— serious chapter warning! uh oh, tw for borderline s/h in one part but like not fully, and also some really bad verbal abuse. it's the equivalent of bad-end hanahaki angst compared to the rest of this fic lmao i promise the next chapter won't be like this —
— February 10th - 8:18 PM —
— EveryGayBeginwJ & trappedinsephor —
EveryGayBeginwJ: yo
trappedinsephor: Hello, J. Do you need something?
EveryGayBeginwJ: no
EveryGayBeginwJ: yes actually
EveryGayBeginwJ: kinda?????????
trappedinsephor: Ok. Would you care to elaborate?
EveryGayBeginwJ: just to be sure are you gossipy or no? bc like I'd tell arei but I don't think she's the right person for that. even tho she's my gf and all
trappedinsephor: I see. No, I can't say I'm the 'gossipy' type. While I cannot guarantee I'll be able to understand or help with whatever's bothering you, I can certainly listen.
EveryGayBeginwJ: ok cool. but do you ever feel like the huge gc thing is kinda problematic???? like actually really problematic. like I get that most of the time they're joking but it's too far a lot. the last conversation there was when they were making fun of ace's disorder which as much as I FUCKING DESPISE ace that's fucked up. you saw that. and arei does most of it too which honestly makes me kind of iffy about her. like it's sort of a red flag. not even sort of. I liked her but idk how to feel about it atp, I don't want the drama of a breakup but I also don't really wanna be associated with her. soooo yea. I feel like you're not the type to screenshot that and send it around like basically everyone else
trappedinsephor: In honesty, that has been bothering me too. I feel it would be impolite for me to leave, though - it's also good for important announcements and happenings, like a toaster fire, or it can be good for keeping track of people's relationships so I'm not out of the loop. The usual conversations, though, I don't exactly enjoy. It often feels like Arei, Whit, and a few others are purposely trying to make humor of others' serious situations, as much as I hate to say it about them. Whit didn't really give me that much helpful information about Ace when I asked, either - I don't think he wanted to talk about it. On a lighter note, to avoid those types of conversations, I have my notifications set to only go off when certain keywords are used.
EveryGayBeginwJ: oh huh really? how do you do that
trappedinsephor: Chat settings in top left corner, fifth row 'Notifications'. Scroll down all the way, there's a box where you can input keywords.
EveryGayBeginwJ: ohhh thanks. but back to what we were talking about before yea I agree with you 100%. I think it's more arei than whit bc whit's more, idek, politically correct ig. lmfao. and they're like problematic in other ways too, bullying / blackmail / etc isn't funny. arei's blackmail kahoot was honestly really fucking embarrassing since I'm supposed to be her gf and all
trappedinsephor: I see. Would you like to talk about it?
EveryGayBeginwJ: yea actually. see this whole time I thought I actually fucking liked her and thought she was cool to be around or whatever but as soon as we started dating and she wasn't some "off limits silly dream girl who's a little mean but it's ok bc she's been through a lot!1!!1" I started realizing that she's actually pretty shitty. which feels like nails on a fucking chalkboard to type out bc I know her and know she's not really a bitch inside, but atp I think it's too far to excuse, and if she can't figure out how to not be an asshole even with everyone deadass telling her how, it's not my problem. which in any other case would just be another way of saying "I'm breaking up with her" but the thought just..... makes me nauseous? and I have no clue why. if veronika wasn't veronika I'd ask her but she is soo you were my best bet at getting that out of my system. hate to sound cringe but you're kind of a cool friend yk?
trappedinsephor: Really? That makes me quite happy. But aside from that, I'm not sure what the best course of action would be in your case. If it were me, I think I'd let it go on until it physically couldn't get any worse. But I am aware that's probably not ideal - in which case. Well. I am unsure. Try giving her a.... water bottle? I'm sure women like... water..... sorry, I'm not the best at relationship advice. Perhaps you've misjudged me.
EveryGayBeginwJ: yea tbh definitely, but at least I could talk to someone before I spontaneously combusted. thanks ig. so if you ever feel like talking I think we're friends now soo
trappedinsephor: Noted. Have a good rest of your evening!
— February 10th - 8:36 PM —
— Unnamed Group Chat —
TwilightSucks6: MA what's for dinner
Grammarly: I don't know, it's David's turn to cook.
TwilightSucks6: Ohh my bad whoopsie. Hey gay boy #3 what's for dinner?????
David Chiem: Tonight for dinner, I will be making stroganoff.
EveryGayBeginwJ: FUCKING EW
Edeeen<3: Yay! <33333
TwilightSucks6: Aight sounds good!! I'm bored yall
BowlingGirl2102: Fun boredom ideas: kys!!!!
