Am I indulging in my own fantasy?
yes.
enjoy.
(FYI: ink cloak cookie is abyss monarch cookie so like)
(reminder: this starts off as a bit angsty, but it later develops into fluff.)
(EDIT: think of this like a warm up for me. I'm going to devote this day to work on oneshots because I'm behind LOL)
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"Aw C'mon Ink Cloak Cookie! Cheer up will ya?" Electric Eel Cookie exclaimed, patting the former regent on the back. Ink Cloak Cookie looked at him and scoffed a little. "No." They simply said, laying their head on their arms on the table. The two were currently in the bar. Electric Eel Cookie was trying to strike a conversation up with the cookie, but nothing was working. Not even doing something as simple as dancing. It bummed Electric Eel Cookie a little bit, but that wasn't going to stop him. Electric Eel Cookie turned to (Y/N) who was sitting on the opposite side of Ink Cloak Cookie. "What about you, (Y/N) cookie?" Electric Eel Cookie asked. "..." (Y/N) kept quiet as they stared at him. Unamused. The expression they always have on. Electric Eel Cookie pouted a bit. "You act just like my friend right there." Electric Eel Cookie said, pouting a bit as he sat on the table of the bar. "So! How was your day, Ink Cloak Cookie?" Electric Eel Cookie asked.
(-your POV-)
I looked at the two. I seemed to be excluded from their little fun. Expected. I'm sort of forgotten in Wandercrab so it wasn't a big deal to me. I got up from the stool and let my footsteps echo throughout the bar to signal that I was going to leave. I walked with purpose, unlike the others. A purpose to find a place to call my own. Or in this case, for someone to even show a little bit of acceptance towards me. "Hey! Where are you going?" Electric Eel Cookie asked, quite disappointed at my sudden 'rudeness' or whatever he calls it. I turned my head around and looked at the two. My heart couldn't help but skip a beat a little bit when I saw Ink Cloak Cookie staring back at me. "...away from the two of you. I have no reason to indulge myself in this bar." I said, opening the door. "Hey-" Electric Eel Cookie got cut off by me slamming the door. I walked away from the bar. With purpose of course. I didn't find myself indulging in such fun. Ever since my time at Sugarteara, I was abandoned by my own family, my own friends. I isolated myself from that city before I winded up missing in that city. Everyone did their best to find me, and when they did I simply pushed them away. They all called me a ray of light, a ray of hope, but I didn't buy into their antics. I know they were trying to use me.
Especially the High Regent.
Octopus Cookie.
The one who swore to protect Sugarteara.
They left without a trace.
I held my face with a hand of my own, remembering the god-awful memories flooding my brain like a waterfall. These memories were such a hassle to deal with.
-'I promise I will protect everyone. Including you.' The High Regent said, patting me on the head. I looked up at them with admiration. 'Really?' I asked. I saw the High Regent smile at me. 'Always.'-
I gritted my teeth a little.
They lied to me.
Liar liar.
I hate liars.
Especially since I was lied to so easily.
Why weren't they there to protect me?
When I was at my lowest?
Why?
-I looked around the city. A lot of people gave me weird looks. It was due to the thing I was carrying, wasn't it? A warding mask that I wear for myself? Is that why people hate me? I started to cry, but then someone lifts my chin with their hand. It was the High Regent! 'Keep your head high, no matter what.' The High Regent said, patting me on the head gently. I yet again stared at them with admiration. 'Yes! For you!' I exclaimed, looking at them with a determined look. They smirked. 'I'm glad you feel better.' They said, smiling.-
No...I didn't feel better.
Why did you assume that?
Why did you assume that?
Why did you assume that if you lied in my face?
-I felt the High Regent pull me closer to them. 'You know, you're my favorite in this land. You're my main reason as to why I stayed here for so long...I have to go do my mission, but before I do that I want to say...' I felt them plant a kiss to my forehead. I blushed, a little hint of red appearing on my face. 'I hope you're safe, my light.' They said, letting go of me. They winked at me before walking away. I stood there, frozen. Oh my god i think they like me.-
These feelings I had for you...did they lie to me?
