee
I loved these girls.
I never had that many friends,
I was definently the quiet girl in school.
My anxiety has grown worse and worse over the school years.
Im actually not quiet at all, but only these two knew how outgoing i actually was.
I only let myself free when i was w people that i trusted and knew very close.
I was on my phone when i heard another big yell.
"LOOK AT ME WHEN IM TALKING TO YOU "
my dad yelled.
I heard a couple bangs and then i heard my mom scream.
I heard the front door close and looked out my window.
My dad was driving out of the garage and i watched him drive away.
It hurt me. It hurt me so much.
I always asked myself why couldnt i have a normal loving family? Or what did i do to deserve this ?
I never actally figured out an answer.
There was a couple of silence and then i hear my mom stomp up the stairs.
Thats when i knew i needed to leave
Rigth this second.
I grabbed my bag and my phone and climbed out the window shutting it all the way.
I jumped down and started walking to the nearest park i could find as i called gigi.
"Hey girl u okay?"
"Yeah just could you come a little earlier? And not to my house to ### ### park please?"
"Yes babe im on my way "
"Thank you"
Gigi heard the pain in my voice.
The sacred in my voice.
She knew what happened.
She wasnt sure if her mom got to her or not,but she knew her mother was close to.
This has happened all the time,and gigi knew when something was wrong or not.
I sat down on a bench and waited for gigi w tears in my eyes.
I was having a panic attack obviously.
Gigi arrived second after and i sat shotgun in the car.
"Did she get to you ?"
" no, i climbed out the window before she could"
"Good.
Im here,nae. Your safe now."
She gave me a hug and i buried my face in her chest.
"Ur having a panic attack?"
"Yeah"
"Alr come on. "
She let go of the hug but was still holding my hand.
"Deep breaths, in and out."
She coached me thru breathing as i calmed down.
" i love you so much gigi"
"I love you too nae.
Now lets go get you more of those stupid books you read"
"Theyre not stupid!"
"Alr alr "
We picked up cam and i told her everything that happened.
"Awh girl are you okay now ?"
"Yeah, thanks guys"
We got to the library and i runned to the romance books .
"My safe place" i said when cam and gigi crowded next to me
"Hey w about us ??" Gigi said
"Sorry"
We all laughed and hugged eachother.
I dont know what i would do whitout them.
LONELYNAE
i want to be buried in a library.
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