EveryGayBeginwJ: hey arei do u wanna chat in dms?? I'm so chill frfr rn
BowlingGirl2102: Sure bae wassupppppp
trappedinsephor: Oh, right, J. Where are you currently?
BowlingGirl2102: Why do u ask himbo 🥺
EveryGayBeginwJ: I'll answer in a min
— February 10th - 8:41 PM —
— EveryGayBeginwJ & trappedinsephor —
EveryGayBeginwJ: dorm. for safety I'm guessing?
trappedinsephor: Yes, exactly. I don't want any physical incidents to occur. Should I stand around outside or inside?
EveryGayBeginwJ: thinking rationally, arei'd probably be very confused if she saw you guarding outside, so idrc if you chill in my dorm for a bit
trappedinsephor: Alright, I will be there in a minute. Good luck with Arei.
— February 10th - 8:43 PM —
— BowlingGirl2102 & EveryGayBeginwJ —
EveryGayBeginwJ: so uh.
BowlingGirl2102: Took u long enough dummy 🙄😒
EveryGayBeginwJ: huh????
BowlingGirl2102: We've been dating for HOW LONG LMFAOO like it had to happen eventually
EveryGayBeginwJ: ok that's pessimistic but fair point. I mean you're uh, you
BowlingGirl2102: Pessimistic???? Ok debbie downer but in my defense wouldn't u wanna do this in person??
EveryGayBeginwJ: fuck ur right now I feel kinda shittier. but I'm kinda sick rn and I don't want to get u sick so
BowlingGirl2102: Awwwww ur sick?? Srsly? I wanted to play MC wit uu 🥺🥺 I loveeeeeeeee you pls get better! But anyway, on with what u were saying <3 <3
EveryGayBeginwJ: so. uh. shit. idk what to say anymore
BowlingGirl2102: Ummm I'm not really good with heartfelt expressions either. Maybe start with a "my Dearest Arei Nageishi, I have always loved you since we first met". Seems sappy enough lollll
EveryGayBeginwJ: I didn't love you *that* early on but to make this easier, I'm just gonna roll with that ig. Honestly I'm struggling HARD rn so I'll take what I can get. proper capitalization go
BowlingGirl2102: Me waiting for you to finish writing your whole-ass book like 💃🏻🕺🏻👯♀️👯♀️👩🦽👩🦽👩🦽👩❤️💋👨👩❤️💋👩👨👩👦👩👩👧👞👼🏻👵🏻🧔🏼♀️🧠💄👅🫵👱🏻♀️👩🍳👰♂️🧑🏻🎄🧞♂️
EveryGayBeginwJ: My Dearest Arei Nageishi, I have always loved you since we first met. Well, not exactly. But the format works. I loved you a lot. Even after we started dating, it still felt less like mutual love and more like some exhilarating, dramatized puppy crush on someone you don't really know. Even if I *did* know you, maybe it felt incomplete because it wasn't the other way around. Sorry, this all sounds way too poetic. I just want to be nice because I know we're both gonna feel like shit after this and it's gonna be my fault and I'm going to want to comfort you through it but I can't because you're gonna hate me so much fr this. You're never going to want to talk to me again. That's kind of why I wished there wasn't a side of my that still loved you and saw you through those stupid rose-tinted glasses, because once that happens, it's going to kick in full force and make this feel like an awful decision. Which it probably is. I'm really fucking sorry. I'm just not really comfortable dating someone who treats people like jokes and excuses all of it with their past. I'm not saying your life didn't suck. It absolutely does and I really hope you can recover from it. What I'm saying is, metaphorically, you can't use it as a wheelchair when you just need a crutch. Fuck, that is a horrible simile. I mean, you can't excuse all of your bad actions with your trauma when you're capable of doing something to change it. And the worst part I've got to say, which I'll admit, probably makes me the asshole here, is that I can't be the one to fix you. I'm not responsible for your personality, and neither is anyone else. It's your job to figure things out whenever you stop making excuses to fall behind. I'm a shit person for that. You can seriously call me whatever you want after this, treat me like scum of the earth. Whatever helps you get through this, because I am *really* sorry. You don't have to believe me on that if you don't want. But I think it's time I finally said what's on my mind and got out of this thing. Because I don't think there's enough between us to compensate for the issues outside of us. So, uh, yeah. Bye. Sorry again.
BowlingGirl2102: Oh.
EveryGayBeginwJ: Yeahh.
BowlingGirl2102: That's so poetic lolllllllll
BowlingGirl2102: .