Did they lie under my nose?
How could they do such a thing..?
-'Wait!' I said, reaching my hand towards the doors of Sugarteara. 'You're not going to leave me, right..?' I asked, staring into the High Regent's eyes. They stared at me, with...no emotion. I gasped as I took a step back. 'High Rege-' 'Don't call me that. I'm not who you remember years ago. I'm...not your savoir. I'm not your knight in shining armor like those years ago. You've grown, cookie. Learn how to act without my help.' The High Regent said, closing the doors. They left. Forever. I fell on my knees, feeling streams of tears fall from my face. Mocha Ray Cookie came up behind me and comforted me silently. I didn't do anything. I was frozen. They...lied to me. All this time they lied... How could I let them do that to me?-
I grit my teeth in rage.
How could I be so naive?
Could it be?
I know I was lied to.
The former High Regent. The one who swore to protect Sugarteara.
I will never forgive you for what you did to me.
Leaving me there.
Helpless.
All alone.
And yet, these feelings.
They keep coming back like the darkest and deepest memories that are buried at the back of your brain like a parasite. They came back to me.
After all these years.
I can not get rid of these feelings I had for the High Regent.
-I stood there at the gates of the city. A year after they left, I was now conflicted if I should leave or not. I felt Lobster Cookie approach me. I turned my head to look at Lobster Cookie. 'Rethink this at once! You can't leave!' Lobster cookie exclaimed. I stayed silent. 'Everyone hates me. They want me gone. If it's gone you want, it's gone you shall have. Now be gone. That's an order.' I said, opening the door of Sugarteara. 'Please! You're the only light we have left in Sugarteara! Without you, the light will fizzle out!' Lobster Cookie pleaded. 'Get your own light. I'm not worth your time.' I said. With that, I exited out the door of Sugarteara and slammed it shut. I despise Sugarteara. I never want to go back to it again.-
I held my mouth with my hand, feeling tears prick my face.
Your actions influenced me.
Why must I be so moved by you, High Regent?
Why do these feelings come back?
After everything you did to me.
I still long for your touch, your warmth, your...lips.
You don't even know my name, but...I guess it's my fault for not uttering my name.
Octopus cookie...
-'We found you! Please, come back!' Mocha Ray Cookie said, looking desperate as ever. I stared at them, and scoffed. 'No.' I said. 'Plea-' 'I told Lobster cookie this. I'll be happy to tell you this now. Get your own light. I don't care about that rotten city no more. You hate me. Sugarteara hates me. Let the city fall. I don't care no more.' I said, walking away from Mocha Ray Cookie. 'Please! Don't leave! You're acting like Octopus Cookie!' Mocha Ray Cookie yelled. I stopped in my tracks. I felt veins appear on my head. I was furious. 'DON'T YOU DARE COMPARE ME WITH THAT TRAITOR!!! THEY USED ME! GET A GRIP ON YOURSELF AND ACCEPT THAT I'M NOT YOUR KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR NO MORE. ACCEPT THAT I'M NOT YOUR LIGHT YOU SOUGHT OUT FOR SO LONG. I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU. GO AWAY FROM ME AT ONCE. THAT IS AN ORDER.' I yelled, looking at Mocha Ray Cookie with rage. They looked speechless, and before you knew it, they left me. Alone.-
I felt sick. Sick that I even had feelings for the former High Regent to begin with.
And yet, I can't help but to feel drawn towards them.
Why?
I found myself wandering to the center of Wandercrab, the power plant. I saw two familiar cookies.
No.
Lobster Cookie...
Mocha Ray Cookie...
I saw Lobster Cookie turn their head and their eyes widened.
"(Y/N)?" Lobster Cookie called out. Mocha Ray Cookie turned their head too and gasped. "Oh...Wait! (Y/N)! Why have you left us? Please, help us in rebuilding Sugarteara!" Mocha Ray Cookie called out. I took a step back in fear. "No! I-" I felt myself shaking. Why are they here?
"(Y/N)! Please! Sugarteara has fallen! We need you!" Lobster Cookie called out, extending the clawed hand out for me. I took another step back. "Stay away!" I shouted. "I'm not your light you want! I'm not the light! I'm not the darkness too! I can't be the light anymore! Stop! Why do you keep coming back? Stop it!" I held my hands to my head.
"Stay away from me! You're going to use me again!" I cried out, feeling tears fall from my face.
"JUST GO AWAY!" I said, turning around and running away from them.
"(Y/N)!" Lobster Cookie exclaimed, running after me. I gasped and turned a sharp left. Luckily Lobster Cookie didn't see me do that...I panted. Heavily. I wanted no part in this.
"A-AH!" I fell to my knees. Another memory? No...
NO...
NO!
-'Since Octopus Cookie has forfeited their title as High Regent, we're assigning you it, (Y/N).' The heir said. I bowed before him. He smirked and pats my shoulder with a staff. 'You will protect this very city. Do you understand?' The heir said. 'Yes. I will protect Sugarteara. To uphold the honor Octopus Cookie couldn't do. I will be in their place. I wish to see Sugarteara prosper and thrive for many years to come.' I said in a monotone voice. The heir smiled and hands me the staff. 'Then High Regent you shall get.' He said, smirking at me. 'For now on, you will devote your life to this city. No matter the consequence, you will keep this city from falling.' The heir said. 'However, failure to protect this city will result in execution of your life. Do you understand?' The heir asked. 'Yes, master. I understand fully. I will face the consequence if I don't live to your expectation.' I said, looking up at him. 'Then welcome to your new position, Regent of light.'-
Not this one...
I refuse to believe this memory is something I have!
"(Y/N)? Oh my god! What happened?" A voice called out. I dared not to think about it. Another memory flowed into my head. These memories were too much!
-I felt weak in the knees. Mentally, and physically. I never knew I could get this physical with the High Regent themselves... 'My sweet cookie. I will always...love you. Do you understand me?' Octopus cookie asked, looking into my eyes. They were being so physical. I loved it. 'Yes. I understand.' I said, pulling them closer. To think we ended up in this position. Lucky.-
I looked away in disgust. Not that memory. My...my god.
I looked at the source of the voice, and I saw Electric Eel Cookie.
"GET AWAY FROM ME! YOU'LL PROBABLY USE ME TOO LIKE WHAT THAT TRAITOR DID!" I yelled, pushing him away. I ran. I ran away from Electric Eel Cookie. I did many sharp turns to attempt to run away.
As fast as I could.
Use those legs of yours!
Run!
Why do I even stay here?
I-
I bumped into someone and fell on the ground.
I finally let myself slip into a state of unconsciousness.
The last thing I felt was someone picking me up in their arms.
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Wait...earlier...why did I feel my heart skip a beat when Ink Cloak Cookie? Could it be...no...wait...what's that light..?
I woke up. In someone's arms. I gasped for air a little bit, trying to get a hold of my breathing. Who would do something as pick me up in their arms?
I then felt a soft material under me.
A very soft material.
A bed.
Wait.
Bed?
I looked around to see who was the cause of it. And when my eyes landed on a figure, my heart skipped a beat once more.
It was...the Ink Cloak Cookie. They held me in my arms and led me here. Why? That's...why? Why did they lead me here? I was so confused. So confused too. Why would they just-
"Oh. You're awake. Hello."
My heart skipped a beat hearing that voice.
That voice sounded awfully familiar.
"Ink Cloak Cookie. Why would you save me like that?" I asked. "You fell on the ground. I would of just left you there, but...something told me to not leave you there on the ground helpless. Something...told me. I'm not sure, but...I had this urge to help you off the ground." Abyss Monarch cookie said. They walked up to me and held my face with their hand. "...You look very...familiar. Do I know you from somewhere..?" They asked. I stared into their eyes. Their eyes. A familiar hue, but it looks...different.
"Who are..." I saw them pull their hood off, and my eyes widened in shock. Wait.
WAIT.