BowlingGirl2102: I FUCKING LOVED YOU???.
[BowlingGirl2102 has blocked EveryGayBeginwJ]
~ February 10th ~ 9:01 PM ~
~ J Rosales' Dorm ~ J Rosales & Levi Fontana ~
"Shit, fuck," J swore, trembling, sitting cross-legged on her dorm bed. It was partially full of stuffed animals, and partially empty - though there were several scattered on the floor near it. J had tossed an Espeon to Levi (who was fidgeting with its ear awkwardly), and was clutching an Umbreon under her phone, herself. She haphazardly gnawed at her thumb, going for nail - but being too mad at herself to care if blood was drawn. Being reckless was one of the few things J thought might help atone for hurting Arei. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck...
"...H-hey," Levi interjected hesitantly, "um, please watch out for your thumb. It would be bad if you injured yourself." Levi was unsure of how to respond in this situation. If we hasn't careful, he might make matters worse. Do I try to provide support? Do I just sit here? Do I leave? J looked like she was fighting back tears - the least he could do was try to minimize any physical harm.
"No, it wouldn't," J snapped, before cringing at her words. She really didn't feel like being pitied right now. Levi looked like he was going to refute her, but was interrupted by two notification sounds, less than seconds apart. It was from the group chat. Shit, J thought - Levi's thoughts were about the same in that regard. Both, however, held a hint of relief for being taken out of their awkward exchange.
— February 10th - 9:06 PM —
— Unnamed Group Chat —
BowlingGirl2102: I've realllllllly wanted to do this for a long time!! But with sweet darling J around I was never able. But allow me to now girlboss harder than all of you and tell you all why you fucking suck and I hate you all!!! :) yippee!!
Edeeen<3: that's not
Edeeen<3: nevermind,,,, i told her to express her real feelings. i'm sorry u guys for what's about to happen, :<
TwilightSucks6: Did Jarei finally have a breakup?? OMG FINALLY SOMETHING REAL IS HAPPENING GUYSS
manwhore: damn really? bout damn time, they had like no chemistry whatsoever tbh
BowlingGirl2102: Starting with you, Whit! <3 <3 <3 my best friend ever right????
trappedinsephor: Arei, please stop. You're going to hurt somebody, badly. I understand you're really upset right now, but this is going to make an already-bad situation worse.
BowlingGirl2102: Shut up, Levi. You're fucking next for that ☺️
unoreversehoe: God fucking dammit can you all go without having some whole fucking thing for *2 days*??????
manwhore: ehhhh, to be fair, this gc is only 3 days old, not really enough to gather stats from that. but right now i'm a bit more worried about the fact i'm ripe to get my ass flamed. chacha why are you lurking????
theonlysaneone: to put it simply, I don't want to get involved right now.
manwhore: alright valid. if i started bawling sobbing over whatever arei is cooking rn, would you come to my dorm and cuddle with me???? 🥺
unoreversehoe: WJERE THE FUCK ARE DAVID AND XANDER???? @ David Chiem @ M.ALE.W.IFE BE HERE WHEN YOU NEED TO BE GAYASSES.
theonlysaneone: that depends on how bad it is, and what kind of cuddling you mean.
BowlingGirl2102: Whit!! WHERE THE HELL DO I EVEN FUCKING START WITH YOU. IMAGINE BEING SO UNWANTED YOUR DUMBASS DAD GOES OUT OF HIS WAY TO BE SEAS APART FROM YOU. MAYBE THAT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE A PILE OF SHIT WHO CAN'T EVEN BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYBODY. IS YOUR TALENT JUST TO MAKE UP FOR YOUR UTTER BITCHLESSNESS? BECAUSE NOBODY LOVES YOU, NEVER HAVE, NEVER WILL. YOU ALWAYS FUCK EVERYTHING UP TRYING TO BE "happy! cheery! make the world smile back!1!1" IT'S NOT EVEN WORKING. THIS PLACE IS FUCKED UP AND IF YOU CAN'T ACCEPT THAT, THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO PUT UP WITH YOUR BS EVERY DAY WILL. ALSO! IF YOUR MOTHER LOVED YOU, I'D HEAR YOU TALK ABOUT MORE THAN WHAT SHE FUCKING LOOKS LIKE AND THINGS SHE DID WHEN YOU WERE 4. IS SHE DEAD? BC I BET SHE DIED JUST TO GET AWAY FROM YOUR BS, AND IF NOT, I BET SHE WANTED TO. NOBODY EVEN LIKES YOU, SO WHY NOT FOLLOW FAMILY TRADITION?? AND BY THAT I DON'T MEAN TOUCHING UP YOUR ROOTS. :)
Edeeen<3: arei!! please stop right now
trappedinsephor: Arei, not okay. I can't even say something that properly expresses just how awful your behavior is.
TwilightSucks6: WOAHHHHH THAT'S SO COOLLLL AREI!! GIGGLING RN ISTG
BowlingGirl2102: nobody asked for your input, nor did they ask for you to exist! You're third now ronnie <3 <3
manwhore: ohh yeaa hey cha-cha? i'm not fluent in charlish but if ur whole 'that depends' thing was supposed to be a yes- now's your shot lolol
theonlysaneone: I got that. You're lucky our dorms are right across from each other.
manwhore: yea lol
Edeeen<3: i'm really sorry whit i'm with her right now, i was trying to get her to stop but she's too strong,,,,
TwilightSucks6: All the more fun! I'm thriving :)
unoreversehoe: What the fuck Arei honestly shut up no one asked you????
manwhore: whatcha typin charlie?
theonlysaneone: something. you're pretty warm for someone having a breakdown. I thought people got colder after crying somehow.
manwhore: you're warm too lol
unoreversehoe: Wow that is mind-bogglingly gay of you two, or did I miss another important relationship development ?
trappedinsephor: I was wondering that too. Don't the connotations seem a bit more than platonic?
manwhore: nope lol, you're all up to date! for now lol
theonlysaneone: Arei, what in your puny right mind made you think it was at all okay to say that to Whit? I'll have you know, Whit is plenty loved. This I can confirm, whereas in your case, I can't think of one good name. He's not a pushover, but he's not an ignorant asshole. But apparently you think he can be both? Or maybe you're just picking at straws because there's nothing you can think of that's really wrong with him. Are you losing brain cells from the blue light reflecting from your gaudy bowling-alley-screen-looking-ass outfit? Or was there nothing in that hollow skull of yours to begin with? Because apparently, you think any of what you said is justifiable, or funny, or cute. When really, everyone just despises you now. I won't tell you to go die like you told Whit, but I will tell you to stay out of anyone's sight for the next couple of days so as to not risk your neck getting snapped. Because right now, that's a real risk for you. Never say anything like that to Whit, or anyone else for that matter, again. And as a closing note, Arei, fuck you. Genuinely, wholeheartedly, get fucking lost.
TwilightSucks6: OOOOOOOOOO THIS IS SPICIER THAN THE WEIRD-ASS STROGANOFF DAVID AND XANDER MADE
unoreversehoe: Yea speaking of !!!! Someone fucking get those two or some shit @ David Chiem @ M.ALE.W.IFE
David Chiem: Pardon my language, but what the fuck is happening here? Xander and I were cleaning the kitchen.
David Chiem: Jesus fucking Christ.
[David Chiem kicked BowlingGirl2102]
M.ALE.W.IFE: woaaaaaaaa david curses??? @(・●・)@@(・●・)@
David Chiem: In very serious circumstances, yes. Otherwise, I refrain.
M.ALE.W.IFE: awooga ♡
unoreversehoe: Took you two more than long enough. Whit's crying apparently.
M.ALE.W.IFE: holy fuck really?????? @(・●・)@@(・●・)@ it won't let me change my emoticon :(((( are you ok whit?? i can try to help
theonlysaneone: I have things under control but thank you.
manwhore: yeaaaaa bbg is the man with the plan! but dw ur cash money dr phil too xander
TwilightSucks6: Cash money Dr. Phil??????? How is Dr Phil cash money, I mean he's cash and he's money but he's not cash money. yk?
manwhore: frankly i don't know lmaooooo
David Chiem: Okay, so from now on, we're going to try and avoid big drama like that when it happens. If anything bad does occur, ignore it and tell either me, Xander, or Eden. If we don't respond online, find us in-person. Got that?
manwhore: if you were xander i'd say aye aye captain but ur not so i don't have a funny pun
Edeeen<3: huh? why me?-
[David Chiem gave Edeeen<3 moderator permissions]
David Chiem: You're more responsible than most other people here.
unoreversehoe: bitch
Edeeen<3: ooh thankies! :33
theonlysaneone: what is that supposed to mean?
manwhore: maybe it means ur gay
theonlysaneone: maybe, but so are all three of them.
M.ALE.W.IFE: gayer than gay even UwU
trappedinsephor: I won't try to contradict you, however I am a bit offended.
TwilightSucks6: Haha yea I'm not trustworthy lmaooohrhhfhrhchecgeh
— i'm sorry this chapter exists in the way that it does lmfao —