It can't be...
"..." I fear tears well in my eyes a little bit. "It's you..." I said, my voice cracking. Their hair. Matched who I loved back then. "Octopus Cookie..." I mumbled. My hands were shaking as one of them went to hold their face too.
"Do you...remember me? You told me that I was your favorite...you called me the light. You told me to keep my head up high. You said that you will...always love me." My voice was cracking more thinking about the memories. The memories flooding my brain. It really is them.
Their eyes widened in shock too. They remembered. Everything. "...I never got your name, my...light." They said. My heart skipped a beat yet again when they called me their light. "...(Y/N) cookie...call me (Y/N).." I said. They smiled. "...Would you really love me if you found out what I did after leaving Sugarteara..? I-" They stopped themselves from speaking. They breathed in again. "You know that mission right...I had to disperse of the darkness in the pearl that kept the city alive. In doing so, I corrupted myself with the darkness. Many cookies in Sugarteara told to rid of the darkness, so that's what I did. I rid of myself. I'm sorry for saying those last words. I didn't mean it...please forgive me, my shining star..." Abyss Monarch Cookie mumbled, pulling me closer to them. They rested my head against their chest. I felt tears go down my face as I hugged them tightly. "I- I forgive you...please...I want that bond back...I want it back, Octopus cookie." I mumbled. "...I don't go by Octopus cookie no more. Have you heard of the Abyss Monarch?" They mumbled. "I have. I don't judge monsters though, as they have a heart of their own. I know they can be good. I just know of it." I said, smiling at them. "...I am the Abyss Monarch...does that change your-" I cut them off with a kiss. Their eyes widened, but they kissed me back. After a few seconds I pulled away. "No it doesn't. I love you, with all of my heart." I said, holding their hands in mine. I could feel their heart skip a beat too, but they smiled and hugged me. "...My star...I love you...please...never go...I need the light...I need it so much...I'm so lost without the light. Please...never let go...never let go of that light you have inside of you. Please...for me..." I noticed their voice becoming more shaky.
"...Don't leave me too...please...I don't want you to leave me...not in forever. I love you...I love you so much. Words can not describe how much I love you. You were special, and even when the darkness was corrupting me, you still were there for me. I...I can never ask for a better lover than you." Abyss Monarch Cookie mumbled, crying into my shoulder. I pat them on the back. "I will never leave you..." "It's Abyss Monarch Cookie." "...I will never leave you, Abyss Monarch Cookie...I will never forget you. I will keep on loving you. I will...protect you." I said, crying into their chest.
And for the night, we spent inside their home.
Cuddling with one another.
Like light and dark.
The light comforts the dark. The Dark comforts the light.
When Light and Dark clash together, it creates a symphony of beauty. A perfect melody of love flies in the air when light and dark clash. Some might think no, but to me it's perfect.
Because I found my lover. The one who swore to protect the city, is now under protection by me.
I will fight for them.
Even if it means my own life.
Because I love them so much.
I...
I will protect them with all of my heart.
Abyss Monarch Cookie...
I love you.
Forever.
I felt myself slip into a blissful dream, holding them tightly. Abyss Monarch Cookie chuckled before kissing me on the forehead.
The last thing I heard from them before they too slept with me...
"I will always love you. Forever, until the end of time..."
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"Ink Cloak Cookie! Why are you with (Y/N)?" Electric Eel Cookie questioned. Abyss Monarch Cookie chuckled as their hands wrapped around my waist. "...I found my light when the darkness consumes us all." Abyss Monarch Cookie said.
"...forever and ever..." Abyss Monarch Cookie whispered in my ear.
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I know no one will care about this but this one shot hit over 2,900 words (excluding this statement)
anyways I want to say that the other oneshots will come out soon
think of this like a warm up (plus a free one shot for you guys)
with that I bid you farewell
see you in that pure vanilla angst one! (don't worry I'm working on it it'll be done today I promise)
oh and guess what
including this note this one shot has accumulated over 3,000 words!
HOORAY!
(im suffering in AP gov please spare